Dare to fly.

Yesterday I had one of my few best training ever.
Nearly 14 hours of training, slacking, having fun, improving, filming, gaining knowledge, exploration and realization. It was all well worth for the scolding that I recieved when I reached home at 1am.

Firstly, a disappointment that many people couldn't come thus the failure to make the planned "Tampines Joy" video, but we filmed quite alot for Murdok's project. Went to Shino and Dino to train and film, slack and have fun.
And theres something I've achieved yesterday, my SDC to precision and Shino's Ramp. The feeling was awesome, but it lasted a while, still I'm happy that I nailed it, kinda overshot it. I'm aiming to balance upon landing, something I should work on next time. It needs alot of effort to do that but now I'm convinced that I'm able to do the SDC to precision over there.

Whats so cool about that is now I learnt something. Something that looks impossible to you, something very scary and dangerous, something which seems very difficult, is actually possible. You'll never know until you've tried. Yes, its dangerous and I can injure myself if I bail, but doesn't mean that you couldn't afford to bail it, you shouldn't do it. There are always room for improvement, always room for pushing your limits, always room for new challenges. If you always have this fear of bailing, overcome it, at your own pace. Pushing your limits too far and too fast is not good, but pushing your limits in a comfortable and safe pace is always good. I remember the first time I heard of this SDC to Precision done by the pioneers before, I thought that these are really impossible, but now, I've done them.

So after Shino's ramp, we went to Sengkang, to film and train more. Nothing much though, just found out stuffs that I would be filming for my sampler. Then we went to compasspoint and slack and eat, then to Library for the interview, and I bought my new bag for Parkour, and I will be training while carrying it. I bought the pull-up bar too, but I have troubles drilling it into the door. Thanks to my lame father.
Just don't know why nowadays parents or more specifically my father thinks that he is always correct, but he doesn't know what others are doing. I did this DIY weighted backpack and he is against the idea. Yeah yeah its government property and I'm stealing it but who cares no one saw, so keep quiet. And there isnt any other better bag, and he is saying that I'm wasting a good bag for that, stupid old fashioned asshole. Then he thinks that the pullup bar idea is stupid, waste my money buying that, say want to exercise go downstairs, Arghh, I just can't stand him (or this type of people). So retarded.

Then I went to city, and everything is wet, and slippery, and it rained. But there is this super grippy wall that if its raining and wet, its still grippy like normal walls when its not wet, so we trained in the rain for awhile, oh and before that, we went to an indoor spot and trained armjump over a gap of water. But we pulled up our long pants and took of our shoes and socks. So its not really a test of jumping over the water. Because even if we touched the water, it wouldn't be that bad. This lead me to think, you cannot test the stability, the grip, the support and the such of something, would you risk to try? Like in Blane's new video, where him and Thomas did an armjump and precision respectively onto a tree over a river. Cool stuffs, inspiring too. And knowing that if you bailed, failed, missed or whatever, you be wet.

Just more exploration and slacking around before heading back to Sengkang and meet Ashton to go to the new "legendary" hotspot at Buangkok. It was a whole new experience, firstly it was scary to infiltrate construction areas, and its at night, and then the places are mostly high elements. So the third thing I've learnt today, and the most interesting one is: Things you can do in ground level is totally different thing at heights. One difference is safety first. Because everything you do in high elements is, a misstep, a accidental mistake, a stupid bail will lead to death. There is no attempt, no trying, no chances, once you are in the air, nothing could be change, its either you land, or you die. This is where you skills really REALLY really is put into good use.
You might think that, why risk yourself in such dangerous situations? Why do you ever want to hang yourself on an edge of an 5-storey building? For me, yes its unnecessary risk, because normal human beings won't do such things, and even doing Parkour is unnecessary risk because its very normal to get (minor) injuries when you do them, more then a normal guy will. BUT, firstly it tests your confidence, it trains your mind in such situations, to overcome your fear, etc. Secondly, it put your skills into good use, because whatever you can do on ground level, doesn't mean you can do it at heights. Thirdly, you are trusting your body to save yourself from death, because you are hanging on a bar above a seemingly bottomless pit. Fourth, it prepares you when you need to escape at somewhere high. And the feeling of achieving it is way higher then normal stuffs you do.
Its mostly more of mind training and overcoming fear, but of course never do this often because there is no room for any mistakes.

Sadly, the rooftop is locked, hopefully next time we will find a way up there. I didn't dare to climb up to the second storey of the building, because that the scaffolding its very unstable and its very scary, I'm not prepared yet. Now I realize the importance to be able to move at heights and I should be back to do more high elements at castle again, but that is totally different from the one at Buangkok. I need to start training my mind more often, doing stuffs like this, focusing, viualizing, clearing your mind, be aware.

Its a really good experience.

Now back to my normal weekly training log.
Just now because I came back from buying stuffs for my mother, I trained muscleups. And I did a lame lache, and a bailed, fell and injured my tailbone. Lucky its nothing bad, but I don't know what I was thinking and doing. First the lache had a bad jerk, secondly and slipped off and flew.. and landed tailbone-first. How stupid, back to my own ways. I think I'm really stupid. Sigh, why am I so stubborn. I really can't stop repeating and regretting stuffs. Don't know when will I stop.

And now I want to make a list of goals to achieve and to work for. I want to conquer more of Dino and Shino, the whole of Tampines, and then to other parts of Singapore, and then conquer the whole of Singapore. I will take years, but I will be patient. Once I've achieved Dino's wall, it will be my best achievement, I guess, and I need work more on my rolls, and balance, and precisions. I've never been progressing in precisions. I always wanted to get the running armjump at castle. Need to start working on that. My muscle up need alot of work, I have successfully been able to do muscleups, but I need to keep working on it, till I'm satisfied.

I will start training more and more alone, to start training my mind and abilities. And start training more in strength, more weighted pullups. Train and practice on rolls, balance, laches, muscleups, precisions, control.

Sorry if you read stuffs repeating over and over again, like wanting to get something and only talking but not doing. Oh wait, you shouldn't be reading this anyway, its for me to rant and let it all out.

Watch out for my sampler.

UPDATE:
Decided to edit my post, more stuffs to be said, don't want to make a new post.

Suddenly today I realize that I'm more and more competitive. I suddenly want to be better then others, want to be able to do what others can, want to match up to others, but I really remember whats the spirit of parkour supposed to be. Anti-competition, anti-commercialism, anti-comparison. No rushing, no wanting to be better then others. No more stupid stuffs. Progress at a comfortable rate.

And another thing. Todays training is full of impact and a few bails. Sprained ankle (healed), a cut on my palm, a few uncontrolled laches, few cuts on my finger, big drops. Hais, seriously back to my old ways. I better stop doing things like that. More mind training.

And my muscleups and endurance are getting better.

Bye.