Yet another update 26/2.
Lol I have nothing better to do nowadays, blogging 3 days straight. I'm treating this as a training log. This will be quite a short one.
Today I went to gym and train my legs as usual. Did squats, for that it was really good. I did 2 sets of 10, 15, 20, 25, 30kg. I'm getting used to squats already. But I still want to stick to this. I don't wanna risk anymore injuries. Thats because my deadlifts still sucks. I was thinking to have a good deadlift today, but instead thanks to a good guy in the gym, he told me about my form. I seems that I straightened my knees then my back, which was something I realized long ago but I didn't thought that there was anything wrong with it.
This means I have loads of things to work on now. Squats, which once I find it really hard to do, is getting better. On the other hand, deadlifts, which one I thought I was pretty OK with it, needs some work. I will still be working on both, but deadlifts I really need to practice the form. Like I said, I'm gonna go the gym more often to start working on my legs. So I will take more time working on the form itself more then anything else. Why? Because at my age, I shouldn't be lifting too much. Secondly, bad form is harmful to joints/bones/body. I think its more important to be safe, to have the proper form, so when I'm lifting heavier, I will still be safe. And look I still have a long way to go, I'm not even 15 yet, so I shouldn't worry about the progression and how heavy I'm lifting for now. I now feel that good mornings is the most hardest and dangerous exercise so I will wait till I'm stronger and older.
Nevertheless today's training is good, unlike yesterday, because I learnt something. Imagine not realizing my bad form at all. Imagining doing the bad form all the way. At least I realize it and learn from it. We have to learn something everyday.
I went to Shino's ramp today after school before going home. I realize so many things more that can be done there. There is so many things to do. So much more things to nail, so much more ideas, its really fun. Just thats there is too much high level stuffs that I don't know how to work my way up there. Most likely to end up with ankle sprains, luckily minor.
Sprains are caused by sudden overstretching. Which means that my ankle is weak in its flexibility and its strength to absorb the impact (which is mainly because i'm doing impactful stuffs). I must start stretching more. More quads flexibility and hamstrings flexibility, ankle and wrist flexibility and stronger knee and shoulders. I find that somehow I need to tweak my pullups abit, I find that I go all the way down till my shoulder is out of the socket. Then pull up again, to get the speed I have to pull my shoulder into the socket then the speed will be faster. You won't get what I mean, but maybe I will find a way.
Oh yeah, seriously no joke, my pulling strength seriously sucks. It really gone down, I don't know why. I think I need rest, my upperbody is quite tired. But I still don't know. This really sucks, ahhh dammit.
Seriously I suddenly got addicted to making more videos already. Without actually making videos. Well its because I watched more and more videos and I have more and more ideas, and I want to test more and more of my skills to be able to make a good video and a video that I like.
Stupid work tomorrow, I guess I'll go sleep now.
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Another update 25/2.
Today I went down to the park at Simei and trained upperbody. I was thinking it would be better because at the playground there is alot of people at the roadside, but at the park there are people who are exercising so it doesn't matter much. That was true, but damn, over there is more crowded although they don't care, and somehow the pullup bars are high and hard for me to do weighted pullups when I have to jump. Plus the bar is harder to do muscleups, so today I focused on weightedpullups only and I only did like 5/6 muscleups. I'm not happy with today's training. I regretted training at the park, I should've trained at the playground. I don't think I pushed my body at all, its quite a waste of one training. And I find that I deteriorated in my weighted pullups too. Argh, I have to train back. My pulling strength has gone down, I feel that climbups are getting slower and harder. Pushing strength I didn't even train much. I don't know why.
I think its time to bring my upperbody training to a new level. Muscleups and weighted pullups is quite repetitive already. Although I have to stick with the 10kg pullups, I guess I will add more pushing exercises and stick to muscleups again, no choice. Ah well, this sucks.
Tomorrow I will be heading to the gym with GPJ to train my legs as usual. As I experimentated alot of the form this few days, I'm hoping my deadlifts and squats with improve, in terms of form. I don't want to lift heavy and I tell myself the most for squats is 30kg, and for deadlifts maximum 35kg. I have self-control, so I have to control myself. I still wanna train for functional hypertrophy because I don't think my body is accustomed to lifting yet. I also want to aim for speed in lifting rather then lifting heavier. I'm thinking of a good training tomorrow, I hope I would be disappointed.
Like usual wednesday will be a day of rest, working again, and eating mcwings again. So sad. Oh well, in my mind I'm not really wanting to buy my camcorder ASAP, but I know I really want it. I'm earning money now but I don't know what should I spend it on. I have to award myself once in awhile for working; I don't wanna work for nothing. I'm thinking of buying one more track pants and more clothes. I'll see.
Oh and, I feel that it is time to focus more and strength. I know myself that I'm 100% sure I couldn't survive without training movements at least once a week. So I guess 2 days of rest (wednesday and saturday), and 4 days of strength, one day at gym and movements. I find that training upperbody is really boring. Damn. I really need to motivate myself. I don't feel liek training uperbody today but I know that I have to or else I will waste a day of training. I will defiintiely train my legs more but I also definitely need to have rest. I guess 3 days of strength, 2 days movements. 2 legs (and core) 1 upperbody.
Feel that I have to state that I love both movements and strength training. Definitely movements are more fun, the feeling of doing those movements and how I train is so fun, the freedom and expression is great. Strength training is good because after the training I'm happy that I spend today training my strength, I know that tomorrow I will get stronger no matter what amount. And I'm happy that I have the self-discipline to push myself through the tiredness. Also its quite fun, squatting and deadlifting. Upperbody is boring for one reason, its quite repetitive as days goes by. Boring is no longer fun, when its not fun there is no use. Fun is an important aspect in training. I have to vary my upperbody more right now, and I know I have to still train them.
I'm thinking I should start planning what are my goals. Long time since I actually have aims in mind. I will start of with my progression.
Like I said yesterday my broad jump has increased a few cms which I'm really happy, long time since my precision length had actually increased. But I have to keep in mind that I don't keep doing my maximum jumps, and not to be complacent and still drill my 50 reps of 60% max. Balancing has gone up by alot, especially cat balancing. I can do it fast too, although some parts will be uncontrolled. I can balance but one thing about quadrupedalling is its quite tiring. Damn. Wall pass is still very inconsistent although I've learnt more about them. My rolls are still on and off. Sometimes I will feel pain, sometimes they are smoooth, but whatever is I have to continue drilling. SDC also improved alot, and generally my movements feels faster and I have better fluidity and "instincts". Armjumps also had improved by alittle bit.
Longterm goals. (hoping to achieve this by the end of this year)
- Planche EN force. For this I never actually at all. Just remembering about it and I should seriously start training for them. Doing more muscleup negatives too. But seeing my muscleups is still not 100%, I guess it will take some time to get them.
- 2x bodyweight squats. In other words I'm aiming like at least 100kg squats. its way more then the 1.5x bodyewight which in the minimum for plyos. But I know that if I do more then 2x bodyweight it is extra safe and extra strong.
- Be extra strong and flexible in every joints and muscles. In particuarly wrists, knees, ankles.
- Better self-control. Self-explanatory, common sense. I just hope to stop killing my knees, and stop doing stupid things. And stop bailing for gods sake.
Short-term goals. (no due date :P)
- Film my goddamn sampler!
- Train tricking more often, and get aerial and kick the moon. Better backflip.
- Handstands please.
- Straight-armed climbups.
- Start training the "untrained elements".
- 3days of strength, 2days of movements/gym, 2days of working/rest.
Vidoes I'm working on.
- Obviously my sampler.
- Tampines joy (wow, I've been waiting half a year already)
- My strength training (a remake)
- Untrained elements (including creativity training and teamwork parkour!)
- Artistic video (more of a video concentrating on the editing more then the moves)
- Normal training videos
- By the end of the year, a documentary. (for this it will be a big project and I need alot of help.)
Of course there are more goals and other stuffs but these are the main ones.
I've talked enough, and I have to shut up.
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Update Sunday 24/2:
Wow its nearing the end of Feb already. Just goes to show how fast time fades past us just like that. When we train, easily 2hours will be gone, super fast. When we are using the computer, doing tests, watching tv, 2hours can be gone just like that again. When we are not doing anything, or studying, or working, time past as slow as snails. This just sucks, but we all know that time is constant, although sometimes we feel that it does not. And we sleep another 8hours+ are gone, even faster. We left like 60years of life, we shouldn't waste anymore time. We only have 24hours a day.
Thrusday and Friday was cool, technical training. On Thrusday I did movements at castle and only castle. Was a good training, although I feel that there was some weird irritating bails as usual. Will elaborate about that later on. A few impactful stuffs I must say, but I think its ok. Good repetitions at the end of the training. Friday was a really good day. Raining and raining, but was at gym. I didn't do much there, but I was kinda mind training. I find that my backflips sucks. I got alot more work to do in Tricking. ALOT. But slowly. After gym was a night training, which was really good, although alot of time wasted, I've got nothing to say. I conquered a wall at Simei, which was a good one, really happy. Learnt alot about wallpasses. Focusing and breathing was learnt too.
Just now was great. I guess. I went to 497 and climbed the wall as usual, but lol, I realize my wallpass rely quite alot with the speed and run up. Something I should work on. And it rained. Lol wtf rain sucks!>!1!!!one!!!!!!!!!! Took bus 81 to interchange, wanted to go gym and train instead, but wtf mircales, not rainings at interchange area, went to shino not wet at all. WTF magic. HAHAHA incredible stuffs though. Did alot of stuffs there. Double minor sprains on my ankles thanks to the rail at the ramp. ONE DAY I will nail the level to level SDC2P. There is a new electronic meter box there, I wonder if I'm at a higher level, I could use that to do something crazy, lol. Next time.
Anyway I almost nailed the sdc to armjump. But I landed on the rail, and sprained my ankle abit. I think I'm quite close to the level to level sdc2p as I landed on the rail once, and sprained my ankle again. Fuck those rails, irritating as hell. I love shinos ramp now. There is things for basics, and for really high level. ALOT. Give me another two years and I will own Shinos ramp. Haha.
And I did alittle bit of tricking at the playground, as I wanna get over my backflip fear on pplayground mats. I did a backflip there and I kept doing and practicing. My backflips is getting better, more practice it will be a good one. Aerials are really hard, I hate them, but I must get them one day. Again I need alot of practice on that one. My next aim is to get the aerial, my to-do list for tricking for now.
I'm quite shocked that I can almost nailed a super far precision jump. I really feel that squats and deadlift improve my broad jump by alot. Although those are bad landings and maximum jumps, I didn't regret it because with that I saw how much I improved with my leg strength.
As I was saying again, bails are inevitable, but it can be avoided when you focus, think before doing something, check your surroundings, be aware, be smart, not to do things over your limit. But sometimes, unexpectedly, bails will happen. How would you know that the tiny crack can harm you? Sometimes its just unlucky, which is really sucky. But, my self-control seems to be improve, although a small amount, it will improve and it will continue to improve. Sometimes I have to give in, I cannot expect it to be gone just like that, as long as I slowly progress until the stage where I don't do stupid things anymore. But for now I must try my best to stop doing those stupid things. That is if I have the self-control to control myself. To control myself. I have to.
Friday went I go to gym, I met this guy (fucking shit I forget his name), he is NC's friend, met him before, but that day he teached me alot about self-defense. I learnt that to survive, we must be strong, learn how to escape (parkour), learn how to fight (self-defense), and how to survive *(survivalism). I'm not yet into survivalism yet, but I really want to start learning how to fight and such, because in my opinion it is more practical then Parkour. I can say by training Parkour I'm quite strong in how I handle my bodyweight only. But when it comes to lifting heavy objects, I'm weak as fuck, so I'm doing lotsa weight training now. Lotsa people think that weight training is to gain unnecessary bulk, those people don't have a clue. Seriously, if you train properly, you won't gain much bulk. Some hypertrophy is inevitable, but when you train properly, more weight and less reps, hypertrophic effect is reduced by alot. Weights are the best way to gain strength too. Oh well.
Anyway back to topic. Also when it comes to fighting, I'm weak as fuck. Thats why its time to learn some basic self-defense. I don't want to learn how to fight to fight people and show them I'm so strong and superior, that will only be for stupid people who abuse their abilities. I don't like to fight, but in situation that I have to, at least I'm prepared. I guess I have to start training.
My nutrition kinda start to suck now, full of junk and processed food. I have to start eating healthier, more meat less junk. Fuck macdonalds. I hope I can stop eating mcwings. Whatever. I'm having stomach upset more often. Argh this sucks.
Working for alittle bit boring, alittle bit fun, sometimes really irritating with irritating managers, but sometimes ok with fun people. I hate working at the lobby, I like working at kiosk. I learnt how to work at counter. Sometimes tiring, sometimes pretty fun. It's just a new experience.
Studies, next week will come the tests. I hate my Chinese, fuck it. Sucks like hell. I need tuition for it. I don't know how well I did in my tests. I will see.
I wanna start making my sampler as soon as next week. Hahahaha, the fun comes! After my sampler I will still continue to make more videos, I really love making videos, and filming. I will make alot of videos. I wanna test my editing skills. And all that is capture is the best way to see and recall as memories. Who cares about people who thinks that videos are show-off, and videos are made to with all the fancy editing and hardcore music to make the video more showy, cooler, attention wanting. Whatever man, seriously, whatever bitches.
Sometimes I think that if we keep thinking of something that we really want, something that we know we can do it, we believe we can do it. Just constant imaging and visualization of it, thinking of it everyday, everywhere, it will become reality. Giving it time and patience, of course.
The "mind-training" on Friday was great. I would want to emphasize on it now.
If you think about friends, no doubt friends are important and good. But many people rely on them too much. When friends say I cannot go out when they wanna watch a movie, they will feel sad. Sometimes its good to learn how to have the self-discipline to do things for yourself. If you friends go slack instead of studying for the test tomorrow, do you do the same? No, you go home and study, because you have the self-control to not get influence by them. Sometimes friends can be irritating. We need to find out our true friends, good friends that you can really trust and not one that will end. A friendship that can end doesn't even started (lol). I've yet to find out yet. They are hard to come by.
And society nowadays is so ruined, so fucked up, so retarded. I don't know whats wrong with them. Look around, you will see people doing stupid stuffs like smoking, slacking around making nuisance, acting like some gangsters, so vain, blah blah blah. Just retarded. Its ok to have good friends and go out with them to watch movies and etc. But don't make it a staple.
BGR nowadays. Its like a game. Break stead break stead BREAK STEAD and repeat. Lol, looking back how retarded I was to have a stead. Seriously I don't believe in BGR in a few things. First I doesn't work at the age of 15, we are still young and can't think properly yet, only when you are poly or so maybe BGR can work. Secondly, since the society so retarded and ruined like this, only one out of a thousands can actually be a serious relationship. How would we know whether the other party really like us? What does "I love you", "Hello dear", "Muacks", "Sweet dreams" means nowadays? Its just some bunch of words which are used to sweet talk others, and they don't even mean the word AT ALL, NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY. Must you say that to show that you really love her? People keep complaining and feel bad when their girl don't say that to him. ITS JUST RETARDED.
The best is to keep in silence. Real love doesn't need be shown. Small things are worth alot of things, thats it. Keep it small, being big doesn't mean anything. Seriously guys, BGR is just stupid. SERIOUSLY, please understand please, wake up suckers.
Life is just so complex. You are bound to meet people you don't like.
I havent found the real purpose of life yet. Even told yourself why are you living? Because of the sake of living? Nah. I've been loving life right now. I need to appreciate it more. As the reason get clearer everyday, I'm still finding the purpose of living. We all still need to find it too. We dont want to live without a reason and wait for death while doing stupid things. Wake up guys. Life is precious. Its only when we are about to die and then we start to cherish it more. Something that I find very wrong. Everyone should respect and listen to their bodies.
I need to start sleeping more. Rest more.
Blog is quite dead, but who cares. No one reads.
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Strength training.
Yesterday was upperbody, same as normal as every other upperbody, just that this time I filmed abit of them, and didn't really count the reps. My weighted pullups and muscleups had definitely improved. OAC negative was better, but not controlled enough yet. I will continue with my weighted pullups and muscleups, I just need to do alittle bit more pushing. I need to get a correct one-armed pushup :P.
Today was gym. The first time I train at a gym alone. Was a good session for squats, but too much for deadlifts. I guess I should stick around 30/35kg for maximum for now. Same for squats. I need to gain functional hypertrophy and get better in form, especially in deadlifts. Although I deadlift alot, more then my squats, I find that deadlift is harder. I need to learn how to not round my back even in everyday activities. Squats was ok, did a 30kg squat, was quite heavy, but I can't believe I did it. Although a few of them was sloppy because of lacking focus. Need to lift faster not heavier. I need to give it time. Form is important when it comes to weights. But I find that being alone at the gym was a good experience. Need to be self-reliant ;).
Tomorrow will be work+rest.
Thursday will be movements.
Friday will be gym.
Saturday will be work+rest.
Sunday will be legs again.
Planning to do more lowerbody workout because again it is more important then arms in Parkour, as we need alot of explosiveness in our legs. And strong to resist landing. I wanna feel light when I'm doing movements, which means it will requires lotsa leg strength and power. I really wanna learn olympic weightlifting, I am sure there are some weightlifters in Singapore, and there is some gyms and coaches in Singapore. I'm going find them and hopefully learn them.
But before going to weightlifting, I'll make sure I could do 2x bodyweight squats and maybe 2x bodyweight deadlifts, both with good forms (they are like prerequisites). By then my legs will be strong.
Movements again, more repetitions, be focus, bail lesser, stick to what is planned, do not do things over my limits, do not do maximum jumps, stick to 70%/80% of max. Train properly, correctly, progress at a gradual progressive incremental rate. Train fluidity, runs, endurance, experimenting with techniques like breathing. Hope I can benefits from training more instead of killing my joints.
Tricking too, and I wanna train it properly. And other bar tricks, other art of movements. Lol.
Can't wait till I reached puberty and get done and over with. Then I will no longer be regarded as a "small kid". Hopefully I will be much taller, stronger (more muscles developed), definitely more mature, and weigh heavier. For now keep training, train safe, and eat alot! More meat, more egg, more healthier food, more protein, less junkies (fuck my job).
Just need to state that from previous training, even that you are focused and everything, sometimes things can fuck up and you will be irritated as shit. Its sometimes meant to happen (fuck fate, i dont believe in it but), sometimes naturally we succumbed to temptation to eat fast food, sometimes its because of lack of focus, carelessness, stupidity, or just, you know like "drunk"? Can't think properly. I don't wish to live life everyday coming back thinking about what I did, keep remorsing, keep worrying, keep regretting, and keep repeating everything again. I don't know when this will end. Because I said this again and again and again and again and again, but it still repeat. I can see that I'm forcing myself more to stay focused and have more self-control, hopefully one day all this fucking shit will end. I have to control myself.
More rest and sleep is needed, more food is needed, more good food and healthiness is needed, and more strength and technical training is needed, more hardwork, effort and determination is needed, more time and patience needed, more self-control and self-discipline is needed, more sacrifaces and learning journeys, obstacles and hardships will come.
We should still need to understand why we are doing this, because its LIFE, and we chose to do this, as we can easily say NO, IM LAZY. and stop doing everything, we CHOSE to do this, and we WANT to. enjoy now because you only have 60 years from till you meet your grave. 1hour is worth so many things. Stop complaining and giving excuses, get out of here and do something productive.
Update on Saturday.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
What I want to do.
Update 14/2/08 Thrusday:
It was a great training just now. I'm happy with todays training. Firstly, trained at castle. And after that I went home and slack awhile, and went to Tampines North Park and train, and train, and train. Until 7.45pm I think.
I feel quite rusty after a good break from Parkour. I feel a little better in my precisions and vaults, and my fluidity, but my wall pass and climbups are getting weaker, something I must work on. Rolls are improving and balance is suckier. Whatever, I'm still happy.
Because it doesn't matter. Time, patience, hardwork.
Training consists of alot of repetitions on runs, vaults, training fluidity, precisions jumps. 2nd part is just some wall pass attempt, which I totally suck at. At North Park's ramp, although quite plain and boring, it can actually be quite good and fun, and the fitness corner over there too, and the playground at the other side, they are great places. My fluidity improved alot, so did my SDC (shockingly, because seriously I never train them much). I almost accidentally nailed the SDC to precision, and I will get them one day, when I think and I feel that I can. I need to work alot on my reverse and my "inside" lazy :P. Well, I learnt something, always bring money/water with you, before you got dehydrated like me, but its quite minor. But especially when the sun's hot and you are doing runs. Oh well, I dont have any money at that time, good timing.
I guess I should start experimenting with breathing techniques, to improve my overall stamina.
Don't know why, but I still have some minor bails, like clipping a dash and bail a precision landing. I will need to take some time to better my focus so that I dont have any other bullshits.
Something I really don't like is the gay public. People will come and bother you, by keep staring at you 24/7. Or even bother you like saying stuffs like "Oi boy your parkour AH?"/"You playing parkour?"/"CHEY PARKOUR SEH!", etc. etc. And they mostly come from malays, call me racist or a bastard, but fuck, malays are fucking irritating. This is true, because it is, don't argue, because if you do, you are as irritating, thus agreeing to the FACT that malays are fucking irritating, and seriously they are irritating, and its true, damn true. Irritating as rats running every in garbage incinerators. Chinese usually doesn't care, unless they are ahbengs ahlians, but malays does that everytime, because of the fact that they are irritating. IRRITATING LAH SIA!
Seriously this kind of things sucks. If only people are more friendly, at least smile or the best, dont do anything, just act normal, don't stare, or talk shits. Aiyah, Singaporeans mah, what shit country is this, How I wish I stay at England. I hate Singapore, bullshit country. I don't know why I'm born here, so unlucky. Unlucky as fuck. Who wants to stay at Singapore sia, I wanna go work at England, and its true sia. Sia. SIA.
And I was asked what am I practicing? I just said, the art of movement, because I don't really like the word Parkour, because in Singapore, those lame malays made it sound like some kind of crap. CRAP I say. Best still I will say i'm training to live life or practicing life. I will say that, trust me you unknown random readers, because stupid posers will only say "I Parkour! I play Parkour!" Lololololololololololololololololol.
But anyway, the uncle who asked me the question is quite friendly, at least they don't say things like "Dangerous ah! Don't play!"/"Stop disgracing the neighbourhood!" Haha, public. But I have to get used to it, because Singapore don't have any quiet places, unless I go England. What to do? Singapore sucks mah. Mah. MAH.
Lame sia Singapore. I wanna quit Singapore. Resign.
Oh well, can't do anything because I'm unlucky. What else can I talk about?
Back to training talk again. Overall today I listened to my body, and did not much impactful stuffs. Although I feel tired because of alot of repetitions from todays training, abit too much landings from those vaults, you know you know. And I also trained some runs spontaneously, I think thats the word, but what I mean is like I don't think of the movements, just do what came to mind or what I subconsciously did, unlike planned movements. Its quite fun and even from that I learn from it naturally, by using your hands to gain more height. Lets not talk about it, figure out yourself, random readers of my blog.
Hmmm, and also I did a few wall pass attempt at the "wall that I did like 100 attempts on" again, and I totally lose my skills. I thought it was quite easy, but fuck it. My wall pass sucks, I need to train back them, starting back to castle's wall. Get used to the technique. Slowly I can train on ungrippy walls and higher walls.
Then going back, instead of going home straight, I go train my balance, which seriously sucken. Oh well, need to keep training them. I keep doing until I did 2 rounds without falling. And also tried balancing at a height (relax, just one storey high), its damn scary when you lean to the side where the big drop is. But I managed to motivate myself to get the balance done before going home. Today was quite good, and I'm happy. Less impacts, more repetitions. More focus, less stupidity. Tomorrow will be another day of training, first tricking then some night training.
Studies are gonna get tougher. I really need to work on my Chinese, something that I cannot run away from. A maths are improving I hope. Next week will be the real test. I need to really start study. Rest days and less time on this computer. I will work on my self-control right now. And I will, because I will, and because I want to. This is self-control. Everything you do is created and done by you, as you control yourself. So please, I must work on my self-control too.
Willpower + time + patience + hardwork + self-discipline = success.
I need self-discipline. This is self-discipline.
Life will no longer be the same.
A last update on Saturday. (I need to make more videos!)
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Update 12/2/08:
Just a small update.
Monday was a weird day. I end school going to the hotspot I thought would be good, in the end it wasn't that good, and I did some really stupid stuffs too. Blame my stupidity, bad focus, not thinking before doing things, and bad self-control, and also maybe ego. Did some really stupid big drops, which is really stupid. Once is already, but 5 times, wow. Oh well, whats done cannot be undoned. Thinking back the old days was really dam stupid, I still remember how many big impactful drops I did, and also even now I'm doing alot of maximum jumps. My knee is definitely screwed up in a way. And how am I gonna repair them? This is my plan.
I'm gonna do alot more squats and deadlifts, practicing good/perfect form, lifting for functional hypertrophy, training for base leg strength, so that my knee is strong, my lower back and ankles are strong. This should make my knee stronger. And I wanna eat glucosamine, if I could. And obviously no more big impactful drops or maximum jumps. I always succumb to temptation of doing big stuffs, something that I really need to think about and control myself, which is gonna be hard but I need to force myself now, before I regret. I never think before doing stuffs, which really sucks. My mind is really retarded, I don't learn from mistakes unlike others, and I keep repeating the mistakes over and over, and I keep regretting. I really hope I can change as soon as now. I have to listen to my body and what is right. Not only say, but more action please.
Now I learnt that we all human beings should be self-reliant. I can see that alot of people like to go out with friends, rely on others, etc. I want to ask you guys. What are you alone? What if you have no friends, can you still live? And, do you let other affect you? Seriously after thinking alot, I can see that classmates of mine and rely on others to be a person. They always hang out with friends, talk to them, joke around with them and full of other nonsense. Not saying having friends are bad, but you should learn how to rely on yourself, and survive alone. For example, what if you are the only one on Earth? Can you still live? I should start training alone, think for myself, think before questioning others, do stuffs alone, learn basic survival skills.
And seriously (I'm seriously serious in saying this serious paragraph), I find that I should stop training with people whom I get easily distracted, and I know you know who you are, this is no offence, but the truth (tooth). When I seriously wanna train seriously, then seriously, I seriously don't want to get distracted, seriously. And I'm seriously serious, seriously.
Great, strength training yesterday and today was quite good. And I need to continue training like this for strength training. I've yet to train movements, on this Thrusday I will, and I seriously wanna train seriously. And some mind training on that day itself too.
Nutrition had improved greatly, except the fact that during CNY I ate alot of shit, and also Mcdonalds made me eat their junk food. This sucks. Although I think I should start eating even more healthier and more variety, I'm eating alot of protein and carbonhydrates nowadays. I also eat alot, which is good because I'm growing. But I dont wanna gain too much weight from eating too much, so I must start some cardio :P.
Oh well, all for today, tomorrow will be a rest day because of stupid work.
I will update of Thrusday and Saturday.
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As Chinese New Year finally finished, I think I rest enough.
Full of eating shit foods and slacking alot. Oh well, time to really change.
My injury is getting recovered, I still feel pain sometimes when I put pressure on it, so I will give a few more days of rest, as in, rest from movements. Tomorrow I plan to go gym for some heavy effort squats and deadlifts, and Tuesday some upperbody training (muscleups, weighted pullups, one armed pushups), and Wednesday a final break from everything. I guess after that my toe is healed and I'm back to train movements, so on Thrusday, movements, loads of repetitions, "real" training. Friday to gym and trick, plus night training.
I think its time to refresh my whole training overall. In this break, I realize stuffs that I want to do, and what I really and stupidly did wrong last time. I want to renew myself, and change for the better. As days and time flies past us, and as we watch the world goes by, we realize more and more what we really want, and we realize what life is about. I have goals in my mind for the future and I really wish to work towards it and start now. Saving money, learning stuffs, prepare myself.
For parkour, I know that I've been doing alot of stupid stuffs at the past, and its nearly 1 year of training, so I think its time to train properly, correctly and seriously. I don't want to keep regretting and repeating the same mistakes over and over again, because thats really stupid. As I know I've been always wanting to progress fast and nail harder and bigger stuffs, but I realize whats the use of it. It will just result in injury, short-term or long-term, and many other things else. I guess there is no rush, no hurry, just take as long as I want to get it. Its not too late to change. Progressing is good, its a way to push our limits and take up new challenges. But too fast is bad. I will be doing most of my stuffs round 60% or 70% of my maximum, and at the very most 90%.
Second thing is, focus. I always have bad focus and easily get distracted by things. And because of this I bail or land stuffs uncontrolled. Sometimes I never think before I jump. Focus in every single jump and movement I do.
And for training I will do alot of repetitions, focusing on landing every jump soft and controlled. Train my balance and rolls, climbups, control, fluidity, explosiveness and move more relaxed. I don't any more unnecessary impacts or worst, I really wish to start treating my body well and listen to it. More strength training would be expected.
Training alone and at night more often because it is that time where I can focus alot better, and where everything is more peaceful and calm, silent and chilled. Its one of the nicest feeling yet.
Next.
I really wish to practice tricking more often, and learn more movements, as much as possible. Life is short, I should learn as many things which are worth learning as possible. I guess at least once a week. And as much whenever I can. On my list now is sideflip, aerial, kick the moon, roundoff to backflip. I guess I will take a very long time, but as long as I practice, my patience and effort will pay off. As tricking is a good form of expression and an art of movement, they are one of the things that I love to practice. Handbalancing and abit of caporeira are part of them.
Whats else?
Filming. I guess I feel that I'm really interested in them and I'm really sure I want to be a cameramen, filmmaker and video editor in the future and in my career. I'm starting to save up for a Canon HV20, the cheapest HD camcorder. I've researced alot and I hope I won't regret buying this, like I always do in everything else. I should start learning and practice on how to film and how to edit. And read up more about cameras and the such. I'm pretty sure my knowledge in them still sucks and I need to learn more. I want to go to Singapore Poly, and to make sure of that I must start learning and study hard to get into that school. I will take up Media and Communications and learn about videography. And take up rockclimbing as a CCA. I heard that SP has good training spots as well as some good crash mats at the rockclimbing hall. This is what I have in mind and I hope I can work towards it.
And my March sampler. I'm gonna make it but it might be postponed. The video is more of a test of my video editing and filming. Got a few things in mind and I hope the video will be good.
Working at Macdonalds. I don't know about it, but I need money. I think I will keep working here until I find a better job. No choice anyway, the best job for my age. The job still sucks, quite a waste of time for just $3.40 per hr. But I need to persevere. At least they are giving me money. I'm only 14. I only work for 12 hours a week, 2 days a week. So I think I can cope.
Studies, schools, and homeworks. I just need to pay more attention in class.
I want to do what I want to do.
This break although short, made me really want to move, but I can't because of my injury. I feel like training, but I can't because of CNY, as parents don't allow. Hope I can be happy with life and things would come my way one day. Time ticks away so fast, its already 1 year of practice in one more short month. Life is short, we should start taking things slowly, if you get what I mean. Thats why we shouldn't waste time. Rest when needed, have some fun, slack abit, but make use of time, and make use of life.
Just to sum up - Training more towards repetition, control, 60% - 70% of maximum, at most 90%, and train explosiveness, balance, rolls, fluidity, breathing, runs. More strength training. Trick more often, practice more handbalancing. Take things slowly, progressing steadily and a comfortable rate. Train more alone, and at night. More focused in training. Make sampler arund March. Don't waste time, make use of it. Practice more filming and make more videos, save money for camcorder and for the future. Pay attention in class. Be happy. Have fun when doing all this. Be serious when doing all this.
Bye. (I will update this post on Saturday.)
It was a great training just now. I'm happy with todays training. Firstly, trained at castle. And after that I went home and slack awhile, and went to Tampines North Park and train, and train, and train. Until 7.45pm I think.
I feel quite rusty after a good break from Parkour. I feel a little better in my precisions and vaults, and my fluidity, but my wall pass and climbups are getting weaker, something I must work on. Rolls are improving and balance is suckier. Whatever, I'm still happy.
Because it doesn't matter. Time, patience, hardwork.
Training consists of alot of repetitions on runs, vaults, training fluidity, precisions jumps. 2nd part is just some wall pass attempt, which I totally suck at. At North Park's ramp, although quite plain and boring, it can actually be quite good and fun, and the fitness corner over there too, and the playground at the other side, they are great places. My fluidity improved alot, so did my SDC (shockingly, because seriously I never train them much). I almost accidentally nailed the SDC to precision, and I will get them one day, when I think and I feel that I can. I need to work alot on my reverse and my "inside" lazy :P. Well, I learnt something, always bring money/water with you, before you got dehydrated like me, but its quite minor. But especially when the sun's hot and you are doing runs. Oh well, I dont have any money at that time, good timing.
I guess I should start experimenting with breathing techniques, to improve my overall stamina.
Don't know why, but I still have some minor bails, like clipping a dash and bail a precision landing. I will need to take some time to better my focus so that I dont have any other bullshits.
Something I really don't like is the gay public. People will come and bother you, by keep staring at you 24/7. Or even bother you like saying stuffs like "Oi boy your parkour AH?"/"You playing parkour?"/"CHEY PARKOUR SEH!", etc. etc. And they mostly come from malays, call me racist or a bastard, but fuck, malays are fucking irritating. This is true, because it is, don't argue, because if you do, you are as irritating, thus agreeing to the FACT that malays are fucking irritating, and seriously they are irritating, and its true, damn true. Irritating as rats running every in garbage incinerators. Chinese usually doesn't care, unless they are ahbengs ahlians, but malays does that everytime, because of the fact that they are irritating. IRRITATING LAH SIA!
Seriously this kind of things sucks. If only people are more friendly, at least smile or the best, dont do anything, just act normal, don't stare, or talk shits. Aiyah, Singaporeans mah, what shit country is this, How I wish I stay at England. I hate Singapore, bullshit country. I don't know why I'm born here, so unlucky. Unlucky as fuck. Who wants to stay at Singapore sia, I wanna go work at England, and its true sia. Sia. SIA.
And I was asked what am I practicing? I just said, the art of movement, because I don't really like the word Parkour, because in Singapore, those lame malays made it sound like some kind of crap. CRAP I say. Best still I will say i'm training to live life or practicing life. I will say that, trust me you unknown random readers, because stupid posers will only say "I Parkour! I play Parkour!" Lololololololololololololololololol.
But anyway, the uncle who asked me the question is quite friendly, at least they don't say things like "Dangerous ah! Don't play!"/"Stop disgracing the neighbourhood!" Haha, public. But I have to get used to it, because Singapore don't have any quiet places, unless I go England. What to do? Singapore sucks mah. Mah. MAH.
Lame sia Singapore. I wanna quit Singapore. Resign.
Oh well, can't do anything because I'm unlucky. What else can I talk about?
Back to training talk again. Overall today I listened to my body, and did not much impactful stuffs. Although I feel tired because of alot of repetitions from todays training, abit too much landings from those vaults, you know you know. And I also trained some runs spontaneously, I think thats the word, but what I mean is like I don't think of the movements, just do what came to mind or what I subconsciously did, unlike planned movements. Its quite fun and even from that I learn from it naturally, by using your hands to gain more height. Lets not talk about it, figure out yourself, random readers of my blog.
Hmmm, and also I did a few wall pass attempt at the "wall that I did like 100 attempts on" again, and I totally lose my skills. I thought it was quite easy, but fuck it. My wall pass sucks, I need to train back them, starting back to castle's wall. Get used to the technique. Slowly I can train on ungrippy walls and higher walls.
Then going back, instead of going home straight, I go train my balance, which seriously sucken. Oh well, need to keep training them. I keep doing until I did 2 rounds without falling. And also tried balancing at a height (relax, just one storey high), its damn scary when you lean to the side where the big drop is. But I managed to motivate myself to get the balance done before going home. Today was quite good, and I'm happy. Less impacts, more repetitions. More focus, less stupidity. Tomorrow will be another day of training, first tricking then some night training.
Studies are gonna get tougher. I really need to work on my Chinese, something that I cannot run away from. A maths are improving I hope. Next week will be the real test. I need to really start study. Rest days and less time on this computer. I will work on my self-control right now. And I will, because I will, and because I want to. This is self-control. Everything you do is created and done by you, as you control yourself. So please, I must work on my self-control too.
Willpower + time + patience + hardwork + self-discipline = success.
I need self-discipline. This is self-discipline.
Life will no longer be the same.
A last update on Saturday. (I need to make more videos!)
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Update 12/2/08:
Just a small update.
Monday was a weird day. I end school going to the hotspot I thought would be good, in the end it wasn't that good, and I did some really stupid stuffs too. Blame my stupidity, bad focus, not thinking before doing things, and bad self-control, and also maybe ego. Did some really stupid big drops, which is really stupid. Once is already, but 5 times, wow. Oh well, whats done cannot be undoned. Thinking back the old days was really dam stupid, I still remember how many big impactful drops I did, and also even now I'm doing alot of maximum jumps. My knee is definitely screwed up in a way. And how am I gonna repair them? This is my plan.
I'm gonna do alot more squats and deadlifts, practicing good/perfect form, lifting for functional hypertrophy, training for base leg strength, so that my knee is strong, my lower back and ankles are strong. This should make my knee stronger. And I wanna eat glucosamine, if I could. And obviously no more big impactful drops or maximum jumps. I always succumb to temptation of doing big stuffs, something that I really need to think about and control myself, which is gonna be hard but I need to force myself now, before I regret. I never think before doing stuffs, which really sucks. My mind is really retarded, I don't learn from mistakes unlike others, and I keep repeating the mistakes over and over, and I keep regretting. I really hope I can change as soon as now. I have to listen to my body and what is right. Not only say, but more action please.
Now I learnt that we all human beings should be self-reliant. I can see that alot of people like to go out with friends, rely on others, etc. I want to ask you guys. What are you alone? What if you have no friends, can you still live? And, do you let other affect you? Seriously after thinking alot, I can see that classmates of mine and rely on others to be a person. They always hang out with friends, talk to them, joke around with them and full of other nonsense. Not saying having friends are bad, but you should learn how to rely on yourself, and survive alone. For example, what if you are the only one on Earth? Can you still live? I should start training alone, think for myself, think before questioning others, do stuffs alone, learn basic survival skills.
And seriously (I'm seriously serious in saying this serious paragraph), I find that I should stop training with people whom I get easily distracted, and I know you know who you are, this is no offence, but the truth (tooth). When I seriously wanna train seriously, then seriously, I seriously don't want to get distracted, seriously. And I'm seriously serious, seriously.
Great, strength training yesterday and today was quite good. And I need to continue training like this for strength training. I've yet to train movements, on this Thrusday I will, and I seriously wanna train seriously. And some mind training on that day itself too.
Nutrition had improved greatly, except the fact that during CNY I ate alot of shit, and also Mcdonalds made me eat their junk food. This sucks. Although I think I should start eating even more healthier and more variety, I'm eating alot of protein and carbonhydrates nowadays. I also eat alot, which is good because I'm growing. But I dont wanna gain too much weight from eating too much, so I must start some cardio :P.
Oh well, all for today, tomorrow will be a rest day because of stupid work.
I will update of Thrusday and Saturday.
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As Chinese New Year finally finished, I think I rest enough.
Full of eating shit foods and slacking alot. Oh well, time to really change.
My injury is getting recovered, I still feel pain sometimes when I put pressure on it, so I will give a few more days of rest, as in, rest from movements. Tomorrow I plan to go gym for some heavy effort squats and deadlifts, and Tuesday some upperbody training (muscleups, weighted pullups, one armed pushups), and Wednesday a final break from everything. I guess after that my toe is healed and I'm back to train movements, so on Thrusday, movements, loads of repetitions, "real" training. Friday to gym and trick, plus night training.
I think its time to refresh my whole training overall. In this break, I realize stuffs that I want to do, and what I really and stupidly did wrong last time. I want to renew myself, and change for the better. As days and time flies past us, and as we watch the world goes by, we realize more and more what we really want, and we realize what life is about. I have goals in my mind for the future and I really wish to work towards it and start now. Saving money, learning stuffs, prepare myself.
For parkour, I know that I've been doing alot of stupid stuffs at the past, and its nearly 1 year of training, so I think its time to train properly, correctly and seriously. I don't want to keep regretting and repeating the same mistakes over and over again, because thats really stupid. As I know I've been always wanting to progress fast and nail harder and bigger stuffs, but I realize whats the use of it. It will just result in injury, short-term or long-term, and many other things else. I guess there is no rush, no hurry, just take as long as I want to get it. Its not too late to change. Progressing is good, its a way to push our limits and take up new challenges. But too fast is bad. I will be doing most of my stuffs round 60% or 70% of my maximum, and at the very most 90%.
Second thing is, focus. I always have bad focus and easily get distracted by things. And because of this I bail or land stuffs uncontrolled. Sometimes I never think before I jump. Focus in every single jump and movement I do.
And for training I will do alot of repetitions, focusing on landing every jump soft and controlled. Train my balance and rolls, climbups, control, fluidity, explosiveness and move more relaxed. I don't any more unnecessary impacts or worst, I really wish to start treating my body well and listen to it. More strength training would be expected.
Training alone and at night more often because it is that time where I can focus alot better, and where everything is more peaceful and calm, silent and chilled. Its one of the nicest feeling yet.
Next.
I really wish to practice tricking more often, and learn more movements, as much as possible. Life is short, I should learn as many things which are worth learning as possible. I guess at least once a week. And as much whenever I can. On my list now is sideflip, aerial, kick the moon, roundoff to backflip. I guess I will take a very long time, but as long as I practice, my patience and effort will pay off. As tricking is a good form of expression and an art of movement, they are one of the things that I love to practice. Handbalancing and abit of caporeira are part of them.
Whats else?
Filming. I guess I feel that I'm really interested in them and I'm really sure I want to be a cameramen, filmmaker and video editor in the future and in my career. I'm starting to save up for a Canon HV20, the cheapest HD camcorder. I've researced alot and I hope I won't regret buying this, like I always do in everything else. I should start learning and practice on how to film and how to edit. And read up more about cameras and the such. I'm pretty sure my knowledge in them still sucks and I need to learn more. I want to go to Singapore Poly, and to make sure of that I must start learning and study hard to get into that school. I will take up Media and Communications and learn about videography. And take up rockclimbing as a CCA. I heard that SP has good training spots as well as some good crash mats at the rockclimbing hall. This is what I have in mind and I hope I can work towards it.
And my March sampler. I'm gonna make it but it might be postponed. The video is more of a test of my video editing and filming. Got a few things in mind and I hope the video will be good.
Working at Macdonalds. I don't know about it, but I need money. I think I will keep working here until I find a better job. No choice anyway, the best job for my age. The job still sucks, quite a waste of time for just $3.40 per hr. But I need to persevere. At least they are giving me money. I'm only 14. I only work for 12 hours a week, 2 days a week. So I think I can cope.
Studies, schools, and homeworks. I just need to pay more attention in class.
I want to do what I want to do.
This break although short, made me really want to move, but I can't because of my injury. I feel like training, but I can't because of CNY, as parents don't allow. Hope I can be happy with life and things would come my way one day. Time ticks away so fast, its already 1 year of practice in one more short month. Life is short, we should start taking things slowly, if you get what I mean. Thats why we shouldn't waste time. Rest when needed, have some fun, slack abit, but make use of time, and make use of life.
Just to sum up - Training more towards repetition, control, 60% - 70% of maximum, at most 90%, and train explosiveness, balance, rolls, fluidity, breathing, runs. More strength training. Trick more often, practice more handbalancing. Take things slowly, progressing steadily and a comfortable rate. Train more alone, and at night. More focused in training. Make sampler arund March. Don't waste time, make use of it. Practice more filming and make more videos, save money for camcorder and for the future. Pay attention in class. Be happy. Have fun when doing all this. Be serious when doing all this.
Bye. (I will update this post on Saturday.)
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Regret.
I realize I have been always living in regret. Sometimes you REALLY want to rewind time, because you know that if that didnt happen, everything will be much better. I don't know why no matter how many times I made a mistake, no matter how serious or minor, I just can't learn from them. This really sucks.
Everyday you will meet obstacles of any kind. You will, its just inevitable, plain inevitable. I don't believe in fate, or other bullshit because, rather, I believe in nature. I think you can control your future, you can control what you do, but things that you couldn't control, like other people, other things, etc. are more like nature. Obstacles are everywhere, one after another. Sometimes life makes you very frustrated, but again its just part and parcel of life. Sometimes you really hate life, and sometimes you love life.
Just imagine this, you just lost one day of training yesterday, woke up today and planned to really train. But it rained, to your agony you need to wait like until 5pm (till it dries), and you lost like 2 hours. You can't wait to train, and you did, but like 20 minutes of training you accidentally injure your leg. Then you cant do anything at all. So you just wanted to go train your upperbody, the only thing you can do, but once you reacehd the fitness corner, it fucking rained. What to do? Injured and raining, you can count that as a bad day, but life goes on.
Yep, I got injured, but the situation wasn't that bad, it was very lucky that I finished my upperbody training and then it rained, but still, I'm very disappointed, because its a really stupid injury, and its WAS gonna be a good training as I think tomorrow and all the way till Sunday I will probably be going out with my parents for CNY, and saturday I'm working (lets see hows counter is like). So its full of training sessions wasted. I guess I will spend all those days resting and taking a break, to refresh my mind and body. Whatever, you might say I'm giving excuses, but I find that training through injuries is kinda stupid, although one legged training is always possible. I will give that second thoughts if I still haven't completely recovered after CNY.
How did I injure myself?, you might ask. Just this incident told me that there is a possibility of bailing and anything and everything. This was one of the weirdest bail ever, and one that I never think that will happen. Those cracks on the ground, like 2cm wide? Yeah, those cracks. I train barefooted and ran past those (towards a wall), and my toe got scrapped on it, and it bruised and bleed, now I couldn't walk properly. Wow, its seriously 0.0001% chance of happening come to think of it. How can that stupid small crack possibly make me limb? If only I wore my shoe. Look, the disadvantages of barefoot training and the wonders of unexpected possibilities. This really sucks. So unlucky..
And life is just something very complex. I just wanna state that, dont always get your hopes to high in anything. Our mind always think about the good things, and we will always think about what we want, and we don't care about other possibilities. We only think that we are correct, and its quite hard to prove ourselves wrong, because we have high egos. Those with really really high egos are those fucking perfectionist which I have nothing to say. In life we meet people of all sorts, and we can't control them. Thats why we shouldn't always trust our mind. You will never know. Its time for me to get mature and stop commenting and thinking about other people. Giving those negative thoughts which never change. I should just keep everything to myself, and try to get rid of them. Because really whatever other people say, cannot do anything to you. Same vice versa. Oh well, life is complex, but its good.
Nevermind, life goes on.
I'm just thinking that, after CNY, I should feel fresh and most likely I will "restart" training again. Strength training is ok, I'm quite happy with it, its just that technical stuffs I really need to control myself. Most of the frequent readers of this blog might heard this before, but I seriously don't really care about you. Why are you reading this anyway? Go away! Get lost! Stop reading, you assholes!!!!1!!!12!!1!one!!eleven!!
Yeah, so I'm gonna go back to strict training, most of the stuffs are 70% or 80% of my maximum, everything controlled. More barefoot training (what a contradiction), and more repetitions, and more control. More training alone. Low-impacts as much as possible, no 99% max stuffs, except for maybe wallpasses. I hope to improve my fluidity too, and well as my explosiveness. Just everything must be controlled and no huge/bad impacts.
I really hope to not ask questions but rather find out and experiment with myself and THEN discuss about it. I want to be self-reliant, and train only for me, myself, and I (what a stupid cliche). Yes and what that means is, more training alone, and less distracting by other people, who likes to stare at people who no apparent reason, as if never seen a human before. And hopefully I can move freely without worrying about others at all, of what they think, what they are talking about, because seriously, I could care less. Who cares about what they think, it doesnt fucking matter.
Freedom, which I state, is something that I which to achieve. But I guess it will take till the end of my O's to get it. I want to be free from fears, free from the public, free from laws, being unrestricted and free from everything else. I love training at the night man, where eveyrthing is silent, peaceful, and with the cooling breezes. Seriously its much better concentration and much more freedom. Just wait till my curfew is over and more freedom from my parents.
I should stop giving excuses to not train already. Like I said, 1 hour can be used to learn alot alot of things. Stop wasting my life and time. Lets copy and paste the last post here.
"Have you ever been wondering why you choose to go outside to train when you could choose not, and slack at home playing computer all day long, or maybe going out with your group of friends and watch some movie? How about sleep? How about eat some junkies? How about, hmmm, go LAN with friends? Instead of all the better, happier, fun-ner options, you chose to survive, endure, battle the harsh reality. Instead of the warmth of your bed, you go downstairs and do some pullups. And you don't stop after 2 sets, you continue. And continue, even how tired you are. You push through, you endure the pain, you move on. But you are not forced, all this are done on your own accord. Why? I ask.
Are you the same?
Instead of playing the computer, you work. You sacriface 8 hours of your life enduring the boredom and stress, which could be used to go out with your friend and watch some movie and have fun, to earn money. Instead of easy, small-work, we chose the hardwork. Because we all know, hardwork pays off, no matter how tough, how long, or how boring, in the end, all the blood, sweat and tears will be all worth. We will be rewarded with something, in this case(s), to be better, to be stronger, to earn a living. I really hope people should make their life useful. Or make use of their life.
We should learn not to use excuses to back away from something. Don't you feel guilty? Oh, I wanna play computer, lets not train. Oh, I'm tired, lets sleep. You are wasting your life. Time is crucial. 1hour of your life can be use to earn money, no matter the sum. 1hour of your life can be used to get stronger. Just one fucking hour can be used to learn something, to experience something, to do something, to get better in something. Why are you wasting your time? Why are you wasting your life?
Since I realize all this, I feel guilty even just wasting one hour. I regret not training. So what if its raining? You have to fight the bitterness. Battle the wet conditions. Survive the harsh reality. I know that if I train, I will get better, I will make use of my life, I will understand and experience something new, I will learn things. So I don't know why I'm wasting my life doing something that is stupid and, well, a pure wastage of time. Excuses, excuses, and stupid excuses aren't to be tolerated.
But, of course rest and some fun is very normal and acceptable. You don't expect 24/7 to be out there and train. Just don't make it a daily basis. At least do something in your life. Make use of time. We all know its LIFE to not work, we humans are lazy beings who wants to have everything slacky. We don't like to suffer. But, why waste your life. I'm guilty of using the computer and rest alot. Sometimes I complains or give excuses but now I need to tell myself that I should make use of time as much as possible, train when possible, rest when needed, have some fun when needed, work when you can, survive out there if you have to. Its for your own sake, your own life. "
I really want to learn tricking as much as possible, learn as much of tricks as possible, because its the best way to express yourself. And also handbalancing. And caporeira. Oh well. I have one life, lets learn everything. Anything that I want. I can never stop improving.
Studies still suck. Im really worry of my Chinese. I think no hope already. Ah well, I really need to study hard. As for Amaths, I really hope I can improve and lets see the improvement in the next test. Same goes for my other subjects. My POA is getting better.
I got my injection already, so I'm gonna work at counter soon. Hopefully it will be fun. Lets see whether the job is good anot. Oh well.
I'm pretty sure I'm saving up for the Canon HV20. Cheapest good quality HD Camcorder out there. Need to save up big. Lets see how much I will have at the end of this year.
A long break. Life should be better. Wish me luck.
Happy Chinese New Year.
CP.
Everyday you will meet obstacles of any kind. You will, its just inevitable, plain inevitable. I don't believe in fate, or other bullshit because, rather, I believe in nature. I think you can control your future, you can control what you do, but things that you couldn't control, like other people, other things, etc. are more like nature. Obstacles are everywhere, one after another. Sometimes life makes you very frustrated, but again its just part and parcel of life. Sometimes you really hate life, and sometimes you love life.
Just imagine this, you just lost one day of training yesterday, woke up today and planned to really train. But it rained, to your agony you need to wait like until 5pm (till it dries), and you lost like 2 hours. You can't wait to train, and you did, but like 20 minutes of training you accidentally injure your leg. Then you cant do anything at all. So you just wanted to go train your upperbody, the only thing you can do, but once you reacehd the fitness corner, it fucking rained. What to do? Injured and raining, you can count that as a bad day, but life goes on.
Yep, I got injured, but the situation wasn't that bad, it was very lucky that I finished my upperbody training and then it rained, but still, I'm very disappointed, because its a really stupid injury, and its WAS gonna be a good training as I think tomorrow and all the way till Sunday I will probably be going out with my parents for CNY, and saturday I'm working (lets see hows counter is like). So its full of training sessions wasted. I guess I will spend all those days resting and taking a break, to refresh my mind and body. Whatever, you might say I'm giving excuses, but I find that training through injuries is kinda stupid, although one legged training is always possible. I will give that second thoughts if I still haven't completely recovered after CNY.
How did I injure myself?, you might ask. Just this incident told me that there is a possibility of bailing and anything and everything. This was one of the weirdest bail ever, and one that I never think that will happen. Those cracks on the ground, like 2cm wide? Yeah, those cracks. I train barefooted and ran past those (towards a wall), and my toe got scrapped on it, and it bruised and bleed, now I couldn't walk properly. Wow, its seriously 0.0001% chance of happening come to think of it. How can that stupid small crack possibly make me limb? If only I wore my shoe. Look, the disadvantages of barefoot training and the wonders of unexpected possibilities. This really sucks. So unlucky..
And life is just something very complex. I just wanna state that, dont always get your hopes to high in anything. Our mind always think about the good things, and we will always think about what we want, and we don't care about other possibilities. We only think that we are correct, and its quite hard to prove ourselves wrong, because we have high egos. Those with really really high egos are those fucking perfectionist which I have nothing to say. In life we meet people of all sorts, and we can't control them. Thats why we shouldn't always trust our mind. You will never know. Its time for me to get mature and stop commenting and thinking about other people. Giving those negative thoughts which never change. I should just keep everything to myself, and try to get rid of them. Because really whatever other people say, cannot do anything to you. Same vice versa. Oh well, life is complex, but its good.
Nevermind, life goes on.
I'm just thinking that, after CNY, I should feel fresh and most likely I will "restart" training again. Strength training is ok, I'm quite happy with it, its just that technical stuffs I really need to control myself. Most of the frequent readers of this blog might heard this before, but I seriously don't really care about you. Why are you reading this anyway? Go away! Get lost! Stop reading, you assholes!!!!1!!!12!!1!one!!eleven!!
Yeah, so I'm gonna go back to strict training, most of the stuffs are 70% or 80% of my maximum, everything controlled. More barefoot training (what a contradiction), and more repetitions, and more control. More training alone. Low-impacts as much as possible, no 99% max stuffs, except for maybe wallpasses. I hope to improve my fluidity too, and well as my explosiveness. Just everything must be controlled and no huge/bad impacts.
I really hope to not ask questions but rather find out and experiment with myself and THEN discuss about it. I want to be self-reliant, and train only for me, myself, and I (what a stupid cliche). Yes and what that means is, more training alone, and less distracting by other people, who likes to stare at people who no apparent reason, as if never seen a human before. And hopefully I can move freely without worrying about others at all, of what they think, what they are talking about, because seriously, I could care less. Who cares about what they think, it doesnt fucking matter.
Freedom, which I state, is something that I which to achieve. But I guess it will take till the end of my O's to get it. I want to be free from fears, free from the public, free from laws, being unrestricted and free from everything else. I love training at the night man, where eveyrthing is silent, peaceful, and with the cooling breezes. Seriously its much better concentration and much more freedom. Just wait till my curfew is over and more freedom from my parents.
I should stop giving excuses to not train already. Like I said, 1 hour can be used to learn alot alot of things. Stop wasting my life and time. Lets copy and paste the last post here.
"Have you ever been wondering why you choose to go outside to train when you could choose not, and slack at home playing computer all day long, or maybe going out with your group of friends and watch some movie? How about sleep? How about eat some junkies? How about, hmmm, go LAN with friends? Instead of all the better, happier, fun-ner options, you chose to survive, endure, battle the harsh reality. Instead of the warmth of your bed, you go downstairs and do some pullups. And you don't stop after 2 sets, you continue. And continue, even how tired you are. You push through, you endure the pain, you move on. But you are not forced, all this are done on your own accord. Why? I ask.
Are you the same?
Instead of playing the computer, you work. You sacriface 8 hours of your life enduring the boredom and stress, which could be used to go out with your friend and watch some movie and have fun, to earn money. Instead of easy, small-work, we chose the hardwork. Because we all know, hardwork pays off, no matter how tough, how long, or how boring, in the end, all the blood, sweat and tears will be all worth. We will be rewarded with something, in this case(s), to be better, to be stronger, to earn a living. I really hope people should make their life useful. Or make use of their life.
We should learn not to use excuses to back away from something. Don't you feel guilty? Oh, I wanna play computer, lets not train. Oh, I'm tired, lets sleep. You are wasting your life. Time is crucial. 1hour of your life can be use to earn money, no matter the sum. 1hour of your life can be used to get stronger. Just one fucking hour can be used to learn something, to experience something, to do something, to get better in something. Why are you wasting your time? Why are you wasting your life?
Since I realize all this, I feel guilty even just wasting one hour. I regret not training. So what if its raining? You have to fight the bitterness. Battle the wet conditions. Survive the harsh reality. I know that if I train, I will get better, I will make use of my life, I will understand and experience something new, I will learn things. So I don't know why I'm wasting my life doing something that is stupid and, well, a pure wastage of time. Excuses, excuses, and stupid excuses aren't to be tolerated.
But, of course rest and some fun is very normal and acceptable. You don't expect 24/7 to be out there and train. Just don't make it a daily basis. At least do something in your life. Make use of time. We all know its LIFE to not work, we humans are lazy beings who wants to have everything slacky. We don't like to suffer. But, why waste your life. I'm guilty of using the computer and rest alot. Sometimes I complains or give excuses but now I need to tell myself that I should make use of time as much as possible, train when possible, rest when needed, have some fun when needed, work when you can, survive out there if you have to. Its for your own sake, your own life. "
I really want to learn tricking as much as possible, learn as much of tricks as possible, because its the best way to express yourself. And also handbalancing. And caporeira. Oh well. I have one life, lets learn everything. Anything that I want. I can never stop improving.
Studies still suck. Im really worry of my Chinese. I think no hope already. Ah well, I really need to study hard. As for Amaths, I really hope I can improve and lets see the improvement in the next test. Same goes for my other subjects. My POA is getting better.
I got my injection already, so I'm gonna work at counter soon. Hopefully it will be fun. Lets see whether the job is good anot. Oh well.
I'm pretty sure I'm saving up for the Canon HV20. Cheapest good quality HD Camcorder out there. Need to save up big. Lets see how much I will have at the end of this year.
A long break. Life should be better. Wish me luck.
Happy Chinese New Year.
CP.
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