This year's birthday was a memorable one.
It is only around this year where my heart and mind was passionate to movements. I know this is my true passion and my way of living. Only then I felt I've found a missing jigsaw piece in my life puzzle, only then I felt that theres something to live for. It was just this time of my life where I have gotten to know some friends that I will never find in school or anywhere else. Traceurs do have a special bonding. I felt that my best friends ain't that one I find in my own class, not even in school, but some guys that I've met through the internet. Not just any net-pal, but guys that share the same interests with me. We might not know each other much yet but already there is a bond.
Previous birthdays was hardly celebrated. The most go out with family, I don't remember really celebrated with friends. See what I mean, no birthdays stands out. This year's one is different. Celebrated it with people doing the thing that we love. Even made a video out of it, with so much humour and fun throughout that day. Was a pity some guys couldn't make it, but nevermind. Thanks for everyone that came, felt it was really memorable, finally I can say I've enjoyed my birthday.
Thats bloody emotional. So not me.
OK lets talk about something else.
Missed a day of training today due to feel kinda tired from yesterday's jam. I know if I went I can't pull off my 100% (which is needed because its a Monday, probably the most tiring of the other 3 days of week (of training)). Everything will be shifted one day back, guess it will still be cool. 9 more trainings left, before I can kinda relax from strength training. Sometimes I have no motivation to go for those trainings but I know I have to because its for my own good. I have to force myself to go (shouldn't be the case as I should have the natural motivation to train), but once this 3 weeks are over (the MOST torturous weeks, all attempts around max), I can finally feel free from the crutches of hell. Seriously thats how it feels. Although strength training is bloody fun, squatting and all, they are tiring and torturous. I wonder how much will I gain from this. I will see the full results around December, and will continue my next routine after 2 or 3 weeks of break (from proper strength training). I will still gym, just deloading my lifts and lessen my body stress, and train more on movements.
I plan to train movements properly now. You know repetition is the key to everything so, I guess I want to nail some stuffs repeatedly in trainings. I want to nail 3rd bench SDC2P at Dino properly and constantly, get used to it, and the level SDC2P at Shinos one too. I think I'm drilling too much on SDC though, as they are my favourite movements (thus I'm kinda skilled in them), and my other movements are sucky. I wanna drill more on precisions (especially running precisions), arm jumps (especially running armjumps), wallpasses, runs, lache, and all the other stuffs. Flips as well, I kinda lost them, was trying them a few days ago and IT WAS SUCKY. So much work to do during the holidays. Have to make sure I respect my body and not overtrain and stress my body too much, or do any impactful shit, and I will want to have controlled, powerful, strong, and fluid movements.
Lazy to write more..
Still not sure whether I want to find a job, still not sure whether I could.
School's a bore, isn't really 'holiday' yet, until 3rd Nov.
Some random other thoughts (written a few days ago)
I always aim to be original, trying to find my own ways and style. I like to be the first guy who land a certain something, for example I think I nailed the Shino's SDC to precision first. Because it shows that I don't need a person to nail that to deem it as 'possible'. I wanna prove it myself. Thing is. After nailing the move, many people will take that as an aim, well to someone 'it makes it so much more possible' after seeing a person (for his case, a person like me), in other words, people will copy my movements. I admit I definitely had copied other traceur's movements and etc., but still its always better to try to find your own ways. Also, to me I sometimes see copying as something competitive. Its like trying to do what others can. Guess many people will think what is wrong copying a movement? Competitiveness. I'm not saying its totally bad, but everyone should once in awhile discover their own movements, and not copy everything blindly.. and obviously know why they choose to copy such a movement.
Next, nowadays I get pretty fucked up that Parkour has got so mainstream, don't have the underground feeling anymore. Thats so retarded and gay. Now everyone will jump around and calling it Parkour. Its so fucking lame. Media is so gonna fuck it up, and when people like us do stuffs like that at the streets, typical teenagers will go "WAH PARKOUR AH," "what he doing, PARKOUR AH?", "ask him do frontflip LEH!". This is sooooooooooo typical. And the adults will go "DON'T DO ALL THIS DANGEROUS STUFFS AND RISK YOURSELF!", and some people will just give you the face that shows "this kid got nothing better to do". Seen enough, but still piss me off everytime. So fucking hate those assholes.
Another thing. I wonder why flips appeal to people so much. Well sure its nothing wrong with learning flips. But why everyone wants to do them so much? I'll tell you my honest reasons. I don't train parkour, or tricking. I do l'art du displacement, or just movements. I want to have complete control and awareness over my body, including flips. I want to learn how to control my body. Its the same reason why I do SDC, Armjump, etc., flips are the same - movements. And they are fun. Its nothing about the cool factor. Also overcoming the mental barrier in flips, to be confident with myself.
That's all for today.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Another 365 Days Around The Earth.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Recent Ponders.
Exams are over. Yay. But lessons are not. Sucks.
Although things are getting lighter in load, I'll still have to suffer waking up in the morning going to school, listening to the teachers scolding us for the poor results (as in the others, not me), some lessons are pure slack, might as well go home sleep, while other lesson watch movie, some ok ok, but the others are pure shit.. I have to go still because some lessons, like maths and science are still continuing the syllabus, till sec 4. What the gay.. also the first 2 weeks of holidays.. I have to go back school for freaking 3hours for 6 days.. feel like dying man.
Lets not talk about stupid school and studies..
I've been thinking about some stuffs lately, about the things I want to do, to train for, to become, and to be capable of. I guess during not-so-holiday-ish holiday, I'm gonna get back to training movements, like I've said before. 14th Nov would be last day of my 5x5 routine, so the week after that I will relax from strength training, about a two weeks break (while still going to gym for light training), and continue my next routine thereafter. I only want to train movements like once a week (at most two), focusing alot on building up my strength, especially in my legs. And also since now I have much more free time, I hope to seriously train for my handstands, bar tricks, and all those other light stuffs.
About videos, I've made a birthday jam, first time in my life I've thought of actually, having a proper birthday. I've never, ever, had a proper one at all. Either only with my family, heading out to like swensens/jack's place/whatever other restuarant to eat, or hmmm during primary school I've actually went out with my friends. It kinda suck when, during your birthday you got no one to celebrate with, if you actually know what I mean. To tell you the truth, no matter how 'lively' I seem in school, I don't really think I have 'real' friends, and I don't know what would you really call a true friend. Its quite fortunate to actually be popular amongst the friends you be with, and how I admire those people who are well-liked and have good connections between their friends. I'm like just those people what they will call 'friends'. Its just a "friend", hardly any big deal. Its like when you're absent no one cares, whereas when the popular ones when he didn't come to school, people will go 'Sian arh, CP never come." I do not carry weight to much people I guess, but all I can say is, whoever they are, they will happy to actually know me as a friend one day.
Ok, that was really off-topic. I can't believe I've talk about videos, and end up talking about friends and crap. Anyway... back to videos. The birthday jam video will be one of them, I hope it will be a fun jam, and it will be tampines, the day before my actual birthday (26th Oct, Sunday). Next video I'm working on, SHOULD be Ashton's showreel (as he will say "if I make it this year, it will not be up to standard, if I don't make one this year, people will be disappointed."). I'm not sure whether I will still wanna make the "Turning over a new leaf" video due to the fact that SHINOS CONSTRUCTION WILL ONLY BE DONE IN LIKE 2 YEARS+!!!!! I guess I will just compile the clips from the last quarter of the year into a video, just to note progression. Last but not least the New years' eve Jam. If there will be a Bishan PKSG Jam, It will probably be worked on, and posted on Ashton's account. Also, if Qayyim were to visit us anytime in December, be prepared for the part two of 'PKSG May Jam', can't wait.
I will be making more and more training sessions during the holidays, calling down the guys I've always train with, so we can train together. Most of them will be on saturday, figured that it will be actually the best day for training. Not only to train and have fun but to also strengthen bonds between traceurs. I guess I will start training seriously and properly, and more practice on my flips.
I figured on what I want. I've seen so many videos of guys doing backflips, some 360 twists, 720, or even 1080, and not suprisingly double flips, and blah blah. They might be impressive, but they are really forced, uncontrolled, and not to mention bloody low, and hardly landed. I don't like that, I hate that. I want backflips that has good air, standing frontflips and sideflips with good landings (won't land like bent knee, just like a normal jump), slowly proceeding to combos, and gainers and etc., I want controlled flips, not poorly landed ones. Also, I want to be able to do them AT ANYTIME and ANYWHERE. So its like right now, I just stand up from my chair and do a GOOD backflip right away (without warmup, without thinking), land nicely barefooted on my house's floor. Thats how much of a second nature I want it to be.
I know that will take sometime. During my trainings, I too wanna find my own way, develop my style of moving, and discover my path. I want to have my own unique style of moving, like how Blane, Daniel Ilabaca and Dim Monk has their own. I aim for total control over my body - in any forms of movements. And I've also thought of this - My SDC might be good, but I want to raise the bar really high, as in really high, because I know many others have SDC's way further, stronger, fluid, and more properly controlled then mine. Not comparing, but exposing myself to some real challenges. As you see the huge SDC to Pre at Danny's showreel, I want to be able to get that kind of distance. Also the standard of the guys in England are WAY WAY huger then Singapore, and if I want to go London and be able to put my skills to real test, I must seriously develop my skills here, own the places here, before I think of heading there. Things over there are way more different from here. ;)
But of course I won't want to focus on just my SDC, but in my movements overall. Wallpasses are one of my weakest. I sure want to improve my fluidity in movements, and runs. Probably also in running precisions, stuffs that I've been playing on recently. I wouldn't want to keep doing high elements because they ARE dangerous, and I guess I already had enough of it. Ofcourse every other movements, I don't wanna leave them out. Movements like catleap, precision, other vaults, flips, lache, everything. And like I said earlier, I want to 'master' them as much as possible, making them second nature, and having complete control and air awareness over my movements and body.
I'm not gonna lie but my knee ain't 100% healed yet. I really hope they will be fully recovered as soon as possible, and by 14th November.
Strength training on the other hand, I'm really starting to like it alot. I really need to get that power to jump that high, and the bestest way to do it is squats. Surely I want to see my improvements after 14th Nov, and I hope I could settle down everything by that date, including the planning of my next routine. And on that two weeks before I start on the next routine, I will do light training in the gym, and start getting back to proper movements training. After the two weeks I will only do movements once a week, all the way strength training, and practice alot on handstands and bartricks. I think my improvement will skyrocket when I see myself after my O Levels. Train for strength, doing movements once a week, concentrating on my studies etc., focusing on my goals and keep everything in balance.
I'm not sure whether I'm gonna get a job this holidays, because if I do, I have to really reschedule everything to fit the job, and I won't have as much free time, things will get really hectic, but then I guess I need to earn alittle money, and to earn money is not easy. I don't know what job though, and I would really need to schedule everything properly, hopefully I can meet the job requirements (people won't hire you if you only work 4 hours a day, or only one or two times a week.. not like MACDONALDS (which is also another reason why they give lousy pay)). Also I want a job that give good pay and blah blah, I don't know man.
As I've said, things will be way different now, and I must discipline myself and train seriously if I want to justify my statement.
Although things are getting lighter in load, I'll still have to suffer waking up in the morning going to school, listening to the teachers scolding us for the poor results (as in the others, not me), some lessons are pure slack, might as well go home sleep, while other lesson watch movie, some ok ok, but the others are pure shit.. I have to go still because some lessons, like maths and science are still continuing the syllabus, till sec 4. What the gay.. also the first 2 weeks of holidays.. I have to go back school for freaking 3hours for 6 days.. feel like dying man.
Lets not talk about stupid school and studies..
I've been thinking about some stuffs lately, about the things I want to do, to train for, to become, and to be capable of. I guess during not-so-holiday-ish holiday, I'm gonna get back to training movements, like I've said before. 14th Nov would be last day of my 5x5 routine, so the week after that I will relax from strength training, about a two weeks break (while still going to gym for light training), and continue my next routine thereafter. I only want to train movements like once a week (at most two), focusing alot on building up my strength, especially in my legs. And also since now I have much more free time, I hope to seriously train for my handstands, bar tricks, and all those other light stuffs.
About videos, I've made a birthday jam, first time in my life I've thought of actually, having a proper birthday. I've never, ever, had a proper one at all. Either only with my family, heading out to like swensens/jack's place/whatever other restuarant to eat, or hmmm during primary school I've actually went out with my friends. It kinda suck when, during your birthday you got no one to celebrate with, if you actually know what I mean. To tell you the truth, no matter how 'lively' I seem in school, I don't really think I have 'real' friends, and I don't know what would you really call a true friend. Its quite fortunate to actually be popular amongst the friends you be with, and how I admire those people who are well-liked and have good connections between their friends. I'm like just those people what they will call 'friends'. Its just a "friend", hardly any big deal. Its like when you're absent no one cares, whereas when the popular ones when he didn't come to school, people will go 'Sian arh, CP never come." I do not carry weight to much people I guess, but all I can say is, whoever they are, they will happy to actually know me as a friend one day.
Ok, that was really off-topic. I can't believe I've talk about videos, and end up talking about friends and crap. Anyway... back to videos. The birthday jam video will be one of them, I hope it will be a fun jam, and it will be tampines, the day before my actual birthday (26th Oct, Sunday). Next video I'm working on, SHOULD be Ashton's showreel (as he will say "if I make it this year, it will not be up to standard, if I don't make one this year, people will be disappointed."). I'm not sure whether I will still wanna make the "Turning over a new leaf" video due to the fact that SHINOS CONSTRUCTION WILL ONLY BE DONE IN LIKE 2 YEARS+!!!!! I guess I will just compile the clips from the last quarter of the year into a video, just to note progression. Last but not least the New years' eve Jam. If there will be a Bishan PKSG Jam, It will probably be worked on, and posted on Ashton's account. Also, if Qayyim were to visit us anytime in December, be prepared for the part two of 'PKSG May Jam', can't wait.
I will be making more and more training sessions during the holidays, calling down the guys I've always train with, so we can train together. Most of them will be on saturday, figured that it will be actually the best day for training. Not only to train and have fun but to also strengthen bonds between traceurs. I guess I will start training seriously and properly, and more practice on my flips.
I figured on what I want. I've seen so many videos of guys doing backflips, some 360 twists, 720, or even 1080, and not suprisingly double flips, and blah blah. They might be impressive, but they are really forced, uncontrolled, and not to mention bloody low, and hardly landed. I don't like that, I hate that. I want backflips that has good air, standing frontflips and sideflips with good landings (won't land like bent knee, just like a normal jump), slowly proceeding to combos, and gainers and etc., I want controlled flips, not poorly landed ones. Also, I want to be able to do them AT ANYTIME and ANYWHERE. So its like right now, I just stand up from my chair and do a GOOD backflip right away (without warmup, without thinking), land nicely barefooted on my house's floor. Thats how much of a second nature I want it to be.
I know that will take sometime. During my trainings, I too wanna find my own way, develop my style of moving, and discover my path. I want to have my own unique style of moving, like how Blane, Daniel Ilabaca and Dim Monk has their own. I aim for total control over my body - in any forms of movements. And I've also thought of this - My SDC might be good, but I want to raise the bar really high, as in really high, because I know many others have SDC's way further, stronger, fluid, and more properly controlled then mine. Not comparing, but exposing myself to some real challenges. As you see the huge SDC to Pre at Danny's showreel, I want to be able to get that kind of distance. Also the standard of the guys in England are WAY WAY huger then Singapore, and if I want to go London and be able to put my skills to real test, I must seriously develop my skills here, own the places here, before I think of heading there. Things over there are way more different from here. ;)
But of course I won't want to focus on just my SDC, but in my movements overall. Wallpasses are one of my weakest. I sure want to improve my fluidity in movements, and runs. Probably also in running precisions, stuffs that I've been playing on recently. I wouldn't want to keep doing high elements because they ARE dangerous, and I guess I already had enough of it. Ofcourse every other movements, I don't wanna leave them out. Movements like catleap, precision, other vaults, flips, lache, everything. And like I said earlier, I want to 'master' them as much as possible, making them second nature, and having complete control and air awareness over my movements and body.
I'm not gonna lie but my knee ain't 100% healed yet. I really hope they will be fully recovered as soon as possible, and by 14th November.
Strength training on the other hand, I'm really starting to like it alot. I really need to get that power to jump that high, and the bestest way to do it is squats. Surely I want to see my improvements after 14th Nov, and I hope I could settle down everything by that date, including the planning of my next routine. And on that two weeks before I start on the next routine, I will do light training in the gym, and start getting back to proper movements training. After the two weeks I will only do movements once a week, all the way strength training, and practice alot on handstands and bartricks. I think my improvement will skyrocket when I see myself after my O Levels. Train for strength, doing movements once a week, concentrating on my studies etc., focusing on my goals and keep everything in balance.
I'm not sure whether I'm gonna get a job this holidays, because if I do, I have to really reschedule everything to fit the job, and I won't have as much free time, things will get really hectic, but then I guess I need to earn alittle money, and to earn money is not easy. I don't know what job though, and I would really need to schedule everything properly, hopefully I can meet the job requirements (people won't hire you if you only work 4 hours a day, or only one or two times a week.. not like MACDONALDS (which is also another reason why they give lousy pay)). Also I want a job that give good pay and blah blah, I don't know man.
As I've said, things will be way different now, and I must discipline myself and train seriously if I want to justify my statement.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
My statement.
This is a serious post.
I'll come back to this post in a few years time, and see if I've achieved what would be my ultimate goal for life. I'll hide this here and I know one day, this post, will have its justified significance. I don't know when, but it will. This post will be something, and it will only make sense, after a few more years. I mean it.
That being said, please read the following lengthy post.
I've come to realize, that no matter what others say about this or that, ultimately, whether its correct or wrong, right or not, its up to the person. I'll think that many people will change their impression of me when they read this post. I'm gonna be honest in the post - all my true thoughts in mind translated into words at its purest form, no exaggaration, no lies.
Theres a reason why I've invited you guys to my blog, only you guys. So far only 11 readers. Although I might not know some of you well enough, I know you guys will be Singapore's most talented traceurs. Thing is, I want to make traceurs not just people we all train with, but a bigger bonding. Also the main reason why I've invited you here is that I trust you all, and I want you to know my thoughts/history/trainings. And obviously the reason why I make this private is because this content is private, and if my friends manage to stumble upon this blog, they're gonna go retarded and shit, and thats just irritating.
You guys will be the witnessing what I've said now, and in time to come, you will witness what I am then.
If you guys still think that post is funny or unserious, or I wanna act big or this post is trash and retarded, see the huge red X at the right top hand corner, click it, really. People like Zahid. Try making fun of this post.
Lets cut the crap and zoom in to the main point.
Why am I making this post all-so-dramatic? I'm gonna state my opinions and thoughts of my life - for the future.
I find that, I don't just wanna be a traceur, any ordinary traceur, or freerunner or a person in that sense. I don't wanna be seen just like that. I wanna be more professional, more prominent, and more stronger. I'm talking about people like Chase Armitage, Daniel Ilabaca, they are definitely one of the most professional freerunners that ever existed and they are really inspiring. Look at them, they travel round the world, have professional cameraman helping to make their showreels or films, being known worldwide, having a team that love moving as well, you name it. They're very professional. I wanna have the ability to travel around the world, come to think of it, exploring and travelling is very fun, not to be stuck at Singapore which is a fucking lame country. And more prominent? I actually wanna be more known towards the UK scene, because I've always wanted to go there, and I've been following them for quite awhile. I have thoughts of studying there in the future as well. To be known in Singapore? I don't know, I don't really like that. And stronger, thats for sure, everyone wants to be stronger.
Just to clarify terms. Being more prominent does not equals to wanting to impress or show off to others. Its just simply the fact of being more known.
Well, I've thought of performing in my school for teachers day probably next year, but the thought of it, however tempting, I'm just scared about what my friends will think.. and how would I be in front of a crowd, that knows me. Imagine the slating you will receive after the performance (Its not Parkour, its tricks), friends will go all retarded over you.. and those jealous ones will go saying "SHOW OFF!". Whats your thoughts of this? I'm not sure yet, still considering. Since about July I have this thoughts already.
Why all this wants? Like I said earlier, I wanna be more professional. I don't just wanna be somebody that can do stuffs in like a few months. Not wanting to be better then others, but just to be somebody that isn't easy to become. I wanna get sponsored (not by UFF!), by companies and if possible AirAsia, it would be so cool to get free trips + countless of benefits with those sponsors.
Prominent as well. I think most of the people like being more well known, as if you don't you wouldn't even have thoughts of making a video of yourself and post it in the internet. One thing about this is once you get the prominence you want, its not easy backing out, and like the famous saying, with great power comes great responsibility. The question is, is it wrong with intentions of being more prominent? Not famous or popular, only prominent. Not to that extent till you are recognised when you walk on the streets, or being seen on TV and shit, its just like being featured in Generation Ex, that amount of prominence, just your name being written in the news paper, internet, but not everywhere. Its like, how you see Teghead in the internet, and thats how much of prominence I want. Remember, I'm not wanting to be some attention whore that show off and try to impress people. If thats not enough, when I say I wanna be prominent, I don't mean wanting to have a lot of power. My mind's clear.
That said, I've alot of thoughts in mind, that I wanna train properly for, and I'm gonna make history. My showreel for the next year would be a hit, at least I hope it will. And I'm not gonna be that person at home slacking away, sitting there and do nothing, or pcc like you-know-who. I wanna do something with my life. I'm gonna climb this mountain from now (training), and will eventually reach the peak (achieve my aims).
My passion for filming and editing also, might be handy for the future (they are two seperate things that I like, I don't learn editing just for the sake of making videos, they are a passion.) And since movements have already become a part of me (I move to live, and live to move), I see no reason why I can't use them into proper use.
Because I'm a nice guy I'm summing this whole post up into 6 major points.
MAIN THINGS I WANNA DO/AIM/ACHIEVE IN LIFE.
- Being more prominent
- Get sponsors
- Live life meaningfully and to the fullest
- Travel 'round the world
- Make a short film
- Make history
However absurd or unbelievable this post may sound to you, believe it.
And no, I have no thoughts of being a stuntman or professional chereographer, but maybe a filmmaker.
Like what Chase Armitage would said.
Anything is possible for those who are willing to try.
I'm gonna transform those words into reality.
Dreams and beliefs are very, very powerful. I've never thought of being up here with the rest, but here I am right now.
Hope you guys have grasped the point that I'm trying to make and I hope you accept my decision. Commenting, tagging, msn-ing me your thoughts is very much appreciated, I really wanna know what are your impressions and actual honest opinions, especially Ashton.
Stuffs is gonna be way different from now.
The bar is raised.
I'm gonna make history.
I wanna do something with my life.
I'll come back to this post in a few years time, and see if I've achieved what would be my ultimate goal for life. I'll hide this here and I know one day, this post, will have its justified significance. I don't know when, but it will. This post will be something, and it will only make sense, after a few more years. I mean it.
That being said, please read the following lengthy post.
I've come to realize, that no matter what others say about this or that, ultimately, whether its correct or wrong, right or not, its up to the person. I'll think that many people will change their impression of me when they read this post. I'm gonna be honest in the post - all my true thoughts in mind translated into words at its purest form, no exaggaration, no lies.
Theres a reason why I've invited you guys to my blog, only you guys. So far only 11 readers. Although I might not know some of you well enough, I know you guys will be Singapore's most talented traceurs. Thing is, I want to make traceurs not just people we all train with, but a bigger bonding. Also the main reason why I've invited you here is that I trust you all, and I want you to know my thoughts/history/trainings. And obviously the reason why I make this private is because this content is private, and if my friends manage to stumble upon this blog, they're gonna go retarded and shit, and thats just irritating.
You guys will be the witnessing what I've said now, and in time to come, you will witness what I am then.
If you guys still think that post is funny or unserious, or I wanna act big or this post is trash and retarded, see the huge red X at the right top hand corner, click it, really. People like Zahid. Try making fun of this post.
Lets cut the crap and zoom in to the main point.
Why am I making this post all-so-dramatic? I'm gonna state my opinions and thoughts of my life - for the future.
I find that, I don't just wanna be a traceur, any ordinary traceur, or freerunner or a person in that sense. I don't wanna be seen just like that. I wanna be more professional, more prominent, and more stronger. I'm talking about people like Chase Armitage, Daniel Ilabaca, they are definitely one of the most professional freerunners that ever existed and they are really inspiring. Look at them, they travel round the world, have professional cameraman helping to make their showreels or films, being known worldwide, having a team that love moving as well, you name it. They're very professional. I wanna have the ability to travel around the world, come to think of it, exploring and travelling is very fun, not to be stuck at Singapore which is a fucking lame country. And more prominent? I actually wanna be more known towards the UK scene, because I've always wanted to go there, and I've been following them for quite awhile. I have thoughts of studying there in the future as well. To be known in Singapore? I don't know, I don't really like that. And stronger, thats for sure, everyone wants to be stronger.
Just to clarify terms. Being more prominent does not equals to wanting to impress or show off to others. Its just simply the fact of being more known.
Well, I've thought of performing in my school for teachers day probably next year, but the thought of it, however tempting, I'm just scared about what my friends will think.. and how would I be in front of a crowd, that knows me. Imagine the slating you will receive after the performance (Its not Parkour, its tricks), friends will go all retarded over you.. and those jealous ones will go saying "SHOW OFF!". Whats your thoughts of this? I'm not sure yet, still considering. Since about July I have this thoughts already.
Why all this wants? Like I said earlier, I wanna be more professional. I don't just wanna be somebody that can do stuffs in like a few months. Not wanting to be better then others, but just to be somebody that isn't easy to become. I wanna get sponsored (not by UFF!), by companies and if possible AirAsia, it would be so cool to get free trips + countless of benefits with those sponsors.
Prominent as well. I think most of the people like being more well known, as if you don't you wouldn't even have thoughts of making a video of yourself and post it in the internet. One thing about this is once you get the prominence you want, its not easy backing out, and like the famous saying, with great power comes great responsibility. The question is, is it wrong with intentions of being more prominent? Not famous or popular, only prominent. Not to that extent till you are recognised when you walk on the streets, or being seen on TV and shit, its just like being featured in Generation Ex, that amount of prominence, just your name being written in the news paper, internet, but not everywhere. Its like, how you see Teghead in the internet, and thats how much of prominence I want. Remember, I'm not wanting to be some attention whore that show off and try to impress people. If thats not enough, when I say I wanna be prominent, I don't mean wanting to have a lot of power. My mind's clear.
That said, I've alot of thoughts in mind, that I wanna train properly for, and I'm gonna make history. My showreel for the next year would be a hit, at least I hope it will. And I'm not gonna be that person at home slacking away, sitting there and do nothing, or pcc like you-know-who. I wanna do something with my life. I'm gonna climb this mountain from now (training), and will eventually reach the peak (achieve my aims).
My passion for filming and editing also, might be handy for the future (they are two seperate things that I like, I don't learn editing just for the sake of making videos, they are a passion.) And since movements have already become a part of me (I move to live, and live to move), I see no reason why I can't use them into proper use.
Because I'm a nice guy I'm summing this whole post up into 6 major points.
MAIN THINGS I WANNA DO/AIM/ACHIEVE IN LIFE.
- Being more prominent
- Get sponsors
- Live life meaningfully and to the fullest
- Travel 'round the world
- Make a short film
- Make history
However absurd or unbelievable this post may sound to you, believe it.
And no, I have no thoughts of being a stuntman or professional chereographer, but maybe a filmmaker.
Like what Chase Armitage would said.
Anything is possible for those who are willing to try.
I'm gonna transform those words into reality.
Dreams and beliefs are very, very powerful. I've never thought of being up here with the rest, but here I am right now.
Hope you guys have grasped the point that I'm trying to make and I hope you accept my decision. Commenting, tagging, msn-ing me your thoughts is very much appreciated, I really wanna know what are your impressions and actual honest opinions, especially Ashton.
Stuffs is gonna be way different from now.
The bar is raised.
I'm gonna make history.
I wanna do something with my life.
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