I just came back from the last day of my routine, felt really damn good. Actually I took this day like really, really preparing for like a competition kind of thing, but not really to the extent. But I did way more psyching up and proper stuffs to get you ready for your maximum lifts, and it sure did pull off well. Ok, squats was awesome, it was definitely my max of lifts, really used alot of effort into that. Was really happy to end up with a new PR, and end this cycle happily. Benchpress sucks, ok, I did manage to pull like 2 reps of 50kg, but then the 3rd rep slipped up, but I don't really care because I don't like benchpresses much. Pullups are awesome again, which is the really 2nd favourite lift in this routine, or rather, the 2nd most important lift for me.
Definitely this workout made me way more stronger and powerful, which improved my squats by 6kg for 5 reps, learnt way more about strength training, acclimated to the conditions, jumps gotten higher and further, muscleups are easy as fuck. Also I think my discipline towards this is really good, I only skipped once due to being really tired the day after my birthday jam, a sacriface I'm willing to make. On that day I would really need to push myself so if I'm going down with half of fitness I probably can't perform well. But overall I did still went for the trainings, making sure I stick to it, so I'm really happy. These are things you would need in order to get achievements you want.
Current personal records
Full back Squats of 76KG (5 reps)
Weighted Pullups of 21KG (5 reps)
Bench Press of 48KG (5 reps)
Deadlift of 66KG (5 reps) - honestly I don't really bother doing this much thats why the gap.
Standing Press of 35KG (5 reps) - yeah don't train this either.
Oh yeah when I took out my camera, some guys over there was asking me why do I take videos, in a sarcastic tone. Well the other guys were talking to themselves in malay and said the word "youtube" and they burst out laughing. Its really funny though how they laugh to ourselves, either thinking we're weak, or wanting to showoff, when they are the ones who are weak, and training for big bulky muscle to attract girls. Firstly whats wrong of just taking some clips of my personal achievement? Its not like I wanna post it in the net and show off my squats. Its just stupid. But ah, fuck it, I shouldn't care.
I really doubt this is my maximum, I mean, maybe, just maybe I could go for more but I decided to take a break now, because I've been constantly increasing workload week by week and fatigue is really building up, so I need to take time out as well. Also since now its the holidays, I would probably want to train more so as to keep up with the time. After deloading I'll probably do some proper training for strength so that I don't get rusty when it comes to next year, and of course training movements, which I'm gonna think of what I should focus on training for this period of time.
My goals for next year is to get a 5 reps full back squats of 2x my bodyweight (which would be 100kg ++). I really hope I could, since next year I would really focus alot on my strength. I would also train hard for an OAC, so I hope I could be able to do Planche en Force before the end of this year. I just hope I don't gain too much mass or something in the next year. I really need to finish my puberty soon, in fact it hasn't even reached the halfway point, damn it I do lack growth hormones. I need to grow!
Anyway, of course all this goal is just for next year. But for life, I would really want to be able to squat 3 plates one day, which is 140kg, and being able to pullup with my own bodyweight added.
After reviewing the jumps that I wanted to do, it seems like really, many things aren't that easy as you think. Yeah for sure my legs have increased power, but that doesn't mean I can nail all the big stuffs I used to be unable to. I think I'm too complacent. Just because I've improved, doesn't mean that I can nail the stuffs that I couldn't in the past. Things are way harder then it seems, almost always, but definitely in whatever circumstances, everything is possible.
I guess the thing I want to do in the future and during the holidays, is not all the big jump stuffs. They will be improved with strength training alone. Heres what I think I will be doing. Generally alot of more technical stuffs, meaning its not about strength or power, but rather of confidence and technique. Things like flips, reverse vault for distance, 360 precision/catleap. I'll try precision jumps, but usually to a higher obstacle, its way lighter in terms of impacts, and I want to get used to the "JUMP UP NOT FORWARD, GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!" shit. I want to get used to different kinds of vaults. Train more runs. Out of everything, the most important one is to just keep everything low impact, and drill severely, but try to keep movements training at most 1hr 30minutes, or spreaded out alittle longer, but don't overtrain your body lest you kill your knees and ankles.
Just a conversation with Nazir just now had already changed my thoughts on how I see posers mostly and my thinking in a whole. Well few questions, if theres newcomers, would you train in front of them? How would you feel if they suck up to you? How would you react to newcomers saying 'WOAH' (like Zhiyang) everytime when you do 'big' stuffs? People copying you? Those kind of questions. What he said actually does make sense.
Firstly, whats wrong with training in front of newcomers? My initial thoughts are that, they will want to copy you, and they will irritate you and shit. Now, actually whats the point of letting a bunch of posers, or in fact any people, get into your way of training. Just do what you want to, and there's no need to care about what they say or think about you. About copying, it is true that everyone does copy from each other. Just look at the videos, how many people are doing the same thing, sdc to pre, sdc to pre, all the same. Nazir said was true, those were just goals. Just look at how many people aiming to do the nazir's wall, SDC2P at dinos, all the stuffs. There isn't a rule that say its wrong to copy others, theyre just goals to nail for, to test progression. I was too sensitive, but yeah I still think we should take some time out and think of new ways to move and not be too close minded and copy ALL THE TIME. Yeah and I shouldn't be all worked up if anyone would copy me. No point.
Was also chatting about when kids wants to be like you, and suck up to you and all that. Oh, so just a few words they say will affect your whole training and thoughts? There's no point dreading over it. Just really, heck care. What really matters is yourself, the reason you are training, no one should affect you. You just have to be yourself.
I wonder if you guys actually really thought of what you're doing. Everyone definitely have their own way of training, own reason, own style. Just wondering at all, if you guys take this seriously. Do you guys actually thought of the reason why you train? OH WAIT, I KNOW, self-improvement, so you can use it in an escape, to be more active more stronger, overcome my mental barriers. I'm so bored of such generic reasons of training. I will want to share my thoughts, BUT NAH, you guys will probably copy and paste what I said and say "yeah yeah me too!". You know sometimes the real reason why I chose to be original sometimes and not always blindly copy other is that, you will need as a person yourself to think about your reasoning, your way of training, the direction you're heading. You know, without philosophy, action HAVE NO MEANING. I want to really think the real purpose of my training, and really see why I am doing all this, what do I want to gain. But then again, as long as I know myself, and have a clear conscience, I'm all set.
Ah, I really don't know what to say now.
I guess now as my 10 week routine is totally well done and over, time to start training movement for the remaing 6weeks +/- of the year, to do some unfinished business. I'm gonna start filming soon. Gonna really plan on each training, and deloading, and what I'm gonna do in the gym in december. I don't wanna waste anymore time now, have to take the full advantage of time I have, training at night if I have to.
Yeah fuck I don't feel like talking so much, actions speak louder then words.
BTW go watch my new video on denester1 profile!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Another rant.
Alright, 4 more sessions to go, about 9 days to go. I can't wait to start training proper movement training. School has ended yesterday, so much more time to relax right now and take everything slowly. Right now since I have the time, I must put them into good use. I think its gonna be time to plan my trainings, and my deloading for strength training, and what will I do in the gym during December.
Yesterday I went to train with Dblucy, actually ain't supposed to but since I got time I just wanna kind of de-stress myself. In the end as usual, trained alot more then I should. My knee isn't fully healed thats for sure, thats why I shouldn't do too much. Just yesterday made me realize the gains I had from my routine and how effective squats is. I feel so much progress in my leg power and I can feel that the stuffs I use to be able to do are bloody easy now, and I can jump further right now, including nailing some really cool new stuffs. But then I shouldn't continue pushing the limits, but rather strive to 'perfect' the easier ones. I feel that my precisions really improved in terms of landing it nicely, and I've felt that I jump up more (instead of jumping too much forward) right now, but still think that it could be better. Wallpasses on the other hand are terrible. First is the height that I'm getting, and secondly is how I couldn't connect the grabbing the edge part with the climbup. I wanna work on my climbups particularly after wallpasses and also when my legs are low.
So much improvements in my jumps right now I feel that I can crane that shit soon at Sengkang. I wanna drill my basics or movements that I'm comfortable with now and not continue doing big stuffs. Also incorporate more runs into my training regimen. What I felt yesterday was something kind of like.. enlightenment. It really tells me that you can do anything you want if you really want to. The few stuffs I did there was what I used to tell myself and others that "I will do that one day", or some random stuffs I would think is 'impossible' or 'too hard' in the past, if I even thought of a possibility of doing things. The spot castle holds a some memories. It was the very first spot I train at, and also one of the most frequent spot I train in, until now I find that place one of the best places to ever train at. I haven't really got bored of it. I can tell I know castle pretty damn well, because everytime after school I will past by there and do a few moves, went to train there at night at several occasions, the time with my poser friends, the time with Wesley and friends, castle is still one of the best spot in Singapore. Don't get why people don't like that place. You can train everything over there.
Boreded. My mother as usual continue taking my POCKET MONEY now. Look at the extent she had gone to. I almost couldn't go to gym today but luckily had some spare cash. She is really too much and I made it well bloody clear if she even dare to think of taking my bursary, I'm sure to do something. I really cannot stand it already. Its all my money and none of hers. I seriously don't know what to say already. If you were me you confirm also cannot stand it.
Sometimes people can be so bloody unreasonable. I still remember about months back, when teachers are bloody unreasonable. Firstly, I merely bounced the ball in class and the teacher was fucking not happy, blah and blah then she wanna confiscate it. So be it, she go take herself lah. Then she kept warning me to give her the ball. Fuck if she want the ball take herself sia. And for that she decided to give me the pink form. LAME SIA. Oh, and there was another reason to it. I was doing the science homework, in her chinese (OH FUCK I HATE CHINESE) lesson because I have nothing else to do. I've already copied whatever shit that will not affect my results in my chinese exam at all. So I wanted to do my own homework which I need to passup on that day. She go confiscate it. You tell me whether it is correct or not. All this is on the same day, so I got really pissed, so I just bloody took back the homework from the table right after the lesson. She demanded me to return her but I just can't be bothered. The next few days (NOTE, ABOUT A WEEK LATER) she gave me the pink form. Bloody unreasonable sia. She say bouncing the ball affected my classmates. LOL, its not even making much noise, she is just too sensitive. Secondly she said when I copied my work finished, I can still read through my notes.. LIKE I EVEN CARE. SAD SIA. But of course given her attitude and obesity, and biasness and being so bloody unreasonable, I just bloody hell sign the pink form to make her happy, although she fail in life.
People like this are so darn bloody unreasonable, sad sia to have this people even passing through your life. Oh I forget to mention, right after that, I pretended to be ok with her, talk to her ask her question.. just on one very day, she was saying about "If I had a kid that will behave like Jonathan, blah blah" (jonathan is my classmate), then I jokingly said "Teacher don't worry, you won't have a kid." After she heard me, SHE GOT FUCKING ANGRY, and said stuffs like you want a second pink form, and all this kind of stupid stuff. FIRST, it was a joke but she took it so seriously. Maybe because the joke, is actually a fact, and also I hit the nail on the head, she probably is infertile or something. SECONDLY, everyone like to make jokes at her expense but she took it as a joke, but for me, she didnt. FUCK. THAT IS FUCKING UNFAIR. From then on I just fucking gave her attitude, ponteng her lessons, and sleep at her lessons. I REALLY CANT FUCKING BOTHER SIA, chinese already suck, and with a teacher like that, HOW WORSE CAN IT GET?
Oh I forget to mention, she complained to my form teacher (who is also retarded) about the stuffs I did, and because of that, my form teacher got a bad impression of me. And do you know what, when I was returning me the report book, he told me "You can get to the top 5 in level, or even top 3, but it is not because of your studies, but because of the bad side of you," I gave the "yeah yeah blah", because seriously sia, because of those few shits... he actually thought that it affected my studies. Lame sia..
Irritating sia. The reason why I bought up this topic is just recently, theres so unreasonable people in my house.. I mean seriously. Whats wrong with people lah. My mother is already one of them, unreasonably taking my money. Then my sister is so fucking selfish, she wants everything her way, and when she flares up everyone must accomodate to her likings. Like most people do anyway. Then my father usually the most cocky one, he's like one of the people in my life that I acted to be OK with but actually I hate him like fuck. For ALOT (fuck at least 20) of GOOD reasons. Its quite sad lah, to have 3 pain in the ass people in my house. I should include another one which is my brother, who now I dont even talk to him at all, since last time, about 6 months ago. That makes it 4 out of 5 people in my family (the other person is me of course). I don't know why though, when people say you are stupid (zhiyang), unreasonable and unfair (the chinese teacher (hey I really said that to her face and she gave like 1000 excuses to prove me wrong, crazy sia)), selfish (sister), and blah blah, THEY ARE REFUSE TO ADMIT IT, AND LIKE FELT SO INSULTED BY IT. I mean seriously man, its some BLOODY FACT and yet they can't face it. Irritating as fuck, really.
I digressed a bit too much. I find blogging the best way to rant down all your emotions and stuffs, although it is just about temporary. It really doesn't matter if no one reads it at all (because probably half of them couldn't relate to you as much), it does help. I guess I want to write more post about those kind of things, something similar to Frank Yang, that writes his thought about a topic.
Where was I.. oh yeah.
I wanted to also say something about the newcomers. Well just yesterday (again), I was at castle, and at castle there was two guys. They seem to also know "pahcour" and I did see them do something, but when we came, they just watch only, which is irritating, but no choice. Well... the thing is, they actually already know me. I didn't know, I thought they were just some losers that saw it on youtube or TV then just try out for fun.. just didnt have a clue about it at all. Thing is, when I came home and about an hour later I saw a new comment in my youtube profile (denester). SHOCKINGLY, THEY FUCKING KNOW ME. Which scared the shit out of my life. Damn. First thing I felt was like, WTF MAN, am I that famous? Well in this case its nothing to be happy off, because well, I don't really want to be well known to those irritating poser or shit, if some media thing that will OK, but still I PREFER to get the attention of the people in UK.
Ok thats not the point. The reason why I felt like very irritated to know that they are actually real posers and stuffs is like, from experience (people like yuanhan, irritating stupid people like him), if I do those big stuffs, the posers will go like "WOW!! WAHHH!!" like Zhiyang and sometimes it feels irritating, when it comes from the posers. Sure if people did a big jump of what is does look impressive, but the natural thought that comes to my mind when people (especially posers or other retarded people) say WAH is that they are really poser-ish and stupid. Don't know if its just me though. Secondly, is that they will go "WAH TODAY I MET CP AND I SAW HIM DID THIS JUMP, THIS ONE, THAT ONE, THIS AND THAT AND THIS AND THAT!" and their friends will go "WAHHHHHHH!! I DON'T BELIEVE!! SIAOO!!" all those kind of poserish crap. The thing is, if no one thought of seeing a person do a move, they will either wont think of it, or will think of it but never think of doing it as its 'impossible'. But once they have seen a person, especially if that guy is "PRO" (FUCK I HATE THAT WORD), they will go wow first, then they will think it is so much more possible and will want to try that out next time, as their target or motivation. Irritating sia.
I've already realize this and I want to be original, and I don't see why must people keep following other people movement, and not find their own way. I just want to be able to do what I want to do, and find my own way. Its kinda stupid don't you think, to just copying everyone movement. Also thats another reason why I fear training with newcomers or just people I don't know or don't really like to be with. They will either ask you to do stuffs like "EHH CP CAN SHOW ME HOW YOU DO THIS LEH" and obviously go "WAHHHHHHHHHHH!" like Zhiyang always do again. Irritaing sia the feeling. I know of people who actually memorised everything in my video. Crazy sia.. I make videos not for the poser to watch and tell me to do again, but to at least try to get across in the UK, to spark some attention over there. I've been supporting and following the UK parkour scene for a long time already, and it will be a dream to train with Teghead, PhillyD and Ilabaca. Sadly things get all so wrong.
Thats why for the Bishan jam, I keep in mind (and warned some others as well) to not do too much and don't do anything big, because of the reasons stated. Sometimes if you do a big stuff, then newcomer will actually try it out and undoubtedly fail in that case. I will just teach when I need to, train abit when I need to, and film most of the time. Its like that.. you can stop them. But then there might still be a chance to find out a hidden potential traceur... but its a rare chance.
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Poser, what defines a poser? Sure Dblucy, me, and probably half of everyone started out like a total poser. To me, theres a slight difference between one that has potential, and one that obviously does it for the thrill. First, I think if they have the genuine passion and heart to the sport, as in the neverending willingness and inquisitiveness to ask questions and experiment with things, read out the philosophy and train by themselves and condition and all that. They will find their own motivation, and develop oneself.
The reason why I feel so irked to train with the LastBreathClan, or watch backpacktraceurs' video and hear that engineer's self-proclaimed 153 IQ's calculations is that, I've learnt my lesson, thanks to the very first newcomer that I trained with. He is none other than Yuanhan and the undisputed world's worst poser of all time (that is because he has all the qualities a fucking retarded poser will have, and more). I don't see why should I waste my precious time on those names stated above as in the end all those people who call you out to train, is just wanna see the big guys do big stuffs, and in turn sucking up to them, keep asking them to train with you and irritate you further, take advantage of you (I know Yuanhan had learnt alot from me, but fuck it, all of it has gone to waste thanks to his freaking retarded mindset and attitude), and just plainly wasting your time. You guys say it is definitely worth it to help them up as after all you are one of the posers that more or less is brought up by the other traceurs. Sure, but theres an easier way. Set up occasional big jams like in every 2 or 3 months, and from there spot out any potential ones, and call them down for a jam or something.
If I received any guys asking me questions in youtube or anywhere else, adding me to msn randomly, I might just help out, but then until a point where they got too much on my nerve then I give up. Or I can just choose an easier way out, just don't really care much, thats right, I think I will just don't care much.
Thats my point of view.
Now then I understand why Nazir choose to not go for jams like this, and not make videos of him, not to be easily contacted, or call to many people to come for his training, only his close friends. Also I understand why he wants to treat this people coldly, because he knows that if he instil fear among those newcomers, they will be scared and won't want to train with him (which could be good), and also if they come and he yell and them, those people who are angry with him are probably those people who don't have the spirit to train. I don't think his insults are totally personal unless the guy did something to him or what, and most of the time he is joking. That is why, I think he is very smart in handling such things. Also, the clips that he post in his accounts is how he set the standard so high, especially the Nazir wall, which I think to some guys still think its impossible.
Got nothing to say about this people. I really don't want to train with newcomers, or if its a big jam something like this than I won't train too much infront of them. I just wanna train with people that I'm close with and such. Learnt my lesson already. Then again, I won't want to not make videos just because of this stupid people. I just won't even think of entertaining them. I will just go for the big jams and see for any potential ones. Its quite easy to see.
I've got alot of things to think about and talk about, but I lost track of time and I'm tired now. I wonder if anyone reads my blog, if anyone is reading this right now, at least tag man! So I know someone actually bothers to read the boring content of my blog.
Yesterday I went to train with Dblucy, actually ain't supposed to but since I got time I just wanna kind of de-stress myself. In the end as usual, trained alot more then I should. My knee isn't fully healed thats for sure, thats why I shouldn't do too much. Just yesterday made me realize the gains I had from my routine and how effective squats is. I feel so much progress in my leg power and I can feel that the stuffs I use to be able to do are bloody easy now, and I can jump further right now, including nailing some really cool new stuffs. But then I shouldn't continue pushing the limits, but rather strive to 'perfect' the easier ones. I feel that my precisions really improved in terms of landing it nicely, and I've felt that I jump up more (instead of jumping too much forward) right now, but still think that it could be better. Wallpasses on the other hand are terrible. First is the height that I'm getting, and secondly is how I couldn't connect the grabbing the edge part with the climbup. I wanna work on my climbups particularly after wallpasses and also when my legs are low.
So much improvements in my jumps right now I feel that I can crane that shit soon at Sengkang. I wanna drill my basics or movements that I'm comfortable with now and not continue doing big stuffs. Also incorporate more runs into my training regimen. What I felt yesterday was something kind of like.. enlightenment. It really tells me that you can do anything you want if you really want to. The few stuffs I did there was what I used to tell myself and others that "I will do that one day", or some random stuffs I would think is 'impossible' or 'too hard' in the past, if I even thought of a possibility of doing things. The spot castle holds a some memories. It was the very first spot I train at, and also one of the most frequent spot I train in, until now I find that place one of the best places to ever train at. I haven't really got bored of it. I can tell I know castle pretty damn well, because everytime after school I will past by there and do a few moves, went to train there at night at several occasions, the time with my poser friends, the time with Wesley and friends, castle is still one of the best spot in Singapore. Don't get why people don't like that place. You can train everything over there.
Boreded. My mother as usual continue taking my POCKET MONEY now. Look at the extent she had gone to. I almost couldn't go to gym today but luckily had some spare cash. She is really too much and I made it well bloody clear if she even dare to think of taking my bursary, I'm sure to do something. I really cannot stand it already. Its all my money and none of hers. I seriously don't know what to say already. If you were me you confirm also cannot stand it.
Sometimes people can be so bloody unreasonable. I still remember about months back, when teachers are bloody unreasonable. Firstly, I merely bounced the ball in class and the teacher was fucking not happy, blah and blah then she wanna confiscate it. So be it, she go take herself lah. Then she kept warning me to give her the ball. Fuck if she want the ball take herself sia. And for that she decided to give me the pink form. LAME SIA. Oh, and there was another reason to it. I was doing the science homework, in her chinese (OH FUCK I HATE CHINESE) lesson because I have nothing else to do. I've already copied whatever shit that will not affect my results in my chinese exam at all. So I wanted to do my own homework which I need to passup on that day. She go confiscate it. You tell me whether it is correct or not. All this is on the same day, so I got really pissed, so I just bloody took back the homework from the table right after the lesson. She demanded me to return her but I just can't be bothered. The next few days (NOTE, ABOUT A WEEK LATER) she gave me the pink form. Bloody unreasonable sia. She say bouncing the ball affected my classmates. LOL, its not even making much noise, she is just too sensitive. Secondly she said when I copied my work finished, I can still read through my notes.. LIKE I EVEN CARE. SAD SIA. But of course given her attitude and obesity, and biasness and being so bloody unreasonable, I just bloody hell sign the pink form to make her happy, although she fail in life.
People like this are so darn bloody unreasonable, sad sia to have this people even passing through your life. Oh I forget to mention, right after that, I pretended to be ok with her, talk to her ask her question.. just on one very day, she was saying about "If I had a kid that will behave like Jonathan, blah blah" (jonathan is my classmate), then I jokingly said "Teacher don't worry, you won't have a kid." After she heard me, SHE GOT FUCKING ANGRY, and said stuffs like you want a second pink form, and all this kind of stupid stuff. FIRST, it was a joke but she took it so seriously. Maybe because the joke, is actually a fact, and also I hit the nail on the head, she probably is infertile or something. SECONDLY, everyone like to make jokes at her expense but she took it as a joke, but for me, she didnt. FUCK. THAT IS FUCKING UNFAIR. From then on I just fucking gave her attitude, ponteng her lessons, and sleep at her lessons. I REALLY CANT FUCKING BOTHER SIA, chinese already suck, and with a teacher like that, HOW WORSE CAN IT GET?
Oh I forget to mention, she complained to my form teacher (who is also retarded) about the stuffs I did, and because of that, my form teacher got a bad impression of me. And do you know what, when I was returning me the report book, he told me "You can get to the top 5 in level, or even top 3, but it is not because of your studies, but because of the bad side of you," I gave the "yeah yeah blah", because seriously sia, because of those few shits... he actually thought that it affected my studies. Lame sia..
Irritating sia. The reason why I bought up this topic is just recently, theres so unreasonable people in my house.. I mean seriously. Whats wrong with people lah. My mother is already one of them, unreasonably taking my money. Then my sister is so fucking selfish, she wants everything her way, and when she flares up everyone must accomodate to her likings. Like most people do anyway. Then my father usually the most cocky one, he's like one of the people in my life that I acted to be OK with but actually I hate him like fuck. For ALOT (fuck at least 20) of GOOD reasons. Its quite sad lah, to have 3 pain in the ass people in my house. I should include another one which is my brother, who now I dont even talk to him at all, since last time, about 6 months ago. That makes it 4 out of 5 people in my family (the other person is me of course). I don't know why though, when people say you are stupid (zhiyang), unreasonable and unfair (the chinese teacher (hey I really said that to her face and she gave like 1000 excuses to prove me wrong, crazy sia)), selfish (sister), and blah blah, THEY ARE REFUSE TO ADMIT IT, AND LIKE FELT SO INSULTED BY IT. I mean seriously man, its some BLOODY FACT and yet they can't face it. Irritating as fuck, really.
I digressed a bit too much. I find blogging the best way to rant down all your emotions and stuffs, although it is just about temporary. It really doesn't matter if no one reads it at all (because probably half of them couldn't relate to you as much), it does help. I guess I want to write more post about those kind of things, something similar to Frank Yang, that writes his thought about a topic.
Where was I.. oh yeah.
I wanted to also say something about the newcomers. Well just yesterday (again), I was at castle, and at castle there was two guys. They seem to also know "pahcour" and I did see them do something, but when we came, they just watch only, which is irritating, but no choice. Well... the thing is, they actually already know me. I didn't know, I thought they were just some losers that saw it on youtube or TV then just try out for fun.. just didnt have a clue about it at all. Thing is, when I came home and about an hour later I saw a new comment in my youtube profile (denester). SHOCKINGLY, THEY FUCKING KNOW ME. Which scared the shit out of my life. Damn. First thing I felt was like, WTF MAN, am I that famous? Well in this case its nothing to be happy off, because well, I don't really want to be well known to those irritating poser or shit, if some media thing that will OK, but still I PREFER to get the attention of the people in UK.
Ok thats not the point. The reason why I felt like very irritated to know that they are actually real posers and stuffs is like, from experience (people like yuanhan, irritating stupid people like him), if I do those big stuffs, the posers will go like "WOW!! WAHHH!!" like Zhiyang and sometimes it feels irritating, when it comes from the posers. Sure if people did a big jump of what is does look impressive, but the natural thought that comes to my mind when people (especially posers or other retarded people) say WAH is that they are really poser-ish and stupid. Don't know if its just me though. Secondly, is that they will go "WAH TODAY I MET CP AND I SAW HIM DID THIS JUMP, THIS ONE, THAT ONE, THIS AND THAT AND THIS AND THAT!" and their friends will go "WAHHHHHHH!! I DON'T BELIEVE!! SIAOO!!" all those kind of poserish crap. The thing is, if no one thought of seeing a person do a move, they will either wont think of it, or will think of it but never think of doing it as its 'impossible'. But once they have seen a person, especially if that guy is "PRO" (FUCK I HATE THAT WORD), they will go wow first, then they will think it is so much more possible and will want to try that out next time, as their target or motivation. Irritating sia.
I've already realize this and I want to be original, and I don't see why must people keep following other people movement, and not find their own way. I just want to be able to do what I want to do, and find my own way. Its kinda stupid don't you think, to just copying everyone movement. Also thats another reason why I fear training with newcomers or just people I don't know or don't really like to be with. They will either ask you to do stuffs like "EHH CP CAN SHOW ME HOW YOU DO THIS LEH" and obviously go "WAHHHHHHHHHHH!" like Zhiyang always do again. Irritaing sia the feeling. I know of people who actually memorised everything in my video. Crazy sia.. I make videos not for the poser to watch and tell me to do again, but to at least try to get across in the UK, to spark some attention over there. I've been supporting and following the UK parkour scene for a long time already, and it will be a dream to train with Teghead, PhillyD and Ilabaca. Sadly things get all so wrong.
Thats why for the Bishan jam, I keep in mind (and warned some others as well) to not do too much and don't do anything big, because of the reasons stated. Sometimes if you do a big stuff, then newcomer will actually try it out and undoubtedly fail in that case. I will just teach when I need to, train abit when I need to, and film most of the time. Its like that.. you can stop them. But then there might still be a chance to find out a hidden potential traceur... but its a rare chance.
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Poser, what defines a poser? Sure Dblucy, me, and probably half of everyone started out like a total poser. To me, theres a slight difference between one that has potential, and one that obviously does it for the thrill. First, I think if they have the genuine passion and heart to the sport, as in the neverending willingness and inquisitiveness to ask questions and experiment with things, read out the philosophy and train by themselves and condition and all that. They will find their own motivation, and develop oneself.
The reason why I feel so irked to train with the LastBreathClan, or watch backpacktraceurs' video and hear that engineer's self-proclaimed 153 IQ's calculations is that, I've learnt my lesson, thanks to the very first newcomer that I trained with. He is none other than Yuanhan and the undisputed world's worst poser of all time (that is because he has all the qualities a fucking retarded poser will have, and more). I don't see why should I waste my precious time on those names stated above as in the end all those people who call you out to train, is just wanna see the big guys do big stuffs, and in turn sucking up to them, keep asking them to train with you and irritate you further, take advantage of you (I know Yuanhan had learnt alot from me, but fuck it, all of it has gone to waste thanks to his freaking retarded mindset and attitude), and just plainly wasting your time. You guys say it is definitely worth it to help them up as after all you are one of the posers that more or less is brought up by the other traceurs. Sure, but theres an easier way. Set up occasional big jams like in every 2 or 3 months, and from there spot out any potential ones, and call them down for a jam or something.
If I received any guys asking me questions in youtube or anywhere else, adding me to msn randomly, I might just help out, but then until a point where they got too much on my nerve then I give up. Or I can just choose an easier way out, just don't really care much, thats right, I think I will just don't care much.
Thats my point of view.
Now then I understand why Nazir choose to not go for jams like this, and not make videos of him, not to be easily contacted, or call to many people to come for his training, only his close friends. Also I understand why he wants to treat this people coldly, because he knows that if he instil fear among those newcomers, they will be scared and won't want to train with him (which could be good), and also if they come and he yell and them, those people who are angry with him are probably those people who don't have the spirit to train. I don't think his insults are totally personal unless the guy did something to him or what, and most of the time he is joking. That is why, I think he is very smart in handling such things. Also, the clips that he post in his accounts is how he set the standard so high, especially the Nazir wall, which I think to some guys still think its impossible.
Got nothing to say about this people. I really don't want to train with newcomers, or if its a big jam something like this than I won't train too much infront of them. I just wanna train with people that I'm close with and such. Learnt my lesson already. Then again, I won't want to not make videos just because of this stupid people. I just won't even think of entertaining them. I will just go for the big jams and see for any potential ones. Its quite easy to see.
I've got alot of things to think about and talk about, but I lost track of time and I'm tired now. I wonder if anyone reads my blog, if anyone is reading this right now, at least tag man! So I know someone actually bothers to read the boring content of my blog.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Stressation.
Nowadays I feel abit stress, over many things, feel like its really tiring to live. Few reasons, money, friends, trainings, school, time, myself, etc. I don't know how do I make myself less stress, I really need time out from trainings from the gym and really do what I like, movements. School is over, why am I actually stressing over them even though I've scored well? I don't know, next year's my majors and I'm really losing out the study mood, next year is would really be stressful. I'm really reluctant to spend money now because I really don't have money now, my parents always quarell over money, now theres economic probelms and so many other things, I always feel pain to even spend a dollar. Sucks man. And my friends in school, I really don't know if theres anyone who regard me as a proper friend, the feeling really sucks, but as long as no one really hates me, I should be happy enough. Time now is passing so fast, I think in almost a blink of an eye school reopens and it will really felt like what a fucking waste of time.
As you guys know I really, really wanna train properly in the holidays but one probelm. Around this time of the month, it always rains. Its kinda frustrating for that to happen, and I really wouldn't want to stay at home and not train even if it rains. I really need to work on my flips, because thats what I really suck at at the moment and I can't think of any other places that are suitable for learning flips. I really wanna train at prime but it will cost 15bucks + travel time. Sucks man, and then the other wise alternative would be the beach, yet again, troublesome (have to get wet and change), and kinda far as well. If it REALLY rains I'll just go to gym. Or train in the night.
The stuffs that I want to work on is wallpass and armjumps. The main thing is the stupid "JUMP UP 45degrees" thing. I always tend to jump way too forward ending up with so little height. This will definitely help in all aspect of movements, more so in running jumps and especially flips. I just wanna get my SDCs real consistent and powerful as well, and work on runs, to be real fluid in string of movements. I wanna get really good all-around, firstly in individual movements, then into real-time runs like showcased in my March 08 video. Work on my speed and power in movements, and also confidence and fluidity. I'll also want to work on my precision jumps, control. Thats about it. On training, I would try to make sure I don't do too much, just a quick good session of 1hour would be good enough, and of course not to do too much impactful stuffs, and not push my limits too much.
Strength training, left two weeks till I'll conclude the routine. 6 sessions more, and this will be really really tiring, as the intensity is so high right now, I'm almost maxing out, and right after that I can tell myself I'm no longer an 'intermediate' athletic anymore, and it will not be that easy for strength gains (I don't think I will be capable for weekly PRs after that). Right after that I will be deloading for like 3 weeks, then go there for practicing lifts like front squats and power cleans, deadlifts, just maintaining strength and probably protection, and definitely prevently atrophy. I wouldn't want to lose all my strength I've gain from the routine. I think I will start on another routine somewhere in January next year, when school starts. This is the time where I seriously concentrate on gaining strength and power. I want to see myself being able to squat a weight twice of my bodyweight, to be able to do an one arm chinup, and all the other feats. I wanna make a point to train my flips into 2nd nature, so I'll just do flips as and when I like during breaks or something.
Videos, ah yes. I will, make a movie-like video by the end of this year, and that would probably be the last video for a very long time, with the exception of the huge new years eve jam. For the year 2009 I will only make one video, that is my supposedly breakthrough video. Yet again as you've read, it will be yet again focusing way more on filming and editing more then movements. I wanna make this kind of a cinematography reel. A poor one, though. HAHA. I wonder what should I put as movements in the video. I guess some stuffs that I'm comfortable with. Don't really want to make it big and all. Probably will be using lotsa timelapse again (this time in HD), the signature for the May-July 08 video, and more style shots, and even some parts in a storyline.
I still ponder, should I train more alone, instead of infront of people and stuffs. Because I think I can focus way more, and not get distracted, or even do silly stuffs. I've said to the other guys that there will be mini-training sessions on saturdays, but I guess I'll just make one or two, just to get ready for the huge one at Clarke Quay. I really want to aim for improvement. Sometimes I don't understand why I want to make myself hit the squat rack, the motivation and discipline inside of me. I force myself to train despite my laziness and lethargy. I just want to improve myself, not knowing why. I guess it gives you a real sense of achievement, to see yourself improve and land a new move that you've never did before, or previously couldn't do, its something quite 'cool' to experience. Its definitely one of the best thing on Earth to progress. Also I really enjoy movements, it gives me freedom, to realize that in the world there is never a barrier that is too big or too scary to be deemed as impossible.
I've still alot of things to rant about. Once I get my bursary, I'm pretty certain that my mum we take about half of it. It really sucks man, to know that whatever you've worked hard for or at least something that is deservedly yours, is taken away from someone. First was Ang Pao money, then from my 400dollars overall work pay from MacDonalds (do you believe it? I've work so much, but I didn't even get to spend a single cent.), and now the Bursary. Fuck man, and she keep saying she will return. And whenever I rise the topic of it, she gets angry and say stuffs like "Parents cannot take money from son ah?", and she really really gets angry and gets to the mood of depression (usually act one lah like typical women, cry for sympathy.), and then just shout at everybody. I doubt she will even return me a cent, I swear. Pocket money is an obligation of a parent, and that is not counted as "returning the money you owe". Oh well cannot blame, as now the situation of my household is haywire, due to many probelms. Also whenever I ask for money back, they will go "what for you wanna have so much money for? don't spend so much money hor, nowadays we all no money already." Irritating sia. How am I even gonna get the things I want. Stupid man.
I can't really afford to waste anymore time right now, hais...
I guess I will be travelling around SG, to spots like Taman Jurong, Clementi, Bishan, Sengkang, Yishun, Jelapang, Pasir Ris, Clarke Quay, maybe some other places, mainly to expose myself to different environments (getting sick of Tampines, I will train there the next year when it is convenient), and to work on some unfinished business, including filming Ashton's showreel. I probably would just want to go there with just some people, not in a big group, and also get some footages from those trips.
Yet again I've rethinked about the statements I've written before. I'm a man of a mission as of that very day. Will I manage to achieve it? I guess, its time, that I'll prepare myself to attempt something, something of significance and extraordinary, which might be worthy enough to change my life. The time will come, I can already foresee it. 2010, my breakthrough year.
As you guys know I really, really wanna train properly in the holidays but one probelm. Around this time of the month, it always rains. Its kinda frustrating for that to happen, and I really wouldn't want to stay at home and not train even if it rains. I really need to work on my flips, because thats what I really suck at at the moment and I can't think of any other places that are suitable for learning flips. I really wanna train at prime but it will cost 15bucks + travel time. Sucks man, and then the other wise alternative would be the beach, yet again, troublesome (have to get wet and change), and kinda far as well. If it REALLY rains I'll just go to gym. Or train in the night.
The stuffs that I want to work on is wallpass and armjumps. The main thing is the stupid "JUMP UP 45degrees" thing. I always tend to jump way too forward ending up with so little height. This will definitely help in all aspect of movements, more so in running jumps and especially flips. I just wanna get my SDCs real consistent and powerful as well, and work on runs, to be real fluid in string of movements. I wanna get really good all-around, firstly in individual movements, then into real-time runs like showcased in my March 08 video. Work on my speed and power in movements, and also confidence and fluidity. I'll also want to work on my precision jumps, control. Thats about it. On training, I would try to make sure I don't do too much, just a quick good session of 1hour would be good enough, and of course not to do too much impactful stuffs, and not push my limits too much.
Strength training, left two weeks till I'll conclude the routine. 6 sessions more, and this will be really really tiring, as the intensity is so high right now, I'm almost maxing out, and right after that I can tell myself I'm no longer an 'intermediate' athletic anymore, and it will not be that easy for strength gains (I don't think I will be capable for weekly PRs after that). Right after that I will be deloading for like 3 weeks, then go there for practicing lifts like front squats and power cleans, deadlifts, just maintaining strength and probably protection, and definitely prevently atrophy. I wouldn't want to lose all my strength I've gain from the routine. I think I will start on another routine somewhere in January next year, when school starts. This is the time where I seriously concentrate on gaining strength and power. I want to see myself being able to squat a weight twice of my bodyweight, to be able to do an one arm chinup, and all the other feats. I wanna make a point to train my flips into 2nd nature, so I'll just do flips as and when I like during breaks or something.
Videos, ah yes. I will, make a movie-like video by the end of this year, and that would probably be the last video for a very long time, with the exception of the huge new years eve jam. For the year 2009 I will only make one video, that is my supposedly breakthrough video. Yet again as you've read, it will be yet again focusing way more on filming and editing more then movements. I wanna make this kind of a cinematography reel. A poor one, though. HAHA. I wonder what should I put as movements in the video. I guess some stuffs that I'm comfortable with. Don't really want to make it big and all. Probably will be using lotsa timelapse again (this time in HD), the signature for the May-July 08 video, and more style shots, and even some parts in a storyline.
I still ponder, should I train more alone, instead of infront of people and stuffs. Because I think I can focus way more, and not get distracted, or even do silly stuffs. I've said to the other guys that there will be mini-training sessions on saturdays, but I guess I'll just make one or two, just to get ready for the huge one at Clarke Quay. I really want to aim for improvement. Sometimes I don't understand why I want to make myself hit the squat rack, the motivation and discipline inside of me. I force myself to train despite my laziness and lethargy. I just want to improve myself, not knowing why. I guess it gives you a real sense of achievement, to see yourself improve and land a new move that you've never did before, or previously couldn't do, its something quite 'cool' to experience. Its definitely one of the best thing on Earth to progress. Also I really enjoy movements, it gives me freedom, to realize that in the world there is never a barrier that is too big or too scary to be deemed as impossible.
I've still alot of things to rant about. Once I get my bursary, I'm pretty certain that my mum we take about half of it. It really sucks man, to know that whatever you've worked hard for or at least something that is deservedly yours, is taken away from someone. First was Ang Pao money, then from my 400dollars overall work pay from MacDonalds (do you believe it? I've work so much, but I didn't even get to spend a single cent.), and now the Bursary. Fuck man, and she keep saying she will return. And whenever I rise the topic of it, she gets angry and say stuffs like "Parents cannot take money from son ah?", and she really really gets angry and gets to the mood of depression (usually act one lah like typical women, cry for sympathy.), and then just shout at everybody. I doubt she will even return me a cent, I swear. Pocket money is an obligation of a parent, and that is not counted as "returning the money you owe". Oh well cannot blame, as now the situation of my household is haywire, due to many probelms. Also whenever I ask for money back, they will go "what for you wanna have so much money for? don't spend so much money hor, nowadays we all no money already." Irritating sia. How am I even gonna get the things I want. Stupid man.
I can't really afford to waste anymore time right now, hais...
I guess I will be travelling around SG, to spots like Taman Jurong, Clementi, Bishan, Sengkang, Yishun, Jelapang, Pasir Ris, Clarke Quay, maybe some other places, mainly to expose myself to different environments (getting sick of Tampines, I will train there the next year when it is convenient), and to work on some unfinished business, including filming Ashton's showreel. I probably would just want to go there with just some people, not in a big group, and also get some footages from those trips.
Yet again I've rethinked about the statements I've written before. I'm a man of a mission as of that very day. Will I manage to achieve it? I guess, its time, that I'll prepare myself to attempt something, something of significance and extraordinary, which might be worthy enough to change my life. The time will come, I can already foresee it. 2010, my breakthrough year.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Another 365 Days Around The Earth.
This year's birthday was a memorable one.
It is only around this year where my heart and mind was passionate to movements. I know this is my true passion and my way of living. Only then I felt I've found a missing jigsaw piece in my life puzzle, only then I felt that theres something to live for. It was just this time of my life where I have gotten to know some friends that I will never find in school or anywhere else. Traceurs do have a special bonding. I felt that my best friends ain't that one I find in my own class, not even in school, but some guys that I've met through the internet. Not just any net-pal, but guys that share the same interests with me. We might not know each other much yet but already there is a bond.
Previous birthdays was hardly celebrated. The most go out with family, I don't remember really celebrated with friends. See what I mean, no birthdays stands out. This year's one is different. Celebrated it with people doing the thing that we love. Even made a video out of it, with so much humour and fun throughout that day. Was a pity some guys couldn't make it, but nevermind. Thanks for everyone that came, felt it was really memorable, finally I can say I've enjoyed my birthday.
Thats bloody emotional. So not me.
OK lets talk about something else.
Missed a day of training today due to feel kinda tired from yesterday's jam. I know if I went I can't pull off my 100% (which is needed because its a Monday, probably the most tiring of the other 3 days of week (of training)). Everything will be shifted one day back, guess it will still be cool. 9 more trainings left, before I can kinda relax from strength training. Sometimes I have no motivation to go for those trainings but I know I have to because its for my own good. I have to force myself to go (shouldn't be the case as I should have the natural motivation to train), but once this 3 weeks are over (the MOST torturous weeks, all attempts around max), I can finally feel free from the crutches of hell. Seriously thats how it feels. Although strength training is bloody fun, squatting and all, they are tiring and torturous. I wonder how much will I gain from this. I will see the full results around December, and will continue my next routine after 2 or 3 weeks of break (from proper strength training). I will still gym, just deloading my lifts and lessen my body stress, and train more on movements.
I plan to train movements properly now. You know repetition is the key to everything so, I guess I want to nail some stuffs repeatedly in trainings. I want to nail 3rd bench SDC2P at Dino properly and constantly, get used to it, and the level SDC2P at Shinos one too. I think I'm drilling too much on SDC though, as they are my favourite movements (thus I'm kinda skilled in them), and my other movements are sucky. I wanna drill more on precisions (especially running precisions), arm jumps (especially running armjumps), wallpasses, runs, lache, and all the other stuffs. Flips as well, I kinda lost them, was trying them a few days ago and IT WAS SUCKY. So much work to do during the holidays. Have to make sure I respect my body and not overtrain and stress my body too much, or do any impactful shit, and I will want to have controlled, powerful, strong, and fluid movements.
Lazy to write more..
Still not sure whether I want to find a job, still not sure whether I could.
School's a bore, isn't really 'holiday' yet, until 3rd Nov.
Some random other thoughts (written a few days ago)
I always aim to be original, trying to find my own ways and style. I like to be the first guy who land a certain something, for example I think I nailed the Shino's SDC to precision first. Because it shows that I don't need a person to nail that to deem it as 'possible'. I wanna prove it myself. Thing is. After nailing the move, many people will take that as an aim, well to someone 'it makes it so much more possible' after seeing a person (for his case, a person like me), in other words, people will copy my movements. I admit I definitely had copied other traceur's movements and etc., but still its always better to try to find your own ways. Also, to me I sometimes see copying as something competitive. Its like trying to do what others can. Guess many people will think what is wrong copying a movement? Competitiveness. I'm not saying its totally bad, but everyone should once in awhile discover their own movements, and not copy everything blindly.. and obviously know why they choose to copy such a movement.
Next, nowadays I get pretty fucked up that Parkour has got so mainstream, don't have the underground feeling anymore. Thats so retarded and gay. Now everyone will jump around and calling it Parkour. Its so fucking lame. Media is so gonna fuck it up, and when people like us do stuffs like that at the streets, typical teenagers will go "WAH PARKOUR AH," "what he doing, PARKOUR AH?", "ask him do frontflip LEH!". This is sooooooooooo typical. And the adults will go "DON'T DO ALL THIS DANGEROUS STUFFS AND RISK YOURSELF!", and some people will just give you the face that shows "this kid got nothing better to do". Seen enough, but still piss me off everytime. So fucking hate those assholes.
Another thing. I wonder why flips appeal to people so much. Well sure its nothing wrong with learning flips. But why everyone wants to do them so much? I'll tell you my honest reasons. I don't train parkour, or tricking. I do l'art du displacement, or just movements. I want to have complete control and awareness over my body, including flips. I want to learn how to control my body. Its the same reason why I do SDC, Armjump, etc., flips are the same - movements. And they are fun. Its nothing about the cool factor. Also overcoming the mental barrier in flips, to be confident with myself.
That's all for today.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Recent Ponders.
Exams are over. Yay. But lessons are not. Sucks.
Although things are getting lighter in load, I'll still have to suffer waking up in the morning going to school, listening to the teachers scolding us for the poor results (as in the others, not me), some lessons are pure slack, might as well go home sleep, while other lesson watch movie, some ok ok, but the others are pure shit.. I have to go still because some lessons, like maths and science are still continuing the syllabus, till sec 4. What the gay.. also the first 2 weeks of holidays.. I have to go back school for freaking 3hours for 6 days.. feel like dying man.
Lets not talk about stupid school and studies..
I've been thinking about some stuffs lately, about the things I want to do, to train for, to become, and to be capable of. I guess during not-so-holiday-ish holiday, I'm gonna get back to training movements, like I've said before. 14th Nov would be last day of my 5x5 routine, so the week after that I will relax from strength training, about a two weeks break (while still going to gym for light training), and continue my next routine thereafter. I only want to train movements like once a week (at most two), focusing alot on building up my strength, especially in my legs. And also since now I have much more free time, I hope to seriously train for my handstands, bar tricks, and all those other light stuffs.
About videos, I've made a birthday jam, first time in my life I've thought of actually, having a proper birthday. I've never, ever, had a proper one at all. Either only with my family, heading out to like swensens/jack's place/whatever other restuarant to eat, or hmmm during primary school I've actually went out with my friends. It kinda suck when, during your birthday you got no one to celebrate with, if you actually know what I mean. To tell you the truth, no matter how 'lively' I seem in school, I don't really think I have 'real' friends, and I don't know what would you really call a true friend. Its quite fortunate to actually be popular amongst the friends you be with, and how I admire those people who are well-liked and have good connections between their friends. I'm like just those people what they will call 'friends'. Its just a "friend", hardly any big deal. Its like when you're absent no one cares, whereas when the popular ones when he didn't come to school, people will go 'Sian arh, CP never come." I do not carry weight to much people I guess, but all I can say is, whoever they are, they will happy to actually know me as a friend one day.
Ok, that was really off-topic. I can't believe I've talk about videos, and end up talking about friends and crap. Anyway... back to videos. The birthday jam video will be one of them, I hope it will be a fun jam, and it will be tampines, the day before my actual birthday (26th Oct, Sunday). Next video I'm working on, SHOULD be Ashton's showreel (as he will say "if I make it this year, it will not be up to standard, if I don't make one this year, people will be disappointed."). I'm not sure whether I will still wanna make the "Turning over a new leaf" video due to the fact that SHINOS CONSTRUCTION WILL ONLY BE DONE IN LIKE 2 YEARS+!!!!! I guess I will just compile the clips from the last quarter of the year into a video, just to note progression. Last but not least the New years' eve Jam. If there will be a Bishan PKSG Jam, It will probably be worked on, and posted on Ashton's account. Also, if Qayyim were to visit us anytime in December, be prepared for the part two of 'PKSG May Jam', can't wait.
I will be making more and more training sessions during the holidays, calling down the guys I've always train with, so we can train together. Most of them will be on saturday, figured that it will be actually the best day for training. Not only to train and have fun but to also strengthen bonds between traceurs. I guess I will start training seriously and properly, and more practice on my flips.
I figured on what I want. I've seen so many videos of guys doing backflips, some 360 twists, 720, or even 1080, and not suprisingly double flips, and blah blah. They might be impressive, but they are really forced, uncontrolled, and not to mention bloody low, and hardly landed. I don't like that, I hate that. I want backflips that has good air, standing frontflips and sideflips with good landings (won't land like bent knee, just like a normal jump), slowly proceeding to combos, and gainers and etc., I want controlled flips, not poorly landed ones. Also, I want to be able to do them AT ANYTIME and ANYWHERE. So its like right now, I just stand up from my chair and do a GOOD backflip right away (without warmup, without thinking), land nicely barefooted on my house's floor. Thats how much of a second nature I want it to be.
I know that will take sometime. During my trainings, I too wanna find my own way, develop my style of moving, and discover my path. I want to have my own unique style of moving, like how Blane, Daniel Ilabaca and Dim Monk has their own. I aim for total control over my body - in any forms of movements. And I've also thought of this - My SDC might be good, but I want to raise the bar really high, as in really high, because I know many others have SDC's way further, stronger, fluid, and more properly controlled then mine. Not comparing, but exposing myself to some real challenges. As you see the huge SDC to Pre at Danny's showreel, I want to be able to get that kind of distance. Also the standard of the guys in England are WAY WAY huger then Singapore, and if I want to go London and be able to put my skills to real test, I must seriously develop my skills here, own the places here, before I think of heading there. Things over there are way more different from here. ;)
But of course I won't want to focus on just my SDC, but in my movements overall. Wallpasses are one of my weakest. I sure want to improve my fluidity in movements, and runs. Probably also in running precisions, stuffs that I've been playing on recently. I wouldn't want to keep doing high elements because they ARE dangerous, and I guess I already had enough of it. Ofcourse every other movements, I don't wanna leave them out. Movements like catleap, precision, other vaults, flips, lache, everything. And like I said earlier, I want to 'master' them as much as possible, making them second nature, and having complete control and air awareness over my movements and body.
I'm not gonna lie but my knee ain't 100% healed yet. I really hope they will be fully recovered as soon as possible, and by 14th November.
Strength training on the other hand, I'm really starting to like it alot. I really need to get that power to jump that high, and the bestest way to do it is squats. Surely I want to see my improvements after 14th Nov, and I hope I could settle down everything by that date, including the planning of my next routine. And on that two weeks before I start on the next routine, I will do light training in the gym, and start getting back to proper movements training. After the two weeks I will only do movements once a week, all the way strength training, and practice alot on handstands and bartricks. I think my improvement will skyrocket when I see myself after my O Levels. Train for strength, doing movements once a week, concentrating on my studies etc., focusing on my goals and keep everything in balance.
I'm not sure whether I'm gonna get a job this holidays, because if I do, I have to really reschedule everything to fit the job, and I won't have as much free time, things will get really hectic, but then I guess I need to earn alittle money, and to earn money is not easy. I don't know what job though, and I would really need to schedule everything properly, hopefully I can meet the job requirements (people won't hire you if you only work 4 hours a day, or only one or two times a week.. not like MACDONALDS (which is also another reason why they give lousy pay)). Also I want a job that give good pay and blah blah, I don't know man.
As I've said, things will be way different now, and I must discipline myself and train seriously if I want to justify my statement.
Although things are getting lighter in load, I'll still have to suffer waking up in the morning going to school, listening to the teachers scolding us for the poor results (as in the others, not me), some lessons are pure slack, might as well go home sleep, while other lesson watch movie, some ok ok, but the others are pure shit.. I have to go still because some lessons, like maths and science are still continuing the syllabus, till sec 4. What the gay.. also the first 2 weeks of holidays.. I have to go back school for freaking 3hours for 6 days.. feel like dying man.
Lets not talk about stupid school and studies..
I've been thinking about some stuffs lately, about the things I want to do, to train for, to become, and to be capable of. I guess during not-so-holiday-ish holiday, I'm gonna get back to training movements, like I've said before. 14th Nov would be last day of my 5x5 routine, so the week after that I will relax from strength training, about a two weeks break (while still going to gym for light training), and continue my next routine thereafter. I only want to train movements like once a week (at most two), focusing alot on building up my strength, especially in my legs. And also since now I have much more free time, I hope to seriously train for my handstands, bar tricks, and all those other light stuffs.
About videos, I've made a birthday jam, first time in my life I've thought of actually, having a proper birthday. I've never, ever, had a proper one at all. Either only with my family, heading out to like swensens/jack's place/whatever other restuarant to eat, or hmmm during primary school I've actually went out with my friends. It kinda suck when, during your birthday you got no one to celebrate with, if you actually know what I mean. To tell you the truth, no matter how 'lively' I seem in school, I don't really think I have 'real' friends, and I don't know what would you really call a true friend. Its quite fortunate to actually be popular amongst the friends you be with, and how I admire those people who are well-liked and have good connections between their friends. I'm like just those people what they will call 'friends'. Its just a "friend", hardly any big deal. Its like when you're absent no one cares, whereas when the popular ones when he didn't come to school, people will go 'Sian arh, CP never come." I do not carry weight to much people I guess, but all I can say is, whoever they are, they will happy to actually know me as a friend one day.
Ok, that was really off-topic. I can't believe I've talk about videos, and end up talking about friends and crap. Anyway... back to videos. The birthday jam video will be one of them, I hope it will be a fun jam, and it will be tampines, the day before my actual birthday (26th Oct, Sunday). Next video I'm working on, SHOULD be Ashton's showreel (as he will say "if I make it this year, it will not be up to standard, if I don't make one this year, people will be disappointed."). I'm not sure whether I will still wanna make the "Turning over a new leaf" video due to the fact that SHINOS CONSTRUCTION WILL ONLY BE DONE IN LIKE 2 YEARS+!!!!! I guess I will just compile the clips from the last quarter of the year into a video, just to note progression. Last but not least the New years' eve Jam. If there will be a Bishan PKSG Jam, It will probably be worked on, and posted on Ashton's account. Also, if Qayyim were to visit us anytime in December, be prepared for the part two of 'PKSG May Jam', can't wait.
I will be making more and more training sessions during the holidays, calling down the guys I've always train with, so we can train together. Most of them will be on saturday, figured that it will be actually the best day for training. Not only to train and have fun but to also strengthen bonds between traceurs. I guess I will start training seriously and properly, and more practice on my flips.
I figured on what I want. I've seen so many videos of guys doing backflips, some 360 twists, 720, or even 1080, and not suprisingly double flips, and blah blah. They might be impressive, but they are really forced, uncontrolled, and not to mention bloody low, and hardly landed. I don't like that, I hate that. I want backflips that has good air, standing frontflips and sideflips with good landings (won't land like bent knee, just like a normal jump), slowly proceeding to combos, and gainers and etc., I want controlled flips, not poorly landed ones. Also, I want to be able to do them AT ANYTIME and ANYWHERE. So its like right now, I just stand up from my chair and do a GOOD backflip right away (without warmup, without thinking), land nicely barefooted on my house's floor. Thats how much of a second nature I want it to be.
I know that will take sometime. During my trainings, I too wanna find my own way, develop my style of moving, and discover my path. I want to have my own unique style of moving, like how Blane, Daniel Ilabaca and Dim Monk has their own. I aim for total control over my body - in any forms of movements. And I've also thought of this - My SDC might be good, but I want to raise the bar really high, as in really high, because I know many others have SDC's way further, stronger, fluid, and more properly controlled then mine. Not comparing, but exposing myself to some real challenges. As you see the huge SDC to Pre at Danny's showreel, I want to be able to get that kind of distance. Also the standard of the guys in England are WAY WAY huger then Singapore, and if I want to go London and be able to put my skills to real test, I must seriously develop my skills here, own the places here, before I think of heading there. Things over there are way more different from here. ;)
But of course I won't want to focus on just my SDC, but in my movements overall. Wallpasses are one of my weakest. I sure want to improve my fluidity in movements, and runs. Probably also in running precisions, stuffs that I've been playing on recently. I wouldn't want to keep doing high elements because they ARE dangerous, and I guess I already had enough of it. Ofcourse every other movements, I don't wanna leave them out. Movements like catleap, precision, other vaults, flips, lache, everything. And like I said earlier, I want to 'master' them as much as possible, making them second nature, and having complete control and air awareness over my movements and body.
I'm not gonna lie but my knee ain't 100% healed yet. I really hope they will be fully recovered as soon as possible, and by 14th November.
Strength training on the other hand, I'm really starting to like it alot. I really need to get that power to jump that high, and the bestest way to do it is squats. Surely I want to see my improvements after 14th Nov, and I hope I could settle down everything by that date, including the planning of my next routine. And on that two weeks before I start on the next routine, I will do light training in the gym, and start getting back to proper movements training. After the two weeks I will only do movements once a week, all the way strength training, and practice alot on handstands and bartricks. I think my improvement will skyrocket when I see myself after my O Levels. Train for strength, doing movements once a week, concentrating on my studies etc., focusing on my goals and keep everything in balance.
I'm not sure whether I'm gonna get a job this holidays, because if I do, I have to really reschedule everything to fit the job, and I won't have as much free time, things will get really hectic, but then I guess I need to earn alittle money, and to earn money is not easy. I don't know what job though, and I would really need to schedule everything properly, hopefully I can meet the job requirements (people won't hire you if you only work 4 hours a day, or only one or two times a week.. not like MACDONALDS (which is also another reason why they give lousy pay)). Also I want a job that give good pay and blah blah, I don't know man.
As I've said, things will be way different now, and I must discipline myself and train seriously if I want to justify my statement.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
My statement.
This is a serious post.
I'll come back to this post in a few years time, and see if I've achieved what would be my ultimate goal for life. I'll hide this here and I know one day, this post, will have its justified significance. I don't know when, but it will. This post will be something, and it will only make sense, after a few more years. I mean it.
That being said, please read the following lengthy post.
I've come to realize, that no matter what others say about this or that, ultimately, whether its correct or wrong, right or not, its up to the person. I'll think that many people will change their impression of me when they read this post. I'm gonna be honest in the post - all my true thoughts in mind translated into words at its purest form, no exaggaration, no lies.
Theres a reason why I've invited you guys to my blog, only you guys. So far only 11 readers. Although I might not know some of you well enough, I know you guys will be Singapore's most talented traceurs. Thing is, I want to make traceurs not just people we all train with, but a bigger bonding. Also the main reason why I've invited you here is that I trust you all, and I want you to know my thoughts/history/trainings. And obviously the reason why I make this private is because this content is private, and if my friends manage to stumble upon this blog, they're gonna go retarded and shit, and thats just irritating.
You guys will be the witnessing what I've said now, and in time to come, you will witness what I am then.
If you guys still think that post is funny or unserious, or I wanna act big or this post is trash and retarded, see the huge red X at the right top hand corner, click it, really. People like Zahid. Try making fun of this post.
Lets cut the crap and zoom in to the main point.
Why am I making this post all-so-dramatic? I'm gonna state my opinions and thoughts of my life - for the future.
I find that, I don't just wanna be a traceur, any ordinary traceur, or freerunner or a person in that sense. I don't wanna be seen just like that. I wanna be more professional, more prominent, and more stronger. I'm talking about people like Chase Armitage, Daniel Ilabaca, they are definitely one of the most professional freerunners that ever existed and they are really inspiring. Look at them, they travel round the world, have professional cameraman helping to make their showreels or films, being known worldwide, having a team that love moving as well, you name it. They're very professional. I wanna have the ability to travel around the world, come to think of it, exploring and travelling is very fun, not to be stuck at Singapore which is a fucking lame country. And more prominent? I actually wanna be more known towards the UK scene, because I've always wanted to go there, and I've been following them for quite awhile. I have thoughts of studying there in the future as well. To be known in Singapore? I don't know, I don't really like that. And stronger, thats for sure, everyone wants to be stronger.
Just to clarify terms. Being more prominent does not equals to wanting to impress or show off to others. Its just simply the fact of being more known.
Well, I've thought of performing in my school for teachers day probably next year, but the thought of it, however tempting, I'm just scared about what my friends will think.. and how would I be in front of a crowd, that knows me. Imagine the slating you will receive after the performance (Its not Parkour, its tricks), friends will go all retarded over you.. and those jealous ones will go saying "SHOW OFF!". Whats your thoughts of this? I'm not sure yet, still considering. Since about July I have this thoughts already.
Why all this wants? Like I said earlier, I wanna be more professional. I don't just wanna be somebody that can do stuffs in like a few months. Not wanting to be better then others, but just to be somebody that isn't easy to become. I wanna get sponsored (not by UFF!), by companies and if possible AirAsia, it would be so cool to get free trips + countless of benefits with those sponsors.
Prominent as well. I think most of the people like being more well known, as if you don't you wouldn't even have thoughts of making a video of yourself and post it in the internet. One thing about this is once you get the prominence you want, its not easy backing out, and like the famous saying, with great power comes great responsibility. The question is, is it wrong with intentions of being more prominent? Not famous or popular, only prominent. Not to that extent till you are recognised when you walk on the streets, or being seen on TV and shit, its just like being featured in Generation Ex, that amount of prominence, just your name being written in the news paper, internet, but not everywhere. Its like, how you see Teghead in the internet, and thats how much of prominence I want. Remember, I'm not wanting to be some attention whore that show off and try to impress people. If thats not enough, when I say I wanna be prominent, I don't mean wanting to have a lot of power. My mind's clear.
That said, I've alot of thoughts in mind, that I wanna train properly for, and I'm gonna make history. My showreel for the next year would be a hit, at least I hope it will. And I'm not gonna be that person at home slacking away, sitting there and do nothing, or pcc like you-know-who. I wanna do something with my life. I'm gonna climb this mountain from now (training), and will eventually reach the peak (achieve my aims).
My passion for filming and editing also, might be handy for the future (they are two seperate things that I like, I don't learn editing just for the sake of making videos, they are a passion.) And since movements have already become a part of me (I move to live, and live to move), I see no reason why I can't use them into proper use.
Because I'm a nice guy I'm summing this whole post up into 6 major points.
MAIN THINGS I WANNA DO/AIM/ACHIEVE IN LIFE.
- Being more prominent
- Get sponsors
- Live life meaningfully and to the fullest
- Travel 'round the world
- Make a short film
- Make history
However absurd or unbelievable this post may sound to you, believe it.
And no, I have no thoughts of being a stuntman or professional chereographer, but maybe a filmmaker.
Like what Chase Armitage would said.
Anything is possible for those who are willing to try.
I'm gonna transform those words into reality.
Dreams and beliefs are very, very powerful. I've never thought of being up here with the rest, but here I am right now.
Hope you guys have grasped the point that I'm trying to make and I hope you accept my decision. Commenting, tagging, msn-ing me your thoughts is very much appreciated, I really wanna know what are your impressions and actual honest opinions, especially Ashton.
Stuffs is gonna be way different from now.
The bar is raised.
I'm gonna make history.
I wanna do something with my life.
I'll come back to this post in a few years time, and see if I've achieved what would be my ultimate goal for life. I'll hide this here and I know one day, this post, will have its justified significance. I don't know when, but it will. This post will be something, and it will only make sense, after a few more years. I mean it.
That being said, please read the following lengthy post.
I've come to realize, that no matter what others say about this or that, ultimately, whether its correct or wrong, right or not, its up to the person. I'll think that many people will change their impression of me when they read this post. I'm gonna be honest in the post - all my true thoughts in mind translated into words at its purest form, no exaggaration, no lies.
Theres a reason why I've invited you guys to my blog, only you guys. So far only 11 readers. Although I might not know some of you well enough, I know you guys will be Singapore's most talented traceurs. Thing is, I want to make traceurs not just people we all train with, but a bigger bonding. Also the main reason why I've invited you here is that I trust you all, and I want you to know my thoughts/history/trainings. And obviously the reason why I make this private is because this content is private, and if my friends manage to stumble upon this blog, they're gonna go retarded and shit, and thats just irritating.
You guys will be the witnessing what I've said now, and in time to come, you will witness what I am then.
If you guys still think that post is funny or unserious, or I wanna act big or this post is trash and retarded, see the huge red X at the right top hand corner, click it, really. People like Zahid. Try making fun of this post.
Lets cut the crap and zoom in to the main point.
Why am I making this post all-so-dramatic? I'm gonna state my opinions and thoughts of my life - for the future.
I find that, I don't just wanna be a traceur, any ordinary traceur, or freerunner or a person in that sense. I don't wanna be seen just like that. I wanna be more professional, more prominent, and more stronger. I'm talking about people like Chase Armitage, Daniel Ilabaca, they are definitely one of the most professional freerunners that ever existed and they are really inspiring. Look at them, they travel round the world, have professional cameraman helping to make their showreels or films, being known worldwide, having a team that love moving as well, you name it. They're very professional. I wanna have the ability to travel around the world, come to think of it, exploring and travelling is very fun, not to be stuck at Singapore which is a fucking lame country. And more prominent? I actually wanna be more known towards the UK scene, because I've always wanted to go there, and I've been following them for quite awhile. I have thoughts of studying there in the future as well. To be known in Singapore? I don't know, I don't really like that. And stronger, thats for sure, everyone wants to be stronger.
Just to clarify terms. Being more prominent does not equals to wanting to impress or show off to others. Its just simply the fact of being more known.
Well, I've thought of performing in my school for teachers day probably next year, but the thought of it, however tempting, I'm just scared about what my friends will think.. and how would I be in front of a crowd, that knows me. Imagine the slating you will receive after the performance (Its not Parkour, its tricks), friends will go all retarded over you.. and those jealous ones will go saying "SHOW OFF!". Whats your thoughts of this? I'm not sure yet, still considering. Since about July I have this thoughts already.
Why all this wants? Like I said earlier, I wanna be more professional. I don't just wanna be somebody that can do stuffs in like a few months. Not wanting to be better then others, but just to be somebody that isn't easy to become. I wanna get sponsored (not by UFF!), by companies and if possible AirAsia, it would be so cool to get free trips + countless of benefits with those sponsors.
Prominent as well. I think most of the people like being more well known, as if you don't you wouldn't even have thoughts of making a video of yourself and post it in the internet. One thing about this is once you get the prominence you want, its not easy backing out, and like the famous saying, with great power comes great responsibility. The question is, is it wrong with intentions of being more prominent? Not famous or popular, only prominent. Not to that extent till you are recognised when you walk on the streets, or being seen on TV and shit, its just like being featured in Generation Ex, that amount of prominence, just your name being written in the news paper, internet, but not everywhere. Its like, how you see Teghead in the internet, and thats how much of prominence I want. Remember, I'm not wanting to be some attention whore that show off and try to impress people. If thats not enough, when I say I wanna be prominent, I don't mean wanting to have a lot of power. My mind's clear.
That said, I've alot of thoughts in mind, that I wanna train properly for, and I'm gonna make history. My showreel for the next year would be a hit, at least I hope it will. And I'm not gonna be that person at home slacking away, sitting there and do nothing, or pcc like you-know-who. I wanna do something with my life. I'm gonna climb this mountain from now (training), and will eventually reach the peak (achieve my aims).
My passion for filming and editing also, might be handy for the future (they are two seperate things that I like, I don't learn editing just for the sake of making videos, they are a passion.) And since movements have already become a part of me (I move to live, and live to move), I see no reason why I can't use them into proper use.
Because I'm a nice guy I'm summing this whole post up into 6 major points.
MAIN THINGS I WANNA DO/AIM/ACHIEVE IN LIFE.
- Being more prominent
- Get sponsors
- Live life meaningfully and to the fullest
- Travel 'round the world
- Make a short film
- Make history
However absurd or unbelievable this post may sound to you, believe it.
And no, I have no thoughts of being a stuntman or professional chereographer, but maybe a filmmaker.
Like what Chase Armitage would said.
Anything is possible for those who are willing to try.
I'm gonna transform those words into reality.
Dreams and beliefs are very, very powerful. I've never thought of being up here with the rest, but here I am right now.
Hope you guys have grasped the point that I'm trying to make and I hope you accept my decision. Commenting, tagging, msn-ing me your thoughts is very much appreciated, I really wanna know what are your impressions and actual honest opinions, especially Ashton.
Stuffs is gonna be way different from now.
The bar is raised.
I'm gonna make history.
I wanna do something with my life.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Enlightenment?
For a long while since I've last blogged. No one cares though.
This post is to clear up the spiderwebs and dusts formed in the one month of stagnancy.
My knee is alright now, and I've been way stronger then ever (not really), into the 4th week already in my 5x5, and exams are undergoing right now (wonder why am I still here..), starting to learn more things about Vegas and my camera.. but still have many things to work on, movements are ok-ok, lifes nothing out of the ordinary as yet, and I guess a fullstop is needed right now.
I feel that I'm slowly back to what I used to feel last time when I do strength training, just that now I have a routine to follow strictly. Now I eat alot more protein that I usually use to. I got a couple of clips in my computer, and I really don't know whether I should compile those new one into for a CP'08, but then I don't see the point. I'm just gonna keep it. I'm only making a sampler till next year. Shinos ramps gonna be finish construction in 2 years, said construction worker. FUCK!
OH BTW, Remember the Clementi Jam video? At the ending theres some guy in black said he is going to do a gap jump, and he goes something like "SEE THIS GAP OVER HERE? yeap, this will be for my showreel THIS YEAR!" hmmm.. so its gonna be THIS YEAR, right? HAHA. Dblucy's sampler is on the go, while Fred's sampler is on hold. I guess the only videos that are gonna be in my account at the end of this year will be the "turning over a new leaf" video and probably the PKSG JAM 08 video. If I have the mood, maybe I'll compile those new clips from the latest quarter of the year into a video... or maybe not.
Anyway, I just move on and start to talk about one of the few reasons why I actually wanted to blog today.
Well, I just realize, after listening to what Glen said, and reading Blane's latest entry, something really 'shocking'. We all know that not serious traceurs or just posers will eventually quit, thats no doubt. But how do we classify serious and non-serious, or even not-so-serious traceurs? Or how do we define seriousness in such cases. I feel that, people who are really serious in Parkour (or whatever), trains alone most of the time, research on their own, have the natural motivation to go out and train. People who only train when people call them out (or viceversa), or just give excuses not to train, are not serious in Parkour, no matter what they think they are, or how they seem serious in the discipline, or what they know or say.
Seriously, even people who train up to 2 years and counting, are they really 'serious'? Or do they just treat this like another sport? I see people leaving after less then half a year of training (phantokour), see people leaving or losing interest after almost reaching half a year, see people moving into shuffle and such other craps. Alot of the pioneers as well, they seem to lose out interest, due to NS, jobs, school, whatever other excuses. It beats me, how this a discipline and it will stick to you FOR LIFE, no matter how busy you are or what you WILL find time to train. Once you can go on the internet, you HAVE time. Fucking' play psp and pcc and say excuses like lazy or tired will get you nowhere.
But, actually to think of it in another perspective, seriousness is something that you can't force. A person who is passionate enough won't need pushing or motivation from others. When you tell that one person that he is 'not serious' he will get all angry and shit and try to prove you wrong by acting serious. Whatever for? If you are really serious you wouldn't even care a shit.
Do you want me to go on to the harsh fact? To alllllllll the traceurs I know in SG, I can only say, a few handfuls are seriously serious in PK. Want a number? Less then 5. And this people WONT lose interest and shit at all. I'm not talking about myself anyway, I wouldn't know whether I'm serious or not, and I'm not the one who can say that I'm serious.
No matter how skilled or how many years one person train, or how they claim they do research and stuffs, it doesn't matter. What really defines seriousness to me, is DISCIPLINE. I'm not gonna brag or what, but when people say stuffs like alot of homework or projects or no time because alot of ____________, I'm having exams now but I still go to gym 3 days a week. Think about it.
If you read this and you feel guilty for whatever reasons, it just shows how weak your discipline is towards this. I think you yourself know who you are, don't even ask.
Next up, mental training.
Been realizing alittle bit more on fear. From the Bishan Jam not long ago, theres this catleap that I was thinking of trying. I'm definitely capable of it, but its just the fear of missing the top or losing grip that stop me from jumping. Should we adapt a JUST DO IT mindset? The reason why last time I was able to do many stupid stuffs was the fact that I was the person who 'just whack only'. I guess somehow, and some point, you just have to use that mindset, IF you know you can. For example, if you don't think you can, but yet you still just whack (to impress, to showoff, to prove that you can to others or what), even if you manage to nail it, its nothing respectable about. It just shows your recklessness and your mindset of training. But if you are 100% sure that you are capable of the move, and its just the fear that pulls you back, I think using the JUST FUCKING DO IT mindset could work, but definitely with full focus and concentration.
Many people will also argue back, whats the point of doing such movements that might cause your life? Many people will also won't even think of training such stuffs. Well, I think its based on personal opinion but, in Parkour, don't you train to overcome all sort of obstacles, include fear and mental barriers? Don't you train to adapt to any environment, in this case, at heights? Don't you train to be a master of your movements, including at heights? Whats the point of doing 'perfect' precisions and yet when its at a 10 storey building, your legs shivers like no one business? Of course its not recommended to train it ALL the time though.
The first real high element I did was just two days ago with Dblucy, and in an event where dblucy almost killed himself (won't go into deeper details, msn me), I did a 4 storeys gap SDC to PRE (which I think was kinda far as well), and it was a great achievement, and I really am getting to the mix of things right now. I want high elements! I'm gonna nail that cat leap at bishan... soon. And after that I'm raiding Buangkok.
COCK TO CO, BYE.
This post is to clear up the spiderwebs and dusts formed in the one month of stagnancy.
My knee is alright now, and I've been way stronger then ever (not really), into the 4th week already in my 5x5, and exams are undergoing right now (wonder why am I still here..), starting to learn more things about Vegas and my camera.. but still have many things to work on, movements are ok-ok, lifes nothing out of the ordinary as yet, and I guess a fullstop is needed right now.
I feel that I'm slowly back to what I used to feel last time when I do strength training, just that now I have a routine to follow strictly. Now I eat alot more protein that I usually use to. I got a couple of clips in my computer, and I really don't know whether I should compile those new one into for a CP'08, but then I don't see the point. I'm just gonna keep it. I'm only making a sampler till next year. Shinos ramps gonna be finish construction in 2 years, said construction worker. FUCK!
OH BTW, Remember the Clementi Jam video? At the ending theres some guy in black said he is going to do a gap jump, and he goes something like "SEE THIS GAP OVER HERE? yeap, this will be for my showreel THIS YEAR!" hmmm.. so its gonna be THIS YEAR, right? HAHA. Dblucy's sampler is on the go, while Fred's sampler is on hold. I guess the only videos that are gonna be in my account at the end of this year will be the "turning over a new leaf" video and probably the PKSG JAM 08 video. If I have the mood, maybe I'll compile those new clips from the latest quarter of the year into a video... or maybe not.
Anyway, I just move on and start to talk about one of the few reasons why I actually wanted to blog today.
Well, I just realize, after listening to what Glen said, and reading Blane's latest entry, something really 'shocking'. We all know that not serious traceurs or just posers will eventually quit, thats no doubt. But how do we classify serious and non-serious, or even not-so-serious traceurs? Or how do we define seriousness in such cases. I feel that, people who are really serious in Parkour (or whatever), trains alone most of the time, research on their own, have the natural motivation to go out and train. People who only train when people call them out (or viceversa), or just give excuses not to train, are not serious in Parkour, no matter what they think they are, or how they seem serious in the discipline, or what they know or say.
Seriously, even people who train up to 2 years and counting, are they really 'serious'? Or do they just treat this like another sport? I see people leaving after less then half a year of training (phantokour), see people leaving or losing interest after almost reaching half a year, see people moving into shuffle and such other craps. Alot of the pioneers as well, they seem to lose out interest, due to NS, jobs, school, whatever other excuses. It beats me, how this a discipline and it will stick to you FOR LIFE, no matter how busy you are or what you WILL find time to train. Once you can go on the internet, you HAVE time. Fucking' play psp and pcc and say excuses like lazy or tired will get you nowhere.
But, actually to think of it in another perspective, seriousness is something that you can't force. A person who is passionate enough won't need pushing or motivation from others. When you tell that one person that he is 'not serious' he will get all angry and shit and try to prove you wrong by acting serious. Whatever for? If you are really serious you wouldn't even care a shit.
Do you want me to go on to the harsh fact? To alllllllll the traceurs I know in SG, I can only say, a few handfuls are seriously serious in PK. Want a number? Less then 5. And this people WONT lose interest and shit at all. I'm not talking about myself anyway, I wouldn't know whether I'm serious or not, and I'm not the one who can say that I'm serious.
No matter how skilled or how many years one person train, or how they claim they do research and stuffs, it doesn't matter. What really defines seriousness to me, is DISCIPLINE. I'm not gonna brag or what, but when people say stuffs like alot of homework or projects or no time because alot of ____________, I'm having exams now but I still go to gym 3 days a week. Think about it.
If you read this and you feel guilty for whatever reasons, it just shows how weak your discipline is towards this. I think you yourself know who you are, don't even ask.
Next up, mental training.
Been realizing alittle bit more on fear. From the Bishan Jam not long ago, theres this catleap that I was thinking of trying. I'm definitely capable of it, but its just the fear of missing the top or losing grip that stop me from jumping. Should we adapt a JUST DO IT mindset? The reason why last time I was able to do many stupid stuffs was the fact that I was the person who 'just whack only'. I guess somehow, and some point, you just have to use that mindset, IF you know you can. For example, if you don't think you can, but yet you still just whack (to impress, to showoff, to prove that you can to others or what), even if you manage to nail it, its nothing respectable about. It just shows your recklessness and your mindset of training. But if you are 100% sure that you are capable of the move, and its just the fear that pulls you back, I think using the JUST FUCKING DO IT mindset could work, but definitely with full focus and concentration.
Many people will also argue back, whats the point of doing such movements that might cause your life? Many people will also won't even think of training such stuffs. Well, I think its based on personal opinion but, in Parkour, don't you train to overcome all sort of obstacles, include fear and mental barriers? Don't you train to adapt to any environment, in this case, at heights? Don't you train to be a master of your movements, including at heights? Whats the point of doing 'perfect' precisions and yet when its at a 10 storey building, your legs shivers like no one business? Of course its not recommended to train it ALL the time though.
The first real high element I did was just two days ago with Dblucy, and in an event where dblucy almost killed himself (won't go into deeper details, msn me), I did a 4 storeys gap SDC to PRE (which I think was kinda far as well), and it was a great achievement, and I really am getting to the mix of things right now. I want high elements! I'm gonna nail that cat leap at bishan... soon. And after that I'm raiding Buangkok.
COCK TO CO, BYE.
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