Training Report.

Yet another update 26/2.
Lol I have nothing better to do nowadays, blogging 3 days straight. I'm treating this as a training log. This will be quite a short one.

Today I went to gym and train my legs as usual. Did squats, for that it was really good. I did 2 sets of 10, 15, 20, 25, 30kg. I'm getting used to squats already. But I still want to stick to this. I don't wanna risk anymore injuries. Thats because my deadlifts still sucks. I was thinking to have a good deadlift today, but instead thanks to a good guy in the gym, he told me about my form. I seems that I straightened my knees then my back, which was something I realized long ago but I didn't thought that there was anything wrong with it.

This means I have loads of things to work on now. Squats, which once I find it really hard to do, is getting better. On the other hand, deadlifts, which one I thought I was pretty OK with it, needs some work. I will still be working on both, but deadlifts I really need to practice the form. Like I said, I'm gonna go the gym more often to start working on my legs. So I will take more time working on the form itself more then anything else. Why? Because at my age, I shouldn't be lifting too much. Secondly, bad form is harmful to joints/bones/body. I think its more important to be safe, to have the proper form, so when I'm lifting heavier, I will still be safe. And look I still have a long way to go, I'm not even 15 yet, so I shouldn't worry about the progression and how heavy I'm lifting for now. I now feel that good mornings is the most hardest and dangerous exercise so I will wait till I'm stronger and older.

Nevertheless today's training is good, unlike yesterday, because I learnt something. Imagine not realizing my bad form at all. Imagining doing the bad form all the way. At least I realize it and learn from it. We have to learn something everyday.

I went to Shino's ramp today after school before going home. I realize so many things more that can be done there. There is so many things to do. So much more things to nail, so much more ideas, its really fun. Just thats there is too much high level stuffs that I don't know how to work my way up there. Most likely to end up with ankle sprains, luckily minor.

Sprains are caused by sudden overstretching. Which means that my ankle is weak in its flexibility and its strength to absorb the impact (which is mainly because i'm doing impactful stuffs). I must start stretching more. More quads flexibility and hamstrings flexibility, ankle and wrist flexibility and stronger knee and shoulders. I find that somehow I need to tweak my pullups abit, I find that I go all the way down till my shoulder is out of the socket. Then pull up again, to get the speed I have to pull my shoulder into the socket then the speed will be faster. You won't get what I mean, but maybe I will find a way.

Oh yeah, seriously no joke, my pulling strength seriously sucks. It really gone down, I don't know why. I think I need rest, my upperbody is quite tired. But I still don't know. This really sucks, ahhh dammit.

Seriously I suddenly got addicted to making more videos already. Without actually making videos. Well its because I watched more and more videos and I have more and more ideas, and I want to test more and more of my skills to be able to make a good video and a video that I like.

Stupid work tomorrow, I guess I'll go sleep now.
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Another update 25/2.
Today I went down to the park at Simei and trained upperbody. I was thinking it would be better because at the playground there is alot of people at the roadside, but at the park there are people who are exercising so it doesn't matter much. That was true, but damn, over there is more crowded although they don't care, and somehow the pullup bars are high and hard for me to do weighted pullups when I have to jump. Plus the bar is harder to do muscleups, so today I focused on weightedpullups only and I only did like 5/6 muscleups. I'm not happy with today's training. I regretted training at the park, I should've trained at the playground. I don't think I pushed my body at all, its quite a waste of one training. And I find that I deteriorated in my weighted pullups too. Argh, I have to train back. My pulling strength has gone down, I feel that climbups are getting slower and harder. Pushing strength I didn't even train much. I don't know why.

I think its time to bring my upperbody training to a new level. Muscleups and weighted pullups is quite repetitive already. Although I have to stick with the 10kg pullups, I guess I will add more pushing exercises and stick to muscleups again, no choice. Ah well, this sucks.

Tomorrow I will be heading to the gym with GPJ to train my legs as usual. As I experimentated alot of the form this few days, I'm hoping my deadlifts and squats with improve, in terms of form. I don't want to lift heavy and I tell myself the most for squats is 30kg, and for deadlifts maximum 35kg. I have self-control, so I have to control myself. I still wanna train for functional hypertrophy because I don't think my body is accustomed to lifting yet. I also want to aim for speed in lifting rather then lifting heavier. I'm thinking of a good training tomorrow, I hope I would be disappointed.

Like usual wednesday will be a day of rest, working again, and eating mcwings again. So sad. Oh well, in my mind I'm not really wanting to buy my camcorder ASAP, but I know I really want it. I'm earning money now but I don't know what should I spend it on. I have to award myself once in awhile for working; I don't wanna work for nothing. I'm thinking of buying one more track pants and more clothes. I'll see.

Oh and, I feel that it is time to focus more and strength. I know myself that I'm 100% sure I couldn't survive without training movements at least once a week. So I guess 2 days of rest (wednesday and saturday), and 4 days of strength, one day at gym and movements. I find that training upperbody is really boring. Damn. I really need to motivate myself. I don't feel liek training uperbody today but I know that I have to or else I will waste a day of training. I will defiintiely train my legs more but I also definitely need to have rest. I guess 3 days of strength, 2 days movements. 2 legs (and core) 1 upperbody.

Feel that I have to state that I love both movements and strength training. Definitely movements are more fun, the feeling of doing those movements and how I train is so fun, the freedom and expression is great. Strength training is good because after the training I'm happy that I spend today training my strength, I know that tomorrow I will get stronger no matter what amount. And I'm happy that I have the self-discipline to push myself through the tiredness. Also its quite fun, squatting and deadlifting. Upperbody is boring for one reason, its quite repetitive as days goes by. Boring is no longer fun, when its not fun there is no use. Fun is an important aspect in training. I have to vary my upperbody more right now, and I know I have to still train them.

I'm thinking I should start planning what are my goals. Long time since I actually have aims in mind. I will start of with my progression.
Like I said yesterday my broad jump has increased a few cms which I'm really happy, long time since my precision length had actually increased. But I have to keep in mind that I don't keep doing my maximum jumps, and not to be complacent and still drill my 50 reps of 60% max. Balancing has gone up by alot, especially cat balancing. I can do it fast too, although some parts will be uncontrolled. I can balance but one thing about quadrupedalling is its quite tiring. Damn. Wall pass is still very inconsistent although I've learnt more about them. My rolls are still on and off. Sometimes I will feel pain, sometimes they are smoooth, but whatever is I have to continue drilling. SDC also improved alot, and generally my movements feels faster and I have better fluidity and "instincts". Armjumps also had improved by alittle bit.

Longterm goals. (hoping to achieve this by the end of this year)
- Planche EN force. For this I never actually at all. Just remembering about it and I should seriously start training for them. Doing more muscleup negatives too. But seeing my muscleups is still not 100%, I guess it will take some time to get them.
- 2x bodyweight squats. In other words I'm aiming like at least 100kg squats. its way more then the 1.5x bodyewight which in the minimum for plyos. But I know that if I do more then 2x bodyweight it is extra safe and extra strong.
- Be extra strong and flexible in every joints and muscles. In particuarly wrists, knees, ankles.
- Better self-control. Self-explanatory, common sense. I just hope to stop killing my knees, and stop doing stupid things. And stop bailing for gods sake.

Short-term goals. (no due date :P)
- Film my goddamn sampler!
- Train tricking more often, and get aerial and kick the moon. Better backflip.
- Handstands please.
- Straight-armed climbups.
- Start training the "untrained elements".
- 3days of strength, 2days of movements/gym, 2days of working/rest.

Vidoes I'm working on.
- Obviously my sampler.
- Tampines joy (wow, I've been waiting half a year already)
- My strength training (a remake)
- Untrained elements (including creativity training and teamwork parkour!)
- Artistic video (more of a video concentrating on the editing more then the moves)
- Normal training videos
- By the end of the year, a documentary. (for this it will be a big project and I need alot of help.)

Of course there are more goals and other stuffs but these are the main ones.
I've talked enough, and I have to shut up.
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Update Sunday 24/2:
Wow its nearing the end of Feb already. Just goes to show how fast time fades past us just like that. When we train, easily 2hours will be gone, super fast. When we are using the computer, doing tests, watching tv, 2hours can be gone just like that again. When we are not doing anything, or studying, or working, time past as slow as snails. This just sucks, but we all know that time is constant, although sometimes we feel that it does not. And we sleep another 8hours+ are gone, even faster. We left like 60years of life, we shouldn't waste anymore time. We only have 24hours a day.

Thrusday and Friday was cool, technical training. On Thrusday I did movements at castle and only castle. Was a good training, although I feel that there was some weird irritating bails as usual. Will elaborate about that later on. A few impactful stuffs I must say, but I think its ok. Good repetitions at the end of the training. Friday was a really good day. Raining and raining, but was at gym. I didn't do much there, but I was kinda mind training. I find that my backflips sucks. I got alot more work to do in Tricking. ALOT. But slowly. After gym was a night training, which was really good, although alot of time wasted, I've got nothing to say. I conquered a wall at Simei, which was a good one, really happy. Learnt alot about wallpasses. Focusing and breathing was learnt too.

Just now was great. I guess. I went to 497 and climbed the wall as usual, but lol, I realize my wallpass rely quite alot with the speed and run up. Something I should work on. And it rained. Lol wtf rain sucks!>!1!!!one!!!!!!!!!! Took bus 81 to interchange, wanted to go gym and train instead, but wtf mircales, not rainings at interchange area, went to shino not wet at all. WTF magic. HAHAHA incredible stuffs though. Did alot of stuffs there. Double minor sprains on my ankles thanks to the rail at the ramp. ONE DAY I will nail the level to level SDC2P. There is a new electronic meter box there, I wonder if I'm at a higher level, I could use that to do something crazy, lol. Next time.
Anyway I almost nailed the sdc to armjump. But I landed on the rail, and sprained my ankle abit. I think I'm quite close to the level to level sdc2p as I landed on the rail once, and sprained my ankle again. Fuck those rails, irritating as hell. I love shinos ramp now. There is things for basics, and for really high level. ALOT. Give me another two years and I will own Shinos ramp. Haha.

And I did alittle bit of tricking at the playground, as I wanna get over my backflip fear on pplayground mats. I did a backflip there and I kept doing and practicing. My backflips is getting better, more practice it will be a good one. Aerials are really hard, I hate them, but I must get them one day. Again I need alot of practice on that one. My next aim is to get the aerial, my to-do list for tricking for now.

I'm quite shocked that I can almost nailed a super far precision jump. I really feel that squats and deadlift improve my broad jump by alot. Although those are bad landings and maximum jumps, I didn't regret it because with that I saw how much I improved with my leg strength.

As I was saying again, bails are inevitable, but it can be avoided when you focus, think before doing something, check your surroundings, be aware, be smart, not to do things over your limit. But sometimes, unexpectedly, bails will happen. How would you know that the tiny crack can harm you? Sometimes its just unlucky, which is really sucky. But, my self-control seems to be improve, although a small amount, it will improve and it will continue to improve. Sometimes I have to give in, I cannot expect it to be gone just like that, as long as I slowly progress until the stage where I don't do stupid things anymore. But for now I must try my best to stop doing those stupid things. That is if I have the self-control to control myself. To control myself. I have to.

Friday went I go to gym, I met this guy (fucking shit I forget his name), he is NC's friend, met him before, but that day he teached me alot about self-defense. I learnt that to survive, we must be strong, learn how to escape (parkour), learn how to fight (self-defense), and how to survive *(survivalism). I'm not yet into survivalism yet, but I really want to start learning how to fight and such, because in my opinion it is more practical then Parkour. I can say by training Parkour I'm quite strong in how I handle my bodyweight only. But when it comes to lifting heavy objects, I'm weak as fuck, so I'm doing lotsa weight training now. Lotsa people think that weight training is to gain unnecessary bulk, those people don't have a clue. Seriously, if you train properly, you won't gain much bulk. Some hypertrophy is inevitable, but when you train properly, more weight and less reps, hypertrophic effect is reduced by alot. Weights are the best way to gain strength too. Oh well.
Anyway back to topic. Also when it comes to fighting, I'm weak as fuck. Thats why its time to learn some basic self-defense. I don't want to learn how to fight to fight people and show them I'm so strong and superior, that will only be for stupid people who abuse their abilities. I don't like to fight, but in situation that I have to, at least I'm prepared. I guess I have to start training.

My nutrition kinda start to suck now, full of junk and processed food. I have to start eating healthier, more meat less junk. Fuck macdonalds. I hope I can stop eating mcwings. Whatever. I'm having stomach upset more often. Argh this sucks.

Working for alittle bit boring, alittle bit fun, sometimes really irritating with irritating managers, but sometimes ok with fun people. I hate working at the lobby, I like working at kiosk. I learnt how to work at counter. Sometimes tiring, sometimes pretty fun. It's just a new experience.

Studies, next week will come the tests. I hate my Chinese, fuck it. Sucks like hell. I need tuition for it. I don't know how well I did in my tests. I will see.

I wanna start making my sampler as soon as next week. Hahahaha, the fun comes! After my sampler I will still continue to make more videos, I really love making videos, and filming. I will make alot of videos. I wanna test my editing skills. And all that is capture is the best way to see and recall as memories. Who cares about people who thinks that videos are show-off, and videos are made to with all the fancy editing and hardcore music to make the video more showy, cooler, attention wanting. Whatever man, seriously, whatever bitches.

Sometimes I think that if we keep thinking of something that we really want, something that we know we can do it, we believe we can do it. Just constant imaging and visualization of it, thinking of it everyday, everywhere, it will become reality. Giving it time and patience, of course.

The "mind-training" on Friday was great. I would want to emphasize on it now.
If you think about friends, no doubt friends are important and good. But many people rely on them too much. When friends say I cannot go out when they wanna watch a movie, they will feel sad. Sometimes its good to learn how to have the self-discipline to do things for yourself. If you friends go slack instead of studying for the test tomorrow, do you do the same? No, you go home and study, because you have the self-control to not get influence by them. Sometimes friends can be irritating. We need to find out our true friends, good friends that you can really trust and not one that will end. A friendship that can end doesn't even started (lol). I've yet to find out yet. They are hard to come by.

And society nowadays is so ruined, so fucked up, so retarded. I don't know whats wrong with them. Look around, you will see people doing stupid stuffs like smoking, slacking around making nuisance, acting like some gangsters, so vain, blah blah blah. Just retarded. Its ok to have good friends and go out with them to watch movies and etc. But don't make it a staple.

BGR nowadays. Its like a game. Break stead break stead BREAK STEAD and repeat. Lol, looking back how retarded I was to have a stead. Seriously I don't believe in BGR in a few things. First I doesn't work at the age of 15, we are still young and can't think properly yet, only when you are poly or so maybe BGR can work. Secondly, since the society so retarded and ruined like this, only one out of a thousands can actually be a serious relationship. How would we know whether the other party really like us? What does "I love you", "Hello dear", "Muacks", "Sweet dreams" means nowadays? Its just some bunch of words which are used to sweet talk others, and they don't even mean the word AT ALL, NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY. Must you say that to show that you really love her? People keep complaining and feel bad when their girl don't say that to him. ITS JUST RETARDED.
The best is to keep in silence. Real love doesn't need be shown. Small things are worth alot of things, thats it. Keep it small, being big doesn't mean anything. Seriously guys, BGR is just stupid. SERIOUSLY, please understand please, wake up suckers.

Life is just so complex. You are bound to meet people you don't like.

I havent found the real purpose of life yet. Even told yourself why are you living? Because of the sake of living? Nah. I've been loving life right now. I need to appreciate it more. As the reason get clearer everyday, I'm still finding the purpose of living. We all still need to find it too. We dont want to live without a reason and wait for death while doing stupid things. Wake up guys. Life is precious. Its only when we are about to die and then we start to cherish it more. Something that I find very wrong. Everyone should respect and listen to their bodies.

I need to start sleeping more. Rest more.

Blog is quite dead, but who cares. No one reads.
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Strength training.
Yesterday was upperbody, same as normal as every other upperbody, just that this time I filmed abit of them, and didn't really count the reps. My weighted pullups and muscleups had definitely improved. OAC negative was better, but not controlled enough yet. I will continue with my weighted pullups and muscleups, I just need to do alittle bit more pushing. I need to get a correct one-armed pushup :P.

Today was gym. The first time I train at a gym alone. Was a good session for squats, but too much for deadlifts. I guess I should stick around 30/35kg for maximum for now. Same for squats. I need to gain functional hypertrophy and get better in form, especially in deadlifts. Although I deadlift alot, more then my squats, I find that deadlift is harder. I need to learn how to not round my back even in everyday activities. Squats was ok, did a 30kg squat, was quite heavy, but I can't believe I did it. Although a few of them was sloppy because of lacking focus. Need to lift faster not heavier. I need to give it time. Form is important when it comes to weights. But I find that being alone at the gym was a good experience. Need to be self-reliant ;).

Tomorrow will be work+rest.
Thursday will be movements.
Friday will be gym.
Saturday will be work+rest.
Sunday will be legs again.

Planning to do more lowerbody workout because again it is more important then arms in Parkour, as we need alot of explosiveness in our legs. And strong to resist landing. I wanna feel light when I'm doing movements, which means it will requires lotsa leg strength and power. I really wanna learn olympic weightlifting, I am sure there are some weightlifters in Singapore, and there is some gyms and coaches in Singapore. I'm going find them and hopefully learn them.
But before going to weightlifting, I'll make sure I could do 2x bodyweight squats and maybe 2x bodyweight deadlifts, both with good forms (they are like prerequisites). By then my legs will be strong.

Movements again, more repetitions, be focus, bail lesser, stick to what is planned, do not do things over my limits, do not do maximum jumps, stick to 70%/80% of max. Train properly, correctly, progress at a gradual progressive incremental rate. Train fluidity, runs, endurance, experimenting with techniques like breathing. Hope I can benefits from training more instead of killing my joints.
Tricking too, and I wanna train it properly. And other bar tricks, other art of movements. Lol.

Can't wait till I reached puberty and get done and over with. Then I will no longer be regarded as a "small kid". Hopefully I will be much taller, stronger (more muscles developed), definitely more mature, and weigh heavier. For now keep training, train safe, and eat alot! More meat, more egg, more healthier food, more protein, less junkies (fuck my job).

Just need to state that from previous training, even that you are focused and everything, sometimes things can fuck up and you will be irritated as shit. Its sometimes meant to happen (fuck fate, i dont believe in it but), sometimes naturally we succumbed to temptation to eat fast food, sometimes its because of lack of focus, carelessness, stupidity, or just, you know like "drunk"? Can't think properly. I don't wish to live life everyday coming back thinking about what I did, keep remorsing, keep worrying, keep regretting, and keep repeating everything again. I don't know when this will end. Because I said this again and again and again and again and again, but it still repeat. I can see that I'm forcing myself more to stay focused and have more self-control, hopefully one day all this fucking shit will end. I have to control myself.

More rest and sleep is needed, more food is needed, more good food and healthiness is needed, and more strength and technical training is needed, more hardwork, effort and determination is needed, more time and patience needed, more self-control and self-discipline is needed, more sacrifaces and learning journeys, obstacles and hardships will come.
We should still need to understand why we are doing this, because its LIFE, and we chose to do this, as we can easily say NO, IM LAZY. and stop doing everything, we CHOSE to do this, and we WANT to. enjoy now because you only have 60 years from till you meet your grave. 1hour is worth so many things. Stop complaining and giving excuses, get out of here and do something productive.

Update on Saturday.

What I want to do.

Update 14/2/08 Thrusday:
It was a great training just now. I'm happy with todays training. Firstly, trained at castle. And after that I went home and slack awhile, and went to Tampines North Park and train, and train, and train. Until 7.45pm I think.

I feel quite rusty after a good break from Parkour. I feel a little better in my precisions and vaults, and my fluidity, but my wall pass and climbups are getting weaker, something I must work on. Rolls are improving and balance is suckier. Whatever, I'm still happy.
Because it doesn't matter. Time, patience, hardwork.

Training consists of alot of repetitions on runs, vaults, training fluidity, precisions jumps. 2nd part is just some wall pass attempt, which I totally suck at. At North Park's ramp, although quite plain and boring, it can actually be quite good and fun, and the fitness corner over there too, and the playground at the other side, they are great places. My fluidity improved alot, so did my SDC (shockingly, because seriously I never train them much). I almost accidentally nailed the SDC to precision, and I will get them one day, when I think and I feel that I can. I need to work alot on my reverse and my "inside" lazy :P. Well, I learnt something, always bring money/water with you, before you got dehydrated like me, but its quite minor. But especially when the sun's hot and you are doing runs. Oh well, I dont have any money at that time, good timing.
I guess I should start experimenting with breathing techniques, to improve my overall stamina.

Don't know why, but I still have some minor bails, like clipping a dash and bail a precision landing. I will need to take some time to better my focus so that I dont have any other bullshits.

Something I really don't like is the gay public. People will come and bother you, by keep staring at you 24/7. Or even bother you like saying stuffs like "Oi boy your parkour AH?"/"You playing parkour?"/"CHEY PARKOUR SEH!", etc. etc. And they mostly come from malays, call me racist or a bastard, but fuck, malays are fucking irritating. This is true, because it is, don't argue, because if you do, you are as irritating, thus agreeing to the FACT that malays are fucking irritating, and seriously they are irritating, and its true, damn true. Irritating as rats running every in garbage incinerators. Chinese usually doesn't care, unless they are ahbengs ahlians, but malays does that everytime, because of the fact that they are irritating. IRRITATING LAH SIA!

Seriously this kind of things sucks. If only people are more friendly, at least smile or the best, dont do anything, just act normal, don't stare, or talk shits. Aiyah, Singaporeans mah, what shit country is this, How I wish I stay at England. I hate Singapore, bullshit country. I don't know why I'm born here, so unlucky. Unlucky as fuck. Who wants to stay at Singapore sia, I wanna go work at England, and its true sia. Sia. SIA.

And I was asked what am I practicing? I just said, the art of movement, because I don't really like the word Parkour, because in Singapore, those lame malays made it sound like some kind of crap. CRAP I say. Best still I will say i'm training to live life or practicing life. I will say that, trust me you unknown random readers, because stupid posers will only say "I Parkour! I play Parkour!" Lololololololololololololololololol.
But anyway, the uncle who asked me the question is quite friendly, at least they don't say things like "Dangerous ah! Don't play!"/"Stop disgracing the neighbourhood!" Haha, public. But I have to get used to it, because Singapore don't have any quiet places, unless I go England. What to do? Singapore sucks mah. Mah. MAH.

Lame sia Singapore. I wanna quit Singapore. Resign.
Oh well, can't do anything because I'm unlucky. What else can I talk about?

Back to training talk again. Overall today I listened to my body, and did not much impactful stuffs. Although I feel tired because of alot of repetitions from todays training, abit too much landings from those vaults, you know you know. And I also trained some runs spontaneously, I think thats the word, but what I mean is like I don't think of the movements, just do what came to mind or what I subconsciously did, unlike planned movements. Its quite fun and even from that I learn from it naturally, by using your hands to gain more height. Lets not talk about it, figure out yourself, random readers of my blog.
Hmmm, and also I did a few wall pass attempt at the "wall that I did like 100 attempts on" again, and I totally lose my skills. I thought it was quite easy, but fuck it. My wall pass sucks, I need to train back them, starting back to castle's wall. Get used to the technique. Slowly I can train on ungrippy walls and higher walls.

Then going back, instead of going home straight, I go train my balance, which seriously sucken. Oh well, need to keep training them. I keep doing until I did 2 rounds without falling. And also tried balancing at a height (relax, just one storey high), its damn scary when you lean to the side where the big drop is. But I managed to motivate myself to get the balance done before going home. Today was quite good, and I'm happy. Less impacts, more repetitions. More focus, less stupidity. Tomorrow will be another day of training, first tricking then some night training.

Studies are gonna get tougher. I really need to work on my Chinese, something that I cannot run away from. A maths are improving I hope. Next week will be the real test. I need to really start study. Rest days and less time on this computer. I will work on my self-control right now. And I will, because I will, and because I want to. This is self-control. Everything you do is created and done by you, as you control yourself. So please, I must work on my self-control too.

Willpower + time + patience + hardwork + self-discipline = success.

I need self-discipline. This is self-discipline.
Life will no longer be the same.
A last update on Saturday. (I need to make more videos!)
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Update 12/2/08:
Just a small update.
Monday was a weird day. I end school going to the hotspot I thought would be good, in the end it wasn't that good, and I did some really stupid stuffs too. Blame my stupidity, bad focus, not thinking before doing things, and bad self-control, and also maybe ego. Did some really stupid big drops, which is really stupid. Once is already, but 5 times, wow. Oh well, whats done cannot be undoned. Thinking back the old days was really dam stupid, I still remember how many big impactful drops I did, and also even now I'm doing alot of maximum jumps. My knee is definitely screwed up in a way. And how am I gonna repair them? This is my plan.

I'm gonna do alot more squats and deadlifts, practicing good/perfect form, lifting for functional hypertrophy, training for base leg strength, so that my knee is strong, my lower back and ankles are strong. This should make my knee stronger. And I wanna eat glucosamine, if I could. And obviously no more big impactful drops or maximum jumps. I always succumb to temptation of doing big stuffs, something that I really need to think about and control myself, which is gonna be hard but I need to force myself now, before I regret. I never think before doing stuffs, which really sucks. My mind is really retarded, I don't learn from mistakes unlike others, and I keep repeating the mistakes over and over, and I keep regretting. I really hope I can change as soon as now. I have to listen to my body and what is right. Not only say, but more action please.

Now I learnt that we all human beings should be self-reliant. I can see that alot of people like to go out with friends, rely on others, etc. I want to ask you guys. What are you alone? What if you have no friends, can you still live? And, do you let other affect you? Seriously after thinking alot, I can see that classmates of mine and rely on others to be a person. They always hang out with friends, talk to them, joke around with them and full of other nonsense. Not saying having friends are bad, but you should learn how to rely on yourself, and survive alone. For example, what if you are the only one on Earth? Can you still live? I should start training alone, think for myself, think before questioning others, do stuffs alone, learn basic survival skills.

And seriously (I'm seriously serious in saying this serious paragraph), I find that I should stop training with people whom I get easily distracted, and I know you know who you are, this is no offence, but the truth (tooth). When I seriously wanna train seriously, then seriously, I seriously don't want to get distracted, seriously. And I'm seriously serious, seriously.

Great, strength training yesterday and today was quite good. And I need to continue training like this for strength training. I've yet to train movements, on this Thrusday I will, and I seriously wanna train seriously. And some mind training on that day itself too.

Nutrition had improved greatly, except the fact that during CNY I ate alot of shit, and also Mcdonalds made me eat their junk food. This sucks. Although I think I should start eating even more healthier and more variety, I'm eating alot of protein and carbonhydrates nowadays. I also eat alot, which is good because I'm growing. But I dont wanna gain too much weight from eating too much, so I must start some cardio :P.
Oh well, all for today, tomorrow will be a rest day because of stupid work.
I will update of Thrusday and Saturday.
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As Chinese New Year finally finished, I think I rest enough.
Full of eating shit foods and slacking alot. Oh well, time to really change.

My injury is getting recovered, I still feel pain sometimes when I put pressure on it, so I will give a few more days of rest, as in, rest from movements. Tomorrow I plan to go gym for some heavy effort squats and deadlifts, and Tuesday some upperbody training (muscleups, weighted pullups, one armed pushups), and Wednesday a final break from everything. I guess after that my toe is healed and I'm back to train movements, so on Thrusday, movements, loads of repetitions, "real" training. Friday to gym and trick, plus night training.

I think its time to refresh my whole training overall. In this break, I realize stuffs that I want to do, and what I really and stupidly did wrong last time. I want to renew myself, and change for the better. As days and time flies past us, and as we watch the world goes by, we realize more and more what we really want, and we realize what life is about. I have goals in my mind for the future and I really wish to work towards it and start now. Saving money, learning stuffs, prepare myself.

For parkour, I know that I've been doing alot of stupid stuffs at the past, and its nearly 1 year of training, so I think its time to train properly, correctly and seriously. I don't want to keep regretting and repeating the same mistakes over and over again, because thats really stupid. As I know I've been always wanting to progress fast and nail harder and bigger stuffs, but I realize whats the use of it. It will just result in injury, short-term or long-term, and many other things else. I guess there is no rush, no hurry, just take as long as I want to get it. Its not too late to change. Progressing is good, its a way to push our limits and take up new challenges. But too fast is bad. I will be doing most of my stuffs round 60% or 70% of my maximum, and at the very most 90%.

Second thing is, focus. I always have bad focus and easily get distracted by things. And because of this I bail or land stuffs uncontrolled. Sometimes I never think before I jump. Focus in every single jump and movement I do.
And for training I will do alot of repetitions, focusing on landing every jump soft and controlled. Train my balance and rolls, climbups, control, fluidity, explosiveness and move more relaxed. I don't any more unnecessary impacts or worst, I really wish to start treating my body well and listen to it. More strength training would be expected.
Training alone and at night more often because it is that time where I can focus alot better, and where everything is more peaceful and calm, silent and chilled. Its one of the nicest feeling yet.

Next.
I really wish to practice tricking more often, and learn more movements, as much as possible. Life is short, I should learn as many things which are worth learning as possible. I guess at least once a week. And as much whenever I can. On my list now is sideflip, aerial, kick the moon, roundoff to backflip. I guess I will take a very long time, but as long as I practice, my patience and effort will pay off. As tricking is a good form of expression and an art of movement, they are one of the things that I love to practice. Handbalancing and abit of caporeira are part of them.

Whats else?
Filming. I guess I feel that I'm really interested in them and I'm really sure I want to be a cameramen, filmmaker and video editor in the future and in my career. I'm starting to save up for a Canon HV20, the cheapest HD camcorder. I've researced alot and I hope I won't regret buying this, like I always do in everything else. I should start learning and practice on how to film and how to edit. And read up more about cameras and the such. I'm pretty sure my knowledge in them still sucks and I need to learn more. I want to go to Singapore Poly, and to make sure of that I must start learning and study hard to get into that school. I will take up Media and Communications and learn about videography. And take up rockclimbing as a CCA. I heard that SP has good training spots as well as some good crash mats at the rockclimbing hall. This is what I have in mind and I hope I can work towards it.
And my March sampler. I'm gonna make it but it might be postponed. The video is more of a test of my video editing and filming. Got a few things in mind and I hope the video will be good.

Working at Macdonalds. I don't know about it, but I need money. I think I will keep working here until I find a better job. No choice anyway, the best job for my age. The job still sucks, quite a waste of time for just $3.40 per hr. But I need to persevere. At least they are giving me money. I'm only 14. I only work for 12 hours a week, 2 days a week. So I think I can cope.

Studies, schools, and homeworks. I just need to pay more attention in class.

I want to do what I want to do.
This break although short, made me really want to move, but I can't because of my injury. I feel like training, but I can't because of CNY, as parents don't allow. Hope I can be happy with life and things would come my way one day. Time ticks away so fast, its already 1 year of practice in one more short month. Life is short, we should start taking things slowly, if you get what I mean. Thats why we shouldn't waste time. Rest when needed, have some fun, slack abit, but make use of time, and make use of life.

Just to sum up - Training more towards repetition, control, 60% - 70% of maximum, at most 90%, and train explosiveness, balance, rolls, fluidity, breathing, runs. More strength training. Trick more often, practice more handbalancing. Take things slowly, progressing steadily and a comfortable rate. Train more alone, and at night. More focused in training. Make sampler arund March. Don't waste time, make use of it. Practice more filming and make more videos, save money for camcorder and for the future. Pay attention in class. Be happy. Have fun when doing all this. Be serious when doing all this.

Bye. (I will update this post on Saturday.)

Regret.

I realize I have been always living in regret. Sometimes you REALLY want to rewind time, because you know that if that didnt happen, everything will be much better. I don't know why no matter how many times I made a mistake, no matter how serious or minor, I just can't learn from them. This really sucks.

Everyday you will meet obstacles of any kind. You will, its just inevitable, plain inevitable. I don't believe in fate, or other bullshit because, rather, I believe in nature. I think you can control your future, you can control what you do, but things that you couldn't control, like other people, other things, etc. are more like nature. Obstacles are everywhere, one after another. Sometimes life makes you very frustrated, but again its just part and parcel of life. Sometimes you really hate life, and sometimes you love life.
Just imagine this, you just lost one day of training yesterday, woke up today and planned to really train. But it rained, to your agony you need to wait like until 5pm (till it dries), and you lost like 2 hours. You can't wait to train, and you did, but like 20 minutes of training you accidentally injure your leg. Then you cant do anything at all. So you just wanted to go train your upperbody, the only thing you can do, but once you reacehd the fitness corner, it fucking rained. What to do? Injured and raining, you can count that as a bad day, but life goes on.

Yep, I got injured, but the situation wasn't that bad, it was very lucky that I finished my upperbody training and then it rained, but still, I'm very disappointed, because its a really stupid injury, and its WAS gonna be a good training as I think tomorrow and all the way till Sunday I will probably be going out with my parents for CNY, and saturday I'm working (lets see hows counter is like). So its full of training sessions wasted. I guess I will spend all those days resting and taking a break, to refresh my mind and body. Whatever, you might say I'm giving excuses, but I find that training through injuries is kinda stupid, although one legged training is always possible. I will give that second thoughts if I still haven't completely recovered after CNY.

How did I injure myself?, you might ask. Just this incident told me that there is a possibility of bailing and anything and everything. This was one of the weirdest bail ever, and one that I never think that will happen. Those cracks on the ground, like 2cm wide? Yeah, those cracks. I train barefooted and ran past those (towards a wall), and my toe got scrapped on it, and it bruised and bleed, now I couldn't walk properly. Wow, its seriously 0.0001% chance of happening come to think of it. How can that stupid small crack possibly make me limb? If only I wore my shoe. Look, the disadvantages of barefoot training and the wonders of unexpected possibilities. This really sucks. So unlucky..

And life is just something very complex. I just wanna state that, dont always get your hopes to high in anything. Our mind always think about the good things, and we will always think about what we want, and we don't care about other possibilities. We only think that we are correct, and its quite hard to prove ourselves wrong, because we have high egos. Those with really really high egos are those fucking perfectionist which I have nothing to say. In life we meet people of all sorts, and we can't control them. Thats why we shouldn't always trust our mind. You will never know. Its time for me to get mature and stop commenting and thinking about other people. Giving those negative thoughts which never change. I should just keep everything to myself, and try to get rid of them. Because really whatever other people say, cannot do anything to you. Same vice versa. Oh well, life is complex, but its good.

Nevermind, life goes on.
I'm just thinking that, after CNY, I should feel fresh and most likely I will "restart" training again. Strength training is ok, I'm quite happy with it, its just that technical stuffs I really need to control myself. Most of the frequent readers of this blog might heard this before, but I seriously don't really care about you. Why are you reading this anyway? Go away! Get lost! Stop reading, you assholes!!!!1!!!12!!1!one!!eleven!!

Yeah, so I'm gonna go back to strict training, most of the stuffs are 70% or 80% of my maximum, everything controlled. More barefoot training (what a contradiction), and more repetitions, and more control. More training alone. Low-impacts as much as possible, no 99% max stuffs, except for maybe wallpasses. I hope to improve my fluidity too, and well as my explosiveness. Just everything must be controlled and no huge/bad impacts.

I really hope to not ask questions but rather find out and experiment with myself and THEN discuss about it. I want to be self-reliant, and train only for me, myself, and I (what a stupid cliche). Yes and what that means is, more training alone, and less distracting by other people, who likes to stare at people who no apparent reason, as if never seen a human before. And hopefully I can move freely without worrying about others at all, of what they think, what they are talking about, because seriously, I could care less. Who cares about what they think, it doesnt fucking matter.

Freedom, which I state, is something that I which to achieve. But I guess it will take till the end of my O's to get it. I want to be free from fears, free from the public, free from laws, being unrestricted and free from everything else. I love training at the night man, where eveyrthing is silent, peaceful, and with the cooling breezes. Seriously its much better concentration and much more freedom. Just wait till my curfew is over and more freedom from my parents.

I should stop giving excuses to not train already. Like I said, 1 hour can be used to learn alot alot of things. Stop wasting my life and time. Lets copy and paste the last post here.
"Have you ever been wondering why you choose to go outside to train when you could choose not, and slack at home playing computer all day long, or maybe going out with your group of friends and watch some movie? How about sleep? How about eat some junkies? How about, hmmm, go LAN with friends? Instead of all the better, happier, fun-ner options, you chose to survive, endure, battle the harsh reality. Instead of the warmth of your bed, you go downstairs and do some pullups. And you don't stop after 2 sets, you continue. And continue, even how tired you are. You push through, you endure the pain, you move on. But you are not forced, all this are done on your own accord. Why? I ask.
Are you the same?
Instead of playing the computer, you work. You sacriface 8 hours of your life enduring the boredom and stress, which could be used to go out with your friend and watch some movie and have fun, to earn money. Instead of easy, small-work, we chose the hardwork. Because we all know, hardwork pays off, no matter how tough, how long, or how boring, in the end, all the blood, sweat and tears will be all worth. We will be rewarded with something, in this case(s), to be better, to be stronger, to earn a living. I really hope people should make their life useful. Or make use of their life.
We should learn not to use excuses to back away from something. Don't you feel guilty? Oh, I wanna play computer, lets not train. Oh, I'm tired, lets sleep. You are wasting your life. Time is crucial. 1hour of your life can be use to earn money, no matter the sum. 1hour of your life can be used to get stronger. Just one fucking hour can be used to learn something, to experience something, to do something, to get better in something. Why are you wasting your time? Why are you wasting your life?
Since I realize all this, I feel guilty even just wasting one hour. I regret not training. So what if its raining? You have to fight the bitterness. Battle the wet conditions. Survive the harsh reality. I know that if I train, I will get better, I will make use of my life, I will understand and experience something new, I will learn things. So I don't know why I'm wasting my life doing something that is stupid and, well, a pure wastage of time. Excuses, excuses, and stupid excuses aren't to be tolerated.
But, of course rest and some fun is very normal and acceptable. You don't expect 24/7 to be out there and train. Just don't make it a daily basis. At least do something in your life. Make use of time. We all know its LIFE to not work, we humans are lazy beings who wants to have everything slacky. We don't like to suffer. But, why waste your life. I'm guilty of using the computer and rest alot. Sometimes I complains or give excuses but now I need to tell myself that I should make use of time as much as possible, train when possible, rest when needed, have some fun when needed, work when you can, survive out there if you have to. Its for your own sake, your own life. "

I really want to learn tricking as much as possible, learn as much of tricks as possible, because its the best way to express yourself. And also handbalancing. And caporeira. Oh well. I have one life, lets learn everything. Anything that I want. I can never stop improving.

Studies still suck. Im really worry of my Chinese. I think no hope already. Ah well, I really need to study hard. As for Amaths, I really hope I can improve and lets see the improvement in the next test. Same goes for my other subjects. My POA is getting better.
I got my injection already, so I'm gonna work at counter soon. Hopefully it will be fun. Lets see whether the job is good anot. Oh well.

I'm pretty sure I'm saving up for the Canon HV20. Cheapest good quality HD Camcorder out there. Need to save up big. Lets see how much I will have at the end of this year.

A long break. Life should be better. Wish me luck.
Happy Chinese New Year.
CP.

Why?

So much of exploration, thinking, analysing, experiencing, and experimenting

I asked myself why when I'm free, I get my ass to the outside and train.
I asked myself why I keep drilling my precisions, SDCs, wallpasses, armjumps.
I asked myself why am I doing this everyday, train everyday, practice everyday.
Yet I don't know why.

Its just, like that. Its something I couldn't explain. Past few mind trainings proved worthwhile. I finally know why I practice Parkour. The reason is so true, so simple, yet I took so long to realize it. Whats the reason?

Simple - I love it.
I enjoy every single aspect of it.
Simple as it seems, but there is so much more to it.

Parkour is already been part of my life. I know I'm serious in this, even though I lack the time, I will find some time to train. Even though I don't feel like training, I will at least do some strength training. Even when my parents don't let me go out, I practice rolls and do some stuffs at home. I WILL be doing something, no matter what. The things that matter is the mind. Its all in your heart, your conscience, your mentality.

I know alot of people with this thinking too.
But I just don't like the other people who give excuses.

People who train this discipline for different reasons. For me, I just love it. People who train for the satisfaction, for being better then others, for FUN, because of their friends, as an sport/hobby/pastime, because its fun, to become fit, to help others, to become stronger, to relieve stress, etc. are stupid reasons. I admit I also do it because its fun, it does relieve stress, to become stronger and fitter, to help others, but there is so much more to that. And the rest of the reasons are sad to hear. Hopefully in time to come if they are really serious, they will find their own way, their own reasons.
And its not a temporary discipline where you can have pauses, where you can have breaks, where you can quit halfway.

For me, practicing parkour is like eating, essential to live. Its a routine. Its in my schedule. I see "training" on my timetable everyday. Because its part of life.

Everytime I walk to school, and balance on ledge, I pretend that the grass are untouchable and I step on branches, rocks and drain covers. If I pass by a pull bar and will do muscleups. I don't plan to do them, they just come into my mind, its like automatic, its my way of travelling, its my walkway. I wouldn't stand a day doing what I did years ago, like every typical humanoids, I just can't. Parkour is my life. Of course, life doesn't revolve only around Parkour, videography is something I really like too. My interest in videography and parkour is what my life 80%(+/-) is about.
Now I realize why when we are young we use to play in playgrounds, step on certain coloured floors and avoiding the grey ones, jump over drain covers on walkways. Because its what we are meant to do. Only once we become older and "more mature", we start to think that all of that is "childish" and gotten rid of our common sense, thanks to the others.

Now I understand it doesn't matter if you suck, you progress so slow, you cannot do so many stuffs, you are so inconsistent, you are so lousy, you are lousier then other people, etc., because seriously it doesn't matter. As long as you are better then yourself yesterday (can be in terms of technical, physical, mental or experiences), nothing is wrong. So what if you lose some of your skills? Its so normal, your body is not used to it yet, just train back for it. So what if you suck at something, and you take so long to get something? Progressing slowly means less injuries, more experiences. Why the rush and the hurry, no one is pushing you. We should stop worrying and complaining about everything, just accept everything and treat it positively.

I admit there was time I thought that I suck, I progress so slowly, my friends are better then me, I lose my skills every now and then, I need to catch up someone, I need to be better then others, I need to buck up and train harder, I need to get back my SDC, I need to get something ASAP. There was times of agony, comparison, competition and jealousy. But I start to realize, its the mind that matters. Why the rush, why the jealous, why the thought? I train for myself. No one can steal time. No one else matter. There is no need to feel that way.
Now there is no more such thoughts. Even if there is, I will realize that it is bad and try to get rid of it.

Whats worth mentioning is, you learn something new everyday.

What Danny Ilabaca said at the QNA Rendezvous video really inspired me. "I wake up and jog to the beach because its life, I don't wake up and jog to the beach to become any better, its because its me." (something like that). I should train like that. I don't think I should train to be able to do the harder and bigger things, I should train because I want to, and doing those stuff that I used to be unable to is just the outcome of training. The reason why I wanna nail something that I once couldn't is because its serves as a target, to see how much I progress. And its because I want to, and thats what I live for - pushing my limits and face new challenges (in a smart and safe way of course).

Parkour had taught me to realize that the only competitor is you. Why should I compare myself to others, in terms of everything? No one else matter. Games that involve competition, I play for the game, its just a game, as long as I don't have competitive thinking after the match, I'm ok.

Parkour taught me to treat everything as obstacle. In training we faces obstacles, we overcome obstacles. In life we faces obstacles, we overcome obstacles. We don't run away from it or try to cover up those obstacles, overcoming them is the key. Don't give excuses or use stupid reasons to convince yourself otherwise and decieve yourself, face the obstacle and overcome it (in an efficient way, maybe).

Parkour taught me that there is no limit in life. Everything is possible, its the matter whether you want it or not. Want as in REALLY WANT, not just want. I learnt that there is no such thing is "cannot", only "not yet". Wishing, hoping, and aspiring can only get you this far, the next stage is to work for it. Action talks louder then words. And, you can never be perfect, because you can always improve, and there will always be room for improvement. And there is so many situations and ways to train for, with creativity you cannot reach a limit. For every high mountain, there will always be a higher one. Reaching for perfection is a better word to use.

Parkour had made me a better person overall. I have higher self-esteem and determination. People might laugh at me because I practiced Parkour, laugh at my videos, laugh at me, last time I used to feel bad, but now, I find them funnier then they find me. Because of many reasons, but I don't care. Anyway, so what? No matter what they say, they can't have any effect on me.

Parkour made me a human again. Our body is meant to move, to be used, not to rot, doing stupid stuffs and slack alot. It widened my perception of life. It made me stronger, wiser, more creative and better. Although I still eat alot of junks, my nutrition improved way better then last time. I used to eat KFC 3 times a week, eat nothing but rice and fried chicken, very choosy in food, but now, I know I'm eating healthier. And its not yet too late to change.
If I hadn't know this discipline, I would still be going out with friends, wasting money, doing stupid stuffs, playing online games all day long, live without a reason.

Parkour also taught me the capabilities of my (or the human's) body. What I realize is I can do many things that I once thought I couldn't. I learnt alot about my body and now I try to listen to my body, not the mind. Our mind are full of bad thoughts, only thinking about what we want and what we desire. When our body wants good food because its hungry, the mind wants to eat delicious but unhealthy food. In the end, we feel "good" because we satisfy our mind, but we don't know what we are doing to our bodies, which is something very bad. So now I try my best to listen to my body and try to take away all the bad thoughts in my mind.
Knowing our body and our limits is a very important thing too. We should know what we are capable of and not doing something stupid. Pushing our limits is good, but in a smart, gradual, progressive, incremental manner.

I find that those average human beings nowadays are losing the sense of being a human. Life should be fun, we all want to lead a good and happy life, but obviously its not possible. Now humans find weird ways to find fun, I know that everyone have different ways of attaining fun, but fun in a HUMAN way. I don't really get it, why people like LAN gaming, shopping, going out with friends, socializing, playing computer games, eating KFC, smoking, acting like a gangster, blah blah, FUN. Fine its good to socialize, its good to relieve stress play computer games, but they are torturing their own body, by being all so sedentary and slacky. Oh well, they won't understand.
"What a human should be - smart, cunning, agile, strong, endurant, powerful." Hebertiste.

I learnt to appreciate everything in life, and appreciate much more since I start practicing Parkour. Now I know the reason of living. I find that there is so much more to life and its time I appreciate that I have one. Those challenges, obstacles, hardship, fun, joy, happiness, agony, frustations, anger, sadness, stress, situations, irritation, etc. are something to experience and learn from. It adds taste and colours to life. Accept everything and treat them positively.

I learnt that you WILL NOT be able to have things your way. You cannot control things. Other people and inanimate objects cannot be controlled. And I learnt that in life there are fullll of obstacles. Small ones, big ones, they keep coming. This is part and parcel of life, get used to it and live through it. Everyone is different, they have different thinking. Another thing I learnt is the thing that you REALLY WANT will come to you, given that you give it time, patience, hardwork and effort, and EVENTUALLY you will get it.
I remember Castle's wall was once crazily high, and it was once unclimbable. Lets see what will happen to Dino's wall.

We walk around the city's busiest street and we see everyone as an average human being, but each and everyone of them are very unique and each and everyone of them are more then what we all think. An ordinary person is extraordinary person. It's more than meets the eye. Same for me. I wonder what a stranger would think about me, and what will his reaction be once I tell him more about me.

Its the love and freedom of movement.
When I do a precision jump, what do I aim? Others will say, drilling it, repeating it, to get better in it, to get used to it, to gain muscle memory, improve on it, train for control, to get stronger, to get the feel of it. I used to say the same, but now, I think the real aim is, to do a precision jump. Nothing else. I see a wall, my aim = get over the wall, why? Because I want to and I like it. Its simple, but again, it so much more then it looks.

Because of all of this, I'm confident that Parkour with be "permanent and attached" to my life, and I will train till old age. Its lifelong and everyday. With passion and determination, patience and effort, the sky's the limit.
I'm not practicing Parkour, what I'm doing is living life.
I'm not a traceur, I'm CP.

And there's still a long long long way to go. What's ahead is yet to be known.

P.S- Don't expect to read a post similar to this for a long time.

So many things, so little time!

Sucks.
Theres alot of things I want to improve on, but I just don't know how to balance out, and with addition of school, homeworks, and maybe jobs, it totally makes it harder!

I know I should prioritize studying in front of everything else at the moment, as I know that I'm totally weak in my studies, and should really start practicing my maths and go get tuition or what, because it seems like if I go on like that, I'm gonna flunk my studies and O level. My chinese totally sucks, I swear to god I couldn't cope. Some more its just the beginning of the year, so many probelms already, gosh it gonna suck. Focus more in class!

And yes, I'm going start finding a job soon. I need money, for the future, and I'm saving for overseas trip and a camcorder. And of course for the things that I want in the future. They will be handy. Macdonalds most probably, and working on weekends and fridays, and holidays. I need money!

For the future, what I plan is to go to a Poly, most probably Singapore Poly, take up Media and Arts and Rockclimbing. Learn more about the videography/camerawork/video editing/film-making. Strengthen my upperbody and learn a new art/way of movements. Then later I will go NS hopefully get into police, then when I get out of there, I will start to have some freedom, and apply to become a cameraman. Have a good, simple life, while training, having fun, and a family of course. Wow, I planned everything already, hopefully I can work up to it, because I have like so many more years, maybe its still too early to say.

Ok next, training. I think I really should start more strength training for my legs, because Parkour at its very nature its already quite stressful and impactful to our joints, yet my legs aren't strong enough to safely absorb those impact, and also I'm still young and growing, if this continues, my knees and ankles are gonna suffer in old age. So more emphasis on legs now, more squatting, more deadlifting, get strong overall in my legs, hopefully by the end of this year I will get my 2x bodyweight squat. I have a long time don't I? After that I will start plyometrics. (What I said in the last post is shit, don't listen to it, I'm now aware of the dangers.)

For upperbody, I'm only gonna do more muscleups, get them 100% and start training for reps, plus weighted pullups. Then start on handbalancing for my pushing strength. I can now do quite good headstands, handstand pushups against a wall, tuck planche (with so much of forward lean and super bent arms, so not really counted), and l-sit. I think I should be working on forearm-stand, but I'm not sure how long I will take to finally get my handstand. I'm also working on my one armed pushup on my left. Muscle imbalances sucks!

Movements, I will focus alot on wallpasses, I'm not sure why, maybe because I like them. I know that they can be impactful, when you miss, the landing you take are impactful as you can't really land properly since you are very near the wall. I got a new shoe, Nike Dart V, time to season it. Hopefully it doesn't take long to get good in its grip. I will also drill loads of small KNEE-height drops, small (50% to 70%) precisions (focus on getting both toe in-line, a 'probelm' that I currently have), balance, climbups. I must say my balance is getting better and I'm quite happy, but I still need alot of work to do! For rolls, I will drill them at home, they are improving too, but I'm taking things slowly.

So many things to focus on, what to prioritize?
I need to really schedule things properly. Ok. STUDIES are done in school, homeworks must be done, so pay attention in class. Next, jobs. On the before I work, hopefully I train that day, so I will need to rest, so instead of slacking in front of the computer, I work. Holidays will be an issue. If there is time before I work, I will train as much as possible, then on off days and I will strength train. Hopefully this will work. I just need to balance everything up. Then, my primary concern while training is to do alot of strength training for my legs. For days when I can train but I need to rest my legs, I will be doing strength training for my upperbody, that is, muscleup practice and weighted pullups. At home do more rolls and handbalancing as much as you can. Movements training at days when I'm free. At least one trip to the gym per week, but aiming for two. One movements day, one upperbody day. Two days rests which means jobs, another day.. I guess for movements. This is just what I hope, but not strictly followed. But in life everything can't go as planned, If I can't stick to it, I will just do what I can do.

Thats all for today.
I might edit this post again.

Dare to fly.

Yesterday I had one of my few best training ever.
Nearly 14 hours of training, slacking, having fun, improving, filming, gaining knowledge, exploration and realization. It was all well worth for the scolding that I recieved when I reached home at 1am.

Firstly, a disappointment that many people couldn't come thus the failure to make the planned "Tampines Joy" video, but we filmed quite alot for Murdok's project. Went to Shino and Dino to train and film, slack and have fun.
And theres something I've achieved yesterday, my SDC to precision and Shino's Ramp. The feeling was awesome, but it lasted a while, still I'm happy that I nailed it, kinda overshot it. I'm aiming to balance upon landing, something I should work on next time. It needs alot of effort to do that but now I'm convinced that I'm able to do the SDC to precision over there.

Whats so cool about that is now I learnt something. Something that looks impossible to you, something very scary and dangerous, something which seems very difficult, is actually possible. You'll never know until you've tried. Yes, its dangerous and I can injure myself if I bail, but doesn't mean that you couldn't afford to bail it, you shouldn't do it. There are always room for improvement, always room for pushing your limits, always room for new challenges. If you always have this fear of bailing, overcome it, at your own pace. Pushing your limits too far and too fast is not good, but pushing your limits in a comfortable and safe pace is always good. I remember the first time I heard of this SDC to Precision done by the pioneers before, I thought that these are really impossible, but now, I've done them.

So after Shino's ramp, we went to Sengkang, to film and train more. Nothing much though, just found out stuffs that I would be filming for my sampler. Then we went to compasspoint and slack and eat, then to Library for the interview, and I bought my new bag for Parkour, and I will be training while carrying it. I bought the pull-up bar too, but I have troubles drilling it into the door. Thanks to my lame father.
Just don't know why nowadays parents or more specifically my father thinks that he is always correct, but he doesn't know what others are doing. I did this DIY weighted backpack and he is against the idea. Yeah yeah its government property and I'm stealing it but who cares no one saw, so keep quiet. And there isnt any other better bag, and he is saying that I'm wasting a good bag for that, stupid old fashioned asshole. Then he thinks that the pullup bar idea is stupid, waste my money buying that, say want to exercise go downstairs, Arghh, I just can't stand him (or this type of people). So retarded.

Then I went to city, and everything is wet, and slippery, and it rained. But there is this super grippy wall that if its raining and wet, its still grippy like normal walls when its not wet, so we trained in the rain for awhile, oh and before that, we went to an indoor spot and trained armjump over a gap of water. But we pulled up our long pants and took of our shoes and socks. So its not really a test of jumping over the water. Because even if we touched the water, it wouldn't be that bad. This lead me to think, you cannot test the stability, the grip, the support and the such of something, would you risk to try? Like in Blane's new video, where him and Thomas did an armjump and precision respectively onto a tree over a river. Cool stuffs, inspiring too. And knowing that if you bailed, failed, missed or whatever, you be wet.

Just more exploration and slacking around before heading back to Sengkang and meet Ashton to go to the new "legendary" hotspot at Buangkok. It was a whole new experience, firstly it was scary to infiltrate construction areas, and its at night, and then the places are mostly high elements. So the third thing I've learnt today, and the most interesting one is: Things you can do in ground level is totally different thing at heights. One difference is safety first. Because everything you do in high elements is, a misstep, a accidental mistake, a stupid bail will lead to death. There is no attempt, no trying, no chances, once you are in the air, nothing could be change, its either you land, or you die. This is where you skills really REALLY really is put into good use.
You might think that, why risk yourself in such dangerous situations? Why do you ever want to hang yourself on an edge of an 5-storey building? For me, yes its unnecessary risk, because normal human beings won't do such things, and even doing Parkour is unnecessary risk because its very normal to get (minor) injuries when you do them, more then a normal guy will. BUT, firstly it tests your confidence, it trains your mind in such situations, to overcome your fear, etc. Secondly, it put your skills into good use, because whatever you can do on ground level, doesn't mean you can do it at heights. Thirdly, you are trusting your body to save yourself from death, because you are hanging on a bar above a seemingly bottomless pit. Fourth, it prepares you when you need to escape at somewhere high. And the feeling of achieving it is way higher then normal stuffs you do.
Its mostly more of mind training and overcoming fear, but of course never do this often because there is no room for any mistakes.

Sadly, the rooftop is locked, hopefully next time we will find a way up there. I didn't dare to climb up to the second storey of the building, because that the scaffolding its very unstable and its very scary, I'm not prepared yet. Now I realize the importance to be able to move at heights and I should be back to do more high elements at castle again, but that is totally different from the one at Buangkok. I need to start training my mind more often, doing stuffs like this, focusing, viualizing, clearing your mind, be aware.

Its a really good experience.

Now back to my normal weekly training log.
Just now because I came back from buying stuffs for my mother, I trained muscleups. And I did a lame lache, and a bailed, fell and injured my tailbone. Lucky its nothing bad, but I don't know what I was thinking and doing. First the lache had a bad jerk, secondly and slipped off and flew.. and landed tailbone-first. How stupid, back to my own ways. I think I'm really stupid. Sigh, why am I so stubborn. I really can't stop repeating and regretting stuffs. Don't know when will I stop.

And now I want to make a list of goals to achieve and to work for. I want to conquer more of Dino and Shino, the whole of Tampines, and then to other parts of Singapore, and then conquer the whole of Singapore. I will take years, but I will be patient. Once I've achieved Dino's wall, it will be my best achievement, I guess, and I need work more on my rolls, and balance, and precisions. I've never been progressing in precisions. I always wanted to get the running armjump at castle. Need to start working on that. My muscle up need alot of work, I have successfully been able to do muscleups, but I need to keep working on it, till I'm satisfied.

I will start training more and more alone, to start training my mind and abilities. And start training more in strength, more weighted pullups. Train and practice on rolls, balance, laches, muscleups, precisions, control.

Sorry if you read stuffs repeating over and over again, like wanting to get something and only talking but not doing. Oh wait, you shouldn't be reading this anyway, its for me to rant and let it all out.

Watch out for my sampler.

UPDATE:
Decided to edit my post, more stuffs to be said, don't want to make a new post.

Suddenly today I realize that I'm more and more competitive. I suddenly want to be better then others, want to be able to do what others can, want to match up to others, but I really remember whats the spirit of parkour supposed to be. Anti-competition, anti-commercialism, anti-comparison. No rushing, no wanting to be better then others. No more stupid stuffs. Progress at a comfortable rate.

And another thing. Todays training is full of impact and a few bails. Sprained ankle (healed), a cut on my palm, a few uncontrolled laches, few cuts on my finger, big drops. Hais, seriously back to my old ways. I better stop doing things like that. More mind training.

And my muscleups and endurance are getting better.

Bye.

2008.

Its the start of the new year.

Schools reopens and homeworks start coming. Time is getting limited, NCC is back, schoolmates and friends are back, less training and computer time, less fun, more lame school stuffs, more worry, more stress. How retarded. And yeah I really want to work real soon, around March holidays. Need money for future overseas travel trips and eventually a camcorder, and other miscellaneous stuffs, like stuffs where I feel the need to need them.

Sucks, going back to school see new people then again there is NCC. Fuck sia, I really want to quit, get it? I don't care whether I waste my 2 years on it, but really man, I don't want to waste my time. CCA Points? Nah, I wanna go to Poly so no use, and what portfolio thing? Don't want sia, rather waste my time on doing something more productive. I swear I'm quitting, whatever man, I already wasted 2 years and I'm not wanting to make it 3.

Then the new faces I'm gonna see next year, good or bad? I swear I'm gonna keep a low profile next year, just have a few hopefully GOOD friends, and I don't care what other people think. "Sticks and stones might break my bones but words will never kill me." Loner? Nerd? Retard? Parkour boy? Lame? Weakshit? Hahaha, waste my time doing Parkour, you guys? Waste your time on those computer games. I rather waste my time on doing something more productive then wasting my time having a low self esteem. At least I'm not as weak as them. But I'm not trying to show off or what.

But I hope that I could have a close friend that could be interested and serious in Parkour. No, not posers like I had last year, and not those typical Singapore parkourtards. Hopefully I could train him and slowly he will be a good traceur. But now, Singapore society sucks, no one cares, no one have discipline and etc., and Singapore is super lame. So, I highly doubt I could have such a person.

Ahhh, so less time for training? Undoubtedly true, but definitely still time for training. Less technical, more physical. Less movements training, more strength training. I'm in my new house now, so I'm going to buy this pullup bar and a DIY weighted "vest" and train at home. I figured that an explosive pullup benefits alot, and alot. Muscleups and climbups would be easier, laches will be better and controlled, dynos will be better, so practical in Parkour. My ultimate goal is to do a muscleup purely from strength, which would take quite a long time, because I just got my muscleup back. Yay. I took sooo long, and it pays off. I would definitely train for OAC next time, but that would be somewhere in the future.

Saturdays will be my movements training day. Then I will do more strength training. I will go to gym once a week for legs. I need to learn proper form for full squats and of course deadlifts. Maybe learning good mornings. Just for this moment, I think I will be neglecting pushing strength because I want to focus alot more in my pulling. Of course I will be doing some of them once in a while, but not much anyway. I will get back to them after I achieved my ultimate goal, and then start practicing for handstands and presses, and other handbalancing stuffs.

Tricks, flips, bar tricks, pole tricks, free running moves, etc. This year, after I think that I gained my base strength and skills for Parkour, I will start focus on some basic tricking and art of movement. Aerial, backflip, frontflip, btwist, palm spin, wall spin, wallflip, etc. Those basics, then I would happy.

My rolls are not quite there yet, I admit I haven't been drilling them much. I can train rolls at home and anywhere else, at whenever I want. So I better start practising them. Balance, haven't really improved much, its still at the same level, or maybe worst then usual. Oh well, practice.

Around February I would start filming stuffs for my sampler. It will be my video to see my progression after 1 year of training. I hope the video will be nice, movements and editing wise. I'm not training to be good to show what I can do in this video, not to show off, not to gain fame, and whatever bullshit. It is a video to note progression, recieve feedbacks, comment and criticisms for improvements or what am I doing wrong, test my video editing skills, and its fun to make a video.

Thats pretty much it. Ok recent trainings, become worse. I'm back to my old ways again, not focusing, bailing, pushing my limits too far too soon. Stupid shit. So I better stop doing those stupid things again. Lol, look, I'm repeating what I said so many times again. Told you, its like that, it just repeats again and again, how gay. Fuck, who cares. Just stop doing stupid things. Hope this year would be a better year, in terms of Parkour, life, studies, friends, etc. Actually a better year overall.

Hopefully school will be good. I really wish to quit NCC. Please help me. Who cares about the teacher, I seriously want to quit NCC. It sucks. Seriously. The time I spent during NCC could be used for something so much more productive. Sitting there, waiting for time to pass, getting made fun by those lame NCC people, PT so boring, drills even worse, get scolded for no reason, or stupid reasons, getting laughed at, waste time preparing uniform, waste time doing stupid stuffs. What do I get? CCA points? Portfolio remark? No thanks.

Hopefully I can have better friends, but I wanna keep a low profile. So teachers and class/schoolmates won't talk/bother me much. No need to go out with them every saturday to watch movies, play LAN. I agree, once in a while can, but not everytime. I know socializing and having friends are important but not too many, not too often. Oh well, lets see..

Underground traceur? Training with friends and companions might be fun, but its harder to focus, harder to clear your mind, harder to be serious in your training. Unless your friends and yourself are serious, then it might be different. So I think I will be spending more time training alone, training my mind and body, to the correct things, like focus before jumping, do not push your limits, learn to know your limits, do less stupid things, stay within the 70% limit, more repetitions, bail less, etc. And be less known. Hehehe..

Buying a new shoe soon. Nike Dart V. For Chinese New Year. I need a PK bag, and somemore new shirts and pants. Haha, CNY! Coming in Feb. Anyway, I think I should start paying attention in class. I don't want to regret again. And paying attention = training focus too! Hahaha.

Happy New Year.
Bye.