Flips Progression: Stagnant?

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Let me see. This week passed quite fast amazingly.
1st of June was my Olevel's Chinese and I'm mentally prepared to see fail grades - again. Not like its a very suprising thing to happen, especially when I don't seem to even give effort in bettering it. Or I could just blame myself of not being adept equally in both languages at the start. But, no point crying over spilt milk now, as its already over. I should then put more efforts in the other subjects now. Lets not be complacent either...
So after that I went on to train at the gym, which is my first workout of the second stage (intensification phase). Turned out really damn well and I'm happy with how it went. After that went to castle and train some more, but mostly slacking and refining flips...

The next day was slack, just studied out with friends, trying to socialise and stuffs.. finished out one of my maths homework.

Then wednesday, went for training again at the gym.. wasn't very good because was tired, so I don't know.

Thursday went to yishun to train. Nailed my furthest SDC2P. I'm not very sure about the no. of footsteps but its about 7 and its high to abit low. Kinda amazing the satisfaction that you get when you nail it. Rail precisions seems to be much better.. although the fear is still there.. kind of. I bailed a dash to pre, was like very reckless as I just went for it when I'm not fully sure I could. I kinda lost my dash pre technique, and I really need to retrain for it. Gotta work on that for sure. Also, still can't nail the DB wall, so my mood is kinda ruined.

Friday, I went to gym. Not too bad again, but I think the form can be better. Nonetheless my squats are have never been failing reps yet but pullups yes, although I made it this workout. So its all good. The next weeks are gonna be killers, though.

Saturday was the Tamp jam that I've been waiting for as I could finally see my friends which I admit, I haven't really met for some time. Was not a very bad day actually. I got my wallflip, which was a great achievement for the fact that I haven't nailed any new trick for a long time. My roundoff back is still kinda off but I'll train hard for it. Wallflip isnt really that hard but I still don't fully get the technique. And its still kinda scary, but easy. But my sideflip on flat is crap, inconsistency is bad... Other then flips, my peekay is not that bad actually, improvements. I could nail the running cat quite easily now and nailed the further one, although shoddy. The one on the rail was nailed too. I nailed the crane at tree garden, although wasn't very good, but still landed. So good achievements in terms of leg strength and peekay. So FLIPS ARE MAIN PRIORITY.

Sunday (today) went out and train. Train some runs at the beginning for fun. Was fun. Then time to flip. Got back wallflip not long after, but its just weird. I can only do it with two step run up. I tried on the other walls and fear striked into me as well. But I went forward to just whack a wallflip with a longer run up and I freaked out and bailed. I took me damn long to get it back again. Internal conflict, mind and body. About 30minutes of running to the wall and telling myself I can, then i finally got it back. Battle with fear, I'm not sure why did I get so scared right after that. I think too much. And I seriously hype and tensed myself up before every move. Seriously unnecessary. Thinking too much. Unlike PK. Sideflip was still bad and backflip still going forward. Seems like flips isnt the thing for me.. irritating.

Oh well. Not very good things goes as flips are concerned. Again, I'm not trianing properly. I just need to do the least of 5 to 10 'perfect-as-it-can-be' flips of each kinds everyday and thats it. But I'm not doing so. In fact, each training session is making my flips worse, because of bad muscle memory imprints. I shouldn't do runs at first today, making me tired and that'll cost the quality of my flips. Hais, no wonder flips are not improving. Even when I tell myself to jump up, I still don't, and sometimes I'll just freak out, making things worse. Flips, are hell.
My flips used to be quite good about 2months back. But because of the lack of practice, my flips suckened. I need to start practicing alot on my flips, just flips rather then pk.

Handstandings, something I must do everyday. So far in this week I did indeed practicing abit of them. But I should do it everyday. This computer is really something that I can't live without. I'm just damn addicted to it. I'm also not studying, neither am I homeworking.

I hope I can use my time more productively. This is somethign that is repeated ever so often in the blog, kinda the new repetition of the past "overpushing myself" saga, but still all these is due to the lack of self control. Sometimes I feel I spend alot of time blogging, because I got so distracted and can't complete it from the start.

Lets not talk to much and sum up my goals now.
- Flips practise - short and full effort in each flip, 30minutes or summat. As much as I can
- Handstanding - 15minutes at night for every night
- Start studying/homework - 2 hours daily for as much as I can in a week.
- Socialise with friends - but remember slow and steady.
- Stop tensing myself up or take too much time to prepare for a move.
- Keep everything safe - low impact and controlled and no bails.