Slight deterioration?

This week I did abit more training, which means more thoughts.

Monday was my last day of exams, unofficially. So after that 3 papers, met Zahid in boxfit so he could help me film stuffs. After that, about night time, I went to film some timelapse, all night cars timelapse. Only like one or two turned out good though.
But theres one guy who randomly spoke to me upon seeing me with my (awesome) camcorder. He was finding young videographer and photographer to help him out with some community project and stuffs. I was not really interested but just got him entertained. I'm just so lazy to go for all these shit, unless there is money involved. I admit, I tend to be a little tight fisted, and stingy, but I really need the money for my travel funds and I must start to save up if I don't want to get a job. I think I'll start to pay back Ashton some cash and get my track pants and probably a Kalenji. That will then mean 0 travel funds again..

Money is abit too big an issue to handle. I would probably need to work after my O's, which I would definitely hate to do, unless there is a really good high paying job that I could find... and then I can satisfy my travel funds. So many destinations to go to. I hope I can get about 3k -5k. And another thing that I wanna get now is a bicycle. And an Ipod too... See first.

Tuesday was training day, but was quite impactful and I was really tired that day so I ended up doing nothing much. I just trained sideflips abit and went for the wallsideflip and failed miserably. I feel that the variations of the moves are so much harder, like almost a different flip altogether. Simple thing such as landing one leg and a time or going into another flip straight after seems so difficult. Even roundoff back I have problems with, probably the roundoff. My height in my fronts are still inconsistent. Sideflip is good, but it can be better. I want to get new flips soon, I need to widen my repertoire.

And I totally lost my double kong.

Wednesday was the real last day of the exams, went to school same timing just to take a 30minute paper. Went straight to gym after that, where Zahid came again, and distracted me again... and he went to my house and I uploaded the video. Which I finished the day before, but got problems with internet. My computer currently have no space for more video so I need to really clean things up. Good thing June holidays are around the corner, although its fully packed still.

Now the video... I would be fast to say I did not put in my all to it. It's just a simple compilation of normally filmed clips and it did not turned out super great. Especially with the voiceovers which I had overlooked the difficulty. So it was a total fail on my part, failed attempt on a 'documentary' in which the idea did not fit too well either. Like mixing Sydney Parkour in my own thing. So it was also a wrong move. Indeed I rushed it alittle too much because I did not have enough patience. But I think I put in quite some effort and the editing fitted well too, so whatever, haha. I'll try to make better videos, with filming needing the most work now.

After the gym on wednesday with Shaheed, went on to Clarkequay for abit of training and filming. Before that I did some training at my house void decks, glad to see I've nailed the low to high precision jump that I was aiming for, and abit of progression in jumps. But I forced myself too much time and time again at this really far 7.5 footsteps (of mine) SDC2LP. I always thought to myself inside that it is impactful and bad to push limits when it is just obviously too big, but still thought I could give it a small try just to note progress or something. See my poor self control in action.
OK lets stop digressing, Clarkequay now. My SDC haven't been too good in terms of progression and especially in control. I can no longer control the sdc2p and my sdc2cat was barely made it as well. My shoe is also gonna wear out so soon, the freaksion is deteriorating fast. Haven't tried wallpass for a long time, gonna be making it my weakest again. Tsk tsk. Was really tired halfway through, again. My focus now is to get controlled landings and precisions (including SDC2p). The running precision I did in the "this is me" is bullshit now I can't even do it. I guess I can only do it on certain days when I'm hyped. This usually occurs in jams, which I find weird. On those days I feel I have added power but the day after I felt like I lost it all. Weird shit. Flips training was also bullshit, I don't know what is so hard landing it one foot at a time man.. Gonna need to work on it...

Thursday was a good rest day.
Or not.
There's a little bit of progression in terms of socialising and friends now, I felt I'm closer with the friends I am with, and we managed to share the ups and downs of life together. They could understand me which I'm really happy about. But still I have trouble at times about talking to (certain) girls, which I must, just, speak up to now. Time's running out, what, it's June already (soon).
And.
I got back my results that day. Wasn't that great, but was still good. Not satisfied with Chinese (as usual), Amaths and Chemistry. The rest was fine but of course can still improve (like c.humans and english). Maybe my expectation is high, as I think I'm already considered very good among my peers, I just wanna get a one digit L1R4, or the least <11. I wouldn't say I performed very badly, but my Chinese, Olevels coming so soon, and I must pass it at least. Just get it over and done with, WELL.

Friday, which is today, I went to gym I got my 70kgx5repsx6sets which is good, but my pullups were total crap and I stopped after like 4 sets because I knew I'm too tired. Next week would be the final week of the volume phase, with the toughest of workout left to go.
Right after that I went to castle. Did more training. I think it was even more impactful as I did stuffs that I had poor control over. I was wanting to train my mind by doing the "one new thing each day" thing, and I got one of them. Which I think I'm satisfied with, but the another thing that I was quite frustrated over is the precision that I did last week and today I seem to take alot of tries. Which sucks when you know its a high elements and I must aim to get it in the first go. And all this missed drops seemed to build up alot of impact. My precisions lack control and I'm not fully confident with them at heights. It felt like I can no longer estimate the distance up high and I'm not sure how much power I need to use when I know the jump is really simple. I need more repetitions. But I'm getting back my confidence with rail precisions. Goodie.
Did not do runs today as well.

I got a really bad habit about the stuffs I do. Like flips and the seemingly big stuffs, I just take too much time to prepare and focus, and some unnecessary 'hyping up' on top of it all. Just breathe in breathe out, focus, thinking of how you're gonna do it, and then, DO IT. No need for so much preparations. Too much ain't good.

(UPDATE)
Saturday.
I woke up late two saturdays in a row, 1pm. So I was late for DB's jam and I was kinda lazy as well since over there is raining. Anyway, I still went out to train, rather unplanned, but since it didn't rain and I was itching to do something. In the end I went to castle AGAIN to drill stuffs. My pharkhour had improved but flips are still the same, rather bad. I'm happy of the stuffs, mostly leg power, that I could nail, the running cat is consistent now and I can land 2 hands nicely now, without totally alot of effort and the wallpass at the hdb blocks at castle are easee.
I felt my flips never improve, and the feeling sucks to the core. Its like, despite how easy the backflip is, when I learnt it like 1.5 years back, my backflip is still low as hell. I think others can do it much better with least time spent as well. Frontflips and sideflips shows no progress. Might even be 'deproving'. Sucks, but I really need to start practicing them more since they are my aim for this year.
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So movements, few goals.
More control in movements.
Faster.
More confident - stop taking to long before a move.