Today I went to Buangkok for some training after school, which ended at 4pm. But I still managed to go train for about 1hr 30minutes, got back at 8pm. Which means today went by pretty fast, and I'm still blogging.
Was a good training, Buangkok spots are lovely, a few unfinished business to be nailed hopefully in a months time (where I plan to make a buangkok jam guys! look out for it). One is the wallpass that Zheeyang tried in Buangkok Horror. Then another is a huge sdc2lp which I'm pretty sure is nailable, I got quite closed to it. Filmed some stuffs today, will probably compile those snippets along with the old clips I still have into a small video, but I wanna get more clips in Tampines first. Things were alot easier then it were some time ago, being able to nail the sdc2p so easily, and the running precision (the one that Fred did a standing crane in his teaser) is so fucking easy...
Of course I've trained flips today, but don't think it was much of a productive flips training. I can officially say I got over the fear of my backflips, and my lache gainer fear is totally out now. I can whack lache gainers like nothing right now, they are indeed the most easiest of flips that I can think of. But I do want to work on them, like getting them really floaty and controlled or even do a lache 360 gainer, or lache reverse front, lache gainer precision... but not so soon. I can get over the fear of a backflip but not as easy as my lache gainer yet, because its much harder. I wanna get more floatier, cleaner form soon. As of now, my backflip looks absolutely terrible, but I can work on it. Frontflips still is uncontrolled, I need to learn how to tuck tighter man, in videos I can see my knees are still quite far away from my chest. Need to get used to them. One thing that I will start learning now is sideflips, I should just attempt them and hopefully landing them horribly.
I'll try my best to flip at least 10 backflips everyday right now, since its the flip that is relatively low impact and the flip that I need the most work on. I still have an awkward habit to twist alittle bit while doing that flip, and also I seem to go forward. And my tuck is sooo loose. Looks so ugly lol, especially with that low landing. Need to work on them definitely, as it is the basics of flips and I must have them good in my system before I progress to other flips like gainer, roundoff back, palmflip, wallflip, etc. Frontflip is still far from good too. Actually I'm repeating what I'm writing.. all I'm saying I'm going to focus much more in my flips. Full stop.
Next..
Like my title suggests. I'm getting back to proper strength training. I can see progress in my leg power especially in my movements, higher jumps, further precisions and etc. But my ultimate goal for this year (for legs) is definitely my 2x BW squats. Now its time to go back to what I used to be few months ago, quite strict diet, less movements, more strength training, starving myself with protein, good rest (sleep).
This strength training routine is definitely much more intense then the previous ones but I'll still try my best to get good results out of it. I can see myself struggling on the third week, its already the week where I'm going to be squatting my current personal record. I'll try to stick to the book as much as I can, but I'll listen to my body and lower the intensity if needs be. It's gonna be a tough routine, but thats how I'm going to work for my OAC as well. Pullups looks killer. 27kg x 3reps after week 9 of routine. 87kg x 3reps for squats. Thats an 11kg increase. I'm not sure whether I could stick to the weights stated on the book though.
My weight have been increasing as of late and I'm doubtful that it is muscle mass because of the food that I'm eating during CNY. Not a good thing. Need to stop eating those comfort food and indulge in protein-rich foods again. Tuna, chicken, peanuts, fish, chicken, egg, meat, CHICKEN!
Studies have been much more stressful recently.. falling back far behind in Chemistry but still trying my best to cope and balance studies with training. I'm glad I past my Amaths test but still need so much more practice on Trigonometry (got 2/11 for that portion which is fucking gay). Need to study.. but lazy to study.. but no choice.. what to do. School isn't too good as well. Don't really think I'm very sociable.. but whatever.
I got sudden inspiration to film cool stuffs and edit cool stuffs again, got ideas for my documentary already. Should start experimenting angles and shots, try putting my fanciful ideas for timelapse into work. Woohoo, filming. I feel like applying for direct admission with one of my self-made film.. I wonder if it is possible.
Listened to alot of new drum and bass tunes nowadays. Found out many hidden masterpieces. Been listening to them ever since. Drum and bass can't be compared to any other genre. I have one piece in mind that could very well be the song that I'll be using for my breakthrough video. Liquid Dnb ftw. Shalap.
Got many things to do, one month of 2009 is about to be finished, amazing how fast time flies, seriously. So still two goals in mind. Strength training and flips. I'll try to train on tuesdays flips light training and saturday movements (which include flips) quite intensive. Sunday and Thursdays will be rest and Mondays and Fridays are serious killers. Wednesday is a light strength training day.
Next week onwards, training will be much more stricter.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Some hope in my flips.
Today I went for the Tamp Jam, quite a huge number of crowd turned out. Was quite happy with a few things, and not very for some things. I nailed SDC23rd bench at Dino rather easily, was consistent at Shino's sdc2p. Landed the lache2precision at northpark, nailed doublekong, rather nicely. Got over my fear in backflips. Done what was quite a goal for some time, low to high precision at Shino's ramp. Nailed bench to curb precision at castle. Nailed a precision to a rail in the catleap position at castle. Some improvements in my cat2cats but still uncontrolled as I can't really see where I'm going. Nailed a running crane at Shino's. Felt that my frontflips are much better and natural. And the biggest achievement for today, landed LACHE GAINER.
That was quite a number of achievements in just one day. But like said, some bad news as well. Felt tht the running crane at Shino's was too impactful but yet I still do them. Quite bad for my back, knees, feet. Still not used to the jumping up. I can't nail the castle running catleap now. Aerial is still crap now. Although there are some bad things, overall I think the achievements today outnumbered the bad things by alot.
I think I should really keep practicing my backflip. Just keep doing them everyday, everyday as in really everyday, no matter sore, at night or what. At least 10 backflips, and if possible more but not more then 20. Low repetitions, more on quality and clean technique and learning to get over the fear properly. Lache gainers as well, but since there isn't much bars lying around that are good to train on, I can't really train them everyday but I will want to nail them in school, if possible. I'll do those until a point I feel that my flips are good enough then I will proceed to roundoff backs, gainers, and start learning sideflip. I'm not gonna neglect my frontflip, they still have much brushing up to do and much more to meet my expectations, but then now my main priority will be my backflip. Once I'm settled down with my flips, I'll find time to work on others.
I was feeling really happy with my flips today because of the things I've nailed. I remembered lache gainer was something I was wanting to nail outside since the time I've nailed them in prime. Try to whack myself for a couple of times but in the end to no avail. But thanks to spotters Fred and Wen Kai, I've managed to land this move finally. Also thanks to Fagan and Ashton who forked out their effort to spot me in my backflip quite constantly. Happiness, I think this is the way I suppose to be. Frustration won't lead you to anywhere but suffering and the inability to execute flips. Fear is something that everyone has, to get over will take time. I hope probably tomorrow where I'm gonna do some backflips to get them under my system, I don't end up like Monday again. Gosh, I shouldn't have negative thoughts...
My Parkour is improving really well and I'm happy with that, now flips! Really need to practice them alot.
The jam is awesome as usual with alot of people coming and training together. Was so fucking happy that I've nailed those shits. Got a couple of good clips and I'm gonna start editing the PKSG: Unity video soon. Fred's sampler is going to be finished, Zhiyang's sampler should be done not too long from now as well. Changed my glass' lens Also I've seen the doctor finally for my skin, finish editing Ish's jam video and db's birthday jam, so I've cleared the clips quite alot, now approaching the holidays with only homework to worry about. Good to get over with things much.
My food intake nowadays have been better, but CNY coming so lets stuff myself with chocolate and sweets and biscuits and stuffs woohoo! Angpao money won't be so much as.. economic recession.. hais.
Tomorrow I'm probably going to gym early for some light strength training, so I can eat before reunion dinner. About 12, eat lunch around 2pm, 4pm like that go there and drill my backflip and maybe frontflip as well, wonder if I can find a place to do lache gainer. After that come back for reunion dinner and at night drill handstands. Monday will be doing some flips practice yet again at night probably after visiting. I need to be consistent in my flips practices, purely flips for about 45minutes. Tuesday if got time I'll train movements with flips but light movements concentrating highly on flips but if I'm going for visiting and shit then probably do the same as what I did on Monday. Wednesday Strength training, try lache gainers in school... Thursday movements practice and flips of course, I wanna go buangkok again. Friday last strength training before I start my trength training routine.
Hope school isn't gonna be tough. Needa finish homework by tomorrow. Hectic schedule tomorrow.
Lol my blog posts are always long, and I can go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on.
That was quite a number of achievements in just one day. But like said, some bad news as well. Felt tht the running crane at Shino's was too impactful but yet I still do them. Quite bad for my back, knees, feet. Still not used to the jumping up. I can't nail the castle running catleap now. Aerial is still crap now. Although there are some bad things, overall I think the achievements today outnumbered the bad things by alot.
I think I should really keep practicing my backflip. Just keep doing them everyday, everyday as in really everyday, no matter sore, at night or what. At least 10 backflips, and if possible more but not more then 20. Low repetitions, more on quality and clean technique and learning to get over the fear properly. Lache gainers as well, but since there isn't much bars lying around that are good to train on, I can't really train them everyday but I will want to nail them in school, if possible. I'll do those until a point I feel that my flips are good enough then I will proceed to roundoff backs, gainers, and start learning sideflip. I'm not gonna neglect my frontflip, they still have much brushing up to do and much more to meet my expectations, but then now my main priority will be my backflip. Once I'm settled down with my flips, I'll find time to work on others.
I was feeling really happy with my flips today because of the things I've nailed. I remembered lache gainer was something I was wanting to nail outside since the time I've nailed them in prime. Try to whack myself for a couple of times but in the end to no avail. But thanks to spotters Fred and Wen Kai, I've managed to land this move finally. Also thanks to Fagan and Ashton who forked out their effort to spot me in my backflip quite constantly. Happiness, I think this is the way I suppose to be. Frustration won't lead you to anywhere but suffering and the inability to execute flips. Fear is something that everyone has, to get over will take time. I hope probably tomorrow where I'm gonna do some backflips to get them under my system, I don't end up like Monday again. Gosh, I shouldn't have negative thoughts...
My Parkour is improving really well and I'm happy with that, now flips! Really need to practice them alot.
The jam is awesome as usual with alot of people coming and training together. Was so fucking happy that I've nailed those shits. Got a couple of good clips and I'm gonna start editing the PKSG: Unity video soon. Fred's sampler is going to be finished, Zhiyang's sampler should be done not too long from now as well. Changed my glass' lens Also I've seen the doctor finally for my skin, finish editing Ish's jam video and db's birthday jam, so I've cleared the clips quite alot, now approaching the holidays with only homework to worry about. Good to get over with things much.
My food intake nowadays have been better, but CNY coming so lets stuff myself with chocolate and sweets and biscuits and stuffs woohoo! Angpao money won't be so much as.. economic recession.. hais.
Tomorrow I'm probably going to gym early for some light strength training, so I can eat before reunion dinner. About 12, eat lunch around 2pm, 4pm like that go there and drill my backflip and maybe frontflip as well, wonder if I can find a place to do lache gainer. After that come back for reunion dinner and at night drill handstands. Monday will be doing some flips practice yet again at night probably after visiting. I need to be consistent in my flips practices, purely flips for about 45minutes. Tuesday if got time I'll train movements with flips but light movements concentrating highly on flips but if I'm going for visiting and shit then probably do the same as what I did on Monday. Wednesday Strength training, try lache gainers in school... Thursday movements practice and flips of course, I wanna go buangkok again. Friday last strength training before I start my trength training routine.
Hope school isn't gonna be tough. Needa finish homework by tomorrow. Hectic schedule tomorrow.
Lol my blog posts are always long, and I can go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Not going so well...
As title suggests..
Start of the week on Monday was totally crap, my mood was totally ruined on that day, feel really frustrated. Guess what? Flips again. I lost my backflip, like for the 10th time. I've lost the feeling of whacking my body up and over, something that I used to have in the past. But after that one bail, things got worse. I wonder when can I be able to pass the mental block fully. If things goes on this way, theres no way where I can get back into my flipping basics. Theres still plenty of flips to learn after it. I don't know whether can I even get to satisfactory satandards by the end of this year. Especially when my training towards flips are really lazy, undetermined, and slipshoddy. Breakthrough video next year, will it be? Sideflips are not even there yet. I got so many more flips to start working on. But I'm not even working on what I already could do.
I got nothing to say about my pathetic flips. Really. I've been thinking to myself that, if I'm getting so frustrated over something, its no point learning them really, as the whole point in training is to really have fun. I'm not really have fun, I'm so frsutrated after almost every flipping session. But yet again, thinking of the goals I have for life, c'mon I'm not past the first stone, and I'm already giving up. I can't give up no matter what, I have to stick to my goals. I guess this will be a testament on how much perseverance and resilience I have. And flips are indeed nothing but practice and practice and practice. The starting is always the hardest. Once I overcome those physical and mental barriers, flips will start to be fun, and progressing will be at least much easier.
To be honest I'm really steadfast in my goals in terms of movements but when it comes to studies or something else, wow my determination is rather low.
Strength training. My routine looks really fucking tough. I've been training at weights really low to 90% 1rm especially for squats, because I find it hard to peak up. I can say that my bench press and deadlifts are rather easy as I haven't totally push them to my furthest. Squats are really taking alot out of me. 70kg squats can be fucking tiring and my form isn't very satisfactory. I'm not sure how am I gonna survive through week 4 which is indeed the killer week, especially the friday where I will be peaking to 80kg squats x 5. Week 3's Monday is already fucking tough. Not sure how am I gonna survive those killer weeks. But if I really cannot do those lifts well, I will lower the intensity of the lifts by all means. I still got 11 months to get my 2x bw squats and OAC.
Current PRs (and aims) :
Squats - 76kg x 5 (no increase, but i hope to get to 90kg by midyear)
Bench Press - 50kg x 5 (can do more though, but good enough, should be able to hit 60kg after the end of this routine)
Deadlifts - 75kg x 5 (good increase, can do more as well, i'll take this lift easy)
Pullups - 25kg x 3, 30kg x 1 (ok ok increase, hoping to bring the 30kg x 1 to 30kg x 5 by sometime before midyear)
Movements training was ok. Or rather much more enjoyable and decent. Wednesday was focussed more on precision repetitions which did went quite well. Repetitions are indeed the best way to improve one's movements in a whole, but theres some stuffs regarding that. Muscle memory is not something that is easily understood. The more you do, the more used you are to it. It doesn't mean the better you get to it. If you do a backflip like shit alot of time, it will forever be like shit. So everytime you do a move you have to focus on doing it well and good all the time, so everytime you repeat you must focus hard, and not chiong. Don't do too many repetitions, not only will it cause fatigue which in turn cost your form, it will also put unwanted stress on our joints. And if you train in Bishan, unwanted wear and tear for shoes. So yeah, I did too much repetitions actually. Shouldn't be doing that, something to keep in mind for the next practice. I'm more confident with my precisions now, and I can stick them pretty well.
Thursday I didn't train much at all. Went to film stuffs for Zhee Yang, practiced my SDC which really still up to my expectations, judging that I've nailed Shino's SDC since June 08. I've yet to nail them consistently, haven't been consistent at all. Its not nearly consistent at all.. I want to be able to nail Shino's SDC2LP as consistently as possible. So needa keep going there and practice. Didn't feel like training flips because I will know that I will feel frustrated after that, and wasn't in the mood. Will train flips tomorrow though.
Bought a new hose, same model though, Nike Darts VI, 80 bucks only, they last for a year (provided you don't train frequently at Bishan), good grip, comfortable, just the right amount of cushion (enough to feel your landing and provided cushion for your feet), looks nice to me as well. It is really worth buying, at least to me. I hope this could last me till next year March. For now, I wanna season the shoe and soon I can start practicing wallpasses.
I watch an LBC video with Tutu, seems like I possess good amount of influence and I seem to be the setter of trends to come, seeing that my movements are being followed and emulated by others. Not only movements, video editing as well. Originality is something that eveyrone should have. Find your own way, develop your own ideas, thats what makes you, you. Don't just be a sheep a copy and follow blindly on everything. I'm not saying its wrong to copy people... I'm just saying try opening your mind to see other things as well. I can think it in another way, everyone likes my ideas in my movements so yeah. I'm not saying I don't copy though.
Tomorrows the jam for the newcomers, I wonder how large a crowd it will be, so it is gonna be hard for me to train my stuffs, especially flips, newcomers always tend to have the wrong idea of flips, and just wanna chiong progression. But whatever. Like said earlier, I wanna practice the SDC2LP at shino, and probably climbups. Repetitions. I will teach others as well, but I won't expect too much.
Can't say much else, studies, ain't very confident of how my tests results will be. I'm ok with Physics and Maths, the rest is abit hard for me. In school things took turns of going up and downs.. but whatever, I really shouldn't overreacting to stuffs like this.
Off to bed.
Start of the week on Monday was totally crap, my mood was totally ruined on that day, feel really frustrated. Guess what? Flips again. I lost my backflip, like for the 10th time. I've lost the feeling of whacking my body up and over, something that I used to have in the past. But after that one bail, things got worse. I wonder when can I be able to pass the mental block fully. If things goes on this way, theres no way where I can get back into my flipping basics. Theres still plenty of flips to learn after it. I don't know whether can I even get to satisfactory satandards by the end of this year. Especially when my training towards flips are really lazy, undetermined, and slipshoddy. Breakthrough video next year, will it be? Sideflips are not even there yet. I got so many more flips to start working on. But I'm not even working on what I already could do.
I got nothing to say about my pathetic flips. Really. I've been thinking to myself that, if I'm getting so frustrated over something, its no point learning them really, as the whole point in training is to really have fun. I'm not really have fun, I'm so frsutrated after almost every flipping session. But yet again, thinking of the goals I have for life, c'mon I'm not past the first stone, and I'm already giving up. I can't give up no matter what, I have to stick to my goals. I guess this will be a testament on how much perseverance and resilience I have. And flips are indeed nothing but practice and practice and practice. The starting is always the hardest. Once I overcome those physical and mental barriers, flips will start to be fun, and progressing will be at least much easier.
To be honest I'm really steadfast in my goals in terms of movements but when it comes to studies or something else, wow my determination is rather low.
Strength training. My routine looks really fucking tough. I've been training at weights really low to 90% 1rm especially for squats, because I find it hard to peak up. I can say that my bench press and deadlifts are rather easy as I haven't totally push them to my furthest. Squats are really taking alot out of me. 70kg squats can be fucking tiring and my form isn't very satisfactory. I'm not sure how am I gonna survive through week 4 which is indeed the killer week, especially the friday where I will be peaking to 80kg squats x 5. Week 3's Monday is already fucking tough. Not sure how am I gonna survive those killer weeks. But if I really cannot do those lifts well, I will lower the intensity of the lifts by all means. I still got 11 months to get my 2x bw squats and OAC.
Current PRs (and aims) :
Squats - 76kg x 5 (no increase, but i hope to get to 90kg by midyear)
Bench Press - 50kg x 5 (can do more though, but good enough, should be able to hit 60kg after the end of this routine)
Deadlifts - 75kg x 5 (good increase, can do more as well, i'll take this lift easy)
Pullups - 25kg x 3, 30kg x 1 (ok ok increase, hoping to bring the 30kg x 1 to 30kg x 5 by sometime before midyear)
Movements training was ok. Or rather much more enjoyable and decent. Wednesday was focussed more on precision repetitions which did went quite well. Repetitions are indeed the best way to improve one's movements in a whole, but theres some stuffs regarding that. Muscle memory is not something that is easily understood. The more you do, the more used you are to it. It doesn't mean the better you get to it. If you do a backflip like shit alot of time, it will forever be like shit. So everytime you do a move you have to focus on doing it well and good all the time, so everytime you repeat you must focus hard, and not chiong. Don't do too many repetitions, not only will it cause fatigue which in turn cost your form, it will also put unwanted stress on our joints. And if you train in Bishan, unwanted wear and tear for shoes. So yeah, I did too much repetitions actually. Shouldn't be doing that, something to keep in mind for the next practice. I'm more confident with my precisions now, and I can stick them pretty well.
Thursday I didn't train much at all. Went to film stuffs for Zhee Yang, practiced my SDC which really still up to my expectations, judging that I've nailed Shino's SDC since June 08. I've yet to nail them consistently, haven't been consistent at all. Its not nearly consistent at all.. I want to be able to nail Shino's SDC2LP as consistently as possible. So needa keep going there and practice. Didn't feel like training flips because I will know that I will feel frustrated after that, and wasn't in the mood. Will train flips tomorrow though.
Bought a new hose, same model though, Nike Darts VI, 80 bucks only, they last for a year (provided you don't train frequently at Bishan), good grip, comfortable, just the right amount of cushion (enough to feel your landing and provided cushion for your feet), looks nice to me as well. It is really worth buying, at least to me. I hope this could last me till next year March. For now, I wanna season the shoe and soon I can start practicing wallpasses.
I watch an LBC video with Tutu, seems like I possess good amount of influence and I seem to be the setter of trends to come, seeing that my movements are being followed and emulated by others. Not only movements, video editing as well. Originality is something that eveyrone should have. Find your own way, develop your own ideas, thats what makes you, you. Don't just be a sheep a copy and follow blindly on everything. I'm not saying its wrong to copy people... I'm just saying try opening your mind to see other things as well. I can think it in another way, everyone likes my ideas in my movements so yeah. I'm not saying I don't copy though.
Tomorrows the jam for the newcomers, I wonder how large a crowd it will be, so it is gonna be hard for me to train my stuffs, especially flips, newcomers always tend to have the wrong idea of flips, and just wanna chiong progression. But whatever. Like said earlier, I wanna practice the SDC2LP at shino, and probably climbups. Repetitions. I will teach others as well, but I won't expect too much.
Can't say much else, studies, ain't very confident of how my tests results will be. I'm ok with Physics and Maths, the rest is abit hard for me. In school things took turns of going up and downs.. but whatever, I really shouldn't overreacting to stuffs like this.
Off to bed.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Yet another bail.
Was training with Ista Ho, the australian traceur who visited us yesterday, was an incredible meet. He have been to England, France, some other countries and the bigger parts of South East Asia. He meet the UK community and wow how I envy him that he have talked to the world's best and all the other big names. When will it be my turn? Time will come, time will come. No matter what, I must go to Lisses and England one day.
Although the day was fun and all, my training wasn't that good... lotsa bad landings, impacted myself alot, didn't managed to nail much stuffs, and needa alot of tries to get things right, small bails before one big bail to end up the day for me.. was a really sucky day in terms of training to be honest. Slipped on the grass, hands slipped, hesitated, ran too fast, fell head over heels, landed hip first onto concrete flooring, bruising it and making me unable to walk upstairs without feeling pain and much less jumping and taking landings. Fuck might be a whole week out for training as I can see now. Time to acclimate to harsher strength trainings then, since its not far away from the routine.
Much people saying bailing is 'normal' and it happens, they are a part and parcel of Parkcore. Some even said it is OK to bail. Sure it does happens, but definitely not all the time, most people bail too. One thing is, some guys hardly bail if they are focused all the time, careful and don't push their limits. I consider myself luckily not doing it at the other side where theres a bigger drop to stairs and if I were to bail there, thats it. Bishan Horror. Yeah thankfully my bail isn't as bad as xaviersilfa. But I shouldn't take it for granted, something that I'm trying to do since last year... I should do my bestest to avoid injuries of any cost. I'm bailing small stuffs too regularly, which is stupid.
As usual, this week I hardly did worked on my goals. Really sucky week in all in terms of movements training, but got a 25kg x 3reps pullups (1/2 BW pullup lol) and 30kg x 1rep pullup(sucky). Was ok with it and I think I am ready to hit the new routine soon. Due to my injury(ies) I probably won't be doing much movements till it gets fine. Need to start working on my flips man, its really not going to help if I sit down here and do nothing, or just continue working on my strengths not my weaknesses. I don't have much time left, so I'd better start working. There's no rush though..
Handstands.. seriously need to work on that. It supposed to be a goal to be achieved last year. But now at 2009 I don't think I am anywhere close..
Other points of interests..
I wonder how many people understand what they are saying and proclaiming to other people. The world is indeed really ignorant. When it comes to topics like strength training, dieting, sports generally, all kinds of craps are being thrown around. I like to see the old aunties and fat people go jogging and think that they are very healthy and they think they lose fats fast and all, teenagers telling me to jump more to grow taller, don't do weight training as in stunts growth, weight training makes you slow, and bulky and nonsense, it always happens.. people also think just by eat fruits and veggies, they think that eat so healthily. Worse, vegetarians eat all kinds of food but meat and fishes, fucking delusionized fools.. Worse is yet to come, when people ask for conditioning tips, they tell they everything but strength training. All endurance bastards. OH MY LEGS FEELS LIKE JELLY, SIA LAH GOOD WORKOUT. TOMORROW CONFIRM SORE! *brag brag* I used to think like that. In school, guys telling you how to get better 2.4km timing, answer = run 4.8km. Wow fucking dumbasses. Sometimes what make sense to your eyes, doesn't make sense in reality. Myths and rumours floating everywhere, I've only listed 3% of all sports myths and craps. It's all society's fault, blame them.
Read Blane's FAQ post. I like the part about what is his aims for trainings.
1) Avoid Injuries (the reason why I mentioned about avoiding injuries earlier on)
2) Repeat stuffs until it because fucking easy.
2nd point is true. Really true. I should place more emphasis on repetition in my training. Just keep doing them till it gets easier and easier. But when fatigue builds, I stop, to avoid bad imprints in my muscle memory. The reason why Daniel Ilabaca, David Belle, PhilyDee does their stuffs with effortless, near perfection techniques and consistency is mainly because of that - repetition on every movement.
I think I should lower the intensity of the movements that I'm doing now, place my priority on nailing the stuffs that I already can more comfortably, and more controlled and consistent. As I feel that nowadays I'm putting alot of pressure in my joints (knees, ankles, back even (yet another fact most people don't know, how much stress is placed in knees and back while running, landing.)). I just wanna improve my flips and learn new ones, for PK, just repeat and repeat the stuffs I could already do, aim for perfection. Whats more, now I'm going into the strength training phase, I will be cutting down alot on movements training, so I should emphasize flips in my trainings on Saturdays. Aim for repetition, alot of them, and keep everything low.
Just something that I want to point out. I feel like stopping to train with the others for the after Zahid's Tamp jam, and I decided to screw the weekly training sessions as I'm not sure how am I gonna fit my timetable into them, don't think I have the resposibility to do that. I wanna develop my skills and stuffs myself, mainly because as this discipline is very much an individual kind of matter, I should train the stuffs that I do for myself irregardless of the people around me. I feel that it is much more easier to concentrate in training alone. I will just meet people that I wanna meet once in awhile. Lastly, I like to give people suprises, working in secret is fun, the advantages of training alone as well. People can start realizing your progression. But really, thats not my main point.
I felt that I can improve my video skills much more, mainly on my camera movements and angles. I thought of bringing my timelapse to a whole new, more professional level. Editing too, a more professional feel in my editings. I needa get a wide lens soon, also I should think of clever shots artistically not those very cliche movements which is very easily imitated. I'm far from being a pro filmmaker/cameraman/editor, but I should really start working on getting better in them too. First major project of the year, Ashton's showreel.
Studies are getting more stressful at the moment. With two tests next week, one being an Amaths test. I have forgotten alot of the topics in there and I'm not sure how am I gonna cope with the test. I can't fail this test. I seriously should start revising and stop wasting time procrastinating. I needa stay back after school for lab practical on Mondays. Still not coping very well socially but yeah I guess I shouldn't dwell on that much. Chinese is still very lame. I was thinking of trying to apply for direct admission to poly with my portfolio. Chinese New Year is coming in about a week's time!
I needa get a new shoe as well. I hope I can get try to find a website to get an Kalenji but if I can't, I'm gonna settle for another Nike Darts.
Last but not least, I shouldn't talk so much if I couldn't put what I've said into actions.
Although the day was fun and all, my training wasn't that good... lotsa bad landings, impacted myself alot, didn't managed to nail much stuffs, and needa alot of tries to get things right, small bails before one big bail to end up the day for me.. was a really sucky day in terms of training to be honest. Slipped on the grass, hands slipped, hesitated, ran too fast, fell head over heels, landed hip first onto concrete flooring, bruising it and making me unable to walk upstairs without feeling pain and much less jumping and taking landings. Fuck might be a whole week out for training as I can see now. Time to acclimate to harsher strength trainings then, since its not far away from the routine.
Much people saying bailing is 'normal' and it happens, they are a part and parcel of Parkcore. Some even said it is OK to bail. Sure it does happens, but definitely not all the time, most people bail too. One thing is, some guys hardly bail if they are focused all the time, careful and don't push their limits. I consider myself luckily not doing it at the other side where theres a bigger drop to stairs and if I were to bail there, thats it. Bishan Horror. Yeah thankfully my bail isn't as bad as xaviersilfa. But I shouldn't take it for granted, something that I'm trying to do since last year... I should do my bestest to avoid injuries of any cost. I'm bailing small stuffs too regularly, which is stupid.
As usual, this week I hardly did worked on my goals. Really sucky week in all in terms of movements training, but got a 25kg x 3reps pullups (1/2 BW pullup lol) and 30kg x 1rep pullup(sucky). Was ok with it and I think I am ready to hit the new routine soon. Due to my injury(ies) I probably won't be doing much movements till it gets fine. Need to start working on my flips man, its really not going to help if I sit down here and do nothing, or just continue working on my strengths not my weaknesses. I don't have much time left, so I'd better start working. There's no rush though..
Handstands.. seriously need to work on that. It supposed to be a goal to be achieved last year. But now at 2009 I don't think I am anywhere close..
Other points of interests..
I wonder how many people understand what they are saying and proclaiming to other people. The world is indeed really ignorant. When it comes to topics like strength training, dieting, sports generally, all kinds of craps are being thrown around. I like to see the old aunties and fat people go jogging and think that they are very healthy and they think they lose fats fast and all, teenagers telling me to jump more to grow taller, don't do weight training as in stunts growth, weight training makes you slow, and bulky and nonsense, it always happens.. people also think just by eat fruits and veggies, they think that eat so healthily. Worse, vegetarians eat all kinds of food but meat and fishes, fucking delusionized fools.. Worse is yet to come, when people ask for conditioning tips, they tell they everything but strength training. All endurance bastards. OH MY LEGS FEELS LIKE JELLY, SIA LAH GOOD WORKOUT. TOMORROW CONFIRM SORE! *brag brag* I used to think like that. In school, guys telling you how to get better 2.4km timing, answer = run 4.8km. Wow fucking dumbasses. Sometimes what make sense to your eyes, doesn't make sense in reality. Myths and rumours floating everywhere, I've only listed 3% of all sports myths and craps. It's all society's fault, blame them.
Read Blane's FAQ post. I like the part about what is his aims for trainings.
1) Avoid Injuries (the reason why I mentioned about avoiding injuries earlier on)
2) Repeat stuffs until it because fucking easy.
2nd point is true. Really true. I should place more emphasis on repetition in my training. Just keep doing them till it gets easier and easier. But when fatigue builds, I stop, to avoid bad imprints in my muscle memory. The reason why Daniel Ilabaca, David Belle, PhilyDee does their stuffs with effortless, near perfection techniques and consistency is mainly because of that - repetition on every movement.
I think I should lower the intensity of the movements that I'm doing now, place my priority on nailing the stuffs that I already can more comfortably, and more controlled and consistent. As I feel that nowadays I'm putting alot of pressure in my joints (knees, ankles, back even (yet another fact most people don't know, how much stress is placed in knees and back while running, landing.)). I just wanna improve my flips and learn new ones, for PK, just repeat and repeat the stuffs I could already do, aim for perfection. Whats more, now I'm going into the strength training phase, I will be cutting down alot on movements training, so I should emphasize flips in my trainings on Saturdays. Aim for repetition, alot of them, and keep everything low.
Just something that I want to point out. I feel like stopping to train with the others for the after Zahid's Tamp jam, and I decided to screw the weekly training sessions as I'm not sure how am I gonna fit my timetable into them, don't think I have the resposibility to do that. I wanna develop my skills and stuffs myself, mainly because as this discipline is very much an individual kind of matter, I should train the stuffs that I do for myself irregardless of the people around me. I feel that it is much more easier to concentrate in training alone. I will just meet people that I wanna meet once in awhile. Lastly, I like to give people suprises, working in secret is fun, the advantages of training alone as well. People can start realizing your progression. But really, thats not my main point.
I felt that I can improve my video skills much more, mainly on my camera movements and angles. I thought of bringing my timelapse to a whole new, more professional level. Editing too, a more professional feel in my editings. I needa get a wide lens soon, also I should think of clever shots artistically not those very cliche movements which is very easily imitated. I'm far from being a pro filmmaker/cameraman/editor, but I should really start working on getting better in them too. First major project of the year, Ashton's showreel.
Studies are getting more stressful at the moment. With two tests next week, one being an Amaths test. I have forgotten alot of the topics in there and I'm not sure how am I gonna cope with the test. I can't fail this test. I seriously should start revising and stop wasting time procrastinating. I needa stay back after school for lab practical on Mondays. Still not coping very well socially but yeah I guess I shouldn't dwell on that much. Chinese is still very lame. I was thinking of trying to apply for direct admission to poly with my portfolio. Chinese New Year is coming in about a week's time!
I needa get a new shoe as well. I hope I can get try to find a website to get an Kalenji but if I can't, I'm gonna settle for another Nike Darts.
Last but not least, I shouldn't talk so much if I couldn't put what I've said into actions.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Not working towards goals.
Didn't really train much this week.
All I know that I should really focus on one thing right now. FLIPS. I don't know what happened, ever since the bail from one training session quite some time ago, where I jumped up and freaked out in mid air, from then on I have this fear of rotating backwards. I don't know whats up with my backflip right now, and generally with most of my flips especially flips going backwards, I seem to have so much fear on them EVEN THOUGH I've nailed them before, and I pretty sure I can do it, just the fear restricts me from executing them. It's kinda frustrating to see that you have spent like 15minutes of your time to try to get rid of the fear and in the end, you found yourself wasting your own time. What's more, everytime you gotten rid of the fear (I did so in NYE jam with spotters), after awhile it will be gone, because I didn't kept practicing it. Then I have to keep relying on spotters or gym (which is currently not the option anymore because of repeatedly being kicked out of the gym, and because of that I hate Prime and I am never gonna go there again).
Other flips aren't that good either. I'm able to land aerials on concrete quite easily (although suckily, but still landed) on NYE jam, but ever since then, I've never been able to land them for god knows why. Frontflips aren't that controlled yet but still its the best flip I can do, of course alot of improvements can still be made. Yeah quite sadly these are the only few flips that I can do, I wanna get sideflips soon. As long as I can land an aerial I'm fine with it, I won't really be training it till its like damn goood. Right after I get my backflip well and consistent, I will be training for roundoff backflip, wallflips, and gainer. I do wanna train for slant gainers and corkscrew, backhandspring for my tumblings, and then progressing to twists and shizzle, and the other flips when I come to it, but priority is getting the basics strong and make them til 2nd nature.
Come to think of it, my one day goals consists of a couple of flips (or combos with flips), one of them being the double backflip. But now, I'm not even working hard towards the basics of my flips, I don't know what to actually say now, I hope to really get rid of the fear and really practice and drill my backflips hard, then I can work towards my harder goals. Sometimes I can get really demoralized and think about how many times I lost my flips or ain't making much progress out of them, maybe I'm just not cut out for flipping. It's really irritating to lose a flip. But I'm not the guy that will give up, as no matter how long it will for me to get flips into my system, I will train hard for it. As for everything, the starting is always the hardest, once you are good at it, it will be fun.
Enough of flips. But still something that is related to the topic title. Yes, handbalancing. Actually I'm getting the hang of the balancing now, but still far from getting it consistent. I think I have the strength to hold the handstand now, so I will be training to be able to balance it, which is my goal for my handstands at the moment. Thing is, I'm not even working on it, even though I got so much time that I can spend on it, just at home. Actually the main probelms of my balancing is my posture when holding my handstand and when I underbalance. I just can't seem to get them right. Another thing that is still related to this topic - twists, 360 precisions. Nowadays I'm losing interest in them, don't know why but then I still would like to be able to do a controlled 360 precisions, at least seeing my landing and all, but not necessary super far and controlled those kinds.
Ok now for other stuffs. I think I'm getting much more comfortable with my dashes on higher obstacles and on rails. And I think I should start getting palmspins on rails man, at least be able to do them. Been practicing my jumps, jumps onto higher obstacles, standing jump over rails and stuffs like that, just to engage with jumping power. No point being strong but not able to transfer them into speed, which is the more important of strengths. My lazy vault can go quite far right now, great achievement. Getting used to it now.
Weight training, now that I got abit of clue what my workout will be like, I should start working on my lifts now, to get ready for the routine. Its not going to be easy, seeing that only 4 weeks into I will be setting a new PR, and that would be really backbreaking. I will see how it goes. I'm also thinking of what will I do after the routine (which is 9 weeks), but I think I should only consider that when I'm like around the 7th week of it. I decided that I will start this routine on the first week of Feb (mondays, wednesdays, fridays), hopefully this time round I would not miss any workouts at all. Back to the times where I did my routine. Spamming gym workouts to get so fucking strong, then see my progression in my jumps, just a incredible feeling. Time to watch the food I eat and start doing lesser movements training to aid recovery. Probably be training movements only on saturdays, while train flips in school whenever possible. Needa get it 2nd nature.
Nowadays I got motivated to train for my OACs. I did 20 pullups in one go, although I think its not in a very strict form, but I think its just something I did for fun. My right arm OAC negative is pretty smooth, while my left arm is pretty much the same only that I think I still can't control the bottom range of motion. I thought I am close to my OAC the other time, but after doing one attempt, I realize how sucky I were. First thing first, work on my weighted pullups! I wanna hit 25kg x 5reps! Talking about that, my deadlift hit 65kg, not yet a record, as I'm gonna push my benchpress for abit more, deadlift for about 75kg if possible, and try to do a 25kg pullup for a few reps and see how much I can go. I wanna do a semi-peak to test my ability for abit.
About my thoughts on certain people, although they are nice to be with in person, I'm not sure how far they go in terms of mindset and attitude towards their training. How far will they go? How disciplined and dedicated are they, will they train alone or only when theres jams? Pushing so far beyond limits, for what reasons? I don't know, I wonder how long of the friends I am with right now, last. Will I still be training with them 5 years down the road... I'm pretty sure I will be.
And about people in my school. Still seem to be uninteractive with my friends, but whatever... I think I'll just slowly make up to it. I posted my video on facebook, just for fun actually, just to have a video in facebook. But didn't know that so much of my friends will realize it, I hope it doesn't get spread too much, I don't wanna be bugged constantly in school, or too well known. Actualy think its quite a bad move, but hopefully it attracted the 'right' people, that won't spread the news so much. I think now that my subscribers are at 143 (55 new subscribers since release), I'm starting to get more and more famous now, which is my first step, remember about the statement I wrote some time ago? Yeah. Quite happy about that. 2.4k views in 2 weeks. Great achievement for me. Hoping that it will overtake my march 08 views in one month.
I think I will make weekly blog post that will probably sum up my thoughts in the days before.
All I know that I should really focus on one thing right now. FLIPS. I don't know what happened, ever since the bail from one training session quite some time ago, where I jumped up and freaked out in mid air, from then on I have this fear of rotating backwards. I don't know whats up with my backflip right now, and generally with most of my flips especially flips going backwards, I seem to have so much fear on them EVEN THOUGH I've nailed them before, and I pretty sure I can do it, just the fear restricts me from executing them. It's kinda frustrating to see that you have spent like 15minutes of your time to try to get rid of the fear and in the end, you found yourself wasting your own time. What's more, everytime you gotten rid of the fear (I did so in NYE jam with spotters), after awhile it will be gone, because I didn't kept practicing it. Then I have to keep relying on spotters or gym (which is currently not the option anymore because of repeatedly being kicked out of the gym, and because of that I hate Prime and I am never gonna go there again).
Other flips aren't that good either. I'm able to land aerials on concrete quite easily (although suckily, but still landed) on NYE jam, but ever since then, I've never been able to land them for god knows why. Frontflips aren't that controlled yet but still its the best flip I can do, of course alot of improvements can still be made. Yeah quite sadly these are the only few flips that I can do, I wanna get sideflips soon. As long as I can land an aerial I'm fine with it, I won't really be training it till its like damn goood. Right after I get my backflip well and consistent, I will be training for roundoff backflip, wallflips, and gainer. I do wanna train for slant gainers and corkscrew, backhandspring for my tumblings, and then progressing to twists and shizzle, and the other flips when I come to it, but priority is getting the basics strong and make them til 2nd nature.
Come to think of it, my one day goals consists of a couple of flips (or combos with flips), one of them being the double backflip. But now, I'm not even working hard towards the basics of my flips, I don't know what to actually say now, I hope to really get rid of the fear and really practice and drill my backflips hard, then I can work towards my harder goals. Sometimes I can get really demoralized and think about how many times I lost my flips or ain't making much progress out of them, maybe I'm just not cut out for flipping. It's really irritating to lose a flip. But I'm not the guy that will give up, as no matter how long it will for me to get flips into my system, I will train hard for it. As for everything, the starting is always the hardest, once you are good at it, it will be fun.
Enough of flips. But still something that is related to the topic title. Yes, handbalancing. Actually I'm getting the hang of the balancing now, but still far from getting it consistent. I think I have the strength to hold the handstand now, so I will be training to be able to balance it, which is my goal for my handstands at the moment. Thing is, I'm not even working on it, even though I got so much time that I can spend on it, just at home. Actually the main probelms of my balancing is my posture when holding my handstand and when I underbalance. I just can't seem to get them right. Another thing that is still related to this topic - twists, 360 precisions. Nowadays I'm losing interest in them, don't know why but then I still would like to be able to do a controlled 360 precisions, at least seeing my landing and all, but not necessary super far and controlled those kinds.
Ok now for other stuffs. I think I'm getting much more comfortable with my dashes on higher obstacles and on rails. And I think I should start getting palmspins on rails man, at least be able to do them. Been practicing my jumps, jumps onto higher obstacles, standing jump over rails and stuffs like that, just to engage with jumping power. No point being strong but not able to transfer them into speed, which is the more important of strengths. My lazy vault can go quite far right now, great achievement. Getting used to it now.
Weight training, now that I got abit of clue what my workout will be like, I should start working on my lifts now, to get ready for the routine. Its not going to be easy, seeing that only 4 weeks into I will be setting a new PR, and that would be really backbreaking. I will see how it goes. I'm also thinking of what will I do after the routine (which is 9 weeks), but I think I should only consider that when I'm like around the 7th week of it. I decided that I will start this routine on the first week of Feb (mondays, wednesdays, fridays), hopefully this time round I would not miss any workouts at all. Back to the times where I did my routine. Spamming gym workouts to get so fucking strong, then see my progression in my jumps, just a incredible feeling. Time to watch the food I eat and start doing lesser movements training to aid recovery. Probably be training movements only on saturdays, while train flips in school whenever possible. Needa get it 2nd nature.
Nowadays I got motivated to train for my OACs. I did 20 pullups in one go, although I think its not in a very strict form, but I think its just something I did for fun. My right arm OAC negative is pretty smooth, while my left arm is pretty much the same only that I think I still can't control the bottom range of motion. I thought I am close to my OAC the other time, but after doing one attempt, I realize how sucky I were. First thing first, work on my weighted pullups! I wanna hit 25kg x 5reps! Talking about that, my deadlift hit 65kg, not yet a record, as I'm gonna push my benchpress for abit more, deadlift for about 75kg if possible, and try to do a 25kg pullup for a few reps and see how much I can go. I wanna do a semi-peak to test my ability for abit.
About my thoughts on certain people, although they are nice to be with in person, I'm not sure how far they go in terms of mindset and attitude towards their training. How far will they go? How disciplined and dedicated are they, will they train alone or only when theres jams? Pushing so far beyond limits, for what reasons? I don't know, I wonder how long of the friends I am with right now, last. Will I still be training with them 5 years down the road... I'm pretty sure I will be.
And about people in my school. Still seem to be uninteractive with my friends, but whatever... I think I'll just slowly make up to it. I posted my video on facebook, just for fun actually, just to have a video in facebook. But didn't know that so much of my friends will realize it, I hope it doesn't get spread too much, I don't wanna be bugged constantly in school, or too well known. Actualy think its quite a bad move, but hopefully it attracted the 'right' people, that won't spread the news so much. I think now that my subscribers are at 143 (55 new subscribers since release), I'm starting to get more and more famous now, which is my first step, remember about the statement I wrote some time ago? Yeah. Quite happy about that. 2.4k views in 2 weeks. Great achievement for me. Hoping that it will overtake my march 08 views in one month.
I think I will make weekly blog post that will probably sum up my thoughts in the days before.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
A bit of my past.
Well I have been thinking back, my years in primary school (nothing much here), and more importantly the times in sec1 and sec2. I'm not very old yet, so I might not have much to share since I only lived for this long, and theres still so much more experiences yet to come.
Primary school life is not very entertaining, all I know is that I'm very rebellious, fights with people occurs often, got into trouble much, was hanging out with a couple of friends who are now those typical Chinese gangsters (they've changed alot, like everyone). I don't have much really good friends from primary school, thats why I don't go back to school on Teacher's day or hang out with those people. Quite a boring life I led during then. It is probably because of the fact that when we are young, our minds aren't mature enough to understand the stuffs going on at our very life, so dumb that we are almost mechanically controlled to do all those stuffs that we are doing during those years, which led many people into sedentary lifestyles in the teenage years. Another reason why I didn't say much here is because I can't remember much.
Secondary school life was much more entertaining, as it happened much more recently. Secondary 1 was probably the worse of all the years, so far. Really hectic year as I can recall. Well what happened at the earlier stages of the year was that I get to know new faces, made some good ones, some ok-ok ones, and some stupid ones. At the start of the year, like Feb, I already got a pink form because of fighting with some noobface. He did attempted to throw my bag down from the 4th storey, so what do you expect me to do? But I was fucking proud of owning a weakling, and brag about how I headbutted him and shit. Well at that time I was still fucking stupid, don't know what has gotten into me. Worse was yet to come, in one point of time, after the June holidays, and one of those days I got fed up with a couple of guys, and I decided to write a mini-encyclopedia of the people in our class, and write about them (actually writing their bad points). I write about everyone, even those innocents one, write until like wtf, insulted them and all, yet still have the cheek to send everyone. Guess what, not long after, one day suddenly everyone turned their backs against me. As you can infer, they hated me because of what I've done, and ignored me in the process, which I think I rightfully deserve. I deleted the encyclopedia soon after the incident, but was quite a bad move.. I wonder if I can get that back.
Before that, I can remember making a class forum near April, then I was fucking stupid and retarded, wrote like one thousand bullshit, even writing my own novel about some dumb shit that I can't recall. And I and some others didn't really like this wannabe, this retarded act cute, twit, egotistical retard, and while he was doing all the things that 'made' him look good, I started the fire, to flame him like fuck publicly in the forums. The feud that continued for a long time. A fucking long time to be exact, because its still ongoing right now, as in the dislike is still there but no longer in any contact. But that guy is really retarded, and from his blog you can see he is fucking emo because he got dumped like 4 times for liking some girls that never liked him. I don't know, don't wanna drift off topic.
Yeah back to the case of the miniencyclopedia. My closest friends shunned me for a long time. I got into even more trouble by fighting back. Mockery and ostracizing taking place everyday. I feel so much misery going to school at those times. Friends of mine tried to lessen the hate but theres this irritating guy which probably still hates me until now continued and added oil to the fire. Everytime I played soccer, the other guys will make fun of me, like for example kicking a ball, the guys sarcastically said "WOW, NICE KICK." and stuffs like that. I went on almost forever.
Back in those times I was totally insensitive. I was fucking cocky, even some point in the encyclopedia I did state something like, "If you did feel insulted, good for you, these are facts, so get over with it." I was left like that for a very long time but I didn't really care about it as soon the hate starts to dissolve.
Then near the end of the year, September, I got a stead. Ok before that back to April/May or something, I can't quite recall. I got a stead. Shes still in my class for 4 consecutive years, each years she got more prettier, serious shit man, but whatever. Yeah that is like my first 'proper' stead, during Primary school I had one that lasted 2 years, which is stupid, because we don't even know what is love. LOL. Whats more, after awhile, like 2months, I broke with her for some fucking dumb reason, kinda like no mood, lose interest or what. And I broke up with her in the best way possible. Was out with friends at Dhoby Ghaut to play LAN or something, probably Maplestory (yayayaya), then after that, I discussed my thoughts to my friends and then I decided to break, then I call her up, and break up with her infront of my friends. I can't imagine how fucking dumb, stupid and retarded I was that time. Seriously man. Whats more, I still said bad stuffs about the 'relationship', saying that it was a waste of time, what a waste of a stead, this kind of things. But luckily this shit did get cleared up.
Then another stead in September, this time it is rather 'more serious'. Wow I still remember the times here, was really tiring. Firstly I got her to say yes to me when I 'confessed', was because near midnight theres another guy who wanted her to be her stead too, and both of us left her in a 'dilemma' kind of shit. Apparently she HAD to say yes to either me or him, and she couldn't back out. Thats why I got her (nothing to be proud of, now that I think of it). Theres more other nonsense, calling each other laopo, laogong. FUCK! SERIOUSLY HOW RETARDED. Everytime ending a convo, BYE ILY MUACKS. damn, I was even more retarded then Zhiyang in the past (but still cleverer). Ok, things got on like this, everytime after school stay back with her and my other friends, blah blah and other cock. Then suddenly a twist to the tale, I got angry with my friend (which is my stead's best friend), 'accusing' her of revealing my secret to my friends, saying what betray betray me. I can't tell what exactly happened, but then its something 'serious'. So my stead (omg.. why..) got angry with me too, but treated like nothing happened for the time being. What happened next which is still a kinda big thing in my life, was that while playing basketball after school, this guy who was those stupid typical gangsters, was being very irritating, flirting with my stead and all, so of course naturally I will feel abit jealous. He was slapping her and all infront of me (he likes her obviously), then while playing I slapped him back just for fun, lightly, just to poke some fun. But he got so pussily pissed and shit, and he wanted fight back but I don't know what happened that made him turned back for that day. Later that night, my stead told me about those incident and was like also quite pissed. Blah blah, then he decided to settle the case face to face, he called him gang members along too. Blah and blah, in the end they just want to fight, fight in a 3minutes whack each other then after that, case was settled. Of course the other people along with me was 'worried' and did not want this to happen, that gangster guy still wanted to fight despite her telling him not to, which tells her alot about what that guy meant to her... so yeah. I was fucking weak that time so I just fight like some pussy, although it seems that I owned him. Blah blah then for about weeks we did not talk to each other. And in the end she talked to me and asked me whether you wanna break up as its very stressful in some way or another to both of us. In the end I said its up to her, and she said yes (then still ask me for what sia, just say break lah). But from then, I never engage in any relationship or steads which is unlike the people nowadays who just stead, fuck and go.
I've written this much of shit and I'm only done with SEC 1. Don't worry secondary 2 is much easier. I hanged out with my friends since start of the year, most of the are the malay ones (who are in Phantokour), was alot of fun with them because theres no disputes or conflicts at all. Just one day we watched Yamakasi together somehow, then we went down to slack abit, in the end tried to imitate the yamakasi guys. Blah blah, this year is the start of change, sort of, now that I'm introduced to PK. Yayayaya, then we formed a team named phantokour and made fucking stupid video that is still in youtube... somehow. But yeah for most people, we started out as a poser, but then yeah I've definitely learnt my lesson. Other then that, My CCA was horrific for me. I kept going to it on and off, because of the people inside. Mostly malays, always made fun of me and Parcool, was seriously irritating, feeling was similar to what happened the year before. But other then that, nothing much happened. Just sometimes the guy who I've mentioned earlier on, still kept pissing me off time and time again, but all I can say I just led this year nothing out of ordinary, in school that is. In PK of course I've learnt alot more things, meeting PKSG and introduced to strength training at the end of year, definitely was good. I was really happy to be transferred to a class that is free of those irritating people I had last year.
Secondary 3 was the year where I grew so much more mature, although I know I'm still fucking childish and irritating at times. This year I grew even more serious into PK. I did not interact much with the friends I have, just focus more on PK and studies in a way. I did well for my studies this year. I can't think of much big event happening this year in school. Only that around September I got really angry with this teacher, which is SADLY the same teacher that is teaching me Chinese this year, again. Thats why I got no mood to pay attention or do her work during her lessons. She gave me a pink form for no good reason, just because I bounced ball in class which distracted the whole class (WOW!), and of course taking back whats mine (something that she confiscated), because I need to pass that work up on that day itself. She's fucking unreasonable. But whatever. And of course the trip to Vietnam in mid year. I think most of the things happened this year is already written down in my Year in Review.
Currently, living the life as a Sec 4, just seems like a blink of an eye had me right now studying for my O levels already. So fucking fast. Yeah like what I said, Chinese is the main probelm right now. I kept procrastinating on Chinese homeworks. Theres test just yesterday (and more next week, one POA test and one Amaths test coming right up, fuck man) on a book that I didn't buy because I hate Chinese and I see no point buying it, thats why I flunked the test and still have to do a retest. Now that school have affected my plans, as theres Science Practical after school on mondays, and on some Thursdays there will be SFL till after school, and all the other shit and nonsense. Also time is flying so fast now that one day have past after another. Haven't been training properly actually this year as there's no proper time to do so yet. But will do so tomorrow at night. I have been neglecting handstands practice so I will do them later. My diet have been consisting of alot of fats and calories recently, and I suddenly stopped eating tuna, so right now I should reset my nutrition back to what was in the past during my 5x5 training days. Talking about that, I'm about to start back on squats, CNY will be something that might hinder my training so I will start the routine proper on the first week of February. Need to start practicing flips, to get really used to them.
School life at the moment, I just felt that I'm very unsociable. Usually when I with someone, I have no topics to talk about, and that feels really awkward. So usually when I'm walking back home and I see my classmates I will tend to evade because I don't even know what to say after saying Hi. This happens also when I'm sitting next to someone that I'm not very close with too, especially more if its a girl. Quite sad ah. I don't think I'm that much of a importance in the class too, kind of like those extra extra guys who just makes the class 40 students. Like for example if I never come to school, no one will really care. Things like that. Need to start interacting with them more, because at the end of the day, friends ARE important.
Thats right, this as stated, is my life blog. So I started to blog more on my life rather than just PK all the time. My second blog is more random and craps of everyday life, so go there to expect humour and nothing else.
What a long post this is.
Primary school life is not very entertaining, all I know is that I'm very rebellious, fights with people occurs often, got into trouble much, was hanging out with a couple of friends who are now those typical Chinese gangsters (they've changed alot, like everyone). I don't have much really good friends from primary school, thats why I don't go back to school on Teacher's day or hang out with those people. Quite a boring life I led during then. It is probably because of the fact that when we are young, our minds aren't mature enough to understand the stuffs going on at our very life, so dumb that we are almost mechanically controlled to do all those stuffs that we are doing during those years, which led many people into sedentary lifestyles in the teenage years. Another reason why I didn't say much here is because I can't remember much.
Secondary school life was much more entertaining, as it happened much more recently. Secondary 1 was probably the worse of all the years, so far. Really hectic year as I can recall. Well what happened at the earlier stages of the year was that I get to know new faces, made some good ones, some ok-ok ones, and some stupid ones. At the start of the year, like Feb, I already got a pink form because of fighting with some noobface. He did attempted to throw my bag down from the 4th storey, so what do you expect me to do? But I was fucking proud of owning a weakling, and brag about how I headbutted him and shit. Well at that time I was still fucking stupid, don't know what has gotten into me. Worse was yet to come, in one point of time, after the June holidays, and one of those days I got fed up with a couple of guys, and I decided to write a mini-encyclopedia of the people in our class, and write about them (actually writing their bad points). I write about everyone, even those innocents one, write until like wtf, insulted them and all, yet still have the cheek to send everyone. Guess what, not long after, one day suddenly everyone turned their backs against me. As you can infer, they hated me because of what I've done, and ignored me in the process, which I think I rightfully deserve. I deleted the encyclopedia soon after the incident, but was quite a bad move.. I wonder if I can get that back.
Before that, I can remember making a class forum near April, then I was fucking stupid and retarded, wrote like one thousand bullshit, even writing my own novel about some dumb shit that I can't recall. And I and some others didn't really like this wannabe, this retarded act cute, twit, egotistical retard, and while he was doing all the things that 'made' him look good, I started the fire, to flame him like fuck publicly in the forums. The feud that continued for a long time. A fucking long time to be exact, because its still ongoing right now, as in the dislike is still there but no longer in any contact. But that guy is really retarded, and from his blog you can see he is fucking emo because he got dumped like 4 times for liking some girls that never liked him. I don't know, don't wanna drift off topic.
Yeah back to the case of the miniencyclopedia. My closest friends shunned me for a long time. I got into even more trouble by fighting back. Mockery and ostracizing taking place everyday. I feel so much misery going to school at those times. Friends of mine tried to lessen the hate but theres this irritating guy which probably still hates me until now continued and added oil to the fire. Everytime I played soccer, the other guys will make fun of me, like for example kicking a ball, the guys sarcastically said "WOW, NICE KICK." and stuffs like that. I went on almost forever.
Back in those times I was totally insensitive. I was fucking cocky, even some point in the encyclopedia I did state something like, "If you did feel insulted, good for you, these are facts, so get over with it." I was left like that for a very long time but I didn't really care about it as soon the hate starts to dissolve.
Then near the end of the year, September, I got a stead. Ok before that back to April/May or something, I can't quite recall. I got a stead. Shes still in my class for 4 consecutive years, each years she got more prettier, serious shit man, but whatever. Yeah that is like my first 'proper' stead, during Primary school I had one that lasted 2 years, which is stupid, because we don't even know what is love. LOL. Whats more, after awhile, like 2months, I broke with her for some fucking dumb reason, kinda like no mood, lose interest or what. And I broke up with her in the best way possible. Was out with friends at Dhoby Ghaut to play LAN or something, probably Maplestory (yayayaya), then after that, I discussed my thoughts to my friends and then I decided to break, then I call her up, and break up with her infront of my friends. I can't imagine how fucking dumb, stupid and retarded I was that time. Seriously man. Whats more, I still said bad stuffs about the 'relationship', saying that it was a waste of time, what a waste of a stead, this kind of things. But luckily this shit did get cleared up.
Then another stead in September, this time it is rather 'more serious'. Wow I still remember the times here, was really tiring. Firstly I got her to say yes to me when I 'confessed', was because near midnight theres another guy who wanted her to be her stead too, and both of us left her in a 'dilemma' kind of shit. Apparently she HAD to say yes to either me or him, and she couldn't back out. Thats why I got her (nothing to be proud of, now that I think of it). Theres more other nonsense, calling each other laopo, laogong. FUCK! SERIOUSLY HOW RETARDED. Everytime ending a convo, BYE ILY MUACKS. damn, I was even more retarded then Zhiyang in the past (but still cleverer). Ok, things got on like this, everytime after school stay back with her and my other friends, blah blah and other cock. Then suddenly a twist to the tale, I got angry with my friend (which is my stead's best friend), 'accusing' her of revealing my secret to my friends, saying what betray betray me. I can't tell what exactly happened, but then its something 'serious'. So my stead (omg.. why..) got angry with me too, but treated like nothing happened for the time being. What happened next which is still a kinda big thing in my life, was that while playing basketball after school, this guy who was those stupid typical gangsters, was being very irritating, flirting with my stead and all, so of course naturally I will feel abit jealous. He was slapping her and all infront of me (he likes her obviously), then while playing I slapped him back just for fun, lightly, just to poke some fun. But he got so pussily pissed and shit, and he wanted fight back but I don't know what happened that made him turned back for that day. Later that night, my stead told me about those incident and was like also quite pissed. Blah blah, then he decided to settle the case face to face, he called him gang members along too. Blah and blah, in the end they just want to fight, fight in a 3minutes whack each other then after that, case was settled. Of course the other people along with me was 'worried' and did not want this to happen, that gangster guy still wanted to fight despite her telling him not to, which tells her alot about what that guy meant to her... so yeah. I was fucking weak that time so I just fight like some pussy, although it seems that I owned him. Blah blah then for about weeks we did not talk to each other. And in the end she talked to me and asked me whether you wanna break up as its very stressful in some way or another to both of us. In the end I said its up to her, and she said yes (then still ask me for what sia, just say break lah). But from then, I never engage in any relationship or steads which is unlike the people nowadays who just stead, fuck and go.
I've written this much of shit and I'm only done with SEC 1. Don't worry secondary 2 is much easier. I hanged out with my friends since start of the year, most of the are the malay ones (who are in Phantokour), was alot of fun with them because theres no disputes or conflicts at all. Just one day we watched Yamakasi together somehow, then we went down to slack abit, in the end tried to imitate the yamakasi guys. Blah blah, this year is the start of change, sort of, now that I'm introduced to PK. Yayayaya, then we formed a team named phantokour and made fucking stupid video that is still in youtube... somehow. But yeah for most people, we started out as a poser, but then yeah I've definitely learnt my lesson. Other then that, My CCA was horrific for me. I kept going to it on and off, because of the people inside. Mostly malays, always made fun of me and Parcool, was seriously irritating, feeling was similar to what happened the year before. But other then that, nothing much happened. Just sometimes the guy who I've mentioned earlier on, still kept pissing me off time and time again, but all I can say I just led this year nothing out of ordinary, in school that is. In PK of course I've learnt alot more things, meeting PKSG and introduced to strength training at the end of year, definitely was good. I was really happy to be transferred to a class that is free of those irritating people I had last year.
Secondary 3 was the year where I grew so much more mature, although I know I'm still fucking childish and irritating at times. This year I grew even more serious into PK. I did not interact much with the friends I have, just focus more on PK and studies in a way. I did well for my studies this year. I can't think of much big event happening this year in school. Only that around September I got really angry with this teacher, which is SADLY the same teacher that is teaching me Chinese this year, again. Thats why I got no mood to pay attention or do her work during her lessons. She gave me a pink form for no good reason, just because I bounced ball in class which distracted the whole class (WOW!), and of course taking back whats mine (something that she confiscated), because I need to pass that work up on that day itself. She's fucking unreasonable. But whatever. And of course the trip to Vietnam in mid year. I think most of the things happened this year is already written down in my Year in Review.
Currently, living the life as a Sec 4, just seems like a blink of an eye had me right now studying for my O levels already. So fucking fast. Yeah like what I said, Chinese is the main probelm right now. I kept procrastinating on Chinese homeworks. Theres test just yesterday (and more next week, one POA test and one Amaths test coming right up, fuck man) on a book that I didn't buy because I hate Chinese and I see no point buying it, thats why I flunked the test and still have to do a retest. Now that school have affected my plans, as theres Science Practical after school on mondays, and on some Thursdays there will be SFL till after school, and all the other shit and nonsense. Also time is flying so fast now that one day have past after another. Haven't been training properly actually this year as there's no proper time to do so yet. But will do so tomorrow at night. I have been neglecting handstands practice so I will do them later. My diet have been consisting of alot of fats and calories recently, and I suddenly stopped eating tuna, so right now I should reset my nutrition back to what was in the past during my 5x5 training days. Talking about that, I'm about to start back on squats, CNY will be something that might hinder my training so I will start the routine proper on the first week of February. Need to start practicing flips, to get really used to them.
School life at the moment, I just felt that I'm very unsociable. Usually when I with someone, I have no topics to talk about, and that feels really awkward. So usually when I'm walking back home and I see my classmates I will tend to evade because I don't even know what to say after saying Hi. This happens also when I'm sitting next to someone that I'm not very close with too, especially more if its a girl. Quite sad ah. I don't think I'm that much of a importance in the class too, kind of like those extra extra guys who just makes the class 40 students. Like for example if I never come to school, no one will really care. Things like that. Need to start interacting with them more, because at the end of the day, friends ARE important.
Thats right, this as stated, is my life blog. So I started to blog more on my life rather than just PK all the time. My second blog is more random and craps of everyday life, so go there to expect humour and nothing else.
What a long post this is.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
The start of 2009.
First things first. My latest video.
CP: In Motion. The video was indeed a hit judging from the huge positive response, hitting 1k views in one day. 700 views in 20 hours. 4 GLOBAL honors from its first day. I did put alot of work into it, editing wise, and asked the guys to helped me film stuffs, I'm happy with the content. I tried to sync my movements and editing stuffs in, was planning the video to be more of a cinematography reel but since I'm the guy being shown doing movements I can't possibly showcase my filming skills as I'm not handling the camera. And as usual, the timelapse are my signature, they the best way to display art in videos. I think I've setted a new standard in PKSG videos. My breakthrough video in 2010, will be THE breakthrough video. This video already gained a good hit and 23 new subscribers (at the moment), I wonder how much more will the real video get. Expect it to be better then this, as I put editing skills and directing skills to the test together with my hopeful achievement of my one-day-goals.
Ok other things.
SCHOOL reopens tomorrow. I hate school well I don't see much purpose to it. Because Singapore is so competitive, without that fucking piece of paper you can't get good jobs, I guess we all have no choice, lan lan suck thumb. What to do? Singapore sucks... I think the studies are for our own good, and if we refused to do our homework it is OUR probelm. The most the teachers can do is to tell us that but no point scolding because it is up to us whether we want to do it anot. The grades will reflect how much we study and shit. Oh well I guess another reason for going to school is interaction. Sadly I don't have a truly good friend, so yeah, as they are the typical singaporeans I can't do anything but to just try to blend in.
Talking about friends made me think back. Ashton's birthday party was celebrated with traceurs. It tells me that traceurs carries a huger bond then outside friends... wow. I'm pretty sure many people feels this way, as we keep training together the bond builds on, sharing the same interest and goals. The reason why I let only my close traceurs friends is because of the fact that they understand what I am doing and stuffs. I've yet to find a friend outside PK that properly understands what I do, they usually think of many other crappy stuffs although some respects it and doesn't mock at me whatsoever... I just hope to have a closer rapport between some of my class/schoolmates. But still, as I'm prepared to expect typical Singaporeans will act stupidly, I guess I like to keep my training undercover and just try to be normal friends with people in school.. oh well.
2010 will be my breakthrough year. With the release of my video in plan, and travelling to UK and/or Lisses. Wait, travelling, that surely means money right? How am I gonna be supposed to earn/save so money for that? Obviously saving up.. but then with people like my mother keep taking my money, it makes this alot harder. I hope she don't take my ang pao money, and also return half of what she took (she took 1000bucks+ I'm only asking for 500 back, all this is my money). Whole point is I just need to save up money to travel..
2009, whats so special about 2009? I wonder what will be ahead of me this year. What obstacles and challenges I will be facing, what achievements and milestones will it hit. As I know this year I will concentrate more on flips, and just be more comfortable with my movements, and consistent in them. Those are points in general that I will striving for this year. Studies wise, just do my best and work hard for O levels. Strength training will definitely boost my strength and power, will be doing this till I hit my 2x BW squats goal and OAC! Must work hard as of now.
January... as much as I hate going to school, we all have no choice so.. yeah. This month there Chinese New Year, something to look forward to as we will get more ang poa money and of course time out from stupid school. I'm enjoying the time out of school as much as possible, school sucks, but... hais. Just try to make the most out of schooltime during recess, try to train more like my flips to get them second nature. One more thing in mid Jan, the australian traceur Ista Ho will be visiting Singapore. I've seen his skills in videos and I think he is quite good but doesn't matter much actually, hope to have some fun time while training with him. Sucks that school is on that day so it will be quite tight but I'm sure I can find time.
I should be planning for my workout routine to start the new year and it will start soon, hopefully it won't clash with CNY so I'll try to put it at the last week of this month. From what I can see it will be alot tougher so I should be ready to up the intensity of my training just to get back on form. As safety is more concerned now, I should really polish up my form so yeah, must start polishing it.
Videos I will work on this year - documentary. Probably thats it. Will be working on other people videos starting with DARKMURAI first. Fred's and Ashton's should come short after followed by the rest like Dblucy, Stan, hopefully JY when his shoulder is fully recovered. Not too sure about the rest. This is a time where I can work on my filming and editing yet again haha. Will be working on the NYE jam video tomorrow when I come back from gym training, hopefully I get it done by then.
Oh well, I'm gonna go off and soon I will feel myself awakened in the early morning preparing to go school. 2 months past - just like that.
CP: In Motion. The video was indeed a hit judging from the huge positive response, hitting 1k views in one day. 700 views in 20 hours. 4 GLOBAL honors from its first day. I did put alot of work into it, editing wise, and asked the guys to helped me film stuffs, I'm happy with the content. I tried to sync my movements and editing stuffs in, was planning the video to be more of a cinematography reel but since I'm the guy being shown doing movements I can't possibly showcase my filming skills as I'm not handling the camera. And as usual, the timelapse are my signature, they the best way to display art in videos. I think I've setted a new standard in PKSG videos. My breakthrough video in 2010, will be THE breakthrough video. This video already gained a good hit and 23 new subscribers (at the moment), I wonder how much more will the real video get. Expect it to be better then this, as I put editing skills and directing skills to the test together with my hopeful achievement of my one-day-goals.
Ok other things.
SCHOOL reopens tomorrow. I hate school well I don't see much purpose to it. Because Singapore is so competitive, without that fucking piece of paper you can't get good jobs, I guess we all have no choice, lan lan suck thumb. What to do? Singapore sucks... I think the studies are for our own good, and if we refused to do our homework it is OUR probelm. The most the teachers can do is to tell us that but no point scolding because it is up to us whether we want to do it anot. The grades will reflect how much we study and shit. Oh well I guess another reason for going to school is interaction. Sadly I don't have a truly good friend, so yeah, as they are the typical singaporeans I can't do anything but to just try to blend in.
Talking about friends made me think back. Ashton's birthday party was celebrated with traceurs. It tells me that traceurs carries a huger bond then outside friends... wow. I'm pretty sure many people feels this way, as we keep training together the bond builds on, sharing the same interest and goals. The reason why I let only my close traceurs friends is because of the fact that they understand what I am doing and stuffs. I've yet to find a friend outside PK that properly understands what I do, they usually think of many other crappy stuffs although some respects it and doesn't mock at me whatsoever... I just hope to have a closer rapport between some of my class/schoolmates. But still, as I'm prepared to expect typical Singaporeans will act stupidly, I guess I like to keep my training undercover and just try to be normal friends with people in school.. oh well.
2010 will be my breakthrough year. With the release of my video in plan, and travelling to UK and/or Lisses. Wait, travelling, that surely means money right? How am I gonna be supposed to earn/save so money for that? Obviously saving up.. but then with people like my mother keep taking my money, it makes this alot harder. I hope she don't take my ang pao money, and also return half of what she took (she took 1000bucks+ I'm only asking for 500 back, all this is my money). Whole point is I just need to save up money to travel..
2009, whats so special about 2009? I wonder what will be ahead of me this year. What obstacles and challenges I will be facing, what achievements and milestones will it hit. As I know this year I will concentrate more on flips, and just be more comfortable with my movements, and consistent in them. Those are points in general that I will striving for this year. Studies wise, just do my best and work hard for O levels. Strength training will definitely boost my strength and power, will be doing this till I hit my 2x BW squats goal and OAC! Must work hard as of now.
January... as much as I hate going to school, we all have no choice so.. yeah. This month there Chinese New Year, something to look forward to as we will get more ang poa money and of course time out from stupid school. I'm enjoying the time out of school as much as possible, school sucks, but... hais. Just try to make the most out of schooltime during recess, try to train more like my flips to get them second nature. One more thing in mid Jan, the australian traceur Ista Ho will be visiting Singapore. I've seen his skills in videos and I think he is quite good but doesn't matter much actually, hope to have some fun time while training with him. Sucks that school is on that day so it will be quite tight but I'm sure I can find time.
I should be planning for my workout routine to start the new year and it will start soon, hopefully it won't clash with CNY so I'll try to put it at the last week of this month. From what I can see it will be alot tougher so I should be ready to up the intensity of my training just to get back on form. As safety is more concerned now, I should really polish up my form so yeah, must start polishing it.
Videos I will work on this year - documentary. Probably thats it. Will be working on other people videos starting with DARKMURAI first. Fred's and Ashton's should come short after followed by the rest like Dblucy, Stan, hopefully JY when his shoulder is fully recovered. Not too sure about the rest. This is a time where I can work on my filming and editing yet again haha. Will be working on the NYE jam video tomorrow when I come back from gym training, hopefully I get it done by then.
Oh well, I'm gonna go off and soon I will feel myself awakened in the early morning preparing to go school. 2 months past - just like that.
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