4th Update: 26/3/08
I didn't go to work today. I don't know whether thats a good thing or a bad thing, because I haven't called the managers even until now, and they never called me either. I think they got se bad impression of me already though. But if they sack me I don't really mind... The pay sucks, work long hours, boring, not much friends and also I make alot of mistakes. I wanna find a better job.. Somewhere. But not anytime soon. I'm not sure whether I should stop working or not.. See first. Damn. Its like super boring to work now.. And I'm going to work on sunday this week, hais. No life.
School nowadays are also super boring, including the people. Like stress.. nowadays I come back always wanna play the comp, but I don't do much either. And Im really tired, I need alot more sleep too. This week will be good week, so I better make use of it. Tomorrow I wanna go somewhere far, somewhere chilling, just for once. Nowadays I'm super tired and bored and quite stressed.. but I need to take a chill pill somewhere. Like I always wanted to. I really need to rest. A break from all this nonsense. I just don't know why, but I feel very tired. Both in terms or rest and in life. Lets stop and restart anew.
I thought through about how am I going to train for strength and movements from now all the way to the end of this year, and I will stick to it good. For strength training like I said I will be going to the gym very often and start learning the new lifts such as high pulls, power cleans, clean and jerks, oly-goodmorning, some upperbody lifts and some other lifts. Then for upperbody I must start some practice for handstands and planche en force, including the straightarms climbups soon. I mean, muscleups are no longer an epitome of strength, its alot of technique, momemtum and timing.. so I'm quite certain quite alot people can do it if they use the proper technique. I will train alot alot on strength, especially my lowerbody. Hepfully I can get like around 1.5x bodyweight by the end of the year, and the next year I will continue to lift alot, probably aiming around 2x bodyweight and hopefully doing the clean and jerk with good form and good weights.
Movements-wise, I guess in order to not kill your joints or what, you must always train somewhere where it is not your 100% or maximum, like around 70-80% of your maximum is a very good point. Thats precisely what I wanna do now, doing precision jumps, wall passes, sautdebras, sdc2p, etc. around 80% of my maximum the most, not further then that. They should be stuffs that I can at least around 98% of the time. Also I wanna progress on my balance, precision, jumping power, training at heights, wallpasses, rolls, speedvaults (lol), of course explosiveness and control, and fluidity overall. Especially my precision because it sucks. I need to get more stronger, and thats my goals. This plus practicing on flips, and stuffs like that.
Now videos, I've been really inspired by isenseven, and I have alot things I wanna film in mind. ALOT of things. I seriously wanna film alot and make more videos now, Damm I must start practicing now. This is my aim, to make a very nice video, my project soon to be planned. But I will finish somewhere next year. It will be my biggest accomplishment ever, if I manage to finish it. But hardwork, time and determination must always be there.
Lets continue chilling and exploring tomorrow.
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UPDATE : 24/3/08
I just watched a parkour documentary. Damn it man, its very powerful. I really can't wait to go to Lisses. And I learnt a couple of things. The 90 minutes of the video was well worth. You guys must watch man, you have to. Lets just state out some things that I've learnt.
Something in Parkour that we always neglected. Parkour is to develop and improve oneselves physically, mentally and spiritually. That is also, to become a better person overall. I can see that in me after 1 year, that I've changed alot in terms of how I think, how I behave, and how I see things, etc. As we better ourselves through days and months, we should learn how about respect and responsibility. How to respect our environment, and the people around you, and yourself, and how to take responsibility for what you have done. You should know the reason why we should respect and take responsibility. I myself admit that I got bad respect and I dont take responsibility sometimes. As a traceur, we should learn how to become a better person overall in life, and to become one, we should learn how to respect and take responsibility.
I just made my video yesterday, and I thought about it. I decided I'd just post the video, because I can't wait. Now I need to solve this lag probelm when using Vegas on this computer, as I'm gonna make more casual videos. Also editing flaws is everywhere, so I'm not so happy with it. Filming and movements was OK for me, just that the editing wasn't so good, it could have been better, but whatever I already made it. I need more practice for my editing though. I was shocked that alot of people commented my video, was very happy. But then I know myself tht the video is not for showing off purposes. Anyway I guess I need to study more on camerawork and editing now, and continuing thinking of my ideas and finding more musics for future work.
Go check my sampler at my youtube page if you haven't.
One more week of rest till gyms start coming. This rest days will be alot on researching on strength training, watching more videos, finding more songs, sometimes even travelling to somewhere alone, then also I wanna go back to soccer for abit because I know I still like that and I can see Ive gotten much stronger and I can kick harder, same for basketball, now I can throw further. I think I should take sometime to revise and practice schoolwork too. I must make use of rest days as much as possible. Also I will take this few days to look at life and find out more things in the different perspective. I wanna learn as much as possible and not waste my time on the comp only. And probably learn practice cycling and skating.
A thing that I wanna mention about excuses. We all know that excuses aren't to be tolerated and we know its a bad thing to do. Some people might not even feel guilty of it though, thats because they are too used to it. Either that of they are just plain lazy or not serious in what they are doing. The reason why I wanna train is because I want to, knowing that I will benefit myself when I train. Knowing that I go out ther and survive and pushed myself no matter how small or little time I spent. People like Zahid like to give stupid excuses, I just dont know why.. either plain lazy and not serious. Ha. It is so easy to say no or walk away or not do anything then to do it.
I know that I need to study more, as I need to really get good grades for now. I know that saying is nothing but doing is everything, so I hope I can really do well for exams, coming in like 6 weeks. I'm not people who just say only, trying to give excuses, but I will mean what I say.
I can't wait to go Lisses. Damn, seriously to live in this world you need money. I still need to buy a bike, skates, then still need to a camcorder with all the good equipments, then I will still need to save up to go to England and stay there for the future, and also I know I will go to Lisses one day, and also things that I will want and need for myself. I need to earn money!!....
bye.
EDIT : 22/3/08
An update after a week.
Alot of things can happen in a week, this week is no exception.
Life hasn't been that great, things hasn't been good for a while, but this is still part and parcel of life. I don't know but nowadays I don't feel right. I'm quite frustrated with things nowadays, and I really feel tired. There are still a few positive things that happen but majority of them are really, saddening.
Please take time to read the post, but you can also choose not to at all.
Wednesday was a really bad day. I don't know why but I have full of moodswings that day, from irritating, to sad, to happy, to angry, to bored, to tired, to stress, to whatever. I also work on that day and I made alot of mistakes, that I really feel so irritated. Man, and thinking about the people in school sometimes are pretty irritating, and managing secondary 3 life isn't that easy as you think. Damn..
Oh yeah and, the day before, I went to Marine Parade hoping to get some good clips. But then again, like I said at the past entry, I was pushing myself too much and I'm going back to my old ways. I found out the reason. It is because I wanna get good clips to be captured on camera for my sampler, so I pushed myself to nail the sdc to underbar. Never I realize what could happen. I hit my head on the edge and it started bleeding, quite alot. Argh, I don't wanna go back to my old ways, its just retarded. To regret things that you done before, over and over again. Why, gosh my self-control is sooo bullshit. I need someone to punch me on the head if I ever do stupid things again.
Thrusday and Friday was filming day as I want to finish my sampler ASAP, for fear that I will spend too much time on filming, and potentially push myself more. I did film alot on that few days, but damn I did still push myself to get clips for my sampler, like the sdc to precision at northpark. I don't know what happen that time. And oh Shinos' ramp is fenced up, so I cant film much at all, which sucks. There are alot of clips that I wanted to film but I didn't due to many reasons, like the weather, time constrains, lack of filmers, and forgetfulness. Oh well, I decided I can deal with the clips that I already have and make the video ASAP. I don't wanna film any more clips for my sampler anymore. I decided I'd get over with this and then after a break I will start filming and making better videos.
Talking about videos, I bet you guys will think that making video is for showing off and stuffs like that. Yeah yeah, as long as I know myself that I'm not showing off or anything, but instead just making a video because I like making videos, and for many reasons like its fun and stuffs like that. Why people take videos so seriously though? As long as the video is 100% not for showing off purposes, like 99% of the Singapore Parkour videos, there is nothing wrong in making a video. For me, a video is also good to note progression, and like you know, I'm very sure to study film in my career next time, so if I practice now wouldn't it be better? Anyway, I could care less about others opinion, if they think its stupid or what, it doesn't fucking matter. I know I'm not showing off, thats good enough. I'm not some guy who seeks attention or likes competition, so who cares.
Also, sadly the video might not really be that good, because of some probelms that I've faced in filming (hard to find filmers that can film the way I want) and also some errors. I wanted to film alot more, but like I said forget it. There is so many other chances to make a better video. What I mean a better video as in the editing and filming, not as in the biggest-coolest-slickest movements, so please don't misinterpret. Thanks Ashton, NC, and Zahid for being my filmers, and of course Mr. Tripod. Hahaha. Also, Vegas is so laggy on this comp, because it sucks, so tomorrow I'm planning to go to friends house to edit, and hopefully finish it by tomorrow so you guys can see it. Again this video is not for recognition purposes.
I'm glad that I'm able to convince some of my friends that life isnt that bad, and life doesn't suck. I managed to woke them up from their dreams. From most of my previous post I stated out alot of things about how important life is and stuffs like that. I hope the realize that they aren't as much as the people in Africa, so they should fucking stop complaining about every small thing. Your life is a gift, those people in Africa who are way lesser-privileged and lead a less-comfortable then we all are actually enjoying their life way more then us. Look at how we take things for granted. Ha.
I decided to take a good week rest from Parkour and training. I will stay impact-free for that week, will of course maintain "good" nutrition and lots of stretching, but no strength/movements trainign for that while. I know it will be hard to stop it even for a week but I know I should, because my body needs it. I can see that I'm pushing myself too much as I feel some pain on my knee tendon so I should listen to my body and rest for the time being. I also wanna stick to a new schedule, which will be 4 strength trainings a week, 1 technical movements training and 2 days of rest after the one week break. I will update next week Sunday, and will then decide about what I want to do. For now, the good one week break will be for me to find out more about myself and Life, to see the world, to research more on strength training, to think about stuffs, to refresh my mind and body, to rest from movements for a while, go out with my friends, see life in a different perspective, and to realize more things. I will update you again this sunday.
Like I said, life is never easy and never fair. You can almost never have everything your way immediately. You need to work for it to get something. This is life, and life is like this. Obstacles comes everyday, as this obstacles we strengthen us mentally. Its really hard to understand life, its a unsolvable mystery. Everything is unpreditable, like the people around you, and what happens in the next minute, and what kind of day will be for tomorrow. Thats the life at its best. And thats why we all love life.
I decided that if I start now and work hard towards something, I will get it. Like for everyone and everything else, nothing is impossible, as long as you have the dedication and patience, success and achievements will come your way. From young I always wanted to go to England. I have made up my mind to stay at England to study film and stay there for life when I get older. I don't like Singapore, and you know why I don't. I have to start earning loads of money to go there. Its my dream, and I believe I can achieve it. And I know that I will still be training and still be making videos when I'm there. I'm sure.
Sometimes we cannot explain things that will happen without you expecting anything. Love is one example. It is something you cannot explain, and things like that are pretty hard to say. Its hard to know someone that you really love and you know that you will not change your mind at all, and also its hard to find someone that you can really trust. Even years, things can go off-hand. This is how ugly and low people could be. The unexpected can happen. You will never know.
I've been finding ways to relieve stress, refresh oneself, and chill out. The best way used to be to bathe and sleep. They do relieve stress quite alot. I find that other better ways is to go out somewhere alone, lay down and look at the clouds and just lose yourself to it, relax yourself and clear your mind, thinking about the positive side of life. Or you watch the sunset at the beach, with someone that you like, or someone that you are very close with. Go out alone or with good friends and explore new places, cycling to places that you don't know. To see more of the world, to realize things you never seen before. Why not? Make use of time, make use of life. It will get rid of your depression really easy. But I still think one of the best ways to get seek happiness and relax oneself, is to do things that you like, and things that you want to do for a long time, like just go out and play (do movements/go out and train), to find your inner-self. This are a few things that I realize, and I really wanna do them more often. Happiness is important in life.
Disappointment, frustrations, stress, anger is also part of life, this week might be a bad week, but I know that there are many others things in life. What we can d know is to see things in a positive light and hope for the best. Next week will be a better week.
This is how fun life can be. So cheer up! Take a chill pill. :)
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Always happens. So many things happen just like that.
As I realize when I grow older and older everyday in this world, nothing in life is fair. I want to live life in equality, where everybody is the same. Nobody can be better then another, everybody is equal. Its sounds impossible, but easier said that done, so it will be even impossible to have it in real life.
I found that the real reason in life is happiness. Like I said so many times before, you can never live a life that is happy happy happy all the time, and I know, because its true. Think about it, can the one you love always love you? Can you get whatever you want just like that? Can you always get good results? Do you always have good luck? Can you have everything your way? Sadly, no. But still, life is all about happiness. If only we can throw away all our worries, have fun all the time, do what we want, have what we want, get rid of stress, enjoy ourselves everyday, etc., no one can even think that life sucks.
But everyone find happiness in different ways. Like everything else, we all have different thoughts, different opinions, different beliefs and everything, so like I said before, nothing in life is fair. We can't always win, we have to give in and give way to others, like it or not. Its very very hard. Its best to accept and respect others opinion as much as yours, and instead of being dense, be open minded.
We all seek happiness, no one can argue that. But before getting happiness, we must first do something, be it in hardwork, effort, patience, etc. Like to get good results, you need to study hard. To get a camcorder that you always wanted, you have to earn money by working. If you wanna be able to do something, you must work on it. You see, there is this cross-effect. To get happiness, you need to spend effort and time, and those are obstacles. Obstacles are what makes us stronger in life. Those obstacles will definitely makes us stress, tired, bored, irritated, sad, and it gives you the feeling like "fuck it, this sucks", or "no hope, lets give up". But if you decided to give up, you just wasted that much amount of hardwork.
If you think you can get whatever you want without obstacles, without hardwork, without patience, you are so wrong. Life is like this, it will purposely make you really wanna give up, really really makes you give up hope, but if you didnt, you will be rewarded. After years and years, this will continually happen. You can never, ever, EVER, run away from it. Its just like this.
The formula is:
Hardwork + Patience + Determination = Success + Happiness.
And that is what I call life.
Also, what I find something in Singapore nowadays is they are very materialistic. As in, SUPER materialistic. Look at the general public of Singapore nowadays, everyone is studying, everyone is working, teenagers being rebellious, adults being so close-minded, see, just sucks. You can never walk out the streets without being worried about how the public thinks. You do your own things, public thinks its nuisance. Even meeting people, all kinds of "standardized" expectations comes in. You have no freedom of rights, no freedom of expression. Do you think life is all about working to earn money, studying to get a good job and knowledge? Do you think life is all about following others, do what everybody is doing now? Singapore is following the trend, not only Singapore but most countries. Shuffling, wearing trendy clothes, whatever shit language. Now everybody looks the same, and they say its cool, but for me, thats retarded. Hell yeah.
Nowadays relationships for teenagers are getting off-hand. Seriously man, whats wrong? I don't know but people think it is a game to have a relationship. So very fun eh? Stead-break, patch back, then break again, find a new stead, break again, and whole thing repeats again. The challenge is to have the most ex-es. Haha, look at the trend, this is no real love amongst teenagers. Look at all the "couples", call each other "laogong/laopo", when they have to go off they will say "love you, sweet dreams, blah blah", all this kind of shit. I bet they dont even mean it the first time they say "I love you", let alone "I will die for you/I will wait for you even if it takes a lifetime". All this sweet talkings are really retarded. I can swear to you only 1 out of 10000s is having a serious relationship. Just ask yourself, does those words really shows how much one cares? Those actions even, really show how much one love? NO, its all in the heart, and it will take years and years to SHOW (not anyhow say) that how much one is willing to wait, to sacriface and to show REAL love. But people nowadays, all go for looks, popularity and money. Do you think a nerd will have a pretty girlfriend? You can answer that yourself. That is the materialistic culture of Singapore. Due to this very reason, and many other reasons, Singapore sucks.
But again, you can choose not to care about all this people. Maybe they are just like that, they are born like that. We cannot change their opinions. They have the right to think what they want. So we should just respect their thinking. To find one that you truely love or one that you regard is a good friend, will strike once in a blue moon. Nothing in life is easy, read the formula on top again.
I've said many times about this too, I know I've changed alot spiritually in this years, and I know people will/might say I'm weird when they finally see the other side of me. But thats because I understand whats life to me and I decided to carve my own path. This is my thinking, something that you guys don't need to agree with, although I hope you would. But then, this is something I cannot force. I find my own ways.
I decided not to go to work today, I guess I wanted to have a break (but I'm only working like twice a week, which is quite stupid to have a break, because other jobs will need you to work a minimum of 4 times a week..) and rest. I don't want to make my life tiring for now because I'm still young and have loads of things to enjoy. When you are young you got time but no money, once you are old you got no time but loads of money. I guess I should make use of the time now and don't worry to much about money. I want to find happiness.
And whatever is, no matter how much I hate life, I will still love life.
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Now lets get back on track.
Last two days wasn't really that good, for me. Suddenly I'm back to my old bad ways. Impactful stuffs, pushing my limits, doing stupid stuffs, hurting myself, killing my knees and making myself regret after a days training. No self-control.
I have to keep repeating the same shit again and again. I guess you know what I'm going to say..
I keep worrying about my health of my knee, and my body. Yet I still do stuffs way above my standards, and do impactful stuffs. I think I should lower my trainings now. Instead of going higher and further everytime, I should stick to what I'm confident and capable of. Stuffs that I can do at least 95% of the time, and probably low impact stuffs. I don't want to push myself because too much repetitions will probably make me more tired and unfocused, so I will be doing things with bad form. I want to do more of the movements with good form and focus.
My SDCs levelled up yesterday, which was something good, something I feel very happy about. I nailed some new SDCs to precisions, some even I can't believe that I actually could do. But I have to stay within the level and continue practicing, and not be complacent, and definitely not push it further. Also, I feel that I can jump further, higher, I can move more faster. Balance is ok ok, I don't know whether I should be happy with them anot, but of course there is alot more to improved on. My fluidity improved too.
Somehow this video might not be what I expected, because of difficulties. Time, and skills, and cameraman. Its hard to get what I want though. Like everything in life. But I still hope the video will be a good video, but if it isn't, there are still many more chances to make a better one. There is no rush, something that I keep saying to myself but yet something that I contradict alot. Oh well.
I like Dim Monk alot, his strength and explosiveness in his movements is something I really like. I should really start doing my weight training at the gym, more squats, deadlifts, probably try to learn more lifts, including upperbody. But I don't want to limit myself to the gym and weights, of course I still wanna do some strength training at pull up bars for the upperbody. I will work on my planche en force quite soon. I never really been training my upperbody nowadays. Oh well, next week Term 2 starts and more serious training will come.
Yesterday after some kind of mind training with Azri, I went to the wall which I did 7 times in less the 30 attempts. This time I got it once out of like nearly 50 attempts. I went home with a sore patella and disappointment. I don't know why am I doing this. Last time I was so happy when I got the wall, and I do each of them focused, alot. Like 2minutes one attempt. Yesterday was like 1minute 2 attempts. Sucks. I don't know what am I doing. I should have stop in the 10th attempt when I know that it might not be my day today. I was shocked though because I did the wallpass that I did 100 attempts on in the first attempt. And I did it a few more times quite easily. And also I did a 2handed wall pass at castle quite easily in the first attempt, and I managed to kinda pop up the lower wall too. Maybe I was tired too. Oh well.
I need to use the mindset "How about another day, there is still tomorrow, no rush" instead of "Dont give up, you can do it, you did it before, you must do it again". I don't want to end up screwing up my joints and body at the age of 30. I hope to think sensibly and have more self-control in what I do. I'm already progressing SOOO fast, the more I shouldn't rush. I should do more strength training so that I can handle the impacts. I'll do more research too, in strength training, weightlifting, flexibility, joints, plyometrics and jumps in nature. I don't want to regret again.
And I should stop comparing. Everybody progress at different paces. And doesn't mean they can and they did it, I should follow, and vice versa.
Homeworks are stress and there are still so many homework left to do. Studies are also another priority as I want to get into a good school and good job and good future and good life. Although studies and work is not everything, I should still lead a good career. Life is like that. I need to put in extra effort now, because I believe in what I need. If I can, I can, the formula is never wrong.
Oh well, more strength training, less impacts, lower training level, do not push my limits even further for now, keep practicing my movements, do don't stupid things, focus on form for each movements, use the "another day" mindset in stuffs, don't rush, film my sampler, don't push myself, stay around 85% and lesser of my maximum of training, low-impact, don't overdo my training, don't kill my joints, listen to my body, stay at a comfortable level with my movements, learning new lifts, work on my planche en force, progress at a steady and safe rate, stop doing things off my capabilities and more then 90% of maximum, train safe, stop doing impactful stuffs, eat more, know how to prioritize, don't waste time, be sensible, be more self-controlled, stop comparing, focus on studies in school, do research, watch more movies and videos, respect others.
done.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Mind Training. (update)
Another UPDATE 11/3
Hmmm.
As much as I hate life, I will love life too. Thats because like I said so many times already, life is full of obstacles, one after another, and you can't run away from them. Sometimes this kind of things are meant to happen, sometimes you just can't change them. This is not fate, rather its nature. I hate the word fate used in whatever manner, so I don't believe in them. All this obstacle will make you pissed off like hell, so much that you really feel like giving up/quitting/end it all, but again and again you know all this is just part of life, and you will know that all this will pay off, you just need to give it time, which could be one day to a couple of years.
Sometimes you WILL face people you don't like, ranging from strangers to classmates to even close family members. I had a tiff yesterday with my father, and it was then finally I said all that I wanted to say to him. He probably won't care because I figured he is too thick skinned. He thinks that he is so good/clever and he is a know-it-all. He give stupid reasons and then when he do things that contradicts it, he used fucked up excuses, which is retarded. And then he always think he is right, in the brain he thinks he is never wrong. He is being such a retarded show off since last time, something I really hate about him. I hate him and I don't care if he is my father or whoever else, because it doesn't matter. I hate him since young for the same reason. He keeps blaming people too, when he is in the wrong, but to him he is never wrong, he never makes mistake. Haha, people like this are really retarded. It will suck to have a parent like this.
He keep saying the stuffs I do is simple and everyone can do it. Haha, the tiff ended up with a bet. Which is, if he can actually make a video that I made for fun, at least same standard as me, in one week. LOL, he will take one week to even know how to play with the program. But who cares, since he is so smart-ass he said that everyone can do it, I will see. I don't even think he knows how to spell clone! He don't even know the basic function even after one week reading the manual, thats because he English sucks! Now which subject is more important! HAHA. Guess what is the prize of the bet? If I win, I don't have to listen to him at all. If I lose (which is not going to happen LOL!!!), I have to listen to him. I don't want to be overconfident but in this case I can't help it, LOL he thinks he can even do it, HAHA in your face sucker. Consequences of being a stupid show off. And if he wants to try to say stupid stuffs, I will use this to really backup man. Since he said himself that I can don't listen to him, I can DONT LISTEN TO HIM AT ALL. If he try to say stupid stuffs again, I will use this too again as a backup. This is epic ownage.
I really don't want to talk about that topic anymore. This will definitely make me hate him more, and I will never respect him ever again. Since he want to talk big and everything, and all the other stupid stuffs he did/said, I really can't be bothered. I will severe ties, and I won't give a shit. I will only do what is right, what I know myself to be right, I don't need such a retarded parent to instruct me to do so. No way in hell. I listen to the right things, and I fight for my rights, and I will live by this. If he ever thinks he is right but I don't think so, I won't care at all to disobey. Why not, I do what I want, why must I follow you? Follow your wrong and stupid shits? No way in hell. I don't even need your permission to do stuffs anymore, because since you want act big and everything, I can bloody heck care. Who cares about one guy who only knows how to blame others, think about himself, act big, smoke, watch porn everyday, talk big, gamble in soccer matches, scold people, show off, act smart, talk without a reason, think that he is so clever and never wrong in everything. Fucker. No way in hell am I ever need to care about your "opinions" ever again, as this time your limits are pushed too far. And I'm serious.
I know what I want to do, what I can do, what I will do, what I like to do, and what is right for me. I don't need a retarded people to care about this, so please fuck off. You are worthless shit.
Raining, raining, raining. Sucks, but it cannot be helped. I don't know but I guess I will only film my sampler around Bishan and Tampines, and of course some other random spots, but those two areas will be the "spotlight" of my sampler. Its time to plan what I want to film, but I won't post it here, I just want to keep it secret. Other spots might include Pasir Ris, Simei, Marine Parade, and maybe jelapang. Of course if I can go to other places I will film there too. I will finish my sampler before March ends, hopefully, so its time to film and film and film!
This March Holidays is going to finish very soon, my homework still pretty much untouched and also I have work and work.. but today I went gym. I don't know whether my deadlifts is good but I better play safe now, keep the weights low like 10kg max for deadlifts. Squats are ok but I still don't want to increase the weights yet, because I got a feeling that 30kg is quite heavy already. I dont want to push my limits too far too soon, and I will regret once again.
Also, I've been taking the opportunity working at the gym last few days to train abit on my tricking. They didn't really improve but I have alot of work to do. I know it is VERY HARD to learn new tricks, and I will require lots of practice, patience, effort and determination to get them, like everything else. I will purely focus on my kick the moon and my backflip for the moment. I have alot of time in the world, so I should take my time and not rush, because if injuries and the such comes, it will be even worst. No rush for now.
I have been eating alot nowadays, but hardly thinking about what kind of food is it. I choose chicken wings which is full of meats, and neglected the oils and fats and skins on it. It might be quite bad but for me I think for now I should eat more, and of course exercise more, and then I can grow. Or not it will be a waste. Of course I have to eat healthy but I don't really but that as priority for now because it will be a bad probelm. Of course I do not want to over do it.
I decided that I should start earning even more money because a mere $2000 wouldn't be enough. What I plan to buy is a camcorder (HV20) which will cost about 1.6k (but I really cannot confirm this, the price varies), and fish eye lenses, external mic, steadicam (own-built) and other camcorder accessory (when I decided what I want to buy), then I also want to get skates and a bike. Total would be about 2.5k already. I might consider buying a tablet pc, and also maybe around 20gb hard drive. But that would be until I go to poly. Also I want to have around another 1k of savings so that I can use it to buy those small stuffs when I want to. So I'm aiming like 4k, but it will take very long to get there. Now I think I only have about 400 bucks in my savings account. I might want to quit Macdonalds this June and get a much better job and I will be working longer hours and more days. I hope to get that much by the end of this year, but I really don't think so. The fact that I still need to study, people will tell me "dream on!"
I would like to bring up another topic, relating to mindtraining.
I thought that if I ask myself this question - Am I anything to others?
I actually don't think I am. I think I'm a little bit like a eyesore or pain in the ass to some people too. I guess I should be more helpful and have more friends now. So that if I die at least I can be remembered. I definitely want to be self-reliant (another reason why I want to earn so much), but also be something to others. I don't want to die and no one really cares. Not saying that I should care about others, but I have to differentiate what kind of people I should care about. Those people will say things that is good to me, and helpful to me. But I should know which one. I need to tell myself that now I stop being so irritating to others, make more friends, instead of insulting them, I should talk and help them more.
Studies are getting harder I can feel. I think if I want to prove to myself that I am capable to do what I want to do, this will be a chance. I don't know why but now I really have no hope in my Chinese, not saying I want to give up, but instead I will work smart and study even harder in the important subjects like Maths, Physics, POA, Humanities so that I will pull me up even more. Also I now know that courses won't count CCA points. I made the right choice. It is probably CCA Points will minus 2 points in your cut off so you can go to that Polytechnic, not to the course though. Even that I'm not sure. If I want to go to the school I want, I better study even harder, mug more, and know how to prioritize and balance my timing/schedule.
Whatever is, film and movements is my passion, and nothing can stop me from it.
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UPDATE 9/3.
Wow, life is really tiring. Like always life is full of obstacles, you just can't run away from them. I just finish working three days straight, and the job is quite shag, yet good pay, good thing, way better then macdonald. But I have to go work at macdonald wednesday and saturday, which really sucks. I hate working at macdonald really, sucks man, how I wish I can work a better job. Once I reach two thousand bucks (my goal, maybe end of this year HOPEFULLY), thats it, game set. I'll stop working until Poly life, where I can get a much better job, and I can probably get the two thousand like 4x faster then macdonald.
But still sometimes you just cannot bring your hopes too high. And even sometimes everything can go haywire. You cannot control what will happen. Still you have to persevere and overcome life obstacles again and again and finally whatever you want will come to you. Only lazy people stay there do nothing and expect it to come to them, in your dreams assholes.
Yep, march holidays already. I don't think it is even a March holiday, due to the no. of homeworks and working days. I better make full use of the free days, which is only 4 days. 7 days till school reopens, seems like so soon I bet. Oh yeah I wanna go to places to film my sampler, but I dont know where. Planning to go to Jurong tomorrow, Bukit Panjang/Jelapang area on Tuesday, Bishan on Thrusday, Sengkang on Friday I think. Wednesday is probably a rest day, same for saturday, and the last day for chionging homework. Speaking of homework, probably I will be using the time in the MRT and Buses to finish them. It is called killing or making use of time.
I also wanna go to Tampines, Simei, Pasir Ris and probably one day to go to Marine Parade to film more on my sampler. I can't wait to see the finished product of the video. I hope its good. Since last year I've been thinking of making it, and there is so many reasons why I wanna make this video. Like, making a video which is my hobby, testing my video editing skills, recieve comments and criticisms from experienced traceurs, a benchmark to see how much I progress after one year, and also something to prove to my friends in my school that I'm not any regular Parkour boy that does stupid things or any stupid video making poser. Many people might think that this video is for showing off purposes but I really don't think so, because making video is my passion, which maybe alot of people won't understand. I got so many things to film in mind, I really must start making a list, and I hope the person who is filming for me can help me, and I know its gonna be hard.
Quite sad the people nowadays, are really retarded. As this point is repeated again and again for so many times I don't really see the use of saying it again. The world really needs help, looks like everyone now its hopeless. Most I can do is to not care about whatever shit they say, anyway I also can't be bothered. Seriously, man, I got nothing to say already. Even how much I say, they don't bother, then I can't do anything, actually more like don't wanna do anything. All this complacent, high ego, act smart, stubborn, or just retarded people, haha. Don't feeling like helping anymore.
Film (video editing, filmmaking, camerawork, etc.) and movements (parkour, tricking, etc.) is my passion. No one can stop me from it.
Expect more videos.
One thing I find about myself is that I want alot of tricks in such a fast time. I'm want to nail so many tricks. Aerial, backhandspring, moonkick, cartwheel to frontflip, sideflip, roundoff to backflip, and also better my backflip. I can't believe that I thought that I can actually nail them easily, but obviously they will take alot alot of hardwork and patience to nail them. But still I have so much time, I can slowly train for them. I guess I should find one trick, or maybe two, and focus and concentrate on it, thats all. I should start tricking more too though.
Good thing my sister lent me her Ipod. Now there is so many good songs that I really like listening, and they are underground and good for videos. Listen to mp3 in bus, walking to school, on laptop, laying down, doing homework, is such a stress reliever. And I think I should start studying film, through the net and watching my movies for now. And of course making more videos and reading more articles. The more you do, the better you are.
Rain. Sucks. They are back, and I don't know why holidays are rainy seasons. They are so irritating, but I really hope they don't rain when I go to far places. It always rain when I go Bishan though, which sucks dammit. I need to find a cameramen to go with me too, which is pretty difficult, shit. All my videos are moving, as not on a tripod or on the same spot, but moving. I think I should make a list of videos that I wanna make too, so many! Including some big ones. I also make videos where I'm not in the video but just the cameramen and video editor. More videos! How I love film!
I really have to thank the people I met, those good souls, which are pretty rare. I should really appreciate them and also pay back. Since they helped me so much when I needed help, I should do the same instead of being selfish. And also put myself in their shoes, think about how they feel before doing something. But then again, its just too hard to have things your way.
Money nowadays seems like an issue. To live a good life you need money. Without money you can't survive. To get better you need to eat, which those food requires money. Transport need money, to study film you need money, to travel overseas you need money, to even use handphone, a laptop, and even bathing you need money. Buying your camcorder, olympic weightlifting set, better house, all need money. What you can't buy with money is love, training, knowledge, hardwork, passion, friends, happiness, time, etc. Oh well, earn more money.
I can't wait to finish my March sampler. Its one year already, so fast. And really expect more videos of different kinds. Till then I have alot of trainings to do. And satisfying my passion everyday. I need to grab a snack, bye.
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I like to say some stuffs before I start the mind training.
The purpose of mindtraining is to develop my mind. Parkour is not only developing the body physically, but also mentally and spiritually. I will be doing this whenever I want to and when I have time, as I realize not everyday I could use the computer. For each mind training I will ask myself a few random questions, which will require you to think alot, and write alot. They are not one liner answers. The most important thing about this is that you really think and reflect upon, and write down your true thoughts and feelings.
The questions are gonna be (and should be) really thought-provoking, mind boggling, brain-teasing. Philosophical questions. They could be relating to Parkour, or me, or life, and anything else which I might find interesteing. One thing about this is that I find that everyone should do this, no matter who they are, what they do. Questions are part of life. And to question life is to find out about life. What is life without a purpose, without a reason? Nothing, and that is really stupid.
BTW, what I say here is IN MY OPINION, and everyone have different opinions. If you have anything about my points to argue about, just state it out, I'm more then happy to hear your thoughts.
Lets start the first mind training.
QUESTION 1: What is life to you?
Just a really typical question I'm gonna tell myself in mindtrainings. Hope you guys who are reading can also ask yourself the same and try to answer.
Anyway, for me life is the sole purpose of living. I'm happy to be given a life in Earth, thanks to my parents. Everybody in this world is given a life, and that is actually the best gift you could ever get, but people doesn't appreciate it. Look at the world now, they are mistreating their biggest gift that has been given to them, which is their life. They want to mistreat their bodies with drugs, alcohol, cigarettes. Suicides, wrist cutting, emo poems. Whats with them? I just don't get it. They don't cherish their life at all, and when life is so important, so good a gift, something that we can do many things with, and also we only live a life once, totaling up to 70+ years.
However though life may be, with a change of perspective and a positive approach, things can be different. It is JUST LIFE that you will face all kind of different obstacles everyday. There can never be life that is happy happy happy all the time. There will be ALOT OF times will things starts to get irritating, you start getting angry, everythings is not what you expected, and nothing goes your way. Its obstacles, something inevitable, no matter what. But we should do something about instead of the typical method of sitting down there and whine and complain and cry about it. It is easier to complain then to fix a probelm. There is no easy way out in life. This is what life supposed to be, you face obstacles everyday, everytime, without fail.
Definitely there will be times that you will be happy, feel happy, and finally you think that all the hardwork and perseverance paid off. That is your prize, as you, instead being a fucking sloth just being lazy and complaining your ass out, decided to solve the puzzle no matter hard it is. Cherish that time as much, the precious times that you cannot forget, and they are called memories.
I watched a movie in school today, although many people might not think that it is anything good, but for me it is damn meaningful. "Dream BIG, take RISKS!", I'm sure with belief, patience, and hardwork, you can do anything you want, like Mr Clarke said. No matter how unachievable you think it is, but with the power of belief, nothing is unachievable. This is applicable in every aspect of life, and anything. We all should learn that.
QUESTION 2: What if you have 10 days left on Earth?
It shocking to know that you have just 10 days to live life, example if you get cancer, and you know you are gonna die so soon. Although it is impossible to live forever, life is something that you must cherish so much. People fail to understand why should they do so, and they will only know why when they have 10 more days in life. Thats why I keep reiterating about how important life is, and why should we always cherish it.
For the question, definitely in the ten days I will do the things that I really want, and hopefully achieve every goals and fulfill every desire, for the last time. I will go to school for the last time, see my friends and tell them how much I love them and how much I appreciate them to be in my life, all the good things that people had done to me. Then I will train for the last time, do everything that I always wanted to get. It will be quite saddening to know that I have 10 more days to live, but since it is done, we should just live through, for the last time. I will go to Lisses (and many other countries) and train there for the (first and) last time. Since that it is a wish that I really want, I'm sure my parents wouldn't mind much to give me the money needed to go there, as it will be just once and for the last time. I want to die happy, or to know that my life is not wasted.
As we only live once, I guess it is the best to experience everything at least once, so that you know about it, you won't die in regret. Release every bad thoughts, look at the world, experience everything that I want just one last time, before I see the final sunset in my life, so that at least most of my desires are fulfilled (for the last time), and I die without regret.
Just writing and thinking about this, I feel very sad, and I realize I should cherish life more and more, and instead of living in regret, I should take the risks so that I can at least achieve something. We should be setting goals everyday, and pat yourself in the back if we achieve them. Small goals is good enough. It also reminds me about how we shouldn't waste time.
QUESTION 3: What is your purpose of life?
Like I said earlier, life without a purpose or reason is like living nothing. Even doing things without a reason is dumb. Although there is so many things better to think about, we should question ourselves at least once in a while about eveyrday stuffs, like why do you go out with this friend, how come you always goes out with them, why do you go to school (don't tell me one liner answers), and every small things.
My purpose of life, is to live life. I live to live life. And I want my life to be meaningful. Since we live just once, my purpose of life is to live through it. Every pitstops, obstacles, hardships, sorrows and happiness, joys and achievements, all kinds of ups and downs are part of living life, they can be irritating and retarded, but I know that it is just part of life, so I just live through it. And also, again, since we live just once, I wanna experience everything at least once so that you know what does it feels like.
Some people likes to live things unknown. Sometimes if don't why they do this, why they love this someone, they just don't bother asking themselves and leave it unknown. Maybe they like leaving this unknown, as it is "cool" to leave it unknown. But for me I think that something without a reason, it has no meaning. Even that they don't know why that like that person, they will just say things like "I just like her, I don't know how to explain.". Thats ok, maybe it is just to hard to put it into words.
"With no philosophy and purpose, action have no meaning." - Seb Foucan.
QUESTION 4: What do you aim to achieve in life? (LIFELONG-term goals)
Thinking about the future, and your life in overall. Being a person, we all wanna achieve something, no matter how small or big a hurdle it is. We want to set goals and hopefully achieving it. Goals are good, but they should be SMART goals that YOU KNOW WHY you want to get it, and you know that you CAN achieve it, and you WANT to achieve NO MATTER WHAT. And also, without goals, you wouldn't know where you are going. Goals are actually very important.
I guess like I said before, I want to lead a good, meaningful life. Also, I love videography and I want to be a filmmaker, cameramen and video editor. There are many goals, but the main aim is to lead a meaningful life. I should elaborate more on the other secondary goals. I also want to make videos, and I would love to become an artist of movements, do things with only the possibilities of a human body. I want to become a strong human. Understand life, be helpful to others and treat others in equality with myself.
I want to make a video, a really good one. This march sampler would be my first test of my video editing and filming skills. I would take it as a big stepping stone for me, because I plan to make bigger, better, professional videos in the future, including one mini-movie, and a parkour documentary. I going to practice alot by making more mini videos, and also read up and watch more videos to learn camerawork. When I grow up, I would love to be a independant filmmaker.
Parkour, tricking, self-defense, survivalism, rock-climbing, etc., it is the movements within the possibilities of the human body. Using this to help me understand the human body more and treat my body how it was meant to be treated. By this too, I would need and also I want to be a strong human, in terms of bodyweight, self-defense and weights. I might want to take up olympic weightlifting and also some basic self-defense. Although I think Parkour and tricking is the main things that I will want to concentrate on.
I want to make my life useful and also meaningful, so I guess I should help more people that needs help, because it doesn't hurt to help, and it doesn't take much effort either, but nevertheless it could meant alot to them. I can see that alot of people had gave me alot of their care and concern, which is really nice of them, so I should spread it too, to be equal. I hope to treat others and myself with equality.
I can say that I understand life more because of all the hardships that I've gone through before, which probably only some of the people I know had gone through before. Many people could say they are quite a happy go lucky person, but in fact they might not. They just don't get in trouble much so they don't really see the other side of life. I myself have gone through all this shit and I know hows it feels like. I can see that everyone is different, they think different, they have different interests and opinion, but everyone have something in common - they all have feelings. Thats why I wish to treat people in equality now, to be fair, although nothing in life is fair.
A filmmaker, cameraman, video editor, artist of movements, and a meaningful and useful life.
They are my life and thats my lifelong goals. (There are still some other goals, but this are the main ones.)
Thats all for mind training, those readers who have read, please tag or comments, I really wanna know you opinions thank you.
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Today I went to the gym and work out. I thought my deadlifts was a bit better, but in fact they aren't. I better stop lifting heavy and increasing the weight, instead I better read up more on deadlifts and cocncentrate more on the form rather then the weight and strength. Im still young and if I keep doing it with bad, it is hell bad for my lowerback and other joints. My squats is already there so in the meantime I will use that to develop my posterior, but I shouldn't be too complacent with it as well, I should still keep the weights low and concentrate on the form.
I just need to control myself, and I have self control, so I have to control myself. I should stop doing things out of my limits, and as usual not do STUPID things. You only live once, so you should live life properly.
Tomorrow is the last day of school, and I really can't wait to finish my sampler. I have veyr high hopes for it, but I know that I shouldn't get it too high, because you will never know what life brings, and everything might not go as thought, which really sucks. But then again, its life. I just really hope the video outcome is good. And I know whatever is, hardwork will pay off. I hope to go many far places during the holidays, and I'm filming the rest of it at Tampines and Simei and Pasir Ris on school days. I got so many things that I wanna film in mind, but because of the lack of a cameraman and again the weather, or who knows what else, its gonna be hard to stick to it. I'm gonna make a list of things that I want to film, because I'm scared I have to many and I will forget! Like I said it will be a huge stepping stone, so I hope this will be a good one.
Like I said before, I want to practice tricking more, as my tricking really sucks, and I have so many more things to work on. I will talk about more on that in the next post.
Hey, its already one year of training. So much of change. I really wonder if next year what would I become. Hmmm... lets wait and see.
Hmmm.
As much as I hate life, I will love life too. Thats because like I said so many times already, life is full of obstacles, one after another, and you can't run away from them. Sometimes this kind of things are meant to happen, sometimes you just can't change them. This is not fate, rather its nature. I hate the word fate used in whatever manner, so I don't believe in them. All this obstacle will make you pissed off like hell, so much that you really feel like giving up/quitting/end it all, but again and again you know all this is just part of life, and you will know that all this will pay off, you just need to give it time, which could be one day to a couple of years.
Sometimes you WILL face people you don't like, ranging from strangers to classmates to even close family members. I had a tiff yesterday with my father, and it was then finally I said all that I wanted to say to him. He probably won't care because I figured he is too thick skinned. He thinks that he is so good/clever and he is a know-it-all. He give stupid reasons and then when he do things that contradicts it, he used fucked up excuses, which is retarded. And then he always think he is right, in the brain he thinks he is never wrong. He is being such a retarded show off since last time, something I really hate about him. I hate him and I don't care if he is my father or whoever else, because it doesn't matter. I hate him since young for the same reason. He keeps blaming people too, when he is in the wrong, but to him he is never wrong, he never makes mistake. Haha, people like this are really retarded. It will suck to have a parent like this.
He keep saying the stuffs I do is simple and everyone can do it. Haha, the tiff ended up with a bet. Which is, if he can actually make a video that I made for fun, at least same standard as me, in one week. LOL, he will take one week to even know how to play with the program. But who cares, since he is so smart-ass he said that everyone can do it, I will see. I don't even think he knows how to spell clone! He don't even know the basic function even after one week reading the manual, thats because he English sucks! Now which subject is more important! HAHA. Guess what is the prize of the bet? If I win, I don't have to listen to him at all. If I lose (which is not going to happen LOL!!!), I have to listen to him. I don't want to be overconfident but in this case I can't help it, LOL he thinks he can even do it, HAHA in your face sucker. Consequences of being a stupid show off. And if he wants to try to say stupid stuffs, I will use this to really backup man. Since he said himself that I can don't listen to him, I can DONT LISTEN TO HIM AT ALL. If he try to say stupid stuffs again, I will use this too again as a backup. This is epic ownage.
I really don't want to talk about that topic anymore. This will definitely make me hate him more, and I will never respect him ever again. Since he want to talk big and everything, and all the other stupid stuffs he did/said, I really can't be bothered. I will severe ties, and I won't give a shit. I will only do what is right, what I know myself to be right, I don't need such a retarded parent to instruct me to do so. No way in hell. I listen to the right things, and I fight for my rights, and I will live by this. If he ever thinks he is right but I don't think so, I won't care at all to disobey. Why not, I do what I want, why must I follow you? Follow your wrong and stupid shits? No way in hell. I don't even need your permission to do stuffs anymore, because since you want act big and everything, I can bloody heck care. Who cares about one guy who only knows how to blame others, think about himself, act big, smoke, watch porn everyday, talk big, gamble in soccer matches, scold people, show off, act smart, talk without a reason, think that he is so clever and never wrong in everything. Fucker. No way in hell am I ever need to care about your "opinions" ever again, as this time your limits are pushed too far. And I'm serious.
I know what I want to do, what I can do, what I will do, what I like to do, and what is right for me. I don't need a retarded people to care about this, so please fuck off. You are worthless shit.
Raining, raining, raining. Sucks, but it cannot be helped. I don't know but I guess I will only film my sampler around Bishan and Tampines, and of course some other random spots, but those two areas will be the "spotlight" of my sampler. Its time to plan what I want to film, but I won't post it here, I just want to keep it secret. Other spots might include Pasir Ris, Simei, Marine Parade, and maybe jelapang. Of course if I can go to other places I will film there too. I will finish my sampler before March ends, hopefully, so its time to film and film and film!
This March Holidays is going to finish very soon, my homework still pretty much untouched and also I have work and work.. but today I went gym. I don't know whether my deadlifts is good but I better play safe now, keep the weights low like 10kg max for deadlifts. Squats are ok but I still don't want to increase the weights yet, because I got a feeling that 30kg is quite heavy already. I dont want to push my limits too far too soon, and I will regret once again.
Also, I've been taking the opportunity working at the gym last few days to train abit on my tricking. They didn't really improve but I have alot of work to do. I know it is VERY HARD to learn new tricks, and I will require lots of practice, patience, effort and determination to get them, like everything else. I will purely focus on my kick the moon and my backflip for the moment. I have alot of time in the world, so I should take my time and not rush, because if injuries and the such comes, it will be even worst. No rush for now.
I have been eating alot nowadays, but hardly thinking about what kind of food is it. I choose chicken wings which is full of meats, and neglected the oils and fats and skins on it. It might be quite bad but for me I think for now I should eat more, and of course exercise more, and then I can grow. Or not it will be a waste. Of course I have to eat healthy but I don't really but that as priority for now because it will be a bad probelm. Of course I do not want to over do it.
I decided that I should start earning even more money because a mere $2000 wouldn't be enough. What I plan to buy is a camcorder (HV20) which will cost about 1.6k (but I really cannot confirm this, the price varies), and fish eye lenses, external mic, steadicam (own-built) and other camcorder accessory (when I decided what I want to buy), then I also want to get skates and a bike. Total would be about 2.5k already. I might consider buying a tablet pc, and also maybe around 20gb hard drive. But that would be until I go to poly. Also I want to have around another 1k of savings so that I can use it to buy those small stuffs when I want to. So I'm aiming like 4k, but it will take very long to get there. Now I think I only have about 400 bucks in my savings account. I might want to quit Macdonalds this June and get a much better job and I will be working longer hours and more days. I hope to get that much by the end of this year, but I really don't think so. The fact that I still need to study, people will tell me "dream on!"
I would like to bring up another topic, relating to mindtraining.
I thought that if I ask myself this question - Am I anything to others?
I actually don't think I am. I think I'm a little bit like a eyesore or pain in the ass to some people too. I guess I should be more helpful and have more friends now. So that if I die at least I can be remembered. I definitely want to be self-reliant (another reason why I want to earn so much), but also be something to others. I don't want to die and no one really cares. Not saying that I should care about others, but I have to differentiate what kind of people I should care about. Those people will say things that is good to me, and helpful to me. But I should know which one. I need to tell myself that now I stop being so irritating to others, make more friends, instead of insulting them, I should talk and help them more.
Studies are getting harder I can feel. I think if I want to prove to myself that I am capable to do what I want to do, this will be a chance. I don't know why but now I really have no hope in my Chinese, not saying I want to give up, but instead I will work smart and study even harder in the important subjects like Maths, Physics, POA, Humanities so that I will pull me up even more. Also I now know that courses won't count CCA points. I made the right choice. It is probably CCA Points will minus 2 points in your cut off so you can go to that Polytechnic, not to the course though. Even that I'm not sure. If I want to go to the school I want, I better study even harder, mug more, and know how to prioritize and balance my timing/schedule.
Whatever is, film and movements is my passion, and nothing can stop me from it.
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UPDATE 9/3.
Wow, life is really tiring. Like always life is full of obstacles, you just can't run away from them. I just finish working three days straight, and the job is quite shag, yet good pay, good thing, way better then macdonald. But I have to go work at macdonald wednesday and saturday, which really sucks. I hate working at macdonald really, sucks man, how I wish I can work a better job. Once I reach two thousand bucks (my goal, maybe end of this year HOPEFULLY), thats it, game set. I'll stop working until Poly life, where I can get a much better job, and I can probably get the two thousand like 4x faster then macdonald.
But still sometimes you just cannot bring your hopes too high. And even sometimes everything can go haywire. You cannot control what will happen. Still you have to persevere and overcome life obstacles again and again and finally whatever you want will come to you. Only lazy people stay there do nothing and expect it to come to them, in your dreams assholes.
Yep, march holidays already. I don't think it is even a March holiday, due to the no. of homeworks and working days. I better make full use of the free days, which is only 4 days. 7 days till school reopens, seems like so soon I bet. Oh yeah I wanna go to places to film my sampler, but I dont know where. Planning to go to Jurong tomorrow, Bukit Panjang/Jelapang area on Tuesday, Bishan on Thrusday, Sengkang on Friday I think. Wednesday is probably a rest day, same for saturday, and the last day for chionging homework. Speaking of homework, probably I will be using the time in the MRT and Buses to finish them. It is called killing or making use of time.
I also wanna go to Tampines, Simei, Pasir Ris and probably one day to go to Marine Parade to film more on my sampler. I can't wait to see the finished product of the video. I hope its good. Since last year I've been thinking of making it, and there is so many reasons why I wanna make this video. Like, making a video which is my hobby, testing my video editing skills, recieve comments and criticisms from experienced traceurs, a benchmark to see how much I progress after one year, and also something to prove to my friends in my school that I'm not any regular Parkour boy that does stupid things or any stupid video making poser. Many people might think that this video is for showing off purposes but I really don't think so, because making video is my passion, which maybe alot of people won't understand. I got so many things to film in mind, I really must start making a list, and I hope the person who is filming for me can help me, and I know its gonna be hard.
Quite sad the people nowadays, are really retarded. As this point is repeated again and again for so many times I don't really see the use of saying it again. The world really needs help, looks like everyone now its hopeless. Most I can do is to not care about whatever shit they say, anyway I also can't be bothered. Seriously, man, I got nothing to say already. Even how much I say, they don't bother, then I can't do anything, actually more like don't wanna do anything. All this complacent, high ego, act smart, stubborn, or just retarded people, haha. Don't feeling like helping anymore.
Film (video editing, filmmaking, camerawork, etc.) and movements (parkour, tricking, etc.) is my passion. No one can stop me from it.
Expect more videos.
One thing I find about myself is that I want alot of tricks in such a fast time. I'm want to nail so many tricks. Aerial, backhandspring, moonkick, cartwheel to frontflip, sideflip, roundoff to backflip, and also better my backflip. I can't believe that I thought that I can actually nail them easily, but obviously they will take alot alot of hardwork and patience to nail them. But still I have so much time, I can slowly train for them. I guess I should find one trick, or maybe two, and focus and concentrate on it, thats all. I should start tricking more too though.
Good thing my sister lent me her Ipod. Now there is so many good songs that I really like listening, and they are underground and good for videos. Listen to mp3 in bus, walking to school, on laptop, laying down, doing homework, is such a stress reliever. And I think I should start studying film, through the net and watching my movies for now. And of course making more videos and reading more articles. The more you do, the better you are.
Rain. Sucks. They are back, and I don't know why holidays are rainy seasons. They are so irritating, but I really hope they don't rain when I go to far places. It always rain when I go Bishan though, which sucks dammit. I need to find a cameramen to go with me too, which is pretty difficult, shit. All my videos are moving, as not on a tripod or on the same spot, but moving. I think I should make a list of videos that I wanna make too, so many! Including some big ones. I also make videos where I'm not in the video but just the cameramen and video editor. More videos! How I love film!
I really have to thank the people I met, those good souls, which are pretty rare. I should really appreciate them and also pay back. Since they helped me so much when I needed help, I should do the same instead of being selfish. And also put myself in their shoes, think about how they feel before doing something. But then again, its just too hard to have things your way.
Money nowadays seems like an issue. To live a good life you need money. Without money you can't survive. To get better you need to eat, which those food requires money. Transport need money, to study film you need money, to travel overseas you need money, to even use handphone, a laptop, and even bathing you need money. Buying your camcorder, olympic weightlifting set, better house, all need money. What you can't buy with money is love, training, knowledge, hardwork, passion, friends, happiness, time, etc. Oh well, earn more money.
I can't wait to finish my March sampler. Its one year already, so fast. And really expect more videos of different kinds. Till then I have alot of trainings to do. And satisfying my passion everyday. I need to grab a snack, bye.
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I like to say some stuffs before I start the mind training.
The purpose of mindtraining is to develop my mind. Parkour is not only developing the body physically, but also mentally and spiritually. I will be doing this whenever I want to and when I have time, as I realize not everyday I could use the computer. For each mind training I will ask myself a few random questions, which will require you to think alot, and write alot. They are not one liner answers. The most important thing about this is that you really think and reflect upon, and write down your true thoughts and feelings.
The questions are gonna be (and should be) really thought-provoking, mind boggling, brain-teasing. Philosophical questions. They could be relating to Parkour, or me, or life, and anything else which I might find interesteing. One thing about this is that I find that everyone should do this, no matter who they are, what they do. Questions are part of life. And to question life is to find out about life. What is life without a purpose, without a reason? Nothing, and that is really stupid.
BTW, what I say here is IN MY OPINION, and everyone have different opinions. If you have anything about my points to argue about, just state it out, I'm more then happy to hear your thoughts.
Lets start the first mind training.
QUESTION 1: What is life to you?
Just a really typical question I'm gonna tell myself in mindtrainings. Hope you guys who are reading can also ask yourself the same and try to answer.
Anyway, for me life is the sole purpose of living. I'm happy to be given a life in Earth, thanks to my parents. Everybody in this world is given a life, and that is actually the best gift you could ever get, but people doesn't appreciate it. Look at the world now, they are mistreating their biggest gift that has been given to them, which is their life. They want to mistreat their bodies with drugs, alcohol, cigarettes. Suicides, wrist cutting, emo poems. Whats with them? I just don't get it. They don't cherish their life at all, and when life is so important, so good a gift, something that we can do many things with, and also we only live a life once, totaling up to 70+ years.
However though life may be, with a change of perspective and a positive approach, things can be different. It is JUST LIFE that you will face all kind of different obstacles everyday. There can never be life that is happy happy happy all the time. There will be ALOT OF times will things starts to get irritating, you start getting angry, everythings is not what you expected, and nothing goes your way. Its obstacles, something inevitable, no matter what. But we should do something about instead of the typical method of sitting down there and whine and complain and cry about it. It is easier to complain then to fix a probelm. There is no easy way out in life. This is what life supposed to be, you face obstacles everyday, everytime, without fail.
Definitely there will be times that you will be happy, feel happy, and finally you think that all the hardwork and perseverance paid off. That is your prize, as you, instead being a fucking sloth just being lazy and complaining your ass out, decided to solve the puzzle no matter hard it is. Cherish that time as much, the precious times that you cannot forget, and they are called memories.
I watched a movie in school today, although many people might not think that it is anything good, but for me it is damn meaningful. "Dream BIG, take RISKS!", I'm sure with belief, patience, and hardwork, you can do anything you want, like Mr Clarke said. No matter how unachievable you think it is, but with the power of belief, nothing is unachievable. This is applicable in every aspect of life, and anything. We all should learn that.
QUESTION 2: What if you have 10 days left on Earth?
It shocking to know that you have just 10 days to live life, example if you get cancer, and you know you are gonna die so soon. Although it is impossible to live forever, life is something that you must cherish so much. People fail to understand why should they do so, and they will only know why when they have 10 more days in life. Thats why I keep reiterating about how important life is, and why should we always cherish it.
For the question, definitely in the ten days I will do the things that I really want, and hopefully achieve every goals and fulfill every desire, for the last time. I will go to school for the last time, see my friends and tell them how much I love them and how much I appreciate them to be in my life, all the good things that people had done to me. Then I will train for the last time, do everything that I always wanted to get. It will be quite saddening to know that I have 10 more days to live, but since it is done, we should just live through, for the last time. I will go to Lisses (and many other countries) and train there for the (first and) last time. Since that it is a wish that I really want, I'm sure my parents wouldn't mind much to give me the money needed to go there, as it will be just once and for the last time. I want to die happy, or to know that my life is not wasted.
As we only live once, I guess it is the best to experience everything at least once, so that you know about it, you won't die in regret. Release every bad thoughts, look at the world, experience everything that I want just one last time, before I see the final sunset in my life, so that at least most of my desires are fulfilled (for the last time), and I die without regret.
Just writing and thinking about this, I feel very sad, and I realize I should cherish life more and more, and instead of living in regret, I should take the risks so that I can at least achieve something. We should be setting goals everyday, and pat yourself in the back if we achieve them. Small goals is good enough. It also reminds me about how we shouldn't waste time.
QUESTION 3: What is your purpose of life?
Like I said earlier, life without a purpose or reason is like living nothing. Even doing things without a reason is dumb. Although there is so many things better to think about, we should question ourselves at least once in a while about eveyrday stuffs, like why do you go out with this friend, how come you always goes out with them, why do you go to school (don't tell me one liner answers), and every small things.
My purpose of life, is to live life. I live to live life. And I want my life to be meaningful. Since we live just once, my purpose of life is to live through it. Every pitstops, obstacles, hardships, sorrows and happiness, joys and achievements, all kinds of ups and downs are part of living life, they can be irritating and retarded, but I know that it is just part of life, so I just live through it. And also, again, since we live just once, I wanna experience everything at least once so that you know what does it feels like.
Some people likes to live things unknown. Sometimes if don't why they do this, why they love this someone, they just don't bother asking themselves and leave it unknown. Maybe they like leaving this unknown, as it is "cool" to leave it unknown. But for me I think that something without a reason, it has no meaning. Even that they don't know why that like that person, they will just say things like "I just like her, I don't know how to explain.". Thats ok, maybe it is just to hard to put it into words.
"With no philosophy and purpose, action have no meaning." - Seb Foucan.
QUESTION 4: What do you aim to achieve in life? (LIFELONG-term goals)
Thinking about the future, and your life in overall. Being a person, we all wanna achieve something, no matter how small or big a hurdle it is. We want to set goals and hopefully achieving it. Goals are good, but they should be SMART goals that YOU KNOW WHY you want to get it, and you know that you CAN achieve it, and you WANT to achieve NO MATTER WHAT. And also, without goals, you wouldn't know where you are going. Goals are actually very important.
I guess like I said before, I want to lead a good, meaningful life. Also, I love videography and I want to be a filmmaker, cameramen and video editor. There are many goals, but the main aim is to lead a meaningful life. I should elaborate more on the other secondary goals. I also want to make videos, and I would love to become an artist of movements, do things with only the possibilities of a human body. I want to become a strong human. Understand life, be helpful to others and treat others in equality with myself.
I want to make a video, a really good one. This march sampler would be my first test of my video editing and filming skills. I would take it as a big stepping stone for me, because I plan to make bigger, better, professional videos in the future, including one mini-movie, and a parkour documentary. I going to practice alot by making more mini videos, and also read up and watch more videos to learn camerawork. When I grow up, I would love to be a independant filmmaker.
Parkour, tricking, self-defense, survivalism, rock-climbing, etc., it is the movements within the possibilities of the human body. Using this to help me understand the human body more and treat my body how it was meant to be treated. By this too, I would need and also I want to be a strong human, in terms of bodyweight, self-defense and weights. I might want to take up olympic weightlifting and also some basic self-defense. Although I think Parkour and tricking is the main things that I will want to concentrate on.
I want to make my life useful and also meaningful, so I guess I should help more people that needs help, because it doesn't hurt to help, and it doesn't take much effort either, but nevertheless it could meant alot to them. I can see that alot of people had gave me alot of their care and concern, which is really nice of them, so I should spread it too, to be equal. I hope to treat others and myself with equality.
I can say that I understand life more because of all the hardships that I've gone through before, which probably only some of the people I know had gone through before. Many people could say they are quite a happy go lucky person, but in fact they might not. They just don't get in trouble much so they don't really see the other side of life. I myself have gone through all this shit and I know hows it feels like. I can see that everyone is different, they think different, they have different interests and opinion, but everyone have something in common - they all have feelings. Thats why I wish to treat people in equality now, to be fair, although nothing in life is fair.
A filmmaker, cameraman, video editor, artist of movements, and a meaningful and useful life.
They are my life and thats my lifelong goals. (There are still some other goals, but this are the main ones.)
Thats all for mind training, those readers who have read, please tag or comments, I really wanna know you opinions thank you.
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Today I went to the gym and work out. I thought my deadlifts was a bit better, but in fact they aren't. I better stop lifting heavy and increasing the weight, instead I better read up more on deadlifts and cocncentrate more on the form rather then the weight and strength. Im still young and if I keep doing it with bad, it is hell bad for my lowerback and other joints. My squats is already there so in the meantime I will use that to develop my posterior, but I shouldn't be too complacent with it as well, I should still keep the weights low and concentrate on the form.
I just need to control myself, and I have self control, so I have to control myself. I should stop doing things out of my limits, and as usual not do STUPID things. You only live once, so you should live life properly.
Tomorrow is the last day of school, and I really can't wait to finish my sampler. I have veyr high hopes for it, but I know that I shouldn't get it too high, because you will never know what life brings, and everything might not go as thought, which really sucks. But then again, its life. I just really hope the video outcome is good. And I know whatever is, hardwork will pay off. I hope to go many far places during the holidays, and I'm filming the rest of it at Tampines and Simei and Pasir Ris on school days. I got so many things that I wanna film in mind, but because of the lack of a cameraman and again the weather, or who knows what else, its gonna be hard to stick to it. I'm gonna make a list of things that I want to film, because I'm scared I have to many and I will forget! Like I said it will be a huge stepping stone, so I hope this will be a good one.
Like I said before, I want to practice tricking more, as my tricking really sucks, and I have so many more things to work on. I will talk about more on that in the next post.
Hey, its already one year of training. So much of change. I really wonder if next year what would I become. Hmmm... lets wait and see.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Some thoughts.
Update.
Today I went for upperbody training. It suddenly started to rain when I'm about to finish my upperbody. I did tire my body out before I went off, a total of 8 sets weighted pullups. And a few muscleups, which is really easily gone after more weighted pullups, as I find that my muscleups are only good when I'm fresh. Lol, I need more practice. Oh yeah my muscleups and pulling strength is back, thankfully. I guess I needed more rest.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go to gym to train my lowerbody. I will still do squats for the strength and deadlift for the form. For deadlift I will stick to 20kg for maximum training for its form and squats as usual 30kg again.
I feel that I want to start and concentrate more on tricking. I feel that my skills in Parkour definitely have alot more room for improvements, but I'm quite satisfied in it already, so I decided to take a mini break from it. I will dedicate a month, purely based on repetitions and practice. I will continue to do strength training 3 times a week, but 2 days of tricking, one day at playgrounds. The reason behind it is that I don't wanna rely on gym too much, so its playgrounds to get used and practice the flips that I could already and gym for trying out new stuffs, and of course practicing abit.
But if I were to take a break, I will definitely lose some of my skills because I stop training it for awhile. What I plan is to dedicate one whole month on tricking and tricking. Since tricking is really rely quite alot on muscle memory, I must be cautious to not bail or screw up, so usually the session would be quite short. Then there will still be time for training movements. I will just make use of the gym and trick seriously and more often instead of slacking around for nothing. So it will still be 3 strength training days, 2 working days, 2 days of tricking + movements.
And also, I want to take one month, just one month, and use like 1 hour or less to train repetitions of movements. And after that I will do what I will need to do, strength training, work, or continue training movements. This will be quite hard because I will definitely get distracted, and it will take up alot of time. I don't know but this will need self-discipline, some real tough self-discipline.
And I plan that for this year, I will spend 2 times a week hopefully not being distracted in other things in the gym to strengthen up my legs, to strengthen my knees, ankles and lowerback. Hopefully by the end of this March my deadlift form is ok so I can lift for functional strength rather then functional hypertrophy. I know my limits and I should not overlift and go pass my limits, something that will be dangerous to my body. I want gradual progression. I hope to get 2x bodyweight squats and deadlifts (or even more) by the end of this year, although it seems hard, I will try my best. The next year I will progress into plyometrics and olympic weightlifting, combined with sprinting and Parkour training, that is if I know that my legs and joints had gotten strong enough. So this year training for strength, next year for power and of course strength once in awhile.
I have been eating more and hopefully healthier now and I'm taking glucosamine thanks to my mum everyday now. I hope to eat more fruits and healthier stuffs and I feel that I still have stomachache after eating, I don't know whether is it my body isn't yet conditioned to the food and the quantity(yes I've heard of this before), or rather eating wrong food, mcwings for example. This combined with proper training with good form and no pushing of limits, and no impactful, stressful, and stupid stuffs in movements training, will definitely give me a happy healthier lifestyle.
Flexibility is an issue in Parkour too. I want to learn how to tuck tighter, gain more flexibility in my wrists, ankles, hamstrings, lowerback and groin. Flexibility in those areas will lessen injuries, like flexible ankles will be better in absorbing impactful armjumps. I'm stretching more now, and I have not much knowledge in stretching so far, so I should start researching more about it, same goes for human kinetics, psychology, human body, strength training, and many other things that are worth reading. I wouldn't want to waste my time in the internet too, but sadly I think I am. I should spend less time on the comp, unless it is something productive.
I got my long mark sheet today, and I expected an F9, for chinese obviously. And also Amaths because of the stupid test, wow. Luckily thanks to Mr Khan, he gave me a VR. POA, CH and PsyChem got As, but Emaths got a C5, English stupidly got a B4. I seriously need to improve Maths and English if I decided to neglect in Chinese so that they could pull me up. Stupid chinese will pull me down in everything, aggregrate, overall score, grades and position. This just sucks. I need to get a tuition teacher. And also, I need to buck up if I wanna go Singapore Poly, it wouldn't be easy. Suddenly I was informed that CCA points are counted in L1R4 (poly), which is stupid, I can't believe it, this means I need to put in double effort and hardwork while others have an added advantage. How stupid.
Mind training on Thrusday, watch out for it.
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Some thoughts I've been thinking in the past few days.
Firstly about training.
I confirmed that I'm going to do two days of leg training (at gym) and one day upperbody strength training, one day of movements, one day of tricking (+ some movements), and two rest days (working).
Legs training at gym, I seriously have to start working on deadlifts. My squats are getting better but I know I cannot increase the weight yet. I must still work abit on the form, as I just learnt full squats which are better. From the gym guys they still stated out that I round my lower body a little sometimes. Also, my deadlifts, sucks. I have alot to practice on. I have to focus more on improving the form and not lifting heavier yet. The time will come, safety is more important.
Movements, I really need to get back to the past training then I lose focus on. Repetitions. I really need to do 50 50 50 50 50 everything. I need to dedicate one month for this, and no rests at all, I must be disciplined. I must control myself. I will start training repetitions for every movements training from now on. My precisions haven't improved much, argh. My wall pass and sdc is there already. I must focus on my armjumps and precisions definitely.
Tricking. Wow new tricks are very hard to nail. Kick the moon and aerial are actually very hard tricks. I have to really work on my backflips, which still sucks. And my frontflip which is still on and off. What else, hmmm. Oh yeah sideflips, if possible. I have to focus more when I'm in gym and not waste my time. And I will work towards my kick the moon too. I really need to be dedicated in this.
Work. I think I'm more comfortable with work, although that I'm eating mcwings everytime I go there. I will just work for the money, not for anything else, maybe to get used to the working life too. A new experience. Lol.
Oh yeah and my sampler. I want to film it this march holidays, going to Bishan and Sengkang to film abit. Most of it will be in Tampines, some in Simei, and the rest in random spots, maybe Pasir Ris, and I don't know where else. There will be alot of runs more then individual movements (there will be some of course). I'm gonna test my filming skills, but I don't know who could help me film they way I want. Its gonna be hard...
Ok now I'm gonna list my thoughts.
Mind training. I have to dedicate one day every two weeks to train my mind, by asking about 5 or 6 questions that day which will really need to make my mind think. Its not only mind training for Parkour, but for Life too. Questions will be random, and they will be mind-boggling, thought-provoking, and brain-teasing. Maybe every Thrusday night. I will start next week, by blogging the questions over here.
The media is coming tomorrow (or maybe today), its gonna be myy first test of handling the meida, which I think every traceur will need to do one day. It is not to become spotlighted in magazine, tv, articles, radio, etc. But a test of how reliable you are, and a test of your knowledge. Do you trust your information you give to the media to be correct and reliable, good portrayal to the genral public? I hope it is. It will be a test.
Also, as a traceur, or even a good person, you must share your knowledge with the others. A traceur is one who learns and pass him information to the newcomers. I'm gonna test my skills to teach others too. Because I know alot of traceurs who are more experienced offered to give me hints, technique, tips, helps when I needed it, so its my turn to pay back. I want to teach too, its just another test, for tomorrow. I hope I can teach, and I can be a good teacher.
Wall pass. I did a really high wall in Simei (for me), which I did about a total of 7 times (I counted) all in about a total of 30 or less (or more) attempts. For each attempts I really focused alot, and I admit in some attempts are really unfocused and bullshit, but I have to focus alot and I use alot of effort in my attempts. Which is good, my focus had increased for sure. The wall is more then twice my height, something which I'm happy to show in my sampler thats for sure. I just proved to myself that nothing is impossible. The wall seems very high at first, but in the end I nailed it. I'm happy, but it is still very inconsistent, but its ok, more practice and repetititons.
Music. I recently found out of songs which are really nice to listen, Jurassic 5, Drum and bass, Chill out music, Underground hiphop, Electronic, Alternative Hiphop. Really nice songs, also can be used for videos. I need to find more songs though, I will not stop searching. I need to have something to listen to when I'm on bus, long trip on the trains, boring trips to school. Mp3, Ipod, Handphone. They are stress reliever, mind calmers, some even heart-thumping and relaxing. Its another way to express yourself other then writing, moving and thinking.
Friends. I find that they are important. I can't thank those people enough that have been good, nice, encouranging, accompanying, caring, helpful. I guess I need to cherish them more, same for life. You only feel the value once you lost them. Maybe I will emphasis more on this coming mindtraining.
Studies have been ok ok, with the exception of the normal, obvious, not shocking, Chinese. I don't like it dammit. And I don't know whether CCA points counts for the O level L1R4. So confusing. Lol but I already made up my mind to quit NCC, lol this sucks to lose 2 points just like that. That will be extra effort and hardwork to get to Singapore Poly now. I have to be disciplined again. Next week will be the last week of school for term 1. Getting back the report book, and I got a bad feeling about it, this sucks. And march holiday is coming in one week time, so fast! Dammit. Time really flies. Sucks.
Thats all I wanna say.
Today I went for upperbody training. It suddenly started to rain when I'm about to finish my upperbody. I did tire my body out before I went off, a total of 8 sets weighted pullups. And a few muscleups, which is really easily gone after more weighted pullups, as I find that my muscleups are only good when I'm fresh. Lol, I need more practice. Oh yeah my muscleups and pulling strength is back, thankfully. I guess I needed more rest.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go to gym to train my lowerbody. I will still do squats for the strength and deadlift for the form. For deadlift I will stick to 20kg for maximum training for its form and squats as usual 30kg again.
I feel that I want to start and concentrate more on tricking. I feel that my skills in Parkour definitely have alot more room for improvements, but I'm quite satisfied in it already, so I decided to take a mini break from it. I will dedicate a month, purely based on repetitions and practice. I will continue to do strength training 3 times a week, but 2 days of tricking, one day at playgrounds. The reason behind it is that I don't wanna rely on gym too much, so its playgrounds to get used and practice the flips that I could already and gym for trying out new stuffs, and of course practicing abit.
But if I were to take a break, I will definitely lose some of my skills because I stop training it for awhile. What I plan is to dedicate one whole month on tricking and tricking. Since tricking is really rely quite alot on muscle memory, I must be cautious to not bail or screw up, so usually the session would be quite short. Then there will still be time for training movements. I will just make use of the gym and trick seriously and more often instead of slacking around for nothing. So it will still be 3 strength training days, 2 working days, 2 days of tricking + movements.
And also, I want to take one month, just one month, and use like 1 hour or less to train repetitions of movements. And after that I will do what I will need to do, strength training, work, or continue training movements. This will be quite hard because I will definitely get distracted, and it will take up alot of time. I don't know but this will need self-discipline, some real tough self-discipline.
And I plan that for this year, I will spend 2 times a week hopefully not being distracted in other things in the gym to strengthen up my legs, to strengthen my knees, ankles and lowerback. Hopefully by the end of this March my deadlift form is ok so I can lift for functional strength rather then functional hypertrophy. I know my limits and I should not overlift and go pass my limits, something that will be dangerous to my body. I want gradual progression. I hope to get 2x bodyweight squats and deadlifts (or even more) by the end of this year, although it seems hard, I will try my best. The next year I will progress into plyometrics and olympic weightlifting, combined with sprinting and Parkour training, that is if I know that my legs and joints had gotten strong enough. So this year training for strength, next year for power and of course strength once in awhile.
I have been eating more and hopefully healthier now and I'm taking glucosamine thanks to my mum everyday now. I hope to eat more fruits and healthier stuffs and I feel that I still have stomachache after eating, I don't know whether is it my body isn't yet conditioned to the food and the quantity(yes I've heard of this before), or rather eating wrong food, mcwings for example. This combined with proper training with good form and no pushing of limits, and no impactful, stressful, and stupid stuffs in movements training, will definitely give me a happy healthier lifestyle.
Flexibility is an issue in Parkour too. I want to learn how to tuck tighter, gain more flexibility in my wrists, ankles, hamstrings, lowerback and groin. Flexibility in those areas will lessen injuries, like flexible ankles will be better in absorbing impactful armjumps. I'm stretching more now, and I have not much knowledge in stretching so far, so I should start researching more about it, same goes for human kinetics, psychology, human body, strength training, and many other things that are worth reading. I wouldn't want to waste my time in the internet too, but sadly I think I am. I should spend less time on the comp, unless it is something productive.
I got my long mark sheet today, and I expected an F9, for chinese obviously. And also Amaths because of the stupid test, wow. Luckily thanks to Mr Khan, he gave me a VR. POA, CH and PsyChem got As, but Emaths got a C5, English stupidly got a B4. I seriously need to improve Maths and English if I decided to neglect in Chinese so that they could pull me up. Stupid chinese will pull me down in everything, aggregrate, overall score, grades and position. This just sucks. I need to get a tuition teacher. And also, I need to buck up if I wanna go Singapore Poly, it wouldn't be easy. Suddenly I was informed that CCA points are counted in L1R4 (poly), which is stupid, I can't believe it, this means I need to put in double effort and hardwork while others have an added advantage. How stupid.
Mind training on Thrusday, watch out for it.
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Some thoughts I've been thinking in the past few days.
Firstly about training.
I confirmed that I'm going to do two days of leg training (at gym) and one day upperbody strength training, one day of movements, one day of tricking (+ some movements), and two rest days (working).
Legs training at gym, I seriously have to start working on deadlifts. My squats are getting better but I know I cannot increase the weight yet. I must still work abit on the form, as I just learnt full squats which are better. From the gym guys they still stated out that I round my lower body a little sometimes. Also, my deadlifts, sucks. I have alot to practice on. I have to focus more on improving the form and not lifting heavier yet. The time will come, safety is more important.
Movements, I really need to get back to the past training then I lose focus on. Repetitions. I really need to do 50 50 50 50 50 everything. I need to dedicate one month for this, and no rests at all, I must be disciplined. I must control myself. I will start training repetitions for every movements training from now on. My precisions haven't improved much, argh. My wall pass and sdc is there already. I must focus on my armjumps and precisions definitely.
Tricking. Wow new tricks are very hard to nail. Kick the moon and aerial are actually very hard tricks. I have to really work on my backflips, which still sucks. And my frontflip which is still on and off. What else, hmmm. Oh yeah sideflips, if possible. I have to focus more when I'm in gym and not waste my time. And I will work towards my kick the moon too. I really need to be dedicated in this.
Work. I think I'm more comfortable with work, although that I'm eating mcwings everytime I go there. I will just work for the money, not for anything else, maybe to get used to the working life too. A new experience. Lol.
Oh yeah and my sampler. I want to film it this march holidays, going to Bishan and Sengkang to film abit. Most of it will be in Tampines, some in Simei, and the rest in random spots, maybe Pasir Ris, and I don't know where else. There will be alot of runs more then individual movements (there will be some of course). I'm gonna test my filming skills, but I don't know who could help me film they way I want. Its gonna be hard...
Ok now I'm gonna list my thoughts.
Mind training. I have to dedicate one day every two weeks to train my mind, by asking about 5 or 6 questions that day which will really need to make my mind think. Its not only mind training for Parkour, but for Life too. Questions will be random, and they will be mind-boggling, thought-provoking, and brain-teasing. Maybe every Thrusday night. I will start next week, by blogging the questions over here.
The media is coming tomorrow (or maybe today), its gonna be myy first test of handling the meida, which I think every traceur will need to do one day. It is not to become spotlighted in magazine, tv, articles, radio, etc. But a test of how reliable you are, and a test of your knowledge. Do you trust your information you give to the media to be correct and reliable, good portrayal to the genral public? I hope it is. It will be a test.
Also, as a traceur, or even a good person, you must share your knowledge with the others. A traceur is one who learns and pass him information to the newcomers. I'm gonna test my skills to teach others too. Because I know alot of traceurs who are more experienced offered to give me hints, technique, tips, helps when I needed it, so its my turn to pay back. I want to teach too, its just another test, for tomorrow. I hope I can teach, and I can be a good teacher.
Wall pass. I did a really high wall in Simei (for me), which I did about a total of 7 times (I counted) all in about a total of 30 or less (or more) attempts. For each attempts I really focused alot, and I admit in some attempts are really unfocused and bullshit, but I have to focus alot and I use alot of effort in my attempts. Which is good, my focus had increased for sure. The wall is more then twice my height, something which I'm happy to show in my sampler thats for sure. I just proved to myself that nothing is impossible. The wall seems very high at first, but in the end I nailed it. I'm happy, but it is still very inconsistent, but its ok, more practice and repetititons.
Music. I recently found out of songs which are really nice to listen, Jurassic 5, Drum and bass, Chill out music, Underground hiphop, Electronic, Alternative Hiphop. Really nice songs, also can be used for videos. I need to find more songs though, I will not stop searching. I need to have something to listen to when I'm on bus, long trip on the trains, boring trips to school. Mp3, Ipod, Handphone. They are stress reliever, mind calmers, some even heart-thumping and relaxing. Its another way to express yourself other then writing, moving and thinking.
Friends. I find that they are important. I can't thank those people enough that have been good, nice, encouranging, accompanying, caring, helpful. I guess I need to cherish them more, same for life. You only feel the value once you lost them. Maybe I will emphasis more on this coming mindtraining.
Studies have been ok ok, with the exception of the normal, obvious, not shocking, Chinese. I don't like it dammit. And I don't know whether CCA points counts for the O level L1R4. So confusing. Lol but I already made up my mind to quit NCC, lol this sucks to lose 2 points just like that. That will be extra effort and hardwork to get to Singapore Poly now. I have to be disciplined again. Next week will be the last week of school for term 1. Getting back the report book, and I got a bad feeling about it, this sucks. And march holiday is coming in one week time, so fast! Dammit. Time really flies. Sucks.
Thats all I wanna say.
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