Enlightenment?

For a long while since I've last blogged. No one cares though.
This post is to clear up the spiderwebs and dusts formed in the one month of stagnancy.

My knee is alright now, and I've been way stronger then ever (not really), into the 4th week already in my 5x5, and exams are undergoing right now (wonder why am I still here..), starting to learn more things about Vegas and my camera.. but still have many things to work on, movements are ok-ok, lifes nothing out of the ordinary as yet, and I guess a fullstop is needed right now.

I feel that I'm slowly back to what I used to feel last time when I do strength training, just that now I have a routine to follow strictly. Now I eat alot more protein that I usually use to. I got a couple of clips in my computer, and I really don't know whether I should compile those new one into for a CP'08, but then I don't see the point. I'm just gonna keep it. I'm only making a sampler till next year. Shinos ramps gonna be finish construction in 2 years, said construction worker. FUCK!
OH BTW, Remember the Clementi Jam video? At the ending theres some guy in black said he is going to do a gap jump, and he goes something like "SEE THIS GAP OVER HERE? yeap, this will be for my showreel THIS YEAR!" hmmm.. so its gonna be THIS YEAR, right? HAHA. Dblucy's sampler is on the go, while Fred's sampler is on hold. I guess the only videos that are gonna be in my account at the end of this year will be the "turning over a new leaf" video and probably the PKSG JAM 08 video. If I have the mood, maybe I'll compile those new clips from the latest quarter of the year into a video... or maybe not.

Anyway, I just move on and start to talk about one of the few reasons why I actually wanted to blog today.
Well, I just realize, after listening to what Glen said, and reading Blane's latest entry, something really 'shocking'. We all know that not serious traceurs or just posers will eventually quit, thats no doubt. But how do we classify serious and non-serious, or even not-so-serious traceurs? Or how do we define seriousness in such cases. I feel that, people who are really serious in Parkour (or whatever), trains alone most of the time, research on their own, have the natural motivation to go out and train. People who only train when people call them out (or viceversa), or just give excuses not to train, are not serious in Parkour, no matter what they think they are, or how they seem serious in the discipline, or what they know or say.
Seriously, even people who train up to 2 years and counting, are they really 'serious'? Or do they just treat this like another sport? I see people leaving after less then half a year of training (phantokour), see people leaving or losing interest after almost reaching half a year, see people moving into shuffle and such other craps. Alot of the pioneers as well, they seem to lose out interest, due to NS, jobs, school, whatever other excuses. It beats me, how this a discipline and it will stick to you FOR LIFE, no matter how busy you are or what you WILL find time to train. Once you can go on the internet, you HAVE time. Fucking' play psp and pcc and say excuses like lazy or tired will get you nowhere.
But, actually to think of it in another perspective, seriousness is something that you can't force. A person who is passionate enough won't need pushing or motivation from others. When you tell that one person that he is 'not serious' he will get all angry and shit and try to prove you wrong by acting serious. Whatever for? If you are really serious you wouldn't even care a shit.
Do you want me to go on to the harsh fact? To alllllllll the traceurs I know in SG, I can only say, a few handfuls are seriously serious in PK. Want a number? Less then 5. And this people WONT lose interest and shit at all. I'm not talking about myself anyway, I wouldn't know whether I'm serious or not, and I'm not the one who can say that I'm serious.
No matter how skilled or how many years one person train, or how they claim they do research and stuffs, it doesn't matter. What really defines seriousness to me, is DISCIPLINE. I'm not gonna brag or what, but when people say stuffs like alot of homework or projects or no time because alot of ____________, I'm having exams now but I still go to gym 3 days a week. Think about it.
If you read this and you feel guilty for whatever reasons, it just shows how weak your discipline is towards this. I think you yourself know who you are, don't even ask.

Next up, mental training.
Been realizing alittle bit more on fear. From the Bishan Jam not long ago, theres this catleap that I was thinking of trying. I'm definitely capable of it, but its just the fear of missing the top or losing grip that stop me from jumping. Should we adapt a JUST DO IT mindset? The reason why last time I was able to do many stupid stuffs was the fact that I was the person who 'just whack only'. I guess somehow, and some point, you just have to use that mindset, IF you know you can. For example, if you don't think you can, but yet you still just whack (to impress, to showoff, to prove that you can to others or what), even if you manage to nail it, its nothing respectable about. It just shows your recklessness and your mindset of training. But if you are 100% sure that you are capable of the move, and its just the fear that pulls you back, I think using the JUST FUCKING DO IT mindset could work, but definitely with full focus and concentration.
Many people will also argue back, whats the point of doing such movements that might cause your life? Many people will also won't even think of training such stuffs. Well, I think its based on personal opinion but, in Parkour, don't you train to overcome all sort of obstacles, include fear and mental barriers? Don't you train to adapt to any environment, in this case, at heights? Don't you train to be a master of your movements, including at heights? Whats the point of doing 'perfect' precisions and yet when its at a 10 storey building, your legs shivers like no one business? Of course its not recommended to train it ALL the time though.
The first real high element I did was just two days ago with Dblucy, and in an event where dblucy almost killed himself (won't go into deeper details, msn me), I did a 4 storeys gap SDC to PRE (which I think was kinda far as well), and it was a great achievement, and I really am getting to the mix of things right now. I want high elements! I'm gonna nail that cat leap at bishan... soon. And after that I'm raiding Buangkok.

COCK TO CO, BYE.