Another 365 Days Around The Earth.

This year's birthday was a memorable one.
It is only around this year where my heart and mind was passionate to movements. I know this is my true passion and my way of living. Only then I felt I've found a missing jigsaw piece in my life puzzle, only then I felt that theres something to live for. It was just this time of my life where I have gotten to know some friends that I will never find in school or anywhere else. Traceurs do have a special bonding. I felt that my best friends ain't that one I find in my own class, not even in school, but some guys that I've met through the internet. Not just any net-pal, but guys that share the same interests with me. We might not know each other much yet but already there is a bond.

Previous birthdays was hardly celebrated. The most go out with family, I don't remember really celebrated with friends. See what I mean, no birthdays stands out. This year's one is different. Celebrated it with people doing the thing that we love. Even made a video out of it, with so much humour and fun throughout that day. Was a pity some guys couldn't make it, but nevermind. Thanks for everyone that came, felt it was really memorable, finally I can say I've enjoyed my birthday.

Thats bloody emotional. So not me.

OK lets talk about something else.
Missed a day of training today due to feel kinda tired from yesterday's jam. I know if I went I can't pull off my 100% (which is needed because its a Monday, probably the most tiring of the other 3 days of week (of training)). Everything will be shifted one day back, guess it will still be cool. 9 more trainings left, before I can kinda relax from strength training. Sometimes I have no motivation to go for those trainings but I know I have to because its for my own good. I have to force myself to go (shouldn't be the case as I should have the natural motivation to train), but once this 3 weeks are over (the MOST torturous weeks, all attempts around max), I can finally feel free from the crutches of hell. Seriously thats how it feels. Although strength training is bloody fun, squatting and all, they are tiring and torturous. I wonder how much will I gain from this. I will see the full results around December, and will continue my next routine after 2 or 3 weeks of break (from proper strength training). I will still gym, just deloading my lifts and lessen my body stress, and train more on movements.

I plan to train movements properly now. You know repetition is the key to everything so, I guess I want to nail some stuffs repeatedly in trainings. I want to nail 3rd bench SDC2P at Dino properly and constantly, get used to it, and the level SDC2P at Shinos one too. I think I'm drilling too much on SDC though, as they are my favourite movements (thus I'm kinda skilled in them), and my other movements are sucky. I wanna drill more on precisions (especially running precisions), arm jumps (especially running armjumps), wallpasses, runs, lache, and all the other stuffs. Flips as well, I kinda lost them, was trying them a few days ago and IT WAS SUCKY. So much work to do during the holidays. Have to make sure I respect my body and not overtrain and stress my body too much, or do any impactful shit, and I will want to have controlled, powerful, strong, and fluid movements.

Lazy to write more..

Still not sure whether I want to find a job, still not sure whether I could.
School's a bore, isn't really 'holiday' yet, until 3rd Nov.

Some random other thoughts (written a few days ago)
I always aim to be original, trying to find my own ways and style. I like to be the first guy who land a certain something, for example I think I nailed the Shino's SDC to precision first. Because it shows that I don't need a person to nail that to deem it as 'possible'. I wanna prove it myself. Thing is. After nailing the move, many people will take that as an aim, well to someone 'it makes it so much more possible' after seeing a person (for his case, a person like me), in other words, people will copy my movements. I admit I definitely had copied other traceur's movements and etc., but still its always better to try to find your own ways. Also, to me I sometimes see copying as something competitive. Its like trying to do what others can. Guess many people will think what is wrong copying a movement? Competitiveness. I'm not saying its totally bad, but everyone should once in awhile discover their own movements, and not copy everything blindly.. and obviously know why they choose to copy such a movement.

Next, nowadays I get pretty fucked up that Parkour has got so mainstream, don't have the underground feeling anymore. Thats so retarded and gay. Now everyone will jump around and calling it Parkour. Its so fucking lame. Media is so gonna fuck it up, and when people like us do stuffs like that at the streets, typical teenagers will go "WAH PARKOUR AH," "what he doing, PARKOUR AH?", "ask him do frontflip LEH!". This is sooooooooooo typical. And the adults will go "DON'T DO ALL THIS DANGEROUS STUFFS AND RISK YOURSELF!", and some people will just give you the face that shows "this kid got nothing better to do". Seen enough, but still piss me off everytime. So fucking hate those assholes.

Another thing. I wonder why flips appeal to people so much. Well sure its nothing wrong with learning flips. But why everyone wants to do them so much? I'll tell you my honest reasons. I don't train parkour, or tricking. I do l'art du displacement, or just movements. I want to have complete control and awareness over my body, including flips. I want to learn how to control my body. Its the same reason why I do SDC, Armjump, etc., flips are the same - movements. And they are fun. Its nothing about the cool factor. Also overcoming the mental barrier in flips, to be confident with myself.

That's all for today.