Long time since I've blogged!

Not really.
I should have alot of things to blog about, but my memory span is limited, so I forgetten alot of things. And I have been pretty busy nowadays, school work taking up much of the load, but all these are pretty much excuses as I still got time to waste time on the computer.

Instead of rambling the nonsensical stuffs, time to pour my mind out.
First things first, the jam with the UK traceurs. Was crazy. Got plenty of clips of them but none of PKSG, except for me and one or two of the others, so it kinda sucked. Still havent got my computer settled yet, so now editings can't be done. Or the video would be out already, I guess. Trainings was good, all I can see that is they fear very little, meaning they have incredible confidence for each and every movement they do. They save themselves very well and although pushes their limit alot, their body is still in full control.

Things to be noted :
- As Pahcall is actually much more of a mental discipline, than a physical one, one should focus alot more on the mental side. Not just to philosophical side, but the mental side of movements, that is high elements, instincts, fear, pushing one limits (within one's control still), confidence, knowing your limits well, getting each movements in the first attempt/giving your all in each attempt, and anticipating falls (thus less fear). Again, I trying to stick to the getting one thing new at least each time you train, and you expose yourself to stuffs that you [are scared of/never tried/don't like].

- Speaking of mind and the like, I don't think my mind is that trained yet, philosophically. For instance, I stumbled when being asked the question of 'why do I do this'. I still can't properly decipher my thoughts. Freedom is overly general. I know what I'm doing is right, at least in my mind, but the translation from thoughts to words or speech is harder than I thought. Not too sure, but I do need some ponderings on this issue.

- The UK mentioned about the over backpatting and clapping and cheering after something nailed something huge/new/scary, and about it being a put off and a negative thing, quite contrary to our community's beliefs. True that from our PKSG videos, there's the hype and all with the screams and claps, but it subconsciously create a unnecessary hype and difficulty across the move that the person just did. It isn't very much huge, but because of the fact that we see Anan/Neil/Alex/Shaun did it, means its of a high standard, and we dare not try it because it might seem we are no way near their standard. This is a close sign to competition, but again subconsciously. And it might also trigger a person's thought to want to do the same thing, but just for the claps and cheers. Congratulating a person is good, but we shouldn't overdo it.

- Our communities lacked the mental factor of the discipline. Most of the guys only do it for the sake of doing it, and lack the knowledge of why they actually do it. They might say to others that they know, but how much do they truly understand this art is beknown only to them. We all should place higher emphasis on the spiritual side, not just physical.

- And we don't seem to interact much with the UK traceurs, probably unopened or shy, but they did mentioned we are taking things too seriously, and we should be less tensed up and just be all jovial and have fun in our trainings.

Enough of that. Was hell of a week I can assure you, nailing a couple of stuffs in Buangkok and Bishan, and even in castle. Mostly about SDCs. And high elements precisions and catleap at Buangkok. I'm quite happy with the control of my fear now. But I have to control it so it would not reckless.

Haven't been training much this week, but still have been through abit. At least being told about stuffs from my friends about my foul points. Maybe its true, I lack general awareness and knowledge, and not exposing myself to new things. But other then that are all false analogy. Don't know why, this week havent felt so fulfilling. Don't see much achievements from this week. Just coming back from school and studying for the upcoming tests, and doing homework. And then waste plenty more time on the computer. Its just felt really mundane and all, trainings are have been so-so. Today I nailed a huge 7.5 of my foot SDC2lp, but just once, so it doesnt really count. I shall try it again another day. And I should vary my movement more, not just SDC.

Moodless it is. It seems to be as if direction lost its track. Should look forward to a better week next week.